Mazzy

i'm not a writer lol

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Author’s note

Hello everyone!! I apologize for not posting on a regular basis! I've just been so busy dealing with school and other responsibilities that I've never had the chance too! Not only that, but I'm still dealing with personal issues and have been struggling with confidence and motivation. I haven't been able to come up with any topics to write about, and when I do, I only end up hating it! There have been many things I've tried to fix this, but it's only gotten worse, my self-esteem has plummeted, and things have become difficult. I want to concentrate more on myself and strive to improve! But don't worry, I won't abandon you all; instead, I'll do my absolute best to write more for you all. But I prefer quality over quantity. I want to make certain that I write fantastic stories that I know many of you will enjoy! Also, I'd like you to know that I'm not even close to being a writer. This is just a fun hobby that I enjoy, and I would never attempt to claim such a powerful title! Anyway, I apologize for such a long paragraph LOLL, but I just wanted to let you all know how I'm feeling.

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We’re Done {GojoSatoruxReader} Angst Oneshot pt.3

Hey everyone! it's been a while hahaha im sorryyy i know alot of you wanna kill me right now I ghosted you all heavily and IM SO SORRY i just didn't know what to write and i guess procrasination got the best of me I neverrr would've thought this oneshot would have blown up the way it did and i'm so thankful for the suport i almost feel bad for ghosting you all for so long but  luckily I came up with something quite short this fine night (Lol i wrote this at 1 am.) Hopefully you all like it

"It's like she just disappeared in thin air how is she so hard to find." The white haired man whined as he slung his body to a couch nearby.

"Maybe she just moved away." The male's bestfriend and polar opposite also known as Nanami replied taking a sip of coffee from a cup.

"But Nanamiiiii" The male whined again perking only his head up to face the blonde headed male. "It's only been 2 days how did she wipe her entire face off of the whole map of Tokyo."

"If she knew you were this much of a stalker I would've done so too." Nanami replied before being hit by the force of a paper cup hitting the back of his head. "Not funny I really need to talk to her." Gojo replied in a far more serious tone even somewhat catching Nanami off guard while  sitting hisself up on the couch.

"What is there to talk about?" Nanami asked. "You cheated on her while she was pregnant with your child you can't justify that." He added on bluntly making the white haired male flinch from the strong words. "I was just- Confused.. but I want to do better now"

"Because she's pregnant?" "It's my kid Nanami!" Gojo shouted angrily standing on both feet.

"What if she wasn't pregnant?" Nanami stated before having the room silent.

"What if she wasn't pregnant with your child would you still care as much?" Nanami asked again before taking a few steps towards the white haired male.

"Of course i would-" "Would you?"

"Would you have really cared?"

"I love her Nanami"

"You said that about Uthamie but you aren't looking for her are you?"

"She disappeared too, Not a picture in sight."

"But you don't care of course.. because y/n is different."

"You just love her so much that you have to find her."

"Love her so much that even cheating couldn't change that."

"Nanami."

"Tell me Gojo, What is it that you take women for?"

"Pawns?"

"Pleasure?"

"Breeding ground?"

Quit it Nanami!" The slender man shouted with the blonde haired male  making no movemements of any sort.

"Oh that seemed to hit a nerve" Nanami slithered.

"She's carrying your child.. you just can't let that oppurtunity go to waste."

"Giving birth to someone as strong as you is what you want? correct?"  He asked again taking another step closer to Gojo.

"You don't know anything about me Nanami."

"I do know that your an impontent man who's so prideful and afraid of loosing his own name that he hurts and roams from woman to woman as if it's an expirement in order to give birth to someone capable of filling that void of nothinginess in that shallow heart of yours."

Gojo suddenly lunges at nanami slamming him towards a wall the strong impact leaving a dent in the wall as the force of the two strong man recoiled off of it "You know nothing about me! Don't try to tell me what I am and how i feel!"

"I love y/n and nothing you say can change that!"

"Your not capable of showing love Gojo."

"I love her!"

"Clearly you didn't if you were loving on another girl while being with her."

"You love the child that she's bearing for you not her."

There was silence once again with the two men only staring at one another.  Gojo's bright blue orbs staring deafingly into Nanami's dark brown orbs. It was almost like a staring contest before Gojo finnally backed away.

"I'm leaving I don't have time for this." He states grabbing his blindfold and proceeding to leave.

"Have a good day." Nanami replied before adjusting his suit that was orignally messed up due to Gojo tackling him to a wall.

