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fruityyamenrunner

something charmingly twentieth century about this

cryptotheism

This counts as a spell

demilypyro

Placeable AOE effect

angelofthemornings-deactivated2

One thing I really like about Beverly Engel's book It Wasn't Your Fault, which is about PTSD-induced toxic shame, is that quite a bit of it deals with people who haven't broken The Cycle of Abuse (TM) and have gone on to hurt others. That's a really underserved and vulnerable patient population, and statistically, it's also MASSIVE. I don't think I've read a single other self-help type book on PTSD and self-loathing that confronts the possibility that you're exactly as bad as you think you are.

angelofthemornings-deactivated2

I felt better that it so much as mentioned that children can react to abuse with ungovernable rage. Everybody likes the image of PTSD patients as internalizing everything and becoming doormats, which does happen, and often, but it's not the only narrative. Personally I've always hated my abusers and have always wanted everyone who so much as breathed wrong in my direction from ages 0 to 18 to burn eternally in hell. I *never* thought any of it was my fault and ever since I was a toddler I was willing to make it everybody else's problem, and it's really relieving to read a clinical perspective that acknowledges that abuse victims can act that way too.

reasonablywittyatbest

It's wild to me that its such a neglected subset of abuse victims. Its really common. When I still lived with my parents and was still subjected to my father every fucking day I would lash out terribly at my mother, to the point when i went to visit them for years afterwards she was afraid I would lash out again. We've worked it out, I'm a much better person when I'm not regularly subjected to mental and emotional abuse, but like, its just so common.

I think it must be, at least partially, because, people hate the imperfect victim. Its easy for so many people to sympathize with someone who never lashed out. Less so for people to sympathize with people who are angry and lash out. Even though its a perfectly sensible reaction to being hurt over and over. I'm sure most people would like to think they would simply never.

I don't think this is the whole reason, but, I think it plays into it.

sunspotpony

Similarly, there’s a narrative of, you cannot experience grief over having fucked up. That if you are hurting because you caused harm, because you were the cause of harm, that you’re not allowed to grieve, because you “earned your sorrow. You deserve to bottle it up and to hurt for the bad things you have done,”

Which is punitive logic. It’s copthink. Which is bad.

angelofthemornings-deactivated2

important

In fact, you can actually give yourself trauma over fucking up too badly and doing, witnessing, or failing to prevent something evil that goes against your morals; for instance, if you steal your mother's life savings due to drug addiction, kill a civilian during a military operation (please do not join the military), or became abusive because you didn't have the tools and skills yet to handle BPD. In the field of psychology this is called "moral injury" or "perpetrator trauma."

demilypyro

having free control over our endrocrine systems and the ability to change our genitals is currently inextricably tied to trans rights, and for good reason, but frankly i don't think it even needs to be. it should just be a matter of bodily autonomy, and that should be universal. if a cis dude wants tits and a pussy i think that would be fine. if cis women want a dick or nothing at all that should be allowed i think. people shouldn't need to be transgender to be allowed to change their bodies. free the nipple, enlarge the nipple, remove the nipple. whatever the fuck you want. i dont know if there's a term for this belief but i hold it very strongly. everybody biohack yourselves NOW

kedreeva

Take a moment from your busy day to relax and observe all the ways to pester a peahen, at her insistence.

i-am-bic

"There's no platonic explanation for this" <-you need to be nicer to your friends. Right now

esmeralda-anistasia

#STOP SAYING 'PLATONIC' WHEN YOU MEAN 'CASUAL'#RELATIONSHIPS CAN BE PLATONIC AND ABSOLUTELY DERANGED

strawberry-crocodile

for real tho it feels exhausting that ive seen this whole "woman should be allowed to abstain from X beauty standard" -> "i perform X beauty standard, am i evil? do you think im evil? please forgive me i came up with a dozen excuses 🥺" since like 2015 (and i know its been going on longer than that) like girl thats not the poiiiiint

strawberry-crocodile

look me in the eyes. repeat after me. "i face societal pressure to perform this beauty standard. i should not face that pressure. i conform to this standard. i am rewarded for performing to this standard. i need to respect women who do not perform this standard. this is not about whether or not i am a sinner for wearing makeup."

cartoonofmilk

yknow, as counterintuitive as it may seem, helping a suicidal friend isn't a matter of stopping them from dying. it's about helping to make their world one that's worth living in.

it's important to make that distinction, lest we make people's quality of life worse in the name of "protecting" them.

drafon

To quote the material I use to teach prevention:

Most people who are having thoughts of suicide have not decided that they want to die. Many of them have not even decided that they don't want to live. Instead they want to talk to someone about not wanting to live.

el-jarado

I am not a huge fan of the sci-fi trope of humans as boring or special, which can be troublesome sometimes. Mostly I’d like if there was more of a pendulum effect instead of aliens being flabbergasted by us all the time or being condescending.

