Peter Solarz
art blog(derogatory)
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH

tannertan36
2025 on Tumblr: Trends That Defined the Year

izzy's playlists!

Love Begins
Show & Tell
almost home
I'd rather be in outer space 🛸

Product Placement
sheepfilms

❣ Chile in a Photography ❣

No title available
Cosimo Galluzzi
No title available

titsay
todays bird

oozey mess
Not today Justin
seen from United States

seen from North Macedonia

seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from Netherlands

seen from United States
seen from Indonesia
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from North Macedonia

seen from North Macedonia
seen from France
seen from Lithuania
seen from Canada
seen from Netherlands
seen from Lithuania

seen from Saudi Arabia

seen from Philippines

seen from Saudi Arabia

seen from United States
@jothb
probably should have seen it coming I guess but it's pretty fucking annoying everyone saw a conversation about "people don't understand how difficult it is clothes shopping as a trans woman" and proceeded to show just how much they don't understand it by assuming it's only about sizing and not the constant societal surveillance and inability to use the change rooms and fear of being kicked out of the story and unwillingness even for friends to recognise that there's barriers in your way and try and help you.
even people trying to commiserate with me complaining about the dumb responses assumed that it was just about sizing. and phrased it all like "you're so seen and valid". fucking christ.
wow it's almost like people don't understand how challenging it is clothes shopping even years into transition as a trans woman! who could have guessed??????
Not the strongest comparison here but
"It's incredibly difficult and challenging using public bathrooms as a transgender woman and it should be obvious why if you have paid attention to anything ever"
"Girl I feel you, welcome to womanhood. sometimes the seats are gross or someone's left something on the floor, we all experience this, you're so valid for this"
(meanwhile I'm lucky if I'm not immediately stopped upon entering)
with clothes it's like ok cool but you might notice that you are wearing womens clothes from the clothes store that you bought and were able to try on before buying and weren't called a pervert and/or pedophile over it. meanwhile I am not. so maybe this is not actually "something all women experience" or just about sizing yes?
hope this isn't derailing but i think that this is heavily shaped by this condescending attitude people have about trans women's womanhood. they treat us like little girls discovering every aspect of being a woman instead of understanding us as adults who can have fully formed and informed opinions and analysis about our lived experience.
folks assume we have everything to learn about being women, because the idea that they would have anything to learn from us about it or about being a trans woman is simply too ridiculous to even cross their mind.
home cooked meal
okay but chess terminology is like. you pinned your opponent's hung knight and now you can mate? oh im sure
OH I'M SURE
i was like 'it's weird the way everyone is doing free pr for the catholic church rn just bc the pr for the new pope has already been that good' and someone was like 'wait? why don't you like the pope? did something happen?' i feel insane i'm not exaggerating i didn't even know what to say?? 'did something happen?' yes the last 2 thousand years of global history, and no, going back 2,000 years in catholic history is not dramatic because it's remained consistently that bad throughout and in fact i do think the church should answer for every single century of its sins while all of its assets are returned to the people from which they were stolen and its global power is dissolved.
How do you think fail states, specifically dying and reloading a save, affect the narrative of a video game? Because in a lot of games they feel like a pretty detrimental compromise to me, it always feels like I'm not actually supposed to use that mechanic. I haven't really found a way yet to interpret a lot of them in a way that doesn't just make the game worse.
hmm i mean
like, i think there's a lot of ways a ''fail state'' can inform a game's narrative, right? like...
there's the way you're talking about here, right, where the fail state is something you're not 'supposed' to experience, it exists as a structuring element guiding you away from or towards certain actions, right? like... in subnautica, it's pretty rare to actually die. and it can be a frustrating and unfun experience when you do and you were carrying a bunch of stuff and you're like oh great gotta farm all that shit up. but the threat of dying is really really important to building the game's tension, putting some actual real-world weight (even if it's just in terms of threatening a purely digital object that represents a time commitment) into the idea of a reaper leviathan eating you. if there was no 'consequence' for getting Gotten by the Scary Getter, it would suck a lot of tension out of trying to avoid them, right?
