Introverted Bibliophile

30 something aro/ace cat "landlord" with a head full of books. Requires tea to function. Sometimes NSFW. She/her icon by @scottgrady

[lucylehane]

"Ilya pushed against the ice with his sneakers and slid over to Shane. When he reached him, he kissed him loudly on the cheek." Heated Rivalry, p. 272

[ilyasmole]

*shane and ilya hugging, very early relationship days, prob at the cottage*

shane: squeeze me

ilya: what

shane: just. squeeze me. really tight.

ilya: *squeezes*

shane: tighter than that, come on

ilya: *squeezing a little harder* better?

shane: no. like. seriously, use all your strength.

ilya: i could hurt you, no?

shane: you won't, i promise. please just. tighter.

ilya: *squeezes shane as tight as he possibly can, grimacing a bit as he does it*

shane, groaning: thank fuck. do you have any idea how long i've waited to have someone strong enough to do this for me who isn't my dad

[firstprinced]

(*^▽^*)

[cuppydogshane]

just thinking happily of shane riding ilya Yay

[jcams88]

I truly believe Hudson has a long and wonderful career ahead of him and he will make it through all of this but god fucking damnit it truly breaks my heart that he will forever look back on the thing that made all of his wildest dreams come true and have it forever be associated with the psychopathic monsters who are doing all of this.

[memorydatas]

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

[memorydatas]

for context:

[dragonquestv]

[an-actual-lion-deactivated20200]

“Beep Beep Bitch, You’re Gay!”

[leolikesaccountability]

Updated the lesbian flag and added nonbinary, pan, ace, and aro for all your tacky LBGTQ+ barcode needs.

[non-binary-ary]

Hope yall  like my abomination

[thegrimmlovely]

That last one is fucking moving istg

[silverjirachi]

at last. the gaydar

[cargopantsman]

[anathemaegg]

[effeminate-wastrel-deactivated2]

The only pride flag I care about anymore

[xiaq]

I need a fic where Hayden’s youngest, Amber Pike, is Shane’s flavor of autistic, and as soon as they realize, Ilya is like, oh, step aside, I’ve got this.

Like, he’s generally fab with kids anyway but he has a near lifetime of knowledge figuring out what makes Shane tick (and twitch) and this is just a child who isn’t able to control their environment or modulate their responses to things in the way that Shane can.

So when they’re having dinner with the Pikes and Jackie is tiredly recounting the ongoing process of getting Amber tested and how lost they’re feeling, Ilya is like, oh, I have been training my whole life for this. And when 3yr old Amber inevitably starts having a meltdown, Ilya jumps up and says, “Here. I will fix. You stay.”

And they’re like, you know what, sure, have at it.

Within a few minutes of Ilya disappearing with Amber, the crying stops. When they track the two down a half hour later, they’re in the basement on the rug with all the lights off. Amber is wearing a pair of Christmas Pjs (notably a bamboo/cotton mix) despite the fact that it’s February, and she’s laying on Ilya’s chest, ear to his sternum, alternating tapping along as he hums, spinning his ring on his finger, and rubbing his shirt (also a Nice Fabric since obviously Ilya’s whole wardrobe is Shane-approved).

And when Amber sees the family + Shane trooping down the stairs and starts to get riled up again, Ilya is immediately like, “Turn off hall light. It is Dark Floor Time. Only quiet people allowed to join, okie?” And Amber lets out this relieved, shuddery little breath because she has someone who understands and can advocate for her which nearly ends Ilya’s life but also Shane is like, oh shit, yeah, I’m the the best at floor time, I love being quiet and grounded and aimlessly touching my husband, lets fucking go.

So even when the other Pike children get antsy after a few minutes, and their parents take them upstairs, Shane and Ilya stay, letting Amber crawl all over them and get chill before they get her ready for bed.

Afterward, Ilya gives Hayden and Jackie an exhaustive rundown of all the various things they might want to consider for clothing and food and overstimulation and regulation and they’re very grateful but Shane is listening to this going, okay some of this I obviously knew about myself but some of these things I didn’t even notice? Holy shit? He pays such close attention to me?? Hold on, some of these things I haven’t done since middle school. Ilya, did you talk to my mom about my childhood behavior?? And yes, Ilya gives Jackie Yuna’s phone number for additional consult until they get Amber’s official diagnosis and are provided with more resources.