Sure, it’s fun when a tasty human snack is something very poisonous to aliens, but I wanna take that gag about species differences further! Rather than “har har, the Nonsensoleans can’t eat spicy peppers like us,” and leave it at that, show me the Nonsensoleans being aghast at the things humans eat willingly, but also the humans who found that amusing doing a double take when the Nonsensoleans find the ship’s extremely toxic cleaning supplies, remark on humans keeping “the spices” in weird places, and having a good old fashioned Nonsensolean barbecue, which is so poisonous smelling it is dangerous.

Aliens that are surprised and impressed by the temperature differences humans not only can withstand but willingly subject themselves to, but find subjecting themselves to levels of sensory deprivation humans would consider torture a useful mental exercise.

The “your species is so weird (admiring, slightly worried)” is so much better when it cuts every which way. Galactic community is full of freaks and nobody is 100% sure what everyone else can do.

werewolf-transgenderism

this is fucking killing me bro. computah, show me more hot hockey firefighters whaling on cops

redarmyscreaming

fuck-customers

magnetictapedatastorage

The Eightfold AI lawsuit exposed what happens when companies treat employment decisions like ad targeting — and why the fix requires enginee

a bit more context

heyfruitcake

Now that everyone is discussing Nolan's Odyssey movie, I feel like it's a good time to let non-Italians know that the production dumped plastic props into the Italian sea. Weirdly enough I could not find any article in English about it but it's a fucking problem nonetheless.

I might translate this article later today. This one was the most complete one, even in Italian news it's not talked about that much.

Non è la prima volta che la produzione solleva un vespaio in Sicilia. A Lipari una squadra di sub sarebbe però già impegnata a bonificare i

ignitelimelight

They dumped plastic skeletons in environmentally protected areas, against the literal contracts they had to sign to get the permits to film in environmentally protected areas. Like they not only did a bad ecological thing that freaked out some divers, they literally broke environmental protection laws and their contract with the Italian government

fuckyeahdavidandyonatan

They also filmed in illegally occupied territories in western sahara

Sahrawi filmmakers criticise Christopher Nolan for complicity in Moroccan exploitation of Sahrawi land

cathartidae

hey. dont cry. 566 california condors, okay? 369 free flying.[1] it's gonna be okay.

cathartidae

for the record, in 1987 there were 27. [2] things can get better.

cathartidae

HEY. DONT CRY. 607 CALIFORNIA CONDORS, OKAY? 392 FREE FLYING. [3]

shithowdy

today i took the worst photo of a loon one can possibly take while remaining identifiably a loon

shithowdy

loon :)

shithowdy

i painted my loon :)

creatingblackcharacters

We will ALWAYS be here, and we will ALWAYS overcome!

yayayazi

What if therapy with mumbo (cutout) got a little sad?

Sorry for the scuff, it’s a smth small I made during work

the-haiku-bot

Sorry for the scuff,

it’s a smth small

I made during work

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

#hermitcraft

birdsareblooming

“Blink Motherfucker” an essay of Papyrus’ battle.

Papyrus’ battle is fucking weird an unnatural and here’s why.

Ok so, think about the battle sprites.

Nabstablook’s eyes shake so, constatly moving.

Toriel stays VERY still but her expression changes enough to make up for that.

(I couldn’t find a good gif so uh https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmC-pihm8YE If you want proof)

Undyne? bouncing. hair blowing in the wind.

Mad Dummy? bouncing.

Mettaton? Dancing his motherfucking heart out.

Asgore? bounceing.

Asriel? flying around at the speed of sound.

Sans? bouncing, swaying side to side.

Almost all the other monsters bounce and sway as well.

What’s weird about Papyrus’ battle is he doesn’t move at all.

His cape could be flowing in the wind. But no. Completely still. He could be moving at ALL but nope. But you know what’s REALLY WEIRD?? During the battle…Papyrus’ mouth doesn’t even move. watch a playthrough again….i’m right.

