The other day I saw a post on Instagram from an autistic person saying we understand exactly what neurotypical people think of us.
And I can't help but think back to how true that is.
I have spent my whole life being surrounded only by neurotypical people. So obviously I've spent my whole life having to analyze how they think and try to imitate them.
Now I understand their thought patterns almost every time. Sometimes I overinterpret things, or I'm too naive about their intentions, but most of the time I understand exactly the reasoning going on in their minds.
I know how they think, but I can't seem to think the same.
It's... a little complicated to explain. I know what they want from me, but I can't do it. I understand the reasoning behind their behaviors, but I don't understand WHY they have this reasoning.
In fact, it often got me to think : "what's wrong with them ?" then I realize that I am the only one who doesn't understand so I think rather : "what's wrong with ME ?"
But there is nothing wrong with me, it's just the system that makes us believe that the neurotypical way of reasoning and perceiving is the only one that is valid, but it's not true, my perception is as valid than theirs.
So yeah... it's not like I don't understand absolutely nothing about their way of thinking. I understand how they reason. It's just that, from my point of view, it doesn't make sense. If I could choose to reason like a neurotypical person, I would refuse.