(And maybe at first Shane wants to be annoyed about the fact that Ilya has been, what, researching and compiling some sort of manual on how to handle him? Right up until Ilya reminds Shane that Shane has an Ilya Spreadsheet that now contains over a dozen tabs of Ilya’s likes and dislikes, injuries and recovery protocols, training and diet and supplements, depression treatment with behavioral red-flags and mitigation techniques, and even sexual preferences. And Shane is like, oh yeah, okay, that’s fair)

But anyway. As the Pike kids grow up, Ilya tries not to be obvious about it, but it’s just Known that Amber is Uncle Ilya’s favorite. And everyone is mostly okay with that.

His doting is so quietly impactful for Shane, though, because here is a child who reminds Shane of his own younger self: a little odd, who struggles to articulate what she feels and needs, who gets overstimulated easily and has obsessive interests, but even so, Amber is a favorite and so loved and accommodated by his husband. That’s gotta be healing.

Also, as much as they try to get Amber to hyperfixate on hockey, I think it’d be hilarious if she became a horse girl and Ilya literally buys her a pony.

(Hayden: Oh my god, Ilya. Do you know how expensive horses are?? Ilya: Yes, yes, maybe for 15th best player on the Metros with one hundred other children, horse is big cost, but not for best player in the league married to second best player in the league with Yuna Hollander in charge of sponsorship deals. I set up fund for board and train. Is couch money.)

(Shane is unavailable for comment because he is feeling a velvety horse nose for the first time and realizing that maybe he is also a horse girl).

[finch-like-the-bird]

Shane Hollander absolutely talks to his appliances. And he picked it up from his parents because it started with David and then got to Yuna, and the Hollander genes are STRONG on both sides

Every morning the microwave beeps he goes sigh "I know I know" and Ilya is so ready to devour him at all times he thinks it's the hottest thing ever

But!! He just thinks it's funny at first and slowly Ilya starts to pick it up too. And Shane's like "why do you talk to the dishwasher when it makes weird noises" and Ilya's like well sweetheart my cute autistic wonderful husband I picked it up from u

"Did u not notice every time you try to prop your hockey stick against a wall and it falls you say 'oh yeah and fuck you too then'", or when the coffee machine gets angry u pat it gently and "shhhhh" until it goes away

Hollanov goes to the parents house and David and Ilya are cooking dinner when suddenly the oven timer goes off and "rightttt rightt I know shut up please" and David is like !!!! He's one of us!!!

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Inspired by that Quinn interview clip where Hudson says that Connor always giggles with his hand in front of his mouth but really it's just cus Connor picked it up from Hudson and bro didn't notice

[identitty-dickruption]

my safe clothing items that I wear day in day out for years and years should never break or rip or wear down. the power of friendship should stop that kind of thing

[reyreybutt]

Hollanov AU where Shane explodes into six tiny shanebugs 🐞🥹 Inspired by Connor's and Hudson's verizon and peloton ads respectively (i draw so slow that a lifetime has passed since those ads came out lmao)

[gaynehollander]

Sometimes I think about the fact that almost every single person who found out about Shane and Ilya felt the need to ask Shane "him? really? he's the one you want to be with?"

I think about how Ilya has had to make his way through life mostly on his own since he was twelve years old, about the, how he moved to a new country as a teenager and was immediately thrust in front of a camera without knowing the language or how to cope with his newfound fame. I think about the preconceived notions of Russians and how, in the absence of being able to accurately communicate (both because of the language barrier and his repressive upbringing), Ilya decided to or was forced to lean into that stereotype. I think about how soft Ilya allows himself to be with Shane, about how he takes care of him, about how silly and goofy he can be, how he's sometimes just a grown kid, how other times he's the only person who can shut Shane's brain of. I think about how kind he is, how caring, how deeply he feels, how incredibly empathetic he is. I think about how wildly Shane loves him. How there literally never could have been anyone else. I think about how incredibly hurtful it is that no one trusts Shane to make his own decisions about his own fucking life and how much it hurts seeing the coldness the world regards his partner with. I think about Shane getting home and walking straight into Ilya's arms, after having to (once again) justify his love for the best man he's ever known, allowing himself to take comfort in his warm embrace, even when it feels to Shane like he should be the one providing both comfort and shelter.

I think about the surety Shane would feel when thinking to himself, "yes. Him. No one else."