this is a recurring thing in horror game design, right, if you make the chase sections too hard they stop being scary because knowing that all that happens is a scary cutscene + the impact of it being diminished by seeing it over and over again turns the Scary Getter into a nuisance that you groan at rather than something scary. so i think there can be a lot of value to parts of a game that you're not really ''supposed'' to experience but that need to exist to structure how you experience the parts you are...
& then of course i think there's a lot of games where you are meant to experience the failure states and they teach you important things about the world and characters. like recently i've been trying out this underrated indie gem called dark souls, you've never heard of it, and within an hour of playing i'd died like five times. and each time the death taught me something iomportawnt about the game: dying to the asylum demon taught me that you don't always have to fight enemies the first time you see them. dying in the middle of a skeleton clusterfuck taught me that you should try to fight enemies 1 on 1 as much as possible. dying when that cunt pushed a boulder onto me taught me to look the fuck out for traps. these fail states are essentially a form of tutorializing, and also help tell the story of dark souls, that you're an insignificant little fuck in a bleak and crushing world.
or, like, take disco elysium -- i think a lot of people who've never played it know you can get a game over screen because you sat in an uncomfortable chair. and yea if your last save was an hour ago i get why that's frustrating. but not only does the whole evrart sequence also serve the tutorializing function that my dark souls deaths did (demonstrating that you should unlearn the traditional CRPG correlation between 'danger' and combat) but it and other potential game overs like it tell you so much about harry du bois: that this is someone whose mind and body ahve been pushed so close to the edge that it's feasible for him to have a fatal heart attack trying to get his tie off the ceiling fan or have a complete mental breakdown because a child called him a faggot or just straight up shoot himself in the head trying to win an argument.
and ofc the fact that people who've never played the game have heard of the chair death speaks to another thing about failure states, which is that they can be fun and memorable. there's a reason why ykow some people demonstarte nostalgia for the king's quest death messages
& then of course there's the ways that 'bad endings' can inform you about the reality of the world of the 'real ending'. crpg ending slides that show you sme horrible fate for the companion that you didn't complete the quest for provide information and context for the quest itself and how it helps them grow and change. & then there's the most literal possible execution of this, zero escape, where due to all kinds of temporal bullshit the events of the 'bad endings' directly causally influence the events of the 'true ending'.
finally, of course, there's games where what would be a 'fail state' elsewhere is just part of a diegetic narrative. pyre is my absolute favorite example of this. if you lose a game of prison basketball then you just lose, and the other guys win, and when the stakes are escaping to the surface that means an npc leaves and you and your friends stay underground. on two occasions, this led me to deliberately throwing matches because i felt the NPCs on the other side deserved the win more than my guys. hades, as much as i hate it for a bunch of other reasons, did pull a really cool maneuver in making the constant death and grinding repitition in-universe features of zagreus' experience and the game's themes. katana zero also goes cool places with this, taking the route of "every failed attempt is the protagonist's precognitive abilities showing him a future where he dies" and exploring what that means for him emotionally and psychologically.
so, yknow! i think there is a huge amount of super worthwhile space for failure states, whether it's by teaching you about the game's world and characters, or helping create a specific experience by pushing you to avoid them, or by simply integrating them directly into the narrative and interrogating them... i think they're pretty neat and a storytelling tool that's unique to games :)
last day of pride month lets all look at this tweet im im love with again. happy Pride bitchh!
You considered me racist and blocked me yet you let DieWhiteWoman reblog from you?
it's german for thewhitewoman
