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Trying to figure myself out and exploring my interests/myself. Remembering who I was and who I want to be now.
Fuck depression, anxiety, and bullies. Piecing my life back together one piece, one step at a time.
Recovery isn't linear.
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okay sure that’s progress i guess
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so metropolitan museum of art has a register of books they’ve published that are out of print and that you can download for free! they’re mostly books on art, archeology, architecture, fashion and history and i just think that’s super useful and interesting so i wanted to share! you can find all of the books available here!
You're a dragon shifter and your boss has given you a new assignment - be the summoned Chosen One's partner. You're fine with this assignment as the Chosen One seems to be a naturally talented rider and even takes care of your tack at the end of each day. And you think their cheerful conversation is interesting and fun even if it is one-sided in your dragon form. But soon you realize that there's been a misunderstanding. You've always thought the Chosen One volunteered to be summoned and to fight the Demon King. And the Chosen One clearly thinks that you're just a dragon and incapable of understanding the truly vicious diatribe they unleash against your kingdom every night.
Concept: a bunch of high school Satanists get drunk in the local graveyard and try to conjure a demon, but they’re using one of those “reconstructionist” ritual books that gets its sources all mixed up, so they end up with a minor Mithraic fertility spirit that hasn’t spoken with humans in like 1700 years instead. By the terms of its binding it’s not allowed to leave until it’s ensured a successful harvest for its summoners, which is a problem, because none of these goobers have ever raised so much as a houseplant; if it wants to go home, it’s going to have to teach them how to garden - whether they want to learn or not!
“Five high school sophomores were arrested today on charges of operating an illegal pot growing business behind the Home Depot on I-95. The 200-foot-tall plants, which police could see from their station…”
Modern update of Homer Price
I did not.
Fair enough. There were a couple of children’s books in the 1950s about Homer Price, wholesome all-American boy. One of his adventures involved colossal ragweed plants, causing an epidemic of hay fever. The parallel is between the giant ragweed and the 200-foot-tall cannabis.
tl;dr ask your grandparents
Losing my goddamn fucking mind over how Batman 1966 gave Catwoman a sidekick in one episode and named her Pussycat.
that’s the legendary Jewish lesbian singer Lesley Gore btw, so I have an inkling they knew what they were doing
Get this lovely info to the homeowner and any others that very well could be impacted by this. Reblog to cast. Like to charge. Reblog to cast.
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If you mail something right at a deadline, the official postmark could be later than your drop-off date and may be considered late.
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This will invalidate votes too
This will invalidate votes too
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When the hurricane hit, the were SO many conspiracy theories floating around about it. That the hurricane was deliberately created via cloud seeding in order to kill off Christian republican voters and take the land. That the death toll was in the thousands and that the ~250 was a deliberate lie. That the entire population of towns were dead and missing. That the mainstream media was covering it up. You had disaster influencers on TikTok fundraising for basic necessities claiming that thousands were dead and dying of cold and the like. (Pocketing the funds of course).
They created this weird mass hysteria about a natural disaster being created to attack republicans and… republicans left them out in the cold.
(Obligatory ‘no one deserves this based on who they voted for & also the margin was pretty thin.) These rural communities are overwhelmingly republican, with urban NC being where most of those dem votes are… and still the republicans can’t even pretend to care about their core constituents. Unfortunately, we’ve seen time and time again that no matter how hard rural America gets fucked by republicans, they see it as ‘the government’, while anything that benefits anyone but them is a crime by ‘the liberals’… and even the things they do benefit from are a crime by ‘the liberals’.
Regardless of who is actually responsible for what, the GOP is credited with any positive changes, the dems are raked over the coals for anything that’s less-than-perfect, and anything that is undeniably a republican decision is simply The Government (with no expectation of accountability).
Oh my. I've been waiting for this to happen for almost fifteen years.
Not the "(((they))) are controlling the weather to wipe out Christian Republicans" and all of the other conspiracy shit, no. What I've been waiting for is the storm that would wipe out coastal homes in North Carolina, and I've been waiting since 2012.
Why 2012?
Because in 2012, the North Carolina General Assembly passed Replacement House Bill 819, which, being blunt and sarcastic, tried to outlaw sea level rise.
More technically, in order to keep the high valuation of beachside developments and properties from crashing due to the accurate fact-based assessment that they'd be worthless in a few decades due to climate change, as "beachfront property" is worth a lot, but "underwater property" is not...