[vickyvicr]

thinking of domestic hudcon. thinking of jacob saying they were together all the time. thinking of hudson saying they'd go over the lines and discuss the characters in each others little apartments from the moment they woke up until right before they went to sleep. thinking of connor calling it the best two months of his life

[vickyvicr]

hudson: "i have all those emotions in me. for over the edge, he's sad, he struggles with his identity, he's depressed and needy, and i can—to a degree—i can relate to all those. and in sanctuary, he's just—he's outnumbered, he feels alone. he's constantly having to defend himself. so i can relate to all of those things. then, to flush out the character, beyond what i feel on the inside, i just look at my favorite movies and i take inspiration"

interview 19.dec.2020

[hollanov-ann]

Can we do something nice? Share your favourite pictures/moments of Hudson and tag your friends.

Don't forget to use the #hudson williams tag below ⬇️

Thank you for the tag @medeas-chari0t I'm gonna share some of my favourite Hudson gifs that I've made

Tagging: @hollanov-cocktail79 @eightyonextwentyfour @ilyarozanovsoralfixation @introvertbibliophile @uncertain-inconstant @solarielunare & anyone else who wants to do it

+ Bonus quote: There is a very fervent, loving community around you. No matter how alienated you feel, there are loving arms ready to hold you. Whether that's your direct family, or those are some new friends you'll make, or people across borders that you don't even know, but that would be willing to take you in and love you for who you are-that exists, that's not a fairy tale, that's not fantasy, that's just what you deserve 💕

[introvertbibliophile]

Thanks for the tag, @hollanov-ann! This is a random selection of some of my favorite pics of Hudson from events. Forgive the lack of captioning! 💗💗💗

[bugslibraryy]

ohhh crying shane during sex my beloved…. i know you mentioned first time but i love crying shane during married hollanov sex🥺🥺🥺 just so so in love and years of love between them and shane can’t help but start thinking about how much they mean to each other and all those years sneaking around together leading to this…. they are having the kind of sweet sleepy slow sex that only happens after years and years of love💜 cutie pie shane on his back making eye contact with ilya while getting thrusted into and just doing the cutest little whimpers and “uh…uh..uh’s” with the rhythm of the thrusts and then his pretty brown eyes are leaking suddenly, big fat tears rolling down his cheeks and ilya is all “what’s the matter, hm? feels so good for my baby, huh?” and shane all whiny “yes yes feels so good ilya i love you so much mmmm i love you” and ilya maybe starts to tear up a little bit too his pretty blue eyes getting wet and he leans down and kisses shane’s tears away like “it’s alright baby, let it out, i know you feel so good it’s okay malysh i’ve got you” 🥺🥺🥺🥺

IM GONNA PASS OUT AND THEN MAYBE AWAY IF THATS OKAY WITH ALL YALL

yes yes yes I need to sink my teeeth into this sugar. I adore this. Soft so so soooo mega in love husbands Ilya and Shane, so much intimacy and love between them that Shane gets overwhelmed.

It’s been a slow start to the morning, Ilya had broken a good amount of ribs last month and he’s still achy, tender like they are bruised and he’s been sluggish in the mornings and evenings still. They’d kissed as they woke up, Ilya a warm weight on Shane, nose nudging at his ear and jaw before with sleep still in his eyes before he found Shane’s mouth, soft pecks and nuzzles, sweet kisses that had burned deeper and longer. Fumbling hands and soft whispers and needy touches and then Shane’s being stretched onto Ilya’s cock, the covers pulled up over Ilya’s back, a warm cocoon between them.

Shane’s feet are linked on Ilya’s back, heels sliding against the warm skin and they’re holding hands by Shane’s waist, Shane fidgeting with Ilya’s fingers.

Ilya squeezes Shane’s hand twice, a silent you ok? And Shane nods, yawns and scrubs a hand over his sleepy eyes and asks “can you make us pancakes after this?” And Ilya nods, leans down to kiss over Shane’s face as Shane adjusts to the stretch of Ilya, it takes a little longer in the morning.

Then with a wiggle from Shane’s hips, Ilya is thrusting into him, slow and deep and Shane sighs, head tilts back and fuck it’s so nice. He watches down his body, how Ilya is up over him, the long line of his shoulders, the gold of his necklace, the mole to the left of it they got checked at the doctor last month because it had changed in colour. His body, strong and fucking gorgeous and the hair that leads from his bellybutton down to where his cock is pressing in in in to Shane. Shane licks his lips, watches the muscles of Ilya’s sides pull and work the shift of skin, the muscle of his hips in the warm morning light and fuck his husband is so gorgeous.