One of the most frightening things I've ever heard is when somebody pointed out that the existence of flinching away when you touch something hot implies that at some point there was an evolutionary reason to be afraid of scary fire monsters that attacked people 😨
imagine coming home and your mom found your steampunk clothes and shes just there with her arms crossed
she's holding up a ziplock bag of gears and springs asking you what they're for
"Heterostraightphobia doesn't exist"
Me, an innocent heterostraight: Good macklemorning to you
Tumbler SWJs:
*speaking from a ghostly web in a corner of the room* Remember your roots this pride month young queer,,, paying to get into a city-sanctioned pride party and walking in a pride parade where DHS and police is advertising how lgbtq friendly they are isnt who you are,,,
342,500,000 of us in this damn country and somehow not a single white person with an accuracy stat above 10% and basic planning abilities willing to take one for the team again.
Like yeag I’m sayin shit more bluntly on main rn but the fact that I see news of a Black person being lynched more often than I see news of someone at least trying to do something more useful against any piece of our current state of affairs is wild.
I try very hard to ride the line of not saying/doing things that will get my account of 13 years terminated but it’s like.
The right wing is constantly doing vigilante shit and imposing life, interpersonal, economic, and mental consequences on marginalized folks and those who support them for the crime of existing and being oppressed. They’ll publicly lynch 16 year old Black girls, 19 year old trans girls, burn down abortion clinics, shoot up literally anywhere, destroy/damage houses, and so much more.
And we.. protest and maybe do graffiti. Organize to “vote blue no matter who” type bullshit. We don’t even punch Nazis anymore lmfao. A lot of the non-white organizers and activists who became publicly known for stuff like taking down confederate flags, action in 2020, etc. in the past decade are dead or in jail now, often likely because of vigilante/cop action.
Iunno. I’m one Black tranny cripple and my literal ability to do.. anything, anymore is minimal. But I feel like I’m losing my mind watching almost nothing happen here while elsewhere resisters are literally dismantling weapons factories piece by piece until they can’t function.
And I just know if I hop on Facebook or Twitter and scroll for a couple minutes I’ll see another lynching and no meaningful material action and I’m so fucking tired.
I just tested this. I opened Facebook, scrolled for 11 seconds, and learned about Paris Harris, a Black trans woman, being shot in Dallas. She was 21.
“Paris was loved, remembered as “unapologetically Paris,” and deserved to be named with dignity.”
They won’t stop killing us, harming us, hunting us.
TW; child death, racial violence, racial violence via the court system, torture of a child
Opened Twitter, scrolled for 27 seconds, learned about Jor’Dynn Duncan, a 7 year old Black girl who was tortured to death over months with 90 stab wounds, by three white women (step-grandmother, step-mother, and step-sister) in Long Island after courts granted the step-mother custody over her.
This isn’t even counting the swaths of missing Black and brown children/teens, the trans/queer people nobody cares enough to report, the people we won’t know were gone until a body is found, the immigrants disappeared into concentration camps, the cities like Memphis literally under occupation right now.
They will keep doing this to us, all folks like us, until they can’t anymore. And I don’t understand why nobody is taking more than the most milquetoast action while we die and die and die
The link provided for Jor’Dynn Duncan appears to have died, so here’s some more articles about her:
A 7-year-old girl died in December on Long Island after prosecutors say she was abused and tortured by the people who were supposed to care
Loved ones of a 7-year-old girl allegedly murdered by her caretaker say they're haunted by how they learned of the little girl's death.
(SUFFOLK COUNTY, N.Y.) – Suffolk County District Attorney Raymond A. Tierney today announced the indictment of three defendants stemming fro
SCARY INMATE: welcome to the warriors prison what are you in for?
ME: flowing water, still rock. a sunlit meadow and a gentle breeze
GRUFF INMATE: she's one o' them poets! get 'er, lads!
[I swiftly dispatch them with a flurry of blows]
ME: even a delicate rose has thorns..
EFFETE INMATE: welcome to the poets prison what are you in for?
ME: what's it to ya?
WAIFISH INMATE: she's but a crude warrior! baffle her with poetry!
[I swiftly trounce them with graceful eloquence and beautiful prose]
ME: even a thorny bush has roses...
[one must imagine sisyphus] good morning, I put it all together 🧼
wanted to talk about it some because i have thoughts:
everyone wished really hard and manifested a friend for sinkdog