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The Blame Game.

When the lines of communication between Liam and myself waned dramatically, in about May 2013 I was uncertain whether this had been due to my previous outburst ( the sickening comments he made about my friend ) or if it had all just run its course … However, it was to continue, despite my reservations to cut all ties … I believed, naively, that if only I could stop saying and doing things that…

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The Kindness Of Strangers.

The Kindness Of Strangers.

For what seemed like an eternity, after Liam finally departed from my life, I felt nothing other than complete numbnesss … Having being controlled for so long I could barely think for myself much less make decisions, so I was at a loss as to just what to do … I was alone exhausted and emotionally drained … an absolute mess … Had Liam breezed into my life like Sir Galahad, claiming to be the man I…

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Gobshite.

( How thoughtful of Liam to teach me how to create folders for his emails … ) You hardly even commented on my email.  Did you even bother to check out the two songs I suggest. You said nothing about anything else.  That hardly lends itself to communication.  Does it or am I missing something?   I keep saying you’re a mature woman with all the want, needs and desires that go with that.  I could…

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Coerced.

Despite my reservations, and many failed attempts at resisting “Liam’s” charms, it was I believe, his consistancy that finally won me over. He did his homework well, establishing very soon into our “relationship” I was lonely and that my husband and I were no longer close … He made a point of contacting me at least twice a day, sometimes more, and of course it made me feel very special. It was…

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Predator ( A person who ruthlessly exploits others )

Looking back I can almost pinpoint the moment I became aware it was Liam’s intention to break me … He criticised me continuously and had an opinion on every aspect of my life.  I felt slightly awkward as the disparaging remarks about my husband came thick and fast and momentarily I felt the need to defend him … In hindsight of course I see it was a deliberate ploy to distance me further from my…

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Between the lines.

( I will admit I was somewhat impressionable, but I never deserved this. Why awaken feelings that had long been extinguished merely for his entertainment? Why include false promises and declarations of true love with no intention of following through? This man, whose book had me collapsing in tears, was telling me he was trusting me with his life … and he even thanked me for existing … of course…

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Game over.

In retrospect I suppose, the signs were abundantly clear … the intense overfriendliness, which was slightly alarming considering the relatively short time we had been talking, the seemingly genuine concern for my well-being and of course the flattery … the excessive praise he drop fed me throughout the day by DM text and email … But because I never doubted him for a moment I overlooked each and…

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Food for thought.

There was something so very comforting in suddenly having a man paying me so much attention and showering me with endless compliments …In my day to day life I felt somehow surplus to requirements … an inconvenience … To be chosen over a football match or Top Gear did wonders for my self esteem and I very much embraced the closeness that was developing between Liam and myself …

I felt at times he…

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Face Value.

It is with great reluctance I find myself reading again, for the third time now, Liam’s book … It was during an exchange of confidences with a close friend in December, the conversation turned to Liam … not that it had been my intention for it to, but because there were so many similarities …

I listened in great detail to her fears of her partner straying, his sudden apparent need for secrecy,…

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The Last Laugh.

So Liam is STILL on Twitter. Glancing at the picture he used over two years ago, which I doubt was recent even then, I’m convinced he has no remorse for the damage he has done. Its almost as though he is saying he is invincible, and that nothing or no one will stop him …

The picture, which evokes an abundance of memories, mostly bad, is in itself manipulative. Portraying himself as a harmless…

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Sickened.

I never mentioned just what Liam did … that not only killed any love I had for him, but sickened and repulsed me in a way that even now, makes me shudder …

It was a day like any other, i’d been to work, collected the little girl I looked after from school, and decided to visit a friend. It was a glorious day, the sun was shining and the sky blue … far too nice to stay indoors …

It was as we sat…

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Groomed.

I was asked recently how it all started, how I became so involved with Liam that my whole life was placed on a back burner. My marriage friends and work were somehow an insignificant second compared to him … because he loved me … because he needed me ….

I first came across Liam almost by accident in 2012. I recognised him immediately as an author whos book I had read about the abuse he had…

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Just deserts.

I’ve heard it said on Twitter when discussing Liam that there are two sides to every story … These accounts, either eggheads or those with only a handful of followers, I believe to be Liam … The malicious and vindictive content, so characteristic of Liam when things are not going his way, leave me in no doubt that it is he defending his despicable behaviour by pretending (not for the first time)…

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The Diary July 2013.

The Diary July 2013.

Not for the first time, the thought has crossed my mind that the demeaning and negative stories Liam told me about his wife were merely ways to gain my sympathy. Even now, all this time later, when I don’t hear from him I’m extremely concerned for his safety …

“If you saw the amount of hours a day I spend in front of this computer dealing with all sorts of issues you’d wonder how I get emails out…

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The Catalyst.

I’ve no doubt that Liam, this time last year, even gave me a second thought after sending the email, which like everything else in our “relationship”, was never exclusive …

Perhaps days later he breathed a sigh of relief, that I had taken him at his word, and not contacted him … but I had no intention of slipping away quietly … Did he honestly believe my self esteem was so low I’d not object to…

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The Diary ... June 2013

The Diary … June 2013

In the last few weeks I’ve finally reached the conclusion I can no longer continue my association with Liam. The incident that occured last week constantly replays in my mind and I feel no longer able to make excuses for him.

Not for the first time I’ve questioned why I somehow freeze as he types things I’ve asked him not to, but since I’ve taken to not replying the emails have slowed down…

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Dishonourable

  ( If you follow me on Twitter ( @jolev80) and have been affected by Liam and would like to share your story, please feel free to contact me.)

    Liam, if he could only see, is his own worst enemy … If he was any kind of man he would hold his hand up, admit to his mistakes and have the decency to stop stalking the women he so cruelly deceived into loving him …

Honestly, its a fool’s game on his…

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