Shane sighs when Ilyas hand takes his face into his hand, thumb rubs at his cheek, pulls at his lips. Shane shivers and Ilyas lace picks up and up and oh fuck. Shane whimpers, right there he thinks- and ilya nods as if he’d said it out loud, he pins every next rut of his hips to that perfect spot over and over and over. Shane is aching hard, smudging precum bellow his bellybutton and he’s thrumming with pleasure, it’s soaking through him, dripping off him, how good this is. I

“Yeah” Ilya sighs, fucks his hips in snaps, that make Shane’s spread legs jolt, leans down in over him and kisses him, a sweet small kiss, as if saying hello. Shane nods “yeah it’s so nice” he says with a happy sigh and tangles his hands into has hair and pulls at it gently, at the root, by his ears, the way that makes Ilya whine and fuck him harder.

Shane hums and draws his eyes to Ilya’s, pretty glass- his husband, his husband, his eyes he’s looked to for years. Home. Shane sucks in a breath and Ilya’s thrusts as jolting him against the mattress and it’s so good and he feels so fucking big when he takes him early in the morning and this is still so good still as good as the first time. Shane will always need this so fucking much, Ilya will always give it to him. Shane slides his hand though Ilya’s hair and licks his lips, feels Ilya’s thumb press down and pull on his chin till his lips part and Shane’s soft “uh uh uh” fill the air and Ilya grins and bites at his bottom lip and he’s looking at Shane with such a heat, a love. And pushes deep, deep, grinds in once, twice and Shane arches his back. His toes curl.

Shane feels the first tear slip and he sniffles, Ignores it and blinks up at Ilya, whose face softness, opens and his hand pets Shane’s cheek. “There’s my boy, it’s so good huh? My beautiful baby, feels so good on my cock you need to cry huh? So good how I fuck you yeah? Love my cock so much, it’s so pretty how you show me” Ilya cooes, kissing all over Shane’s face and brow and cheekbone, jaw, eyelids. Shane nods and wraps his arms around Ilya’s neck, tightens his legs around him, pulls him in, in.

“Ilya” he breaths, draws the name out like a prayer and he feels Ilya shiver over him.

“Love you, love you love your cock so much, feels so good, feels- fuck I love this feels, I love you love you love” and Shane’s mumbling, hiccuped breathing and whimpers, lips parted, eyes closed now in bliss.

“Love you love you too, sweetheart” Ilya whispers back and tears prick in his she’s and he swallows hard. He loves his Shane so fucking much.

“It’s okay baby, I’m here, right here” Ilya reminds Shane, rubs their noses together. “I’ve got you” he breaths, holds Shane’s face with one hand and keeps Shane’s cheek pressed to his, shares their breathing.

[nightquills]

ilya would be having a bit of a crash out over the pacific marine mammal center naming a rescued sea lion after his husband.

firstly, why does shane get an animal named after him but ilya doesn't? this is a cosmic injustice. they need to name one after him immediately so that sea lion hollander has a rozanov and isn't lonely so that the best men's hockey player is properly represented!!!

secondly, sea lion hollander is so small. criminally tiny. ilya is very proud of his big hockey player husband, thank you. they couldn't have picked a more size-accurate animal to name after him? (though admittedly the big brown teary eyes are fitting. he will give them that.)

and THIRDLY, why did they name a hurt baby after shane when there is a possibility she might not make it through surgery? what kind of fucking emotional manipulation is this? if sea lion hollander dies, there will be hell to pay. (ilya is donating a frankly absurd amount of money to the rescue. he is urging the centaur front office to send all the workers there hollander merchandise. he is publicly yelling at people to not leave their fish hooks in the ocean on social media.)

[nightquills]

@phruit-salad, your tags!!!

#some gen z hockey fan intern at an animal charity realises you can fund basically anything if you name it hollander #bc rozanov will backflip through the window to pay for any and all medical expenses to keep a sad wet animal named after his husband alive #so far the ottowa humane society has saved 18 dogs called hollander or shane #all bc ilya sends them check every month with “for shane” written on them in shockingly bad handwriting

ilya is so personally invested in every single one of these sad wet animals. he's following along with their stories, he is asking the organizations for updates when they haven't posted about His Shane in a few days, he is celebrating each release or adoption where applicable. he's got a whole folder on his phone for photos of each of them.

meanwhile, shane is seeing the withdrawals on their shared bank statements like

[nightquills]

the real sea lion hollander is all better, and she has been released back into the wild!

[pregnanthudsonwilliams]

the thing about shane is he's literally sweet. unless of course he's being a bitch