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Smart phones {Michael}
IM BACK, AND IM NOT DEAD! Sorry for being MIA, school has just been a load of hot confusing stinky shit, but here I am with an original (ikr) story. I've also been working one something else that I'm very proud of. Hopefully you guys will stick around long enough to see it, but yeah. ~ I stare down at my iPhone 6s. I watch as the numbers on the green bar on the top of the smaller screen continuously count up. From 1 hour, 40 minutes, and 10 seconds to 2 hours, 1 minute, and 5 seconds. The dead silence between us grows longer and longer. The heavy weight on my chest progressively continues to crush my heart, lungs and ribs. My mouth opens, my words getting lost in my throat. "I-I-I, um, uh, well, I can, um, explain..." My mouth fumbles over the words that weakly escaped. I can hear him sigh on the other end, his mind reeling as he tried to find the words. "I don't think, uh, I really-ugh-want to hear right now Y/N. I really don't want to have anything to do with you right now." His voice rings, cracking with subtle anger hidden behind each word. I drop my head down low, tears brimming my almond shaped eyes. I breathe in harshly, letting out a shaky breath. I hear him do the same, letting me know I'm not the only one trying not to drown in their own tears of pain and sorrow. But I have no right to cry. It was my stupid mistake that lead me here. But it wasn't a mistake. I was fully aware of what I was doing the minute I agreed to go home with him 3 months ago. I knew what I was doing when I picked up his call, and saw him again a week later. I knew what I was doing when he told me he needed me. I wasn't drunk, high on any drug, blackmailed. I was dead sober, and sleeping with a man who wasn't my Michael. "Please don't hate me..." Were the only words I could mutter out, my voice making it evident that I was crying. I was the first one to break. And honestly, I deserve it. I deserve to feel this guilt. It's nothing compared to what he must be feeling now. But I needed to feel it. I needed to feel the hurt I caused myself. To let me know I'm still human. That I'm not just some asshole that breaks hearts for fun, and doesn't think twice about it. That I can hurt from the pain I caused others. The pain that I caused Michael to feel. The pain that the affair feels. I hurt them both, and nothing can change that. The back of my throat burns, but heart pumping so fast that I can't feel the pulse anymore. I hold back the sob that I choke myself on. "I don't hate you, I love you. Even after this, I still love you. And that's what hurts. That I've fallen in so deep that you can rip my heart out but I still love you," He pauses, a sob emitting from his end of the phone. My cries become louder, harmonizing with his. "And one day, that stupid love may kill me." My chest burns as I let out a sob that took my whole body to make. I knew what he was telling me. And I wondered if the pain would hurt any more than it does now if he told me without dancing around the words. "Please...don't, don't do this" I hiccup. But I knew there was no turning from this point. I was just hurting myself. And hurting him even more. I hear the ding of him having up the phone, unable to speak another word to me. In a fit of blind rage and pain, I hurl my phone across the room, obliterating the screen. Time is no longer on my side. it never was. because he's waving goodbye now. Smart phones, dumb shit.
Chandeliers
Pairing: Gang!Y/N/Gang!Ashton
Rating: PG-ALL
Request: Ish
Words: 4.000+
Summary: In honour of people complaining that Y/N never has a badass attitude in gang!AU’s here’s me throwing in an AU about her and the boys kidnapping another dude in order to get some drugs at a masquerade ball where Ashton is deeply intrigued by Y/N’s way of handling hardcore shit :-) x
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Ok, so the video’s nor is the song owned by me, I just copy, cut, passed and put this all together, however this video alone I did make. The song is called ‘I Can’t Stop Drinking About You’
Ok, so the video’s nor is the song owned by me, I just copy, cut, passed and put this all together, however this video alone I did make. The song is called ‘Feels by Kiira’
Ok, so the video’s nor is the song owned by me, I just copy, cut, passed and put this all together, however this video alone I did make. The song’s in order are:
Nightcore - Clarity (Muffoxx Edit)
(Beginning half of second clip) Tyga - Switch Lanes Feat The Game (Official Music Video) In HD
(Ending hand of second clip) Delirious (Boneless) - Steve Aoki ft. Kid Ink
Cee Lo Green- Crazy
some remix of Two On by Tinashe
Ok, so the video’s nor is the song owned by me, I just copy, cut, passed and put this all together, however this video alone I did make. The song is called ‘Courtesy Call’
O, so the video’s nor is the song owned by me, I just copy, cut, passed and put this all together, however this video alone I did make. The song is called ‘Rihanna vs. Imagine Dragons - Radioactive Disturbia (Mashup)’
O, so the video’s nor is the song owned by me, I just copy, cut, passed and put this all together, however this video alone I did make. The song is called ‘Kisses For Breakfast’
Are you going to continue temporary bliss because it was really good
I am soo sorry that it’s been months since you asked this question and I never responded, you probably don’t even remember Temporary bliss, but I’m going to answer your question anyways; not I am not making a part two, I’m just going to leave it up to the readers to imagine how it would continue on from where I left off.