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Hiii, when is part 3 coming? No stress, take your time, i understand what your dealing with right now and i just want you to know that things will get better and i love your story <3

awww thank you so much! I wasn't really planning on making a part 3 and i decided to delete tumblr since i was having such terrible writer's block but if that's what you'd like i have no problem with making that for you! I'm just very critical on myself so it's hard for me to write! thank you so much for the patience and your kindness

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We're Done. Gojo SatoruxReader Angst (Oneshot) Pt 2.

Lol since you all loved my Gojo oneshot so much and wanted a part 2 I made it! I was really against making a part 2 since I didn't wanna make this a series but your wish is my command! hopefully you all enjoyed this cause i certainly didn't LMAO!

As you walked out the door, you felt as if a massive burden had been lifted from your shoulders. Deep down, you knew the man wasn't as loyal as you thought he was, but the once light feeling had been replaced by an extremely heavy feeling you'd never felt before.

You had so many thoughts racing through your head, so many emotions washing over you and shaking them off, you finally opened your mouth and said, "I'm so sick of this shit." You eventually got close enough to your car door to open it and shut the doors behind you. After making sure the doors were locked, you put the keys in your vehicle and prepared to drive away.

However, you did not. Instead, you sobbed. You had no idea why, but tears streamed down your cheeks, and with each tear drop, a wave of frustration washed over you. What in the world were you crying about? Why would you shed a tear for a man? "There's plenty of that around!" you yelled frustratingly, slamming your hands on the steering wheel.

Maybe you were upset because your relationship didn't last, maybe you were upset because he wasn't the right man for you, maybe you were upset because you still had feelings for the man, or maybe you were truly upset because your child's father was nothing more than a dirty good for nothing cheater. It couldn't be good if it made you upset for whatever reason.

As you got yourself together, you grabbed your phone to try and call somebody but instead you were flooded with missed calls and messages from Gojo.

"Baby i'm sorry."

"Please just let me speak to you."

"I'll come clean to you."

"I'll explain everything to you."

"I love you."

"And my child."

"Are you still outside?"

"I'll come out in a bit."

"I love you so much."

As you read the messages, you rolled your eyes. "What a pity," you muttered through your tears as you stared at them. A large part of you yearned to see Gojo again, but your pride was telling you otherwise. This man made you look like a total moron. He flirted with, kissed, fucked, and probably impregnated a slew of other women you don't even know about, and now he wants to feel guilty.

You saw the backstabbing man walk out the house as you looked out your car window. You took a deep breath before opening the car door and exiting to await him. "Let me hear another one of your nonsense excuses," you muttered, crossing your arms and leaning against your car. Suddenly, the man grabbed you and encircled you in his embrace. "I'm sorry." He responds. He speaks up again, leaving you stiff in his arms as a result of the sudden action. "I'm sorry for everything. I love you to the moon and back and I love you and my child with all my heart." He responds by raising an arm to touch your stomach, which you quickly pull away from, breaking his embrace.

"I'm sorry doesn't change anything Gojo!" You cried out. "Your 'I love you's' don't mean a damn thing to me either!" you added on.

"Y/N I love you!"

"No you don't!"

There was nothing but silence in the air. You both stood in front of each other, with you fighting back tears. "You don't love me, Gojo because you wouldn't cheat on me if you did!" You yelled. "I can explain!" "How can you explain cheating on your girlfriend, Satoru?" you exclaimed. "Your PREGNANT girlfriend at that," you said again. "Please enlighten me, I'd love to know," you continued.

It was silence once again. "Tsk.." you rolled your eyes. "just let me raise my kid." Your eyes widened towards those words. "If you won't forgive me for cheating or if you don't believe when I say I love you then please let me raise my kid." He replied practically begging. You looked at him in disbelief with all kinds of reactions and emotions rushing towards you.

Nothing but a mind boggling silence was left in the room. The man looking at you impatiently waiting for your response. "Have you lost your damn mind?" You replied vigorously. "I can't even stand looking at you." "What in the hell makes you think i'll be okay with you raising MY child?" You began to laugh hysterically still trying to fight back tears. "My God I knew trying to hear you out was bullshit."

"I regret it; i regret it so much. I want to have a family I want you to forgive me." Gojo begged one last time. You looked at him in disbelief. "Gojo that's 2 years of trust that your begging me to bring back." 'Who knows how many times you cheated when I didn't know." You replied emotionally. "Your only feeling guilty now because i'm carrying your baby." "Please"-

"I don't need you to raise my child out of pity." "I'll raise them to be a far more better person then you could ever be." You replied turning your back from the man. "And that won't happen if i'm having a scum like you raising them." You finish, as you open the car door and slammed it in front of him.

