I Am Not Afraid. I Was Born For This.

Elsa/El 23 Neurodivergent Queen Genderfucky Sapphic She/Her/They/Them Omnist/Pagan/Lilithist SapphicScavenger on AO3 DNI: Terfs, MAPs, Nazis, Exclusionists Of any kind, Anti Semites, Islamophobes, Transphobes, Racists, Misogynists, Misandrists, Zionists

[soymoss]

starling

[sabertoothwalrus]

I hate the videoification of everything. If I have to hear one more video of someone speaking closely into their shitty mic and I have to have all their yucky wet mouth noises and plosives and nose whistles and throat clearings and sniffles I am going to dig a vertical hole the exact dimensions of my body and I’m going to slither in head first

[sabertoothwalrus]

as someone with misophonia, the widespread popularization of asmr audio editing + people that are being pushed to make video content with no formal training and have no idea how to edit their audio (ex college professors, average joe tiktokers, etc) is literally my nightmare scenario. this is hell I am in hell

[sabertoothwalrus]

this is actually the last straw for me I need to start sending people emails

[turboautistdog]

sure you hate "narc abuse truthers" but do you love narcissists? sure you hate people who use psychotic as an insult but do you love psychotic people? sure you hate when people say "im so ocd" about being particular but do you love people with ocd? sure you hate when people say "it's so bipolar" about things changing rapidly but do you love bipolar people?

do you actually care about people with mental illnesses or do you just like to condemn other people for being less correct than you?

[jerreeeeeee]

the best analogy imo for ocd is mosquito bite. its so itchy its driving you crazy and you know scratching it will make it itch so much worse later but you need it to stop right now and scratching it feels so good and even when you dont want to scratch it and you feel like you could handle the itch you cant even stop your hand from scratching the second you stop focusing on not scratching. except ☝️ what if it was inside your brain and instead of an itch it was terrifying overwhelming distress

[camp-mutant-mutt]

I’m not a bad dog, I don’t know why I bite…

Looking to have this up on my kofi shop as something you can print out, but we’ll see how that goes lol

Some vent art while trying my hand at also making a mini zine cause I’ve been wanting too and had Big Feelings I was struggling to deal with (I’m doing better). I do and don’t hope this resonates with others as it’s a lousy struggle to manage, but if you feel seen I’m happy to be the one to see you 💙

(Also shoutout to blood girl for making super sad and vulnerable music, it really got me through my funk and helped make this zine)

[turboautistdog]

every ocd tip post: if you do [ritual] and [compulsion] itll make you feel better! 😁

[openmindpsych]

believe it or not orientation OCD is not about being homophobic or biphobic or whatever it's about not being sure of your identity. you don't have to hate gay/bi people to be distressed by the idea of not knowing who you are and not being able to figure out such an important part of your life and identity. truly it's not about other people, it's about the fear of uncertainty, just like all OCD

[fullmetalwindbreaker]

[lakevida]

[thequeeninyellowlace]

[lycanpoetry]

am i good yet? / digital collage

all images sourced from wikipedia commons

note: i will be posting my collage to a new account: flowerhoundart!

[learningfromlosing]

A reverse god complex where you are certain you're the worst person to ever exist bc all you do is cause destruction and pain. I was gonna call it a devil's complex but honestly that's just being neurodivergent

[lava-grunge]

Having moral OCD with hyper-empathy is SUCH a combo

[imtrying-ok]

I do not want to hear your opinions on moral OCD if you don't have moral OCD. At all. "People are definitely just using it as an excuse to not know Important world events".

I used to watch the news every day and cry myself to sleep at night, at 12, because I was a horrible, unimaginably cruel person for not helping every stray animal, every house fire, every shooting, every flood. I was an unimaginably cruel person for not giving my last dollar I needed to eat to the man panhandling outside, I would eat my instant ramen crying because I was selfish for eating what could've been someone else's food.

Yes, being able to look at events without spiraling is important. But when it starts to happen, it is extremely difficult, if not impossible to stop, without professional support, which many people just don't fucking have! I didn't have a diagnosis until last month, despite this going on for most of my life! Someone filtering a tag on Tumblr and avoiding the news isn't a grand selfish act when it will only make you unable to do anything but spiral.

How are you supposed to help someone if all you can do is have a panic attack at the thought, because others also need the help, and there're probably better ways to help, and maybe you're not helping, maybe this will lead to something horrible... This, on and on and on, for days!

[creature-wizard]

Cosmically messed up that so many of us gotta deal with debilitating levels of moral OCD while the rich assholes ruining the planet don't have a second thought about killing millions of people.

[wolf-tail]

Unironically I think a lot of the tumblr-specific discourse issues wouldn't be as bad if people familiarized themselves with moral scrupolousity ocd

[ocdtalkings]

having moral OCD while being online is hell so here's a reminder that internet hates nuance and none of the people sharing their "takes" know you personally. you're an individual with your own story and feelings that random strangers can't label. you're not evil or disgusting. the lion does not concern himself with those participating in moral olympics

[ocd-safe-space]

It is so weird to read posts from other people with OCD, where they're talking about why they feel like they’re a horrible person. It is so weird to read those because my mind will immediately go like, “omg no bb this isn’t your fault you’re wonderful 🥺” but then I will still turn around and be like “ok but I am the sole exception. I am the sole horrible person.” Like the cognitive dissonance is wild lolll

[trainerdot]

message for any moral ocd aces who might need to hear this

what's happening with steam and itch.io isn't your fault. you aren't the reason payment processors are trying to censor sexual content. you aren't part of the SWERF lobbyist group that pushed for this. you aren't contributing to the problem by being disinterested in sexual content. you're okay. i promise.