neil josten gets a phd in mathematics

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[naj-phd]

max - they/them

primary blog - @aknosde

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[juicegremlin]

andrew minyard never skips therapy. his best friend is a born-again knife-wielding christian ex-gangster. his other best friend is a 6'2" lacrossehockey prodigy/recovering alcoholic with a face tattoo. he doesn't smile. his situationship got him to stop doing drugs by buying him a maserati. he didn't meet his own twin brother until they were fifteen years old. he's been to jail. he is five feet even. he's the best goalie in the league and he couldn't care less. he gets in the shower fully clothed to give neil josten a blowjob. he's a chainsmoking pro athlete. he killed his own mother. he's getting a criminal justice degree as a joke. he picked the guy with a dozen fake names and a mafioso daddy to be with forever. he's a scorpio. the closest thing he's ever had to a father is his college exy coach. he loves hot chocolate and ice cream and clubbing with his cousin.

andrew minyard character of all time.

[lkbh]

14-year old Jean joining the ravens:(

[starsworth]

the only time neil "picks fights and runs away from them" josten actually throws hands outside of a survival instinct is when he started beating the shit out of riko because he threatened andrew and when he hit aaron for suggesting he was taking advantage of andrew and i think about that a lot. when he said he didn't swing for anyone but andrew, he really meant that in every way possible

[bipolykevintruther]

Thinking about Wymack learning Kayleigh lied about him being Kevin’s dad so he wouldn’t abandon his dreams to raise a kid and the absolute anguish he must have felt of having that choice made for him because “I could have made it work” and “I could have saved him from what Tetsuji and Riko did to him”

[gremlinnddraws]

Wesninski

[naj-phd]

evil person in my head telling me that andrew gets a cat his rookie year as a hail mary of a therapy device––he is unmedicated living alone for the first time in a long time and very much is having a poor time of it––and it absolutely hates him. like yes the cat is effective he has to feed it and brush it and clean up after it. but the cat wants nothing to do with him. will not even sit in the same room as him. will not eat with andrew in the kitchen. scratches and hisses and yowls. neil visits on MLK weekend worked up to high hell because it's his last year and he's in the playoffs and twisted his ankle two months ago and scouting, combine, draft, etc. etc. but also actually because his only experience with cats is killing and skinning them as a small child. and then the cat (it does not have a name, it is It, because andrew won't name it until he knows it) loves neil and tortures him by trailing him around the house and sleeping by his head but only in the middle of the night when no one sees and maybe neil's actually allergic.

[kawareo]

screaming, crying, throwing up, as I force myself to write a story i'm very passionate about and love writing and have no obligation to write except that i want to

[milene-with-an-e]

[helsnyc]

im haunted by the truly fuckedupness of raven pairs but i think what haunts me even more is that it probably wasn't even tetsuji's idea: it was kevin and riko's.

in the extra content, nora tells us:

it was something they started in the beginning *SCREAMS VIOLENTLY IN A PILLOW*

what started off as a comfort for kevin in the wake of his mother's death was weaponized and transformed into something utterly unrecognizable in a system that would've made kayleigh day roll in her grave.

ah, what it is to be a day and have your legacy be twisted by a moriyama.

[pinkbeetroot]

#myfreaks

[v11chel]

Happy birthday to Junior over here

[saiintval]

Hiii bbs

[jordiipordii]

NSFW: Kevin has 100% pressed his ear to the wall while Andreil were in the next room fucking and had to bite his lip from moaning at the idea of them messing around with him so close. His hand shoved beneath the waistband of his sweats, pumping his own cock as fast as he can go- wondering what it would be like if he found his balls and finally asked to join them. Kevin getting off to the thought of having both striker and goalie’s warm bodies against his, just as needing and wanting as his own. He’s drunk off the fantasy his mind paints and cums as soon as Neil does on the other side of the wall; Kevin would know that fevered grunting anywhere.

[naj-phd]

THINKING ABOUT NEIL JOSTEN.

[laurasauras]

the thing about neil always saying that he's fine is that he's not hearing the same question that other people are asking him. he grew up not only on the run but in such a way that people were constantly on the very edge of catching him! "i'm fine" means yeah i was shot but my legs still work and i can make it to the car. "i'm fine" means i'm in a lot of pain but i won't scream and give our position away.

"i'm fine" means "i can do what is needed of me without failing you", it means "don't worry about me". there were other priorities. neil saying he's not okay is him saying that he needs help.

i think mary would have dropped everything if he said he wasn't okay, because she taught neil to fucking mean it if he did.

[charleston-yappa]

He's a runner he's a trackstar