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so let me get this straight. when lando is self-critical and shows emotions he’s mentally weak and should be more like oscar who is the only one with a wdc mentality but when he’s calm and collected he’s depressed and still not championship material?
he can never ever ever win.
fr he was pretty mature about Oscar passing him and he’s always been mature and respectful when it comes to Oscar
does anyone know when jace's letter to kit will come out? doesn't it come with the kickstarter? also where did the first chapter of tlkof come from? did it also come from the kickstarter?😭
ready to fight for my life for ty blackthorn when twp is released because the way people are already infantilizing and patronizing him bc he’s autistic is so….
no one asked for this but i’ve seen a lot of people have weird takes on his autism so as an autistic woman i need to clear some things up ok 😭 so buckle up, this is gonna be a long one (seriously, it’s long)
the main arguments i’ve seen are: (i’m paraphrasing here btw)
“ty didn’t cry when livvy died but he did cry when kit said he wished he’d never known him so it’s clear that he does love kit.”
and
“ty clearly loves kit because he cried when they argued and it’s hard for autistic people to cry.”
and
“ty gets on my nerves because he didn’t react at all when kit told him he loved him”
like. i do get what you’re saying (with the first one. not the second one, that’s a stereotype, and also not the third one bc that’s just weird), because it does show that ty cares but like. obviously? all his actions before that showed that he cared too.
saying “he cried when him and kit fought but not when livvy died” just comes off as acting like he’s more upset about kit leaving and insulting him than he is about kit dying and that just rubs me the wrong way.
i know this is not common knowledge but autistic people often have delayed processing, especially when we’re grieving because it can be so overstimulating and even when we do grieve, it’s not gonna look the same as when an allistic person grieves.
so, delayed processing:
delayed processing in autism is where you are recording/aknowledge events as they happen, however that information is stored elsewhere in the brain and isn't taken in.
once the brain is ready or has capacity the information is suddenly taken in. this could be hours, weeks, days or even months later.
an example (from justkeepstimming_ on instagram):
An autistic person whose mother died at quite a young age. At the time, when his father was grieving, it did not appear the autistic son was upset.
However, one year after his mother's death, he suddenly processed that she was gone (permanently) and only then started the grieving process.
that example is pretty much exactly what happened with ty in qoaad.
partly, ty didn’t cry when livvy died because he didn’t accept that she was dead. he was so sure that he was gonna bring her back and for a long time, he probably didn’t even consider the fact that he might fail.
after livvy dies, kit says this:
“Everyone had been terrified. Ty would fall apart, they’d thought. Kit remembered Julian standing over Ty as he slept, one hand stroking his brother’s hair, and he’d been praying—Kit didn’t even know Shadowhunters prayed, but Julian definitely had been. Ty would crumble in a world without his sister, they’d all thought; he’d fall away to ashes just like Livvy’s body.”
if ty were allistic, he probably would have reacted like this immediately. and he does react like this eventually when his brain fully processes that the ritual didn’t work, that livvy is actually not coming back:
“Livvy!” Ty didn’t scream the word so much as it was ripped from him; he curled up, hugging himself, as if desperate to keep his body from shattering apart.”
this is when ty actually processes that his sister is gone. so saying, “ty didn’t cry when his sister died but he cried when him and kit fought” as if it’s some really romantic thing that he was sadder about kit leaving than livvy dying (which is not true) is just iffy because it’s such a stereotype and a misconception that autistic people don’t seem to care at all when people die, and way too many people from this fandom are feeding into that so much.
and ty does show is grieving throughout qoaad but because it’s not in the allistic way, a lot of readers don’t recognize it.
(i was actually so positively surprised to see that cassandra clare, an allistic woman, wrote the grieving process for an autistic character—and everything else about being autistic tbh—so well but it gives me so much hope for twp)
for example, autistic people (this is obviously not all autistic people as all autistic people are different but i'm just listing the signs i've seen in ty in qoaad) when they're grieving might show their grief gradually in more subtle ways by hurting themselves, emotionally or physically, which ty does do:
"The only person he was unkind to, Kit thought, was himself."
and we also see in gotsm that ty is continuously punishing himself because he is still grieving. livvy is simultaneously there and dead, and ty has to live with both the grief of her death and the guilt of her being stuck as a ghost.
