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Happy pride month to the tiny cowboy and tiny Trojan man from Night at the Museum
This hands down the best comment in the notes, I will not be taking criticism.
IT JUST WONT DIE IT KEEPS COMING BACK
From The Faggots and Their Friends Between Revolutions, Larry Mitchell, 1977. Artwork by Ned Asta.
in absolute tears about the pride module at my work
HOLY SHIT GUYS, I WAS INSPIRED BY THIS POST TO TRY MAKE THE SONG AND YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE SCREAM I SCRUMPT WHEN I DRAGGED THE TRAINING AUDIO OVER THE BACKING TRACK AND IT LINED UP PERFECTLY
Tempted to actually put this on spotify so I can secretly stream it at work...
Tagging @batshit-auspol because as an Australian you're the only big account I know who might share (sorry).
happy first day of pride everyone
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I don't like to admit it, but sometimes I actually miss John Green.
Sometimes I can almost hear him.
thursday..... and i bet you wish you were her
hbo max blocks screenshots even when I use the snipping tool AND firefox AND ublock which is a fucking first. i will never understand streaming services blocking the ability to take screenshots thats literally free advertising for your show right there. HOW THE HELL IS SOMEBODY GONNA PIRATE YOUR SHOW THROUGH SCREENSHOTS. JACKASS
somewhere out there is a guy who meticulously takes screenshots of every individual frame of his favorite tv shows and then painstakingly etches each one onto a roll of film which he puts into his old timey projector and recreates the footage as a silent film with his own lavishly hand-lettered dialogue cards and original score that he plays on his upright piano and charges audiences one shiny penny a play. at last, big media has finally outsmarted ol' Zachary Zoetrope
PSA for everyone who doesn't know, explained simply
this is NOT because of blocking screenshots, it's because of HOW streaming sites use your computer's hardware to optimise performance, which means the thing rendering the video and the thing capturing your screen aren't the SAME thing. so they can't talk together.
you can fix this by going to your browser settings, searching for "hardware acceleration", and turning that off.
This also fixes screen sharing to other screens. It has been GODSEND
type this in the toolbar to find this setting in firefox: about:preferences#searchResults
ol' Zachary Zoetrope is back in business!
Guys, queers. Specifically my fellow queers.
I work at a library. We do this thing where, every so often, we weed the collection. It hurts to see books go, but it's necessary to make sure there's room in the library for new materials.
I have seen so much support for the library in text, and I've seen folks pass around those beautiful "queer your library" flyers. Keep doing that. That's great. Nothing wrong with that. But you HAVE to turn your words into action. We MUST remember to actually go to our local organizations and libraries and actually, with our own fucking hands, interact with these materials we want to see more of.
My branch is medium-sized for a library, maybe a little small. We don't have as many materials as I'd like, but we have fundamentals. Tell me why, even with all the verbal support I've gotten from my local community for the library as a resource for our LGBT+ community, every single trans biography and a good chunk of our vaguely queer theory books were on the list. This isn't a scheme to take the books off the shelves, it isn't another bigoted American governmental push. The only thing we look at when we weed is how long it's been since the last time the item was checked out.
Three years.
No one in my community interacted in any meaningful way with the few books on trans life and history we physically had on the shelves for three fucking years.
I promise you the materials you want and need are there, but this isn't a horde. This isn't a static safety net. You have to use them. You MUST use them or, in the future, maybe in three years, they *won't* be there anymore.
This isn't a vague post, there's no one person I'm hinting at or calling out. I'm not even talking directly to anyone who's directly in my line of sight. I just want everyone to hear this. Big library, small library, whatever. Doesn't matter. Please, we cannot be losing our shelf visibility like this.
I work in a different library and can confirm, it's a decision based on popularity not censorship
we're big enough to have lots of shelf space but still have the problem on a different scale. We do have a back storage room rather than completely getting rid of some things, but having to ask for that might be a barrier for sensitive subject matter and prevent people from casually stumbling across something of interest
Yep. Different library worker here, we weeded adult non-fiction recently bc it's most rarely used and we needed to clear a bookshelf of space, and there were a decent number of queer books on the list. Thankfully not all of them, but some (we had a lot lol). Our criteria is also no borrows in 3yrs. I can't borrow the whole list by myself. I do try to get these books in, and the local authority are happy to buy them, but we need space for new books every so often and we can't keep everything forever! If you want them, you have to use them!
