Obsession by obsession

Trying to survive to my ships 💞 🌈 (not easy, gay representation in the medias rarely calls for a happy ending...)

[lizleeships]

You’ve heard of Flustered!Dean, now please welcome Poofy!Cas….

Based on this dumb sketch I made a while ago:

Happy smoochy season folks, or platonic friendly enjoyment season to my aro/ace frens ❤️🍫

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I can literally hear the feathery poof sound in my head 😂

[lizleeships]

... They're gonna start an "angelic exes" knitting club

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Best crossover EVER !!!

[userarmand]

queer ppl don’t know how to sit | dr. reid edition

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I'm 5/6 queer on Dr Reid's scale of sitqueerness. To be fair, it's only because I have a bad anckle.

[thevillainsfangirl]

There are some ships that you just know would be 100% canon if they were an M/F ship, and that's mainly what pisses people off the most in these situations.

It isn't just about the ship; it's also very much about the homophobia (whether the creators know it or not) that is preventing the ship from being canon when they otherwise would be.

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No truth has ever been so truly true.

Right now I'm thinking about Moreid since it's my current obsession, and I just watched Morgan and Reid's hug and silent declaration at the end of 11x11 Entropy, but it's true for a lot of gayships, I mean, Athelstan and Ragnar from Vikings who just homoeroticize every single dialogue they have, Castiel and Dean from Supernatural and their 11 year's slowburn filled with these long and intense stares and subtle glances at each other's lips, Sherlock and Watson from Sherlock, who are basically husbands, Merlin and Arthur from Merlin who make Guinevere feel kinda irrelevant, Derek and Stiles from Teen Wolf who are probably the only two people to have this level of chemistry in first seasons, etc... Even when the ship has sailed, like Quentin and Eliot from The Magicians, the show spends a lot of energy trying to make Quentin and Alice work again when it's obvious they don't match (to be fair, I've been tired of their relationship from the beginning, it's so forced and awkward, and tragically empty of chemistry). It's like showrunners said "See, we made this character bi, but straight-bisexual, you know, the main soulmaty couple has to be M/F"

Ugh...

[menlove-archive]

it's like. I used to think my autism didn't really include the need for routine but what I've found is that when it's a Planned divergence in routine that's fine (going on trips etc) and when I can Choose to divert my routine bc I know I can handle it that's also fine (like deciding to go out for drinks or deciding to go to a movie or deciding to change dinner plans). but when Other People or Circumstances change my routine without prior warning that's when my brain goes absolutely fucking insane.

and I feel like that's not talked about enough bc I've always seen "needs routine" represented as someone who is unwilling to divert from their routine when like. no it's absolutely fine just as long as I'm the one deciding when and how to divert it or I've been given plenty of advance warning that it'll be changing.

[lasesmed]

A cat may go in a box of its own accord but it does not want to be put in a box

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That speaks to me a lot. Funny how little we share about autism, even between us. I realized something the other day, talking to an autistic friend, after years and years of not understanding something about myself : needing routine isn't achieving them. I used to think that since I was messy, I probably didn't need order in my life, but truth is my autism aches for order, I'm just plainly unable to respect routines in order to soothe myself on an regular basis. Therefore, I'm always on the edge of burning out. Fun.

[heartstoppercomic]

Chapter 7-23

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[dovemoulins]

HAPPY PRIDE TO MY FAVIRUITE BISEXUALS ❤️

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Oh come ooooon !

Dr Spencer Reid ? Would you mind tell the crowd how on earth you would know that ?

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Just started to bingewatch Criminal minds, saw the elevator scene in "scared to death", and why the fuck is there not a billion fanfics of Morgan and Reid "and then they were stuck in an elevator" ?

The chemistry between these two, omg, please tell me they bisexualize each other in the next seasons 🙏🏻

[gruntsandpoetry]

if nothing else we can all agree that quentin's lil "i, um—" getting swallowed up in the kiss when he just goes for it is in fact the most beautiful sound in the world

[pissfizz]

GUYS THERES STARS ALIGN OFFICIAL ART?? LOOK AT THEM OMG

[chaoslynx]

“you don’t have to talk, we can just sit together” from the sentence starters prompts

Ash wakes up crying.

Eiji is already holding him.

“Sorry,” Ash gasps. “Sorry, I’m—sorry.”

“You have nothing to apologize for,” Eiji says. Soft, gentle, like he always is with Ash.