Driving off a river of tears streamed down your face and you began to burst in tears. Once you've reached a fair distance from the house you stopped your car. You grabbed your cellphone and then began to type out someone's number.

As the phone rang and loud sobs came from you a female voice answered the phone. "Hello?"

"Uthamie, we broke up."

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We’re done. Gojo SatoruxReader Angst oneshot

(Lol i made this late at night and honestly might hate it in the morning so if this is deleted just know it’s because I dislike it alot. haha)

It was dark outside, and all that could be seen was a tall, slim masculine figure with white hair. The tall figure appeared to be wearing a blindfold that circled around half his head. As he started walking, he got closer and closer to a well-kept apartment building.

He took off his blindfold, revealing his beautiful blue eyes and gleaming white eyelashes. He entered the flat by reaching for the doorknob and slowly opening it, the door closing behind him.

"Satoru." A tired, frustrated voice echoed back, catching the man off guard only to find you in his sight. "Hey baby-" he said with a soft chuckle as he returned your gaze with his bright eyes. "Where were you?" you asked, interrupting him. Clearly, you were in a bad mood, and you made it very clear.

He looked confused at you. Why were you suddenly worried about his whereabouts? Maybe it was because he came back so late, but it was always something he did, and you never seemed really interested or concerned about where he went or how late he came back until now.

In response he reached out to hug you with him whining "Baby-" You blocked his hug by putting your arm up and slightly pushing him to the side. His large body slightly shifting from the push. "Satoru. I am not in the mood." you glared back at him. "Where were you." now you were staring daggers at him and honestly He was never so afraid of anything in his entire life of being a jujitsu sorcerer.

"I was out with my friend, What's wrong with you?-"

"Really?, because i texted Nanami and he told me that he hasn't seen you ALL day." you emphasized ALL as you threw your phone at him to read the messages.

He looked back at you as he placed your phone on top of a table. "Who said I was out with Nanami?" he retored as he looked back at you. You only stared back with narrowed eyes. "Then where were you." You repeated again.

"I was out with Geto." He replied looking back at you with his blue eyes and his tall figure towering over you. "Why are you in such a bad mood today? I just wanted to see my beautiful girlfriend." He coed as he leaned in to kiss your cheek.

"How many other girls have you said that too." you snapped. Gojo looked at you confused perking himself up in shock and confusion. "What?" he replied.

"You must really think i'm stupid." You replied. "Geto is out of town because of a mission. So how in the hell did you two go out today?" you were getting irritated and honestly just wanted to smack the shit out of Gojo.

The white haired man was stuck and had no idea what to say. He never expected to get caught in the act so easily let alone by someone like you. "Now i'm giving you 5 minutes to tell me where the fuck you were, why you were there and why the hell I should believe you." you glared back at him. "And it better be a good ass reason since you decided to sit back and lie in my face." you snarled.

Once again he stared back at you, taking an extra step towards you "Baby girl, I can explain-" "Satoru you keep fucking playing with me, I will beat the shit out of you right now." you snapped pushing him away from you.

"What the hell is wrong with you y/n?"

"Uthamie." you looked back at him to where he looked at you in shock as the familiar name rang through his ears.

"Hm.. Familiar huh? you fucking hoe." your replied. "How many other girls did you fuck during the 2 years we were together hm?" you asked crossing your arms over each other.

"Since i'm nothing but pleasure to you, how many other girls do you call when i'm not around huh Gojo?" you asked staring at the blue-eyed man that was currently baffled.

Things were escalating faster then it was supposed too and he need to fix it fast. "Baby you know I love you-"

"Don't call me that just shut up, you disgust me." You retorted. Grabbing your car keys and a sweater. "I'm done here." you then grabbed your bag and slung it over your shoulder. "Wait please-"

"We're leaving." you stated as you began walking towards the door. "We?" The male voice echoed again. Suddenly you dug in your pocket taking out 2 positive pregnancy test and slamming it on the table.

"Yes. we Satoru."

With that the door slammed shut behind you and the man was left alone in the apartment home in utter shock, guilt and frustration not knowing what to say or do

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{Toxic} DabixReader Angst Oneshot

Lol honestly I hate this it doesn't even feel like something Dabi would do but i decided to write it late at night while on the phone with a friend anyways LMAO but enjoy anyways!

"Dabi I understand you're a villian, but we're in a relationship." You were enraged at the time. Particularly with the black-haired man who stood directly in front of you. "I know." He responded casually before coming alongside you and settling into a nearby chair.

"If you know what you're doing, act like it." "I don't act like it?" he said, almost as if he was toying with your emotions, you retorted, looking back at him. "No, you don't," you promptly said. "Oh."

