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@igueesthisishappening
pride on tumblr is so fun!!!11!!! the heart turns into a rainbow when you hit the like button 😆😆😆 the tumblr staff and algorithm continues to be exceedingly transphobic and especially transmisogynistic. trans women are getting banned left and right for merely existing. please don’t let another version of rainbow capitalism distract you
Yes yes i know love is love. But they are still killing CHILDREN. over this.
"Love is love" is a milquetoast cishet marketing phrase
Pride is a FUCK YOU to a society that wants us dead.
Unfortunately Hudson Williams committed several grave sins to the internet:
Masculanized an Asian character
Became a heartthrob as a POC
Gave an award-winning performance for a neurodivergent character
Is dating a woman after playing a gay man
Gets just as much praise as his white costar
Doesn't censor himself to fit in
IS AN ASIAN MAN WHO HAS PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD SO DIABOLICALLY DOWN BAD FOR HIM
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Harvesting my wheat
Hehehehehe
Can I fucking help you?
my senior english teacher told me that any scene with a woman in a cornfield in every piece of literature ever is about her journey to womanhood/pleasuring herself in the field and i just.... believed her
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Ok but Ilya not realizing until much later that he hurt Shane with things he’d done in the past
One day it randomly comes up as Ilya says something about a time he acted like a dick and Shane is just like “Eh it’s ok, looking back I understand now that you were in a ‘I’m going to hurt you before you can hurt me’ mindset and that’s why you acted like that.”
And Ilya is staring at him and Shane asks what’s wrong and Ilya goes “I hurt you?” And Shane’s just like well yeah but it was forever ago don’t worry about it. But Ilya is worrying about it because back when he’d done the various hurtful things he’d been in downward spirals where he was convinced he didn’t have the ability to hurt Shane because he didn’t matter enough to Shane to hurt him, so he didn’t think the way he acted had any negative effects. And now he’s turning pale and his eyes are getting big as he’s realizing that oh god when he did those things he hurt his favorite person and he hadn’t even realized it
He makes Shane tell him the different times it happened and Shane doesn’t really want to because clearly this is just going to upset Ilya more, but hiding it or lying is probably also going to make things worse in the long run so it’s better to get it out now. So he mentions Ilya ghosting him after they had sex, and then how Ilya acted in Sochi, and that whole night in Vegas, and “I like you… Not as a person, obviously”
And the whole time Ilya is silently nodding and looking like he wants to throw up because no no no those weren’t supposed to be things that hurt Shane, those were supposed to be things that bounced off Shane without affecting him because they were only ever meant to hurt or protect himself, Shane was never supposed to have been hurt by those and fuck how did he not see in the moment the way that he was actively hurting Shane by doing that
And now it’s even worse because Shane won’t even be mad at him about it, he keeps insisting on being understanding and not upset and trying to make Ilya feel better when in fact Ilya is the worst most awful person in the world who should be punished for eternity for making 22 year old floppy haired baby Shane SAD like some kind of MONSTER
The next Galina session Shane is also there with Ilya who has his head in his hands and Shane is just like ok so we may have accidentally stepped on a landmine the other night-
the idea that hollander "tamed" rozanov is really funny to shane because like. ilya finds it hot and is always going along with it, yes of course my husband is so sexy why do you think i moved to this boring fucking city. for dick. meanwhile shane knows the truth which is that ilya tamed himself. he herded shane like a sheepdog until he was exactly in the right position for ilya to flop down at his feet and say i love you, i am a one man guy, sleep with other people if you want but you are it for me, so shane is always there like ??? ilya. what are you talking about. i was literally prepared to be a secret slot on your roster for the rest of time without even admitting that i was gay until you decided to have me over make me lunch and say my name while you come like a love confession and ilya goes lyubmiyy. shut up. i was untamable you tamed the untamable and so shane has to be like yes, baby, i worked so hard, i used all my tricks but he's rolling his eyes because ilya wants to be a wolf shane coaxed inside to sleep on the hearth but instead he's a cat who snuck through the window and fell in love with his prey. self domesticated. and this is just one of the many perfect games they play
i love when boomers complain about shit like this because as a fast food worker i would literally rather walk out into the lobby and shoot myself in the head than suggest more than one menu item to a customer
Yeah former 8 year Starbucks employ here. This never happens. I’ve have had what amounts to a flip on this happen more often. Something like
“Welcome in what can I get you”
“I want a plain black coffee”
“All rights wha-“
“No sugar or cream or flavor or anything else.”