(incidentally, the whole list was 35 pages long, which... please borrow the books you want people)
I didn't have time to comment the first time I reblogged, but I can add now:
I'm also a librarian and queer books are almost always cut first when we have to weed for space or prioritize new releases over old items because no one reads them
I will say, when I worked at a large downtown location, we had a "browsing card" that we would check out items we found taken off the shelf and left on a table, as an example of a book that had clearly been read, just not checked out by anyone
it's possible queer books do actually get a bit of unfair treatment in this regard because people may be nervous or outright scared to check them out onto an account with their name on it. so they get browsed at a much higher rate, but if a library doesn't have a specific system in place (or need for it) to count browsed items, then it looks like they aren't being used and they get weeded
for other librarians, a browsing card is a great idea if you have enough staff for the extra work / enough items left out to justify it
for patrons, check out queer books even if you don't read them! you're not lying or committing any type of fraud. you're keeping books on the shelf long enough for pride season when people are interested in checking them out again and for people scared to use their own accounts or who don't have library cards
for anyone nervous about using their library card, libraries do not keep search histories of what you check out!! this means even if the government does come back with a warrant, *wet farting noise* too bad! it doesn't exist!
so please check out queer books!
I have to wonder how often they aren't checked out because those in an exploratory period may not feel safe enough for them to go home with them, too. Kids, for example, or folks who have ended up in a het marriage that... Doesn't feel like it's quite right (or may be physically abusive).
This is most definitely one of the causes of this. That's why it's so important for folks who *can* to *do*.
It feels like such a small thing, but all movements are made up of small things! We have this mindset that in order to get everything done, everyone must be doing their (or *the*) absolute best at all times. But not everyone can do the same things, to the same degree, with the same amount of productivity or success. Not everyone can; sometimes, they're the ones that need help. Sometimes people just need help.
This post is very much so intended for the people who can. I've seen a lot of replies from folks who say they don't have to (or don't think about) checking out or requesting queer books from the library specifically because they *can* buy them, can pirate them, or already have them in their house or on their computers or phones. But in instances like that, keeping these books in circulation is less for you and more for the people who can't. The folks who come to the library, who don't have access to internet--or even electricity--at home and would never--have never--been able to interact with this "ubiquitous queer community" we have here online who has made so many of these. materials so avaliable to the rest of us.
And... if I can be a little frank. Sometimes the hyperaccessibility of these materials online (through pirating, cheap e-book copies, etc) gives people a false sense of security. It implies that these things are an infinate resource, good for "When I get around to it".
And often, you won't. There's so much to read and so much to do. So much to download and so much to sit down and stare at for hours. That kind of mental scope puts books in people's hands (or phones), but never in their heads.
But the moment your favorite document archival site gets knocked offline for breaching copyright or your go-to mega corporate audiobook distributor decides it doesn't want "those" materials anymore, what's left? What did you download? What information did you internalize? Did you ever get around to it? If you did, great, but what good does that do for the person who didn't? Are you going to be the one to redistribute that information? Are you going to communicate it in the place of the author whose words are no longer publically accesible or, mostly avaliable, but only behind hefty paywalls and financial gatekeeping? How would someone else get a hold of it? How could they, if they wanted?
This is excellent info.
What are some good books to check out for those who can?
Gosh... there's so many options. I wouldn't know where to start without knowing who I'm talking to and what they're looking for. What I can recommend is for folks to check out creators like @makingqueerhistory who have spent just a ridiculously beautiful amount of time collecting queer history and book lists! You'll find something in seconds reading their page.
Personal pitch: I liked the books Tar Hollow Trans and Gay Poems for Red States. Both great.
I'm glad I was tagged in this because it means I can cosign (and also add a little nugget of info).
I live in a province that is currently trying to ban queer books from libraries, and as a library patron, this is terrifying. 95% of the books I read are from the library and a lot of them are way out of my budget to buy personally.
Making Queer History would not exist without the school library I skipped class in to write articles. It would not exist without my friends with library cards for their universities sharing them and getting me access to rare texts. I would not be able to read as much as I do without Libby and Hoopla. If I have ever given you a book recommendation, know that I likely got it from the library first.
I cannot overstate the importance of protecting libraries and checking out queer books. And I want to say thank you to everyone above for being as passionate as I am about queer books in libraries.
Love y'all <3
That poor pest control guy did not know what he was getting into, but given the state of my yard i feel like he should have known what he was getting into.
He was going door to door offering to spray the base of the house for pests for a discount rate because one of our neighbors signed up for pest control and he walked down my driveway (covered in spiderwebs), up onto my front porch (covered in spiderwebs), and knocked on my door (covered in spiderwebs) and said "hi, I'm John from the bug company, would you be interested in a discount service because it seems like you may have a spider problem."
And I said, "oh, no, I'm sorry, I won't be spraying for spiders, I like them. I want to encourage them."
And he gave me kind of a weird look and was like "why?" And I was honest and said that they were my pest control, they take care of my mosquitoes and and and flies, and then I kind of laughed and said that I should stop because I know way too much about spiders and if he let me go I'd talk his ear off.
And then he made his fatal mistake and asked what I knew about spiders, and if I knew what kinds of webs he'd walked past to get on the porch and what spiders were in my yard.