Well, to keep those properties and investments from having to face that reality of their future residents being shellfish and tidal pools, the General Assembly made it illegal to use science-based models to predict how high sea level change would go over the next century. Instead, they mandated that a simple linear increase based on historical data would be used--saying that the sea level would change by only 8 inches (20 cm) by 2100... instead of the 3 feet (1 meter) that climate science was predicting. That way, all of those pricy developments on the Outer Banks and beachfronts would maintain their high assessed worth... at least until the sea and storms showed up and said to the General Assembly, "What, are you going to arrest the ocean?"
Which has now happened.
And, just as predicted back in 2012, the insurance companies are taking one look at this and going, "Nuh uh".
As that article I linked up above notes at the close...
In short, HB819 proposes a number of potentially far-reaching changes that may result in unintended consequences for coastal property owners, local governments, insurers, emergency managers and other organizations and agencies.
And now those consequences are here.
I want to be very clear here, what happened with Helene and the fallout is not just an issue effecting North Carolina. It is effecting disaster response as a whole. After disasters, FEMA does what's called door-knocking. Essentially they go on foot in these effected areas and go door to door/encampment to encampment to make sure everyone knows what help is available to them, help people fill out forms, provide resources to do it if you don't have internet and such, etc..
Except they don't do it anymore. And it is in large part because of Helene. The rhetoric around it was so violent, and the rumors that FEMA was going to steal people's houses were so pervasive, the door-knockers were threatened over and over, even had guns pulled on them. How true this is doesn't particularly matter, it may have just been more rumors, but either way it resulted in door-knocking being stopped for Helene and eventually stopped entirely. It is not a thing FEMA does anymore.
Now, to get individual post-disaster assistance if you don't have a way to access the internet or a working phone, you will have to go to dedicated facilities. Can't get there due to disability or injury? Don't have a way to access news about where those facilities even are and how they work? All the roads washed out or impassible due to debris? Too bad, you're on your own now.
So not only is the aid being delayed if not fully withheld for the Helene survivors, many of them may not have even had help in the initial application process the way they should have, and now in every disaster going forward, other people are going to face the exact same thing.
This government has done so many horrific things, but FEMA specifically has drawn some of the highest levels of ire and destruction. We'll be feeling the effects for a long, long time, and I truly hope we find ways to fix things sooner rather than later.
Side note:
If you live in a disaster-prone part of the USA, it might be worthwhile to download and fill out the Emergency Financial First Aid Kit, especially if FEMA isn't going to be helping you work through that anymore. We initially got ours from the FEMA site, but it looks like there are a few other places out there.
If/when you need to evacuate your home, take it with you.
It'll give you a head start on all the paperwork mess you're going to have to fill out and you'll have all the information you need with you already.
If a disaster or other emergency strikes, you may only have seconds or minutes to react. In those critical moments, your focus will be on yo
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y'all slept on the first chart but I will make the world see my vision
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2025 Reads in Review Ask Game
Did you set any goals for your reading in 2025? How did you do?
Were there any ebbs and flows in your reading over the year?
What genres did you read in? Any change from normal?
What formats did you favor this year—audiobooks, library loans, physical books, eBooks?
What were your favorites of the year?
Least favorite(s) of the year?
What was your most anticipated read? How did it stack up?
Best Prose
Best Pacing And/Or Plot
Blorbo Of The Year: Perhaps not your favorite book of the year, but contains The Character
Most Potential: an author who didn’t quite write a flawless classic, but you hope to read more of their work
Sleeper Hit: doesn’t make the favorites list, but worth reading
Didn’t Stick The Landing: Any books with a great premise that fell down on execution?
Strong In The Back Half: weren’t sure where it was going initially, but managed to pull it off
Series of the Year
Stand-Alone of the Year
Best recent release?
Best older book?
Best recommendation from a friend
Best book you found in the wild
Did your opinion of any books change after reading?
Any re-reads? How were they?
Did you DNF any books? Which ones?
Did you tend to read longer or short books?
Did you read any non-fiction?
What are your goals for this year, if any?
What’s at the top of your list for 2026?
I lent my mom a book before I read it and apparently right at the beginning they tell a true story about all our chestnut trees dying and it made my mother SO DEPRESSED that she couldn't sleep and now she's been researching chestnut trees for the past half hour looking sick
She's right!!
Chestnut trees used to define forests in the South -- some estimates say about 1/4 trees was a chestnut tree. And they were huge! Growing more than 100 feet tall (with trunks more than 10 feet in diameter), they were called the "redwoods of the East." They were a characteristic food source of the South, too. A mature chestnut tree can produce upwards of 50 lbs of nuts a year -- many of these were gathered and eaten by poor families, or turned into chestnut flour and used to make "poor man's bread."