“Okay, got it, wha-“
“I don’t want no caramachmocha flippy-do’s or frappachina-what-it’s. Just. A plain ol regular black coffee”
“That’s great sir, now please wha”
“Just a old fashioned stright up coff-“
“SIR WHAT SIZE DO YOU WANT YOU STUPID FUCKING COFFEE”
Feminizing Shane when pretty boy, silk & flowered shirt wearing, Slavic passenger princess, gets his luggage carried, husband cooking all his meals, omega-coded Ilya Rozanov is RIGHT there, will confuse me to no end.
Love thinking about an AU where the relationship reveal with Yuna and David happens because something overwhelms Shane into a panic attack/breakdown, maybe they're at some NHL show or event, maybe it's just been a really long fucking day, maybe suddenly Shane feels just completely overwhelmed by the lights and the noise and all the fucking people wanting to shake his hand or slap his back or tell him how much they like his fucking play.
Yuna notices something is wrong because of course she does and together with David they herd Shane into some private empty side room hoping it will help him calm down. But it doesn't. He wont stop shaking and his breathing is too fast and he flinches at their voices even tho nobody is speaking loudly. Won't let Yuna come close to hug him or rub his arm.
Maybe Yuna is starting to panic a little herself, her heart aching as she watches Shane wrap his own arms around himself, hates that she cant do anything when her son is so clearly in distress, hates that she can't seem to think of anything that will work-
When suddenly the door bangs open and Ilya Fucking Rozanov??? strides into the room with quick steps, makes a beeline directly for her son, eyes locked on him like he doesnt even register her and David in the room as well and Yuna opens her mouth to cuss him out, tell him to fuck off and not bother Shane right now, she can feel her body moving already to stand in front of Shane protectively when David grabs her arm because-
Because Rozanov is pulling Shane into his arms, one hand on the back of Shane's neck, guiding his head to press into the crook of Rozanov's neck and Shane isn't fighting it, doesn't flinch from his touch. He goes where Rozanov arranges him and let's himself be held and rocked back and forth gently as Rozanov presses his mouth to Shane's ear and starts whispering something so quietly that Yuna can't really make out the words but what she can see is Shane's shaking subsiding, hands fisting tightly into Rozanov's shirt, his breathing going slowly back to normal because - oh. oh - her son is syncing his breaths with Rozanov who, Yuna realises, is taking very exaggerated deep slow breaths of his own so Shane can match them. And then Rozanov turns slightly while still rocking them both back and forth and Yuna sees Shane's face where it's smushed into Rozanov's neck. Sees the look there.
And that's how Yuna realises her son is in love and the man - his years-long rival - he loves must have left in the middle of his award-winning show to come here and pull her son out of a panic attack like there was no place he'd rather be than right here with Yuna's overwhelmed panicked boy in his arms, soothing him until Shane's body relaxes completely into that hold, mumbling that he's fine yet not pulling away and Rozanov makes no move to let go either.
Oh, Yuna thinks again, gripping David's hand tightly. It's not just Shane. My baby is in love. And he's loved back.
There comes a time when Ilya gets some sort of injury with Ottawa. Not terrible but he’s limping and miserable.
Shane meanwhile has had a long day and his baby is hurt and no he doesn’t want to answer media questions-. So when the game is finally finished instead of trying to help his husband painfully limp to their car while press swarm them-.
He just carries the man bridal style. He’s a 6foot hockey player he can carry Ilya a few feet to the car and buckle him in and take him home thank you very much.
Ilya is not looking anyone in the eye.