Twins (L.H)
Requested by: @cierrahemmings
I didn’t tell him yet, but I know what is reaction will be. It was only a few months ago but had no result. Since then we never purposely tried again. I lied to him by having one of my friends give take and give me a pregnancy test, when I knew that I was. I wanted to surprise him on out 5 year anniversary. For weeks I lied to him, trying to hide the symptoms the best I could. It was a lot of weird looks and distance, but it’ll all be worth it. I’m only 7 weeks in, but I wanted to celebrate as early with him as I can. And I don’t know if it’s from the excessive eating, but I think I’m already gaining a baby bump. He and I weren’t trying for one after the first failed time, but the topic has came up a few times. I guess we never really thought it would happen, let alone this soon. I sighed nervously as I looked at my half naked frame. I was supposed to be getting ready for our dinner date in about 20 minutes but I was so heavily distracted I forgot. I was thinking so hard on the perfect way to break the news that I didn’t hear him come in and call my name. i had planned on showing him the first test I took, which was sitting on the counter a few feet away.I snapped my head towards the door when I heard the heavy footsteps up the stairs. Quickly I grab the dress I had prepared and made myself busy, with my makeup as if I was getting ready all along. But I forgot to hide the test, and i didn’t realize that until Luke was already busing through the door.
“Hey babe, ready for tonight?” I asks as he gets ready to take a piss. I chuckled and rolled my eyes at the awkward boy who has grown a little too comfortable around me.
“Just about” I mumble, praying that he doesn’t look to his left. The test was just on the corner, and was hard to miss when looking in the right direction. But just has I wish that he took a quick glance at me, his eyes falling to the counter.
“Uh, babe, whats that?” His voice rings as he pulls up his pants, grabbing the test before i could.
“Uh, yeah, about that. I was, uh, going to, um, tell you during dinner...” I trailed off, scratching the back of my head.
“B-but I though-”
“I lied, I had one of my friends, Cici take one for me. I wanted to surprise you on our anniversary. I’m 6 weeks in. Thats the first ultrasound.”
“Wait, why are there two little dot things?” He asked, my eyes rolling once again at his lack if information of the names of the pregnancy stages.
“It’s currently called an embryo, in 2 weeks it’ll become a fetus. And theres two embryo’s because I’m pregnant with twins Lucas. Obviously I’m too early in to tell the genders but I’m hoping for two boys, their a less of a pain in the ass then girls. But we won’t know until the 24th week-”
“Ok stop with your science talk, I get it, you were a science major, but lets focus on the fact that we’re going to be parents! I’m going to be a dad!” Luke squeals picking me up and placing little kisses all over my entire face. I couldn’t help but laugh. He eventually put me down and apologized for messing up the makeup that I “must’ve spent a long time on.”
“It’s ok, I was looking at the baby bump, or what I think is one, it also be because of my excessive eating lately and I’m honestly betting on that because you’re not supposed to be showing until your 12-16 week but my mom said that she was showing early when she was pregnant with me-”
“your science talking again”
“Right, I was looking at the feasible baby bump before you walked in”
"I can't believe I'm about to be a daddy" He smiles, kneeling down to your stomach and saying,
"Hey lil bud, it's your daddy. I can't wait to see you. Your going to love your mummy." He kisses your stomach, standing back up and kissing your lips.
Can I request a pregnancy reveal for Luke? Like you put the ultrasound picture on the projector screen
Sure thing hun, it’s be posted before Monday. I’ll tag you in the preference so you’ll be notified <3
Empty Space (AI)
Ashtons p.o.v
The wind blows softly against my face, my hair flowing around. I close my eyes and take in the surreal moment. I didn't know what to feel. One side of me is happy that she's gone. All the pain, misery and torcher left with her. But the other part of me is guilty. Her parents crying every night, her friends being held by the police. I'm the reason why she's gone. She's not dead, contrary to everyone's beliefs. I wish I could tell the police that, but that would only place me under the suspect list.