So then he got to hear my thoughts on brown vs black widows and why I wished there were as many black widows as there used to be but I had a big beautiful one under my patio table right now and even if I prefer black widows because they aren't invasive the same way that brown widows are i still like the brown widows and i had a lovely one who lived in my patio chair from August until the firestorm in January and she was so good and kept eating cockroaches and had made five big egg sacks and how I was so proud of her and I used to have a lot more orb weavers but their numbers never recovered after the tropical storm last year but I had a cute one on the shed that I took a picture of yesterday and of course there are tons of wolf spiders and jumping spiders and cellar spiders if you wanted to count them too and some false widows but I hadn't seen any of them this year and, well, yeah, anyway they're not actually dangerous mostly and widows want nothing to do with you but a bite wasn't pleasant but much better than a recluse bite but I almost never see recluses around here but i wouldn't, would I, because they're not called brown gregarious spiders, oh and there are black footed yellow sack spiders around and you don't want those to bite you but their little toes are so cute and I'm sorry, sorry, sorry like I said I can go off about spiders, but also I don't want to spray because I've got so many pollinators, I've got a whole wisteria vine full of carpenter bees, actually i saw a male valley carpenter bee last week, did you know they're golden and fuzzy? He was so cool! But, yes, sorry, I won't be spraying but thank you for asking, and I'm sorry I was the crazy spider lady at you!
Extremely adorable fuzzy little creature:
A large friend:
Look, this is basically a kitten:
A goth icon.
Strong, independent women that I don't want to fuck with.
They are delightful and they eat actual pests, I love them.
I had almost this exact conversation with the door-to-door pest control guy last summer, but about the wasps. He was outright confused when I told him that not only was he not welcome in my yard, I'd just put out some fried chicken crumbs for my paper wasps to make sure they built their hives on my property because nothing in his truck made better crop pest control than a hungry nest of Red Paper Wasps, except maybe Ichneumons but have to get rid of the lawn before those will move in-
"Red Paper wasps? Those are very dangerous! They're very aggressive!" he sputters.
"Really? They seem to be quite placid." I indicated the Fine-backed Red Paper Wasp nest about 16 inches above his head under the eaves.
He stared.
I picked up a crumb of KFC from the porch shelf with my finger and held it up. One of the ladies investigated, then landed and sat on my finger and munched happily for a few seconds before returning to the nest.
"Would you like to see the common paper wasps? They've got a great nest going on the side of the garage."
"I'm. I'm good." He said, and left.
Update:
Another pest control guy showed up and knocked on the door and mentioned that he does bug spraying and I just straight up said "oh i'm the crazy spider lady, I like the bugs, that's why I don't mow."
And he said "Well, do you have any rats or other rodents you need handled?"
And I said "No, we have a barn owl living out back. You should see my collection of rat skulls. Do you want an owl pellet?"
He did not want an owl pellet :(
The imperfection is clearly his. I would have treasured an owl pellet.
you have to be kinder to people with memory issues.
you have to be kinder to people who are slow processors.
you have to be kinder to people who don't understand your jokes.
you have to be kinder to people who forget important dates.
you have to be kinder to people with cognitive decline.
you have to be kinder to people who were always this way, too.
you have to be kind. you have to be kind.
Out of Touch
Out of Touch Thursday
OUT OF TOUCH THURSDAY
but im out of my head when youâre not aroundâŚ
happy birthday.
this is the only out of touch thursday you can reblog this
something aomething names in the locked tomb series.
john renaming all his friends with fancy neoclassicist names, naming them after shakespeare, because calling them by their original names doesnt feel right.
john, when he gets the chance to name his own child, of his own blood, he calls her kiriona - maori for 'gideon'.
alecto - one of the furies who sought to sow discord during the Trojan war, all in the name of Jove, punishing crimes committed by mortals against god.
how john hates that name.
calls her annabel lee.
he named her. annabel lee, after the poem by edgar allen poe about a love that transcends death, because the name annabel is made up of two words: anna for grace, and belle for beauty/woman.
but also;
it is derived from the latin word "amabilis", meaning "to love".
"that was a good one," he said, and then he wept again.
Excellent addition from @just-a-river here!
And... I do wonder why the guy who hated change and deeply wanted his friends would change their names. And I think about the pointed mentions of him constantly rubbing his temple, struggling to remember things, and getting some things (like Pyrrha's lab number) confidently wrong, and how Harrow rewired her brain to autocorrect to "Ortus", how those names are censored both in Alecto's dream and to Nona in the present the one time Pyrrha names Gâ, how John and Alecto are so synced that they even share hunger pains, and all the parallels between John and Harrow, and... It's specifically always his right temple, and the right frontal lobe is the one more responsible for memory recall. So I suspect there might be a bigger reason at play...