After Shane’s being playing for Ottawa about 2 years, a video gets published of the social media person asking the entire team various questions like “who has the worst locker?” and “who would you most want to be stranded on a deserted island with?” and one question that was Meant to have an easy answer of maybe Ilya or one of the younger players is “who is the funniest player?” And nearly unanimously, it’s Shane fucking Hollander.
The public is DEEPLY confused and some fans start genuinely being like. Are they bullying him :( is this bullying? :( bc being funny is so far removed from the Shane Hollander(-Rozanov) brand. The answer comes from a live stream the younger players put on where they answer thought thinking: “Oh, because he’s mean as shit and it’s always funny. It’s never not deserved tho!”
The THINK PIECESSS this starts </3 the players coming out of the woodwork and telling on him bc they thought they were Alone in experiencing an absolutely brutal Shane Hollander chirp, Ilya finally getting to brag about how his husband is a bitch and he likes him SO M U C H.
(Yuna & Farah’s combined power barely keeps this from going nuclear but it does mean that Shane gets to be an absolute bastard on the ice when it comes to chirps in a way he wasn’t allowed before. And that’s enrichment for him.)
okay okay so, because of Yuna "slut him out" Hollander, the whole world already thinks Shane is a hot mfer but Ilya, whilst obviously an attractive man, has not had the same exposure. Like he's done interviews shirtless and posted things on insta that made enough people feral so he has a small but determined army of stans, but it's not like a universally accepted fact that he's hot af. Most people only see him almost completely engulfed in hockey gear being an asshole.
So when Hollanov is revealed, there's probably a bunch of outrage about how Shane could do better etc. Ilya is not too bothered about this (because he agrees) but Shane is fuming. So he sets Yuna on the case who gets him a very horned up Ciroc advert and a joint Calvin Klein campaign and the entire world is like omfg my bad good pull Shane lol #beefcake4beefcake
Shane can't help the smile when he reads the message on his phone. He leans against the kitchen island with his hip, while Ilya is putting away the last few pieces from the dishwasher.
"What is funny?"
"Hm?" Shane looks up, Ilya is studying him.
"Another message from Rose?" Ilya says in a way that Shane realises is meant to sound uninterested, before turning to put a stack of plates where they belong.
"All her messages so far have been about how things are going with you." He says with fond exasperation. They've had this topic twice already.
Ilya closes the dishwasher and mirrors Shanes lean against it, crossing his arms. Shrugs.
"Tell her amazing. I am the best at sex and you can't get enough of me. And that she can talk to you in october."
Shane snorts and shakes his head. I did tell her the first bit. He doesn't add that.
"It wasn’t Rose. It was my dad."
Ilya stands up straighter instantly, arms uncrossing.
"Oh."
"What, no joke how he can't be funny because he's boring?" Shane doesn't fight his smile.
"I like your farther, he drinks good vodka. What did he say?" The serious tone of his voice makes Shane move closer, wrapping his arms around Ilya's middle and squeeze him a little with his next words.
"He said he thinks my boyfriend is a good egg."
Ilya pulls his head back, to look at Shane better in surprise. There's a hestitant smile but he's also frowning.
"Egg?"
The smile on Shane's face grows wide and soft. He nods. "Mhmm."
"Is good thing, yes?"
"Yes." Shane leans in for a short kiss. Just a peck. Then two more because Ilya has this proud little smile on his face now.
"So, they don't hate me for you."
It's said as a statement, but Shane answers it anyway, to make sure Ilya hears it.
"They don't hate you for me." With a single nod.
The following kisses are hindered by the wide grin on Ilya's face.
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Ilya googles the saying later in bed, with a sleeping Shane beside and half on top of him. The warm feeling that spreads through him when he reads the words makes him press closer to Shane and too giddy to sleep for a while. Repeating the explanation he found in his head on a loop. Shane's dad thinks he's a thoroughly good, kind, and reliable person.
knowing that shane canonically only had two other hookups with men besides ilya makes me laugh because i'm imagining him having the first experience and just 🤨 excuse me? 🤨 where is my tender kiss?? 🤨 where are my soft touches while i come down from orgasm?? 🤨🤨 where are the nice, sweet kisses pressed to my neck?? 🤨 you are doing this all wrong??
he dismisses first guy as just hopelessly bad at sex but then tries it out with a second and is just?? 🤨🤨 why do you ALL suck at casual, no-strings-attached sex so much?? where is my wham bam thank you ma'am but with passionate kissing and being picked up and carried around and laid down with the reverence of someone handling a holy relic?? 🤨 the fuck is wrong with you?? 🤨🤨
Are you ready to talk about how the deification of Shane Hollander actually works against him when he's outed or do you need a minute?