You were becoming frustrated at this point. One, since you had to talk to him about this in the first place, and two, because he was giving you half-assed responses whenever you tried to convey your sentiments, which you noticed within the first six months of your relationship. He despised arguments and avoided them by doing dumb things like this.

"Dabi, you're really irritating me right now." You crossed your arms over your chest as you approached the scarred man. He joked, "When are you never pissed." You had it now. Throughout the relationship, all he did was lead you to be upset, and anytime you tried to approach him about it, he either mocked you or shut you down entirely, and you were over it

You frustratedly slammed your hands against the table next to him. You yelled aggressively, "DABI DAMMIT!" The man was unconcerned about what you were doing and simply sat there staring at your hands, which were gradually balling up into fists on top of the table. "You keep doing the same bullshit over and over."

"You abandon me for days, weeks, or even months at a time." You yelled. "Then you come out of nowhere in front of my house as if nothing happened!" "You can't even look me in the eyes and tell me hello like a normal fucking person Dabi!" you shouted and yet not a single word nor move came out of him. He didn't even look at you which triggered your anger even more.

"When I'm fucking talking to you, look at me!" You yelled again, but nothing happened this time until his eyes moved to stare at you. "Stop yelling." He eventually spoken out. "No! I'm not going to stop because you keep ignoring me, so maybe speaking up is the only way you'll notice me "You snarled, staring him down.

"I don't care either way, so yelling is a waste of energy," he said monotonously. "No, you and this relationship are a waste of time," you retorted. "You wouldn't be able to get rid of me even if you wanted to, and you know that better than I do," he said again. "After all, you were the one who chose to save me." You didn't say anything and just stared back at him with your eyes narrowed.

"When I saved you I didn't do it so you could walk around a be a villain." "You don't tell me what I do with myself." he retorted.

Before speaking once, you took a deep breath in. You had to put out your best effort to avoid leaning in and beating Dabi's ass.

"Go ahead and leave Dabi," you said, your eyes glum. "You don't mean that," he said again, expressing no sympathy or concern for you. You were fed up with him and wanted to get rid of him. "Dabi, go back to where you came from since their more important than me." There was nothing but silence. He didn't say anything, and you didn't say anything either. There was nothing but silence. You were staring squarely at the black-haired man, but he never returned your stare aimed at him

"This is my house, Dabi, so leave-" "I'm not going anywhere." He rose up from his chair, glancing back at your (tall/short) physique, and abruptly stopped your statement. In actuality, Dabi genuinely cared about the connection. After all, you're the only one who has to put up with him and everything he throws at you. He simply has a difficult time expressing his gratitude because he was never valued as a child.

You took a long breath in and exhaled slowly. "You know what," you chuckled as you walked up to the counter, which was not far from him, and took your car keys. You chewed the bottom half of your lips and said, "Go ahead and stay." He kept staring at you with a haughty expression on his face.

"You win." "I can't keep going back and forth with you," you say, your hands up in defeat. You marched out the door, without looking back, and slammed it shut behind you.In the house, the man was now completely alone. The tight mood persisted, and there was no sound. He did nothing but stare at the wall. Perhaps he was stunned, or perhaps he was simply enraged. None of these factors were to blame. He's not used to you becoming so angry out of nowhere, so seeing you become enraged towards him to the point of leaving him alone hurt his feelings.

He needed someone to vent to and talk to about his problems, and you were that person. You were the one person he could trust enough to let down his guard and not worry about anything. You were the one person who he felt at ease, and as toxic as he was, he genuinely appreciated you.

He let out a long sigh as he walked towards the door, just behind you.

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An untold story is nothing but a forsaken vision

Mazzy

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{Leave.} Shikamaru Angst Oneshot

The dull aura of the vacant apartment home was almost relaxing too the eye. Nothing but unpacked boxes and the smell of fresh wood was left. You had just moved into this apartment 5 days ago and was still in the process of unpacking and getting yourself together. You decided to find a place closer to your job and your friends. Originally you lived quite far.

This once relaxing atmosphere was replaced with an incensed one within seconds. The sound of the front door creaking open and the pair of footsteps echoing throughout the apartment floors was all that could be heard. "Are you fucking serious Shika." A small snapping sound clicked through your hands as you locked the front door.

You stood in-front of the front door staring back at the male in-front of you. He had thick dark hair that was pulled up into a ponytail. He dug his hands deep in his pockets and stared back at you unamused. "It's not that serious.." he replied.

You looked back at him sarcastically slightly raising your eyebrows in disbelief "Not that serious.." you chuckled under your breath. "Not that FUCKING SERIOUS HUH?" you began to raise your voice with the boy only looking back at you in response.

