Okay I've realized I probably should have done this first but it's wtv
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So what I want this blog to be is for writing whether it's for my own stories or fanfiction I want this to only be about writing so I will not be talking about political stuff, I made this to escape the real world
The other reason is because I love to write and I always end up getting political in real life so I wanted to have a getaway, some place where I can be in Dreamland
So here are a few things I will be doing
FF STORIES
Daryl Dixon
any Oscar Isaac character because I'm a simp🤭
Jason Todd
scarecrow (Cillian Murphy)
Ethan Hawke
Leatherface(cause I'm insane)
Johnny slaughter
Punisher
Baki
💀I'll edit all this later cause there's a bunch I always forget. I will post my own stories after I get more used to posting ig
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Most of my stuff will contain
sometimes smut
drugs
violence (example: Cannibalism, death, ect)
Fluff
Angst
Ofc I will tag and put warnings when I do so
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Stuff I will NOT do
Age play
Pedophila {like no}
Male characters x male! Reader smut
There's a few others but I'm forgetful so it'll most likely come to me when I'm on the toilet 🤭
But let me know if I forgot something or should add on or if you have any questions
That day everything went smoothly, well as smooth as it can be, word got out before lunch about what happened between me and Jessica, except her version of it…
She started spreading rumors, but not just about me, but about the Cullens too, all out of spite, the entire year went like that, me sitting alone and having no one, that was the first and last time I had talked to Edward, granted we never had class together nor did I see a point in being friends with anyone.
However he would always give me a look, a look of acknowledgement(?) Maybe I don't know, he would give a slight smile, a smile that you would miss if blinked, then he'd turn or keep walking. It went on like that until towards the end of the year
Alice started saying hi to me when I was at my locker, she'd call my name out and wave towards me, of course I was flabbergasted I mean come on THE ALICE
I would wave back to her nervously, anxious. People would look whenever she yelled my name out in the hall, it made my cheeks heat up and turn red, she was so pretty, but it still bothered me on the why part
She would then make small talk in the lunch line, although the cullens never ate here, she would still walk in the line but to talk to me and not get anything, it was first the small things
“How are you?”
Or
“Hi!”
Then it would turn into a rant of whatever teacher was having a test that day, we weren't in the same period but we did have the same teacher— then she would say bye or take care when HE appears
Jasper hale, how can anyone be so beautiful, it just doesn't seem real, but each time he entered the cafeteria, Alice would run into his arms, and each time he would smile at her and my heart would Crack just a little, I don't even know why, yeah he's beautiful— perfect even… But he's just some guy— not like i got a chance with him.
After he would gaze into Alice's eyes he would look up to me and our eyes would interlock, it felt like I couldn't look away, or maybe I just didn't want too that was until
“Hey can you move already we wanna eat too you know” a student said as anger laces his voice
“Right sorry” I mumbled as I look at him then look away and left the lineI look up again to where Jasper and Alice had last stood to see them already sitting at their designated table
I let out a heavy sigh as I turn away my gaze from them and start looking for a seat, sadly since me and Jessica aren't friends anymore I would sit at the other table hidden at one of the corners of the room, but it seems like the art club decided to take that spot
Library it is then, I thought to myself as I get ready to leave I ended up stumbling backwards seeing a body of a man in front of me
“Sorry about that, didn't mean to startle you”I look up to see the face of owner in front of me, Emmett Cullen, well this is new, I thought to myself again as he smiles at me but then his eyes wander, to behind me, I turn my head to see him looking at his family, then turn back as he starts talking
“Listen why don't you hang out at are table, you look like you need a shoulder and I'm sure Alice would be happy to have someone other than us to talk to, I'm Emmett by the way” he says as he crosses his big arms over his chest
I look at his arms–holy shit they're huge, he definitely takes care of himself, then back up at him as I stumble over my words “A-are you sure thats alright”
“Yeah don't worry about it, Rosalie might look scary but trust me she's a big sweetheart you'll love her and besides you met the rest of them” he says as he softly grabs my shoulders and gently turns me around, he does it so softly as if he was afraid to hurt me, the way his hands were on me felt ghostly, like ice, but still enough to start pushing me into their direction
When we start walking Jasper looks at Emmett almost angrily, maybe this was a mistake, I think as dread starts to seep through each step we take
Jaspers expression quickly changes and looks at me softly, as soon as we arrive Alice scoots over shoving Jasper down the seats to make room, Emmett sits next to Rosalie who's across from me while Edward is sitting on the right of me
“Hi y/n! Its so wonderful to have you here! How are you?” Alice asked with excitement booming from her voice
“Hi again Alice, I'm still doing you know…. Great” I softly say as I take a seat and set my tray on the table
“Thats wonderful, and no need to be shy, we dont bite— well Jasper wouldn't m-” before Alice could finish Rosalie spoke
“So you have Mrs Albert for math right” she says as she leans forward
“Y-yes” I say as confusion sets in me, what the hell was Alice going on about
“Ugh man I hate that teach’ she's such a drag man.” Emmett chimes in as he puts his arm around Rosalie who leans against him lovingly, they really do look like the perfect couple
“I guess, I don't know she's fun to talk to when it's not school related” I reply as I lean against the table, I look down to start fiddling with the food on the tray, why did I even bother sitting here
“Honestly thats true but the same thing cant be said for Mr Brenner, god he's such a fucking tool” Emmett says and continues to talk, Honestly I just couldnt pay attention to what he was saying, its not that I dont agree with everything Emmmett says its just