Okay, minute's up.
Shane is unequivocally one of the top two professional hockey players out there; arguably the best. The way he reads the game is beyond most professional player's comprehension. He's catching plays before they occur, as though the entire game is on a second's delay apart from him. He's every goalie's sleep paralysis demon. He's a hockey player who hardly ever fights. His checks are legal, his recovery is swift. He's consistently near the bottom of the Penalty Minutes leaderboard. Chirps slide off him, his face stoic and focused, hardly ever engaging with them, instead just absorbing them and channeling them into his gameplay. He's every PR person's dream, giving the occasional soundbite without ever taking it far enough to be considered a liability.
Off the ice, he's never been the most approachable person, hardly anyone gets close to him. People are scared to approach him, purely because of his talent, and he doesn't make it easy for those who try. He goes out with the team sometimes but he never gets drunk. He doesn't sacrifice his performance diet for anyone's comfort. He attends awards and All Stars games but never contributes much to the conversations others attempt to engage him in. He would seem almost haughty if he wasn't so goddamn nice. It seems that, no matter how wide you search, no one has a bad word to say about him beyond him being a little awkward or annoyingly good at hockey.
He's completely untouchable. Hardly human.
So it is an utter and complete fall from grace when he comes out, first as gay, and is then outed as Ilya Rozanov's partner.
I don't have to tell you that hockey culture is essentially synonymous with toxic masculinity in many ways. Within hockey, there is a deeply ingrained system that celebrates violence, stoicism, and aggression; hypermasculinity is the expectation with violence being seen as a sign of manhood. This culture fosters a code of silence, marginalises women and minorities, and anyone who fails to comply with the express expectation of the "correct" way to perform masculinity.
As soon as Shane Hollander is confirmed as gay, every trait that was viewed as admirable, purely on the basis of his raw talent, becomes confirmation of weakness. He never gets drunk because he's a pussy. He's prissy about food. He doesn't talk because he's weird. He doesn't fight because he can't. He can't handle aggression at all so he simply tries to ignore it, to hide from it. He's weak.
Every oddity that was tolerated and even admired because of his prowess on the ice becomes a marker of difference. A reason to hate him. A call for "we should have known".
Actually, I'm not done.
It feels like a personal betrayal because they didn't know. They didn't know and it feels like they should have. But they didn't. And they admired him. They looked up to him. They tried to replicate his play style, they commended his control, they wondered if they should adopt his diet but didn't know if they could stick with it. They fucking worshipped him. And a part of them wonders if that says something about them. The fact that they were taken in by this ruse; the fact that they worshipped a gay man. It feels like an attack on their own masculinity. And so men, who never learned to process an emotion other than anger, are suddenly left feeling betrayed and embarrassed. And because having to properly examine that, even for a minute, would mean having to reevaluate their entire worldview it all gets channeled into aggression, which is familiar and safe.
The deification of Shane Hollander makes him public enemy number one after he comes out.
Montreal will understand how fucking dumb they are for the whole "you let Rozanov win" bullshit when they pull out the data and realize that the worst game they have ever played against Boston was in 2016 when Shane was with Rose and they won 1-0
obsessed with the narrative that shane is just inventing kink out of his own beautiful mind like obviously he knows that ilya is the one in control but he has no clue that he’s been in a dom/sub dynamic right from the start
so one day he’s talking to rose and she jokes about their sex lives becoming boring after being together for so long and shane’s like no no he does this thing where it feels like he shuts my brain off and all my limbs go numb and he completely overtakes my body and mind and afterwards he has to bring me back down to earth and she’s like ???he puts you in subspace on the reg?? and shane is like i have no idea what that means