But regardless of why he did that part, the ways his preferences have changed over time and the implications of those are always fascinating.
Going from the neoclassical lean to giving his daughter back her own name but Slightly different, now with a tie to herâhisâtheir roots, roots he'd all but abandoned for so long, certainly says Something.
And with Earth...
He named Her First, One. He's always known She was not a person, that She was something so much greater, despite the shape he'd made Her fill.
He named Her Alecto. There's still breath in his body. They're still out there. And isn't death what bad people deserve? (What he deserves?) Of course she'll help. She IS his vengeance, HE is vengeance and they are one. But then... Varun says "their vengeance is not my vengeance", and it's not 100% clear whose against whom, and Varun is clearly pissed chasing down John, but it begs the question... as filled with anger as She is, does She actually even want any form of vengeance, or do all those feelings come from John?
(We also don't actually know if an RB has ever killed a Lyctor (unless you count John himself and maybe Harrow lol); Cyrus and Ulysses and Cassy all died by their own plans to fight them, not the Beasts directly. With G1deon, we haven't answered the question of why Varun just left, or what happened to the cav crew that went to help... He does seem to be dead or somehow gone, but Pyrrha doesn't blame Varun, says he was always looking for something to throw himself on... For all their anger, are any RBs truly driven by vengeance?)
He named Her Annie Laurie. Just a woman. Just a pretty girl. Beloved perhaps, but mostly for those looks. The height of asking her to play pretend; absolutely nothing of her true self, a pure fucking insult.
He named Her Annabel Lee, and that's... not much better. It still makes Her so small, it's still so insidious in so many ways, still a gross warping of the narrative, but it also starts bringing some truth back into it, way more than Annie Laurie, and maybe about as much as Alecto.
Alecto the Fury is unceasing anger, and She has every right. But we've met Nona. We know who She can be and would rather be, if She has to be a somebody at all.
Annabel Lee frames him as tragic and mourning, which is true, but completely disregards his own culpability. The "angels in heaven" (his Saints) and "demons down under the sea" (the ten billion who haunt Her original corpse and are almost certainly part of the reason he can never return) certainly did play a prominent role, and She acknowledges that tooâhe did it in part to appease themâbut they aren't the ones who put Her in the Tomb. It frames Her as precious and innocent, which She is, in the same way nature is, because She is nature, and just as powerful and terrifying. Her power is both Life and Death. And the framing as Annabel Lee doesn't do that justice at all.
"No other thought than to love and be loved by me" is a bit of a double edged sword, too. "In the year of nobody she thought about that much in particular" is such a funny fucking contrast to it. And at the same time... it's not Her name(s) that unravels Nona. Kiriona say "Alecto, Annabel, I don't care whatever her name is" a good minute before, and despite Her fear earlier when Pyrrha almost says it, nothing happens. What unravels Her is "John loves Alecto. John needs Alecto." And then She devolves, into he loved her, she loved him, for he had loved, for she had loved, for the world had loved, love, love, love...
And of course... None of them, not the Saints, not the devils, probably neither her kin nor his, "can ever dissever my soul from the soul of the beautiful Annabel Lee."
And no matter what the motivation for any of them, none of those are Her name. We call HerâThemâItâAlecto. The last book title names It Alecto. But that is also not Its true name. It has many names, and has as long as there's been language. It's Earth. It's Gaia and Terra and Geb and HòutÇ and Bhumi and Ki. It's PapatĹŤÄnuku.
And... It's also not, anymore, I suppose. Because they are the God who became man and the man who became God. Part of the horror of John's existence is that no matter how badly he wants to still be human, he can never truly be that again, and part of Alecto's is no matter how much It hates being at all human, on some level She now forever is. Their souls have bled together and there's no going back.
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A little tangentially, some of the other things John references might also have some implications about how his wants have changed.
"How sharper than the serpent's tooth" from King Lear, famously forgiven by the daughter he'd disowned and treated terribly. Also I mean, both die at the end, but considering...
"Why have we not an immortal soul? I would give gladly all the hundreds of years that I have to live, to be a human being only for one day." From The Little Mermaid, the original one. The one where rather than remain human, the mermaid melts into seafoam. It's a tragic death for the mermaid, and would be a death for John, but for Her... wouldn't that just be the best possible outcome? To allow It to return to being the sea...
My own addendum to all this is that I am suddenly, having read that post, being massively earwormed by certain parts of the Smiths' 'How Soon Is Now?'
I suspect that may also be a tiny part of the story, because Taz does tie in so much from 20th and 21st century media, and there are so many tiny/huge and beautifully/horribly intricate pieces to Her tale and John's.
I am the son and the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular
You shut your mouth, how can you say
I go about things the wrong way?
I am human and I need to be loved
...
When you say it's gonna happen now
When exactly do you mean?
See I've already waited too long
And all my hope is gone