Ash hates it.

“Did I wake you up?” Ash asks. He already knows the answer, but wants to hear Eiji’s response.

But Eiji hums. “It’s not important.”

“It is,” Ash insists. He’s still crying. “It is. Your sleep is so much more important than ...” Than me.

“Ash,” Eiji chides. “That is not true. I care about you.”

Stop, Ash thinks. You shouldn’t. God, Eiji, you shouldn’t.

“Do you want to talk about the nightmare?” Eiji asks.

And it comes back, all at once. Hands on his body, touching and touching and touching, and fucking hurting him. It’s not fair. It’s fucking unfair. Dreams aren’t supposed to hurt, so why does he always wake up in pain?

He flinches away from Eiji’s touch.

“Okay,” Eiji whispers, withdrawing his hands. “Wrong thing to say. I’m sorry.”

“No, it—it’s not your fault. I’m the fucked up one. I’m sorry. God, Eiji, I’m so fucking sorry.” Ash sobs. He’s so ... broken.

Eiji deserves better. So, so much better. There’s so much more out there, so much good in the world that Ash can’t give him.

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself—

“You don’t have to talk,” Eiji says. “We can just sit together.”

“We can?” Ash asks, gasping the words.

“Of course, Ash. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. You don’t even have to sit with me if you’d rather be alone.”

“No!” Ash says. “Please ... Please stay ...”

“Oh, Ash. Of course I will stay, if you want me to. I just don’t want to hurt you.”

“You don’t. God, Eiji, you could never.”

Eiji seems to hesitate. “I am glad that you think so, but I hope that ... if I do, you will tell me, yes?”

“... Yeah,” Ash whispers. You could never. You’re too kind to ever ... “I’d tell you.”

There’s a beat of silence.

“But I hurt you,” Ash blurts. “Don’t I?”

“Ash, sweetheart ...”

Ash looks down at his lap, taking a breath. Trying to stop fucking crying. He can’t be guilt tripping Eiji right now.

“I would tell you too. Okay? We are equal. In this together, yes?”

“Sorry,” Ash mumbles.

“You don’t hurt me. You have never.”

“... ’Kay.”

“Do you want to talk?”

Ash shakes his head.

“Do you want me to hold you?”

A nod, now. “Just hold me, please. Without words.”

Eiji doesn’t say anything else. Just wraps his arms around Ash and guides him back down to the pillows. It’s not harsh—he doesn’t pin Ash down, or—or anything. His hold isn’t possessive, or demanding, or ...

It’s loving. Loving.

Toward Ash.

Somehow.

It brings him to tears all over again, but this time he’s happy to be crying in Eiji’s arms. Happy to be here at all. Happy to have made it through, and—

Maybe, just maybe ...

Happy to be loved.

Sentence starters!

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Beautiful. There is no better way to explain what love is.

[uchiha-sensei]

Bonus:

I actually felt a little betrayed because the person from who I reblogged it first didn’t post all the pictures, so here it is, for your appreciation. 

Credit: 微博 id:鴨貝貝拥抱② . Took from here.

[bananasorbet-blog1]

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Stealth-mode, by Okamura Eiji.

[kythwena]

Just light the fucking thing. The Magicians | S01E06: Impractical Applications (2016)

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English isn't my first language, am I right to read Penny's line "just go get a room already"? 🤔

[captain-flint]

fellas is it ga-

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Acting 101 : surreptitiously looking at ur gaypartner's lips will carry the meaning of that :

- the character u play is partially deaf.

- the character u play wants to lick/nibble/kiss these lips.

Which one could it be, Jensen ? 🤔

[starrose17]

I dunno why this has suddenly popped into my head but it always makes me laugh so much how in Vikings that the relationship between Ragnar and Athelstan was getting so close the writers were like;

“omg we’ve made them too gay for each other, quick, what can we do to emphasise they are both totally straight?”

“Err…I know! Have Athelstan talk to him about how much his virgin monk ass lusted after the girls in France.”

“Yeah good idea!”

And then Travis and George ended up making it one of the gayest scenes imaginable with all the leaning in close and whispers and suggestive eyebrows and omg you’re gayer when trying to be straight how is that even possible?!?!

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And this is why these gay ships will outgrow their queerbaitness to the point producers won't have any other solution but to throw the emergency gay burial card : because some actors are the greatest shippers there is, and they will choose what's good and coherent for their character.