Y/N. God, where do I begin with her? She was perfect. Perfect hair, skin, smile. She was 5'4. She never liked dresses, only wearing them for special occasions. She was so kind. Sweet. She would participate in all school events, became a YTH (Young Teacher Helper) so she could help other students. She always saw the best in people. Even with Lauren (A/N sorry for those who are named Lauren ;/). Lauren was perfect too. But she was a different kind of perfect. Y/N was perfect because of her flaws. When her makeup was a little heaver on one side. When there was one strand of hair that suck out from the rest. Her left eye was smaller than her right (only noticable when she smiles). All of the little imperfections made her perfect. Lauren on the other hand was perfect because she was fake. All the makeup and plastic surgery and she was still ugly to those who could see past her fake smile. She was evil. She ran the school off of fear. If you pissed her off, she made sure to kill your social status, in and out of school. If you denied her friend request, if she thought you were a threat to her "throne." Also of it could cause you to be socially killed, even if you were unaware of your actions.
Y/N was my bestfriend. We grew up together. Eventually one thing led to the next and by junior year we woke up naked and hungover in some strangers bed. After that, we gave dating a try. And I couldn't be happier. We were the new and up coming power couple of the school. Of course that didn't sit well with Lauren and her meathead boyfriend Ryan.
Ryan is the caption of the football team-no surprise there-. Him and Lauren were dating since the 6th grade. They would bully and hurt everyone around them. Ever since the day I rejected Lauren(she wanted to see a movie with me), her and Ryan made it their mission to make my school life miserable. After year 11, I grew numb to it. The relentless bullying, rude comments, my locker getting messed with, the daily beatings by he football team, the dirty looks, being ignored because they said to. But then Y/n transfured to my school halfway through the 11th year. Her parents sent her to catholic school since kindergarden, but it soon bacame too expensive for them to keep on sending her there. I was the only person she knew there so the school changed her schedule to match mine perfectly. We sat next to each other every class. We were each others only friends, and by the looks of it that was the way it was going to be for the rest of our high school life. I tried warning her about Lauren, and she tried to stay out of her way. But it was her big heart that lead her to where she is now.
We were walking down the hall. We had study hall-our last period of the day-and like always, we left school early. She would be my ride to and from school on her motorcycle. We liven in a 2 family house together so we'd always be over one another house. We both had a side of the closet for the other. I was either at her house or she was at mine. Our families got used to the occasional extra guest at the dinner table and would often buy extra groceries. We always had fruit snacks at my house for Y/N just like she always had vegemite in her fridge. We turned a corner and saw this kid named Luke being punched the face by Ryan while Lauren silently cheered him on. Luke was in some of my classes, including music. He and I were mutual friends, being comfortable with each other when we were partnered up. Y/N was already irritating Lauren when Y/N's looks and kindness got her quickly moving up the social ranks. But when Y/N made the mistake of intervening the abuse Luke was endorsing, that's when Lauren lost it. From that day on, Y/N got the worst of the bullying. She would come home with bruises, hateful words swirling her head. At first she didn't seem phased. But then she began staying up late, playing those words over and over. It wasn't the words that killed her. It was when she thought about them and heard them in her own voice. She became more reserved, shy. All of those who turned to her for help turned to the next. It wasn't until the rumor spread around school lie wildfire when she finally broke. I knew she cut and tried relentlessly to get her to stop. I was there when she had the urges, when she needed to cry, when the hate got too much for her to handle. But when the rumor that she was pregnant with the principles baby and had an abortion started, there was nothing I could do to save her. I knew something was wrong when she didn't come in my house with me-like we agreed-. I didn't press on the subject because I knew she needed some space. Now that I look back I wish I did.
The next day she was found hanging in her room from the hanging light. She wasn't dead, but in a coma. Doctors said that she would wake up, but would never be able to function on her own. She would be paralyzed from the neck down, needing constant assistance. She wouldn't be able to talk, just blink on her own. Both our families agreed that it was better for us to just let her go instead of letting her suffer like that. I watched as they took her off life support. The second I heard that line go flat, I couldn't handle it anymore. I ran right out of that hospital, and continued running until I got home. All I could think about is what would've happened if I just invited her in, or followed her to her room. If I had just invaded the space I thought she needed. Then she would be alive today. For weeks all I did was blame myself before I took to light what caused her to do that.