But, at the beginning of the 20th century, a fungus called the blight was brought over from Asia. Over the next 50 years, every single American Chestnut was infected and died. While some root systems are still alive, they're considered functionally extinct.
People cut down huge areas of forest trying to prevent the spread of the blight and save the trees -- but they failed. And now several generations have never even known the chestnut tree. We don't even know enough to miss them.
But now, with advances in genetic technology, the chestnut trees may be coming back! Through a group scientific effort led by the American Chestnut Foundation, researchers have created a "transgenic American chestnut tree with enhanced blight tolerance" called Darling 58. Darling 58 is genetically modified to be able to coexist with the blight.
Darling 58 American chestnuts are currently being reviewed by the USDA-APHIS, EPA, and FDA. But researchers hope to be able to reintroduce them soon -- one huge step towards restoring our forests.
You can follow the chestnut trees' progress (and request a Darling 58 tree when they're available) at https://acf.org/ .
Thank you I'm gonna share this chestnut revitalization news with her!
There are many American chestnut trees still living outside their original natural range. Michigan, for example, has a large number of chestnut farms and is the biggest grower of chestnuts in the US. The species is listed as endangered but is not extinct.
Where I grew up is considered oak/hickory forest now but was once oak/chestnut. Even the corpses of the chestnuts are gone now. It's a wood that takes a long time to decay and there was at least one fallen trunk still somewhat recognizable when I was a kid, but it too is just a mossy spot now. We're still seeing the impact of the loss on local wildlife.
If Darling 58 gets approved I'm going to have to see how many we can plant on the property.
*waves* I work at the university where Darling 58 was developed, and we're all really excited about it!
The devastation of losing the American chestnut can't be overstated. It was a keystone part of eastern North American forests, providing nuts for wildlife, leaves and wood for many specialized herbivorous insects, and was a vital source of pollen for bees, beetles, butterflies, and other pollinators during mid-summer - a time when there are few other flowering plants in forests. Not to mention many other aspects I myself don't know much about, such as their mycorrhizal networks, which I'm sure were quite important.
I mention that last bit specifically because I study pollinators, and my latest research is surveying pollinators in American chestnut orchards to better understand the importance of this tree for insects. Because the loss of the tree happened so long ago (not in ecological terms but for peer-reviewed science) we don't really have the ability to do before-after comparisons, just after. Chestnut orchards are really all we have to get a tiny glimpse into how these trees interacted with other species. There's even a specialized chestnut bee, Andrena rehni, that only collects pollen from chestnuts and chinkapins, which was thought to have gone extinct for decades after the loss of chestnut. It was rediscovered only around a decade ago, and has since been found in a few chestnut orchards.
Oaks, which are also keystone species, have largely replaced chestnuts in eastern forests, filling their empty niche, but they're not the same. Undoubtedly the dynamics of forest ecosystems have been greatly impacted in ways that are hard to quantify. Yes, you can still find American chestnuts growing in the wild - the vast majority are not at mature age, as the blight kills them back, and they will continue to stump sprout over and over. I am from New Hampshire and our woods are full of little chestnuts that are maybe up to 3cm DBH and won't ever produce nuts. Naturally blight resistant mature chestnuts are exceedingly rare and their locations are often hidden to protect them. The ones you see in orchards are usually Chinese chestnuts, or American x Chinese backcrossed hybrids, which was the previous method of breeding blight resistance.
We have a growing number of invasive pathogens threatening our native trees - hemlock woolly adelgid, emerald ash borer, Dutch elm disease, oak wilt, and more it seems every year. The entire dynamics of our eastern forests are at risk of fundamental change, as the composition and diversity of woodlands are impacted by these exotic diseases. There are countless researchers studying and trying to develop ways to fight them, but it's happening far too fast to prevent some significant losses. Ecosystems that have been evolving together since the last Ice Age are unraveling in our lifetimes, and I can't stress how important it is for you to remember.
Remember chestnuts. Remember ash forests. While we're at it, remember wolves and mountain lions, remember ivory-billed woodpeckers and passenger pigeons and Carolina parakeets and Atlantic cod. So many species that were fundamental parts of North America but have either gone extinct or become just about functionally extinct across most of their range.
Do not let shifting baselines make you think what you see now is normal.
We have to remember that things are deeply wrong. Most of the green you see on roadside and forest edges are invasive vines and shrubs. There aren't supposed to be this many deer and deer ticks. Cowbirds once lived on the Great Plains, now they're parasitizing birds across the US to the level of being a true threat to the survival of some endangered species. Atlantic cod was once so abundant they jumped into fishermen's boats. And don't even get me started on the decline in so many insect groups - the abundance of all kinds of insects used to be exponentially greater. We used to be surrounded by a wealth of biodiversity and life. Despair and grieve momentarily at how mutilated this land is, but then get your hands in the dirt and do something about it.