there's also the fact that kit observes that ty starts keeping secrets and doing things alone, which is also common when trying to process emotions that haven’t fully caught up yet:
“In the past days, though, since Julian and Emma had woken up, Ty had been harder to find. If he was working on something, he hadn’t included Kit in it—a thought that hurt with surprising intensity.”
like. ty is pulling away because he is trying to process everything that’s happening. him excluding kit is very likely a symptom of some kind of delayed grief because it’s very unlike him to exclude kit from anything, as we can see when he says multiple times outright that he doesn’t want to do things without kit.
just because it’s more subtle than breaking down into tears doesn’t mean that he doesn’t feel it at all. it’s more likely that he simply feels too much and is shutting down because of it.
and of course his grief is gonna be subtle when he hasn’t even accepted and processed the fact that she’s dead yet.
and yes, he cried when kit told him he wished he’d never met him but that is so different because there was no room for denial. kit told him that word for word, the processing wasn’t delayed this time because there wasn’t really that much to process.
ty truly believed right away that his only friend wished he had never known him, and when livvy died he didn’t accept that she was dead. those things are different and pitting them against each other is weird.
so, onto the second argument/misconception i’ve seen that:
“ty clearly loves kit because he cried when they argued and it’s hard for autistic people to cry.”
this is a misconception stemming from the stereotype that autistic people are emotionless. yes, some autistic people might have a harder time crying because of shutdowns etc. but generalizing it to it’s hard for autistic people to cry is just wrong, especially because this has never been implied about ty in the text.
in fact, it’s the opposite:
“Ty heard everything twice as loud and fast as everyone else. The headphones and the music, Kit sensed, were a buffer: They deadened not just other noises, but also feelings that would otherwise be too intense. They protected him from hurt.
He couldn’t help but wonder what it would be like to live so intensely, to feel things so much, to have the world sway into and out of too-bright colors and too-bright noises. When every sound and feeling was jacked up to eleven, it only made sense to calm yourself by concentrating all your energy on something small that you could master—a mass of pipe cleaners to unravel, the pebbled surface of a glass between your fingers.”
so implying that it’s harder for ty to either cry or feel sad is just wrong. kit notes that “every sound and feeling was jacked up to eleven”, and this includes ty’s grief. him not crying when livvy died has nothing to do with how much he may or may not be feeling and everything to do with how delayed his processing was.
and the third complaint of ty is frustrating because he didn’t react when kit told him he loved him.
first of all, i don’t know if it’s my autistic ass not understanding allistic people but is it not normal to be in shock when someone tells you they love you in the middle of a necromancy ritual???
and second of all, this scene from city of heavenly fire where julian says “i know it’s hard to understand, ty, but we love you” like it’s supposed to explain their actions and ty reacts like this:
Ty looked at him blankly. He knew what “I love you” meant, and he knew it was good, but he didn’t understand why it was an explanation for anything.”
ty looking at kit blankly in surprise in qoaad is not him “not reacting”, it’s him trying to process 1) what that has to do with anything and 2) why that would be an explanation or an argument as to why ty should stop the ritual.
(it is probably also partly because ty thought kit had feelings for livvy at this point but that’s just speculation so i won’t get into it now)
to kit, this was probably his way of saying that because he loves him, ty can stop the ritual and kit will help him with the aftermath.
to ty, kit’s confession made no sense in that moment because why would kit loving him mean that he should stop the ritual? and this was most likely also the moment when his grief was really starting to kick in, so that just adds to it.
yeah idk if anyone made it to the end but as you can tell, i have a lot to say and i’m tired of people romanticizing ty’s grief.
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I’m going to need more of gamer boy kit in twp
Yulan magnolia flowers looking like birds
Society if twp ends with Kit realizing he doesnt really want to be a shadowhunter or go back to the Market, so he ends up going to college w an undeclared major to figure himself out, and Ty realizes the centurions are basically shadowhunter cops with a system that encourages bigotry and police violence so he also leaves them, and they both discard their preconceptions of themselves and try to figure out who they are, together
need someone with writing skills to write a kit college au
charles was a bit of a cunt about the swapping places thing but still great recovery race from him and absolute mega drive from Carlos.