Lauren and fucking Ryan. They drove her so suicide, and I was beyond pissed at that. How they would walk around the school with the fake little smiles that they always have plastered on their fake faces. But the day they were able to walk free from the case, I decided to bring justice into my own hands. I began sending annoymus letters to them. They started off nice and sweet. Complimenting their hair or clothes. Then I started giving them gifts. A new iPhone case or that tee shirt they really wanted. But soon enough I started asking them for things. Steal Bea's gym clothes-Bea is her best friend-, tell tommy that Ryan fucked his girlfriend. If they didn't comply to my wishes, I would take something important to them. And if they turned me into the police, I would show the police video footage of them harming others from the school cameras that everyone thought didn't work anymore. I would send them bit's and pieces of the video clips to prove that I'm not bluffing. I would watch as they look over their shoulders at school, thinking about how Y/N and others would do the same. Y/N never deserved to look over her shoulder in fear like that.
For weeks I would progressively toucher them, until there was no more fun in it. Then I took it up a notch.
Ryan was the first to go. I had him collect pints of his own blood for about a month, one per day. After that I made him make it look like he was murdered in his own house. Making bloody hand prints, blood splatters, etc. Everyone thought he was dead when in reality he was halfway across the world, off the grid and unknown. Then Lauren, but her situation was different. And painful. weeks ago, a girl named Kate went missing, and she just so happened to look just like Lauren. I found her dead body, preserved in a container by a lake. it was hidden and out of sight. I put it in my truck and went home. In the basement I set up a little lab and drained Kate of all her blood. I asked Lauren to do the same as Ryan did with her blood. It would be sent to a remote place and I would pick it up. There, I would transfer the blood into rates body. After that, I kidnapped Lauren. I kept her at the remote place her blood would be dropped off. There, over the course of 4 days I would come in, masked and covered head to toe in clothes so I would't be recognized, and would peal off her finger prints. I would go home and take off Kate's and stitch Lauren's on. After the 4 days I gave her a plane ticket to Asia with a note telling her that if she did't get on the plane she would live in the place for the rest of her life, and I would make her watch the news everyday about her and her parents asking for their daughter to come back. She went to the airport, and I made it clear that she was never to return or I'll do much worse.
After she left, the rest of my plan took off. I put Kate's dead body, dressed in the clothes Lauren changed out of before she left, back in the container and placed it back where I found it. I gave an anonymous tip to the police and they found it. Everything fell into place when it was announced that it was Lauren's body. I did it. I got rid of those who caused so much pain and agony and suffering. I smiled as I looked down at the tomb stone.
'Laura Marie Patten
Born July 21, 1997-Died June 8, 2016
Shale we always remember the caring and kind daughter of Mitch and Karmen Patten'
I sighed as I pulled out the knife, crossing out the last line.
'Laura Marie Patten
Born July 21, 1997-Died June 8, 2016
Shale that bitch burn in hell'
Falling Apart
I'm here again, another day in his bed. Another sleepless night. My eyes sag as I desperately try to keep them open. I can't let myself fall asleep. If I do then the memories will come back. The fighting, screaming, crying, pretending everything is okay when it's obviously not. The trying to fix things but failing, the hurt, the pain, the storming out in a fit of rage, the driving away at 59 miles per hour. The pulling into his garage, the screaming, the attempt to calm me down, the brake downs. All of it, coming to haunt me in my dreams. My parents have been fighting like no other for the past few weeks and it's seriously taking a toll on me. I'm constantly being told to pick a side, deciding who's right or wrong. My parents need to realize that putting me in that kind of situation is...damaging to me. It tears my heart to see the masked pain in their eyes when I pick the others side. When I tried confronting them about it I was basically told to shut the fuck up because I don't know a thing about love and heartbreak. At least they were able to agree on something for a few short moments. In pure rage and anger, I stole their car key and drove off to my best friends house, Michael. He was always there for me, ever since I was a small child. His parents separated before he was born so this was one of the few topics he didn't know how to approach. Both of us were lost in what to do. His mother was on a business trip for a few months when this all happened. His dad would pop by every few days to make sure everything was okay but I couldn't bring myself to face another adult. My parents haven't tried contacting me once in the past 4 weeks I've been crashing at Michaels. Past of me thanks them for giving me space but the other part is hurt that they can't even bother to send a simple "Are you okay..?" Text. All Michael has been doing is comforting me, day and night. Going and getting a few days worth of clothes from my house in the first week I've been there. Giving me food, advice, hugs, a place to sleep. Everything you could ask for. Anything I wanted he did for me. Michael was never a perfect person. He would always loose bits of his hair from dying it so much. He has a little scar on his right ear from playing with fire. He's a little insecure about it stomach around the beach because he doesn't have a six-pack. His voice does this weird higher pitched squeak when he's shocked or excited. He spends most of his time playing video games or sleeping or eating or with his growing successful band. He's not perfect. But in this moment, he's doing everything absolutely perfectly.