When Darling 58s become available for the public, plant one. In the meantime, plant other native trees, and native wildflowers, native shrubs, native ferns. Read some books on our native ecosystems - there's thousands of them out there, whether you are interested in pollinators, raptors, salmon, squirrels, saltmarshes, you name it, ecologists have written books about them, or field guides, to try and get the public motivated to care and help restore them. Start noticing as many species as you can on your next walk, including the invasive ones. Learn to read the landscape, so instead of one big wall of green you see individual species, instead of a white noise of birdsong you pick out the conversations of orioles, vireos, sparrows, and warblers.
The most that ecologists can ask you to do is to care. If most people just cared, let alone took action or better yet became a conservation biologist, we'd be in a much different scenario. But the majority of people are indifferent, ignorant, or are in the case of corporations actively working to destroy. Anyone can restore habitat, if done thoughtfully and with the right native species. You can transform your backyard, or help redesign a town park, or work with your local garden club or conservation commission to get native plants installed in front of buildings instead of more hostas and daylilies. It's not happening because no one's demanding it, and few know enough to demand it. Destruction will keep happening until there's pushback against it, ignorance will remain until eyes are opened to other ways of being.
We can bring chestnuts back. We can bring many things back from the brink, so in a few hundred years they will perform the ecological roles they once did. Nature is resilient. Your actions today determine the ecosystems of tomorrow, and all the things that ecosystems do for us, from mitigating hurricane damage to clean drinking water to carbon storage to food production.
Want some books to get started?
Read 'Bringing Nature Home' by Doug Tallamy, or his latest book, 'Nature's Best Hope.' Or, if you want to revel in the awesomeness of oak trees, his book 'The Nature of Oaks.'
Read anything by Bernd Heinrich or Thor Hansson, who will make you feel connected to this land like you never have before.
You can find books about the biggest trees in New England, birding guides for each state that tell you where the best places are and what to find there. You can find natural history encyclopedias for most states too - for example, 'The Nature of New Hampshire,' 'Natural Landscapes of Maine', 'Wetland, Woodland, Wildland' (for VT), and I'm sure many others, all of which are detailed accounts of every type of natural community that occurs in each state.
Want to learn how to 'read the landscape' like I mentioned? For the northeast, get 'Reading the Forested Landscape' by Tom Wessels. It's so good it was assigned as a textbook in my undergrad at UNH. I'm sure there are many similar books for the mid-Atlantic or southeast.
Seriously, just, go to the natural history section of your local bookstore or library. I could list a bajillion websites here with resources that are fantastic, but I argue it's far more valuable to sit down with a book and get immersed in a narrative that will move you spiritually. There's still so much information that's only found in books, or is collected there in ways that you'd have to go searching all over the internet for, without the assurance it's even accurate.
Change the way you see this land; notice the absences, the new arrivals, the things that are slowly blinking out and becoming a ghost of eons past, the things that are changing before our very eyes. Connect the dots through time, and see your place in it too.
The best time to plant a tree was yesterday; the next best time is when you can get your hands on a Darling 58.
Also, I want to add, if you’re interested in these sorts of projects, check with your state Department of Natural Resources (or Department of Conservation, even Game Commisions can have resources) - they may have all sorts of guides to native plants, or even programs to assist (and Certification programs if you want a cute sign).
I know specifically Maryland DNR has the Wild Acres program, but other states have their own programs as well.
La Petite Dernière (2025) dir. Hafsia Herzi
"Hey, I want you to know I'm not accusing you of anything, from what I can tell it's an accident, but you're kind of mind-controlling people with your music."
"I think I would know if I was casting something."
"Unfortunately not. It's sort of a charm effect talented bards have over crowds. Bardic magic isn't very well understood, so it's not your fault you haven't heard of it before now. Your music is genuinely transportive and hypnotizing! You've just been unintentionally giving it a little extra kick."
I see that "learned helplessness" is the hot new psychological term getting wildly misused. the phrase you're looking for is "weaponized incompetence," babes
weaponized incompetence is when your partner does chores shitty on purpose so that you stop asking them to do chores. learned helplessness is when you've experienced so much trauma that you've developed the mindset that you can't meaningfully change your situation and have become accordingly passive.
if your partner is exhibiting learned helplessness they aren't manipulating you, they're displaying a trauma response.
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