He deserves the podium
I really badly want to write a kit and Ty f1 au where kit is a racer and Ty is his mechanic/engineer but I don’t know if anyone would be into it . Or like kit and Ty race in rival teams and they grew up together wanting to race in f1 but grew apart when they had a misunderstanding when they were 15 and there’s so much angst
I keep opening and closing this stupid create a post thing because I need help but I don't want to ask for it.
Here's the deal. My little family has covid. Myself, my husband, and my little man. Because I was just out of work on maternity leave, I have no PTO. I'm missing at least 5 days of work. That's 40 hours so roughly 400 dollars after taxes and shit.
There's also a chance Little Man may need to go to the hospital. Which will be another expense I can't really afford. I was already kind of on fumes because of my time out of work, but this is really hurting me.
All this to say, if you can spare anything, I'd appreciate it. I hate hate hate asking for help, but I'm going to need it.
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happy birthday yuki!💛
I feel like the fandom overreacted so much with this weeks sobh post . Jem and Tessa’s reaction to kit bringing a gun in front of their 2 year old daughter, shadowhunters or not, is completely valid. Kit himself admitted that she might have moved in front of him because the gun was dangerous to Mina, the only reason he was insecure about it was because of his past trauma of being neglected . Jem and Tessa did nothing wrong, can we stop hating on them and deeming them unfit parents because of a 200 word novella that barely showcases them and doesn’t show the whole story.
Ok I know I’m never serious about anything but I’m legit pissed now
Literally half my dash and like most of the recent posts in the Tessa Gray and Jem Carstairs tags are about how much it hurt Kit that Tessa stepped in front of Mina and ‘how could she do this, why would she need to protect Mina from him, he would never hurt her, poor Kit-’
Stop. Just stop for a second, seriously. Anyone who has spent literally thirty goddamned seconds reading gun safety rules would know that the most important rules are to always point the gun in a safe direction, and to behave as if it is always loaded, even if it isn’t. Yeah, it looks cool in movies when people are careless with their guns but that’s not how it works in real life.
Kit was running around, with a loaded, runed gun, that was technically malfunctioning (since it didn’t work the way Christopher built it to), that was probably full of rust and gunk and god knows what else from over a century of disuse and dark magic. Not his fault since this would probably be his first time using a gun, but you know who probably knows about gun safety? Tessa. You know, World War 2 nurse Tessa? Who probably treated hundreds of patients with bullet wounds, at least a few of which must have been due to misfires and other accidents? Frankly I’d have been surprised if she hadn’t freaked out.
‘Kit felt rotten-’ oh wow, how do you think he would have felt if the gun had fired and hit Mina? Real amazing, I’m sure. If it had been Emma running around with a gun (because Julian is responsible enough to know better), don’t you think Jem and Tessa would have shielded Kit too? I don’t think anyone would be complaining then about how they don’t trust Emma, instead the tags would be full of posts about how they consider Kit family, and how they’ve completely forgotten he’s not their own son and all that. No hate to anyone but I just want to point out that the action of shielding a person from the gun is not malicious, and the problem is with Kit and his insecurities, which I really hope get adressed in The Wicked Powers, hopefully before he gets together with Ty (and independent of their relationship).
Mondays sobh post, was probably one of the most realistic things I've seen so far in tsc. Because don't tell me that most people don't clam up and not resolve whatever trauma they've been through. Usually they even take it a couple steps further and lash out at people in anger and fried. They project on other people.
Why are Jem and Tessa getting hate for the fact that they reacted MILDLY (in a relative sense) towards the gun and scabbard. They obviously bring back bad memories. Yes, we know Kit is hurt and it hurts everyone because he's alr been through so much. But we don't know the extent of pain that Jem and Tessa are gg through. Its not in their POV so we have no clue how they're feeling. We don't KNOW the full story, we CAN'T JUDGE them for it.
People irl can act a whole lot worse than what Jem and Tessa have shown.
john mulaney has checked into rehab. here’s what we are going to do:
• support him
• wish him well
• respect his privacy
here’s what we are NOT going to do
• make jokes because addiction is not funny
• speculate anything about his marriage or personal life
• attack those in his personal life (*ahem, leave anna alone. don’t go asking pete davidson for details. none of that)
addiction is a serious disease, and while this news may be troubling, i am so proud of him for seeking help. you can too.
Y’all consider people to be too sensitive nowadays but have you ever considered that maybe the things you say aren’t as light hearted as you think and that you sound like a fucking dickhead ?