During Papyrus’ date he moves, his mouth moves, his expression changes, he’s very active.

But in his battle? Nothing. A statue. It’s like there’s a cardboard cut out of Papyrus. Papyrus, the most active charecter in undertale not moving a mother fucking inch.

Blink Motherfucker.

birdsareblooming

Hey so, real quick.

A Bunch or the reactions are people say “Oh! He’s concentrating on not killing you!”

Which…..I actually took the exact opposite interpretation.

Because, think about the movement in battles. Who moves the most?

Omega Flowey

Undyne the undying

Asriel Dankerr

Mettaton

Mad Dummy

People who are putting their ALL into killing you. Putting in all their concentration and effort into ending your little motherfukn lifu.

The people who move the least? (besides Papyrus the paper cutout)

Toriel

Nabstablook

most of the minor battles

Asgore

So, Toriel: Who does not want to kill you, and due to her lack of concentration on her attacks and more on her emotions causes the attacks to miss you. (Can still easily accidentally kill you) But still, distracted. Not putting her all into the battle

Nabstablook: Who needs ghost depression therapy. Really not feeling up to it right now. Not putting their all into it.

Minor monster battles: They do MOVE, and a lot of them do extensively, but they’re more still than like, Undyne or MTT. They’re only fighting you out of obligation. Not putting their all into it.

Asgore: He moves more than the other’s I pointed out, but his movements are small. He bounces slightly and slowly, if he moves it’s for his trident attack. Because well, he does NOT want you dead. He does NOT want that seventh soul. He’s not putting his all into it.

(Note: Sans is kinda an inbetween. bc he bounces a bunch and dodges and teleports a HELL of a lot. moves his arm. but he also like, aint moving a lot compaired to Asriel and Undying if you get me.)

D-Do you get where i’m coming from?

The Sprites that move the most? Putting in EVERYTHING into this battle. They want you dead. They are using all their energy and strength to end you.

The Sprites that stay still? Not putting in their all.

Not putting in their all.

Papyrus has the same amount of energy he usually has during his date, and the finale. He zips and zooms around the screen like a ping pong ball.

He is always putting in 110% into every little thing he does.

In his battle, he is still. A statue. A motherfucking plastic barbie. Not even moving his mouth.

(Note: I think some sprites don’t move their mouths in battle screens, but Papyrus moves his jaw later on the date, the dump, and in the finale. There is no excuse for him not moving his mouth during battle. But you know who else never moves their mouth bc he’s to lazy to? Sans the mother fu-. Sans is never putting in his all and doesn’t even bother to move his mouth to words.)

(Also note the only time he makes a diffrent expression is when you hit him, and not for long)

Papyrus isn’t putting in all his energy.

Papyrus isn’t putting in all his power.

Now listen, If when using his bare minimum, he can still control his attacks to a point where you cannot die, he can summon words spelled out and a GIANT FUCKING BONE, have a whole conversation with himself and not paying attention while fighting you, holy fuck.

I don’t want to know what Papyrus is like putting in his all.

deadaccount528258835

The real reason Flowey befriended Papyrus was because of Papyrus’ unmatched raw power.

birdsareblooming

Good time to bring back the fact that everyone has two vines around them except Papyrus who has four.

Tbh with how much Flowey experimented with resets he could have seen Papyrus actually trying and I wanna see the look on that bastard’s face when he got yeeted from the ruins to new home and back.

squeakybismarck

papyrus could be an all powerful being, literally capable of killing literally everyone in the underground but is like “NAH, I’M JUST GONNA CHILL OUT HERE WITH MY SPAGHETTI AND DINOSAUR EGGS OATMEAL” that just radiates big mood to me, and i wish i knew why

roseverdict

shaggy, papyrus, and kirby are the trifecta of “can i destroy you in an instant? yes. would i rather just have lunch? also yes”

seafoodmomma-deactivated2021121

FUCK YOURE RIGHT JKHSKJHKJSDHKJSDHDS

silver-tongues-blog

it makes sense. monsters are only as strong as their souls and and emotions. They take more damage when something wants to do more damage to them and they deal more damage when they really want to make what theyre fighting hurt. Papyrus is the one who is the most sure of himself. the one who has the most self confidence and empathy. Papyrus has the strongest soul and shares that strength with everyone he meets.