Disconnected {C.T.H A.U} In which a girl with a heart too small meets a boy with one much too big.
0.0//Disconnected
"It all happened so fast. How was my little brain supposed to process that? That I, at 6 years of age,was being charged with the rape and murder of my parents.
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0.1//Tyler
I was 6. I remember that night like it was yesterday. My mom, Kate was in the kitchen cooking that night. We were going to have Chilli dip. I loved my mommy. I loved her so much. She was the most beautiful women you'd ever seen in your life. She was 5'7, thick curly blonde hair. She had the most striking blue eyes with rosy cheeks. She had fair skin, delicate and soft. She had thin lips, but her smile would light up the world. She had one dimple on her left cheek. Her voice was so soothing and calm. She was so nice and kind. She spent her free time helping the homeless at the local shelter. All she wanted to do was make a difference in the world. She always laughed. Her soft hands would always cradle me to sleep every night, then tuck me in. She would read me a bedtime story until I fell asleep. She was an amazing cook. She cooked every night, always made sure I was well fed and well dressed. She always had my best interest in mind. She was the best mommy I could ask for. My daddy was in his study. He was a lawyer, working long hours on his cases. My daddy was a hard working man. With his buzz cut hair, his hazel eyes and his dark skin. He stood 5'4, had rectangle shaped glasses and like my mommy, had one dimple. But his was one his right cheek. When I would ask them how they knew that they were meant for each other, my daddy would tell me that he believed that his soul mate had the missing dimple he never had. And when he met my mommy, he knew it was meant to be. I was born on their 3-year (marriage) anniversary. I weighed 7 pounds 6 oz. I was a healthy baby, no complications. I was born with Heterochromia. It means that I was born with two different eye colors. My left eye was blue, my right eye hazel. I was told that God couldn't decide if I would be prettier with mommy's or daddy's eyes so he gave me both. For the first two years of my life, I had no hair. But one strand of curled hair grew in and it never stopped. I have hair just like my mommy's, but longer and looser curls. I got my height from my daddy, standing 5'5. My mixed skin was always a perfect tanned tone. My lips naturally big always got called fake. all my life I was told I was too skinny, wearing sizes 0-4 depending on the brand. I was blessed with perfect eyesight and soft skin. And most importantly, I was born with two dimples.
I was in mommy and daddy's room that night, watching TV. I heard some commotion, followed by screaming. Seconds later, mommy comes into the room, her hair covering her face. There was blood on her face and arms.
"Tyler, get under the bed," she said to me, helping me hide.
"Do NOT move from this spot no matter what. And be quiet, do you understand" She frantically says, looking behind her. Crying, I only nod. Before she can respond, a man dressed in all black comes in the room. He grabbed mommy, throwing her to the ground. She begins to scream, trying to fight back but she was no match against the man. I cover my mouth, trying to be as quiet as possible. Tears slip under my small hands, falling into my mouth. I watched as the man began to take mommy's clothes off, covering her mouth to hush her screams. At the time I didn't understand what was happening, but if I could go back in time I would've gotten out from under that bed and fought that man with everything I had, even if it killed me. The man wrapped his hands around mammy's neck, choking her. Eventually, she stopped fighting back. She stopped moving. She stopped breathing. The man finished what he was doing before leaving the room, calling my name. When I didn't answer, he left the house. He didn't know I was there. As soon as I heard that front door close, I ran out from the bed, screaming for daddy. When he didn't answer, I race downstairs to his study, only to find him in a pool of blood, slumped over his desk. There was a slash on his throat, ear to ear.
"Daddy, Daddy, please wake up! Mommy needs you, please wake up!" I yelled, nudging his lifeless body. At the time, I had no idea that what I was doing back then. But I sure as hell know now. The man was wearing gloves, covering up his tracks. When I was 3, I was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. I had violent outbreaks. I killed a cat once when I was 4. Then I attempted to kill a baby. What I was doing that night was placing my finger prints all over the place, making myself seem guilty. And when I was in court, I didn't seem guilty to the jury. I was guilty. And from that day forward, I spent the next 10 years in the most twisted, horrid, disgusting asylum in the country. Pennhurst Insane Asylum.
I AM THE SAND GUARDIAN, GUARDIAN OF THE SAND
I’m just reblogging this because my dad didn’t believe it existed.
IT
HAS
RETURNED
Well I spent way too much time on this thing that I should have.
But I really liked the idea of a sand gardian.
POSEIDON QUIVER BEFORE HIM!
Reposting because I had forgot the most important detail
Thanks again Katiestrophic for the inspiration
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