"Shika you stole my car at 2 in the morning, drove to who knows where, Got into a fucking accident and DESTROYED IT, made me pay over $2,500 to get it fixed. and had me drive your baby ass BACK to my house at 5 in the MORNING oh but it's not that deep though right?" you mocked as you walked up closer to him.

The male took a deep breath in "This is a drag.." he sighed looking away from you. "Oh... now this is a drag for you?" you chuckled. "Clearly it wasn't a fucking drag when you stole my damn car." you complained. "I bet it wasn't a drag when you took my damn car driving around with Temari doing whatever the hell you wanted huh?" you snarled staring at the boy.

His eyes slightly widened and he looked back at you "How did you-" his sentence was abruptly stopped from you slapping him on his cheek as hard as you could. The boy was thrown off by your sudden action and quickly clutched onto his cheek from the pain. "Your a bitch Shikamaru." you hissed.

He stared back at you still holding onto his cheek he didn't respond to anything you said because nothing you said was wrong and everything you felt was valid and he didn't blame you for how angry you were but Shikamaru was never the type to argue he was just too lazy for it.

He just stood there mumbling under his breath. "It's so fucking frustrating." you complained bringing your hands to your face slowly circling your eyes "I'm not your fucking mom Shikamaru." you growled.

"I never said you were.." he replied weakly bringing his hands off his face. "Then quit acting like I am!" you snapped. "I'm sick of you treating me like i'm the side just because i'll make sure to have your back. It's so frustrating!" You yelled at the boy.

"It's crazy man.." you chuckled as you face-palmed yourself. "You must really like Temari since this bitch got you stealing from your own BESTFRIEND." you emphasized the word "bestfriend".

"She's not a bitch y/n.." The boy retorted. You raised your eyebrows in disbelief "Wow....you got real defensive about her. Must've forgot about the part where I said you stole from me." you bickered.

"Your being a drag right now.." the boy sighed. You looked at him with a hint of disappointment and a weak sad smile. "heh..  i'm a drag now?" you chuckled staring at him. He didn't want to look back at you. "Yes you are." he answered carelessly as he dug in his pockets taking out a lighter and a pack of cigarettes, taking one out of the box and lighting it up with the lighter. You smacked the lighter out of the boy's hand. "What the fu-" "Look at me when your talking to me." you asserted as you glared at him you could tell he was getting annoyed but you honestly didn't care.

He looked directly into your eyes walking up to you and stated "y/n your a drag." no remorse in his tone. Even though he would say this so often this time it actually hurted coming out of his mouth due to anger.

This was never you guy's first argument but you couldn't lie what Shikamaru did was wrong and you couldn't let something like that slide.  Your feelings were seriously hurt and your pride slowly diminished and your tone became shakey but you continued to stand your ground.

You chuckled softly out of disappointment. "You wanna know what's really a drag?" you replied. "Do you Shika?" you asked once more. He didn't respond but only looked at you.

"falling in love with you."

The apartment was silent nobody made a sound. Shikamaru looked at you with wide eyes his cool composure slowly dying down yet a word was yet to leave his mouth. You stared back at him; balling both of your hands into fists trying your hardest to prevent yourself from crying.

"Leave." you stated breaking the utter silence in the room which seemed to knock him off of his trance.  "Wait-" he was then intterupted by you smacking money into his chest "Take this money, find you a cab and leave." you stated once again not looking back at the boy.

"I really can't look at you right now." you responded once more with your back facing the boy. Silence filled the room once more with Shikamaru hanging onto the money you gave him yet refusing to leave you nor the apartment.

"Leave."

"No."

"Leave."

"No."

You began shuddering tightly balling both of your fist as hard as you could. Light sniffles came from you and Shikamaru began to realize it. You've been trying to keep your composure for the longest but he just kept pushing it.

Shikamaru then finally spoke up "Are you okay?" "No i'm not okay but it's not like my feelings mattered to you anyways" you say dismally, turning to face him with your tearful face. He looked back at you in shock and a sense of guilt began to run down his body.

He has seen you cry before but he was never the reason for it. You two would always have arguments but it was never this bad and up until now was the moment everything hit him and his biggest reality check just smacked him straight in the face.

"Please just leave." You muttered once more. He looked at you disappointingly as he clutched unto the $50 you gave him and began to walk out the front door without saying a word as he began to reach the door handle and walk out he just felt the sudden urge to say or do something.

He threw the money on the apartment floor and looked back at you "Keep the money i'll walk." with that the front door closed behind him and you were left in your apartment alone.

"Shikamaru your gonna make me go insane I swear."