Well him
His presence
Hes right fucking next to me and it feels like hes looking at me but for what
God he's starting to freak me out— wait why am i freaking out in the first place– I mean hes hit yeah… maybe I just suck being around hot people– theyre all hot
Just then Edward let's out a soft chuckle stopping Emmett from his rant and causing the others to look at him in questionHe moves his hand to cover his mouth and mumbles a nothing, but his eyes quickly glances to me
Okay what the hell was that, is he just socially awkward to or losing it, well i guess you cant be hot and sane at the same time, criminal
Edward then lets out a scoff but goes back to acting like nothing had happened, and now that I think about it so did everyone else until the bell rang signaling that lunch was overI go to get up from my seat but Alice calls my name forcing me to look up and stop in my tracks
“Why dont me and Jas walk you to your next class” she says excitedly
“I dont know, I dont wanna be a bother or anything…” I reply shyly
“Nonsense we would love to” she said sweetly but something about it just seems off
I dont know maybe its in my head but my gut is telling me to run, my brain tells me im in the way, but my heart tells me to stay
“You would never be a bother, don't ever think or talk about yourself that way” Jasper said softly, so sweetly, his voice being like music ringing in my earsI turn to look at him, he was already staring, already smiling, and he was perfect, he always looked perfect, his words made my heart skip a beat
Finally finished bruh I know this was ass and I kinda rushed it so if I have time ill go back and fix things and let yall know when its updated when it happens but enjoy the shit show for now
“Y/N!!! COME ON YOU'RE GONNA BE LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!”
I let out a long sigh as a close my eyes, I rub my forehead in aggression and yell back
“I KNOW HOLD ON A SECOND!!! I'M COMING!!!”
I close the notebook that rested on my cluttered run down desk, the white paint chipped from all those long years of peeling and hitting from all those different emotions that ran through little me.
I stand up from my seat, pushing the chair back making a soft grinding noise against the carpeted flooring. I grabbed my bag from under the desk accidentally bumping my head against the end of the table.
“Ow son of a bitch” I mutter as I use my free hand to rub my head I let out a huff in aggrevasion
“just my damn luck” I mutter again
I heave out a sigh as I stuff my bag with items from my desk then close it sliding my arms threw the straps and heading downstairs, my socks padding lightly against the carpeted stairs
“Finally you decided to come down hurry up and eat something or your gonna be late” dad says as I enter the kitchen
“Its fine I already ate before getting ready” I say as I head to the front door, sliding my shoes on.
“Ready to go when you are”
“Well, alright then lets go”
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Forks high
The start of my miserable life and when it's a new year— new people, and new problems. It felt like forever when we pulled up to the school, the whole ride was silent, awkward. The only sound that could be heard was the car running and the wind.
Ever since mom died it had been different, not difficult but different, at least for me. Dad tried his best and I tried to do my part, he raised me to the best of his abilities while juggling with work and depression, I knew it hit dad like a train but he always did his best to not show it, to be the man that I could depend on until the time cameHe would always say “one day im not gonna be here, one day someone else will have to take care of you and protect you”
I never really thought of anything about it, never really cared, I was eight so it's not like it really mattered to me then, still doesn't.
It got harder when my childhood friend, Isabella, came and left, then never came back at all.
Of course I had my other friend Jacob, he was always wild and with his cousin's, they were like a second family, they helped me when I needed it the most even when I didn't realize it.
But Bella, she was the sister I never had, she was like my other half even though she only came for the summer, which is why it sucked when she stopped coming around, I felt abandoned, left behind while a dark shadow lurked in the back, looming over meIt got worse when high school came, sophomore year.
Jacob transferred to a different school to finish, he swore it was to be closer to his family back in La Push, but I knew deep down he was hiding something.
It was weird, different Everything changed even more when THEY arrived.
That was until I laid eyes on a being that could only be described as seraphic or cosmic
Something god-like
Something other worldly
He was so beautiful, his skin white as snow, glittering when the light hit like diamonds, his marble white arms littered with bite marks like spoors left in a blizzard. His lips the shade of a Rose-Apple still growing from its seedling, waiting to bloom pale but bright, his eyes ever changing like the color of blood in life, but this time they were black like the color of old blood being oxidized or like a black void, a void I could get lost in for all eternity and thank the heavenly father. His teeth were like pearls, his smile unwavering ‘til the darkness plagued his thoughts. Forcing the smile to drop or the smirk to fade, the light vanishing from his eyes like a fire being put out
His hair never changed from his sweet honey hue, his curls locked in place like a doll, barely moving as the wind passed by like if it was a paid actor.
His towering, lean body stood there in the sunlight, breaching the treeline like a spotlight at a play, showcasing the important part, HIM
“Shoudn’ have come here darlin’” his southern accent sang through the air, his voice was like a drug, the way that after he spoke his words would hang in there air, my brain trying to register that such a beautiful creature is standing here and talking to me, standing here in all his glory
“I needed to see you, we weren't done Jas'” I whispered softly, breathing heavily as I eyed him up and down
“I'm a monster love, can't you see that?” He replied with desperation in his voice
“If that's the case then…..” I stopped thinking as I gather my thoughts, I close my eyes and sigh heavily, opening them again to gaze upon him
“Then you're my monster”
{Author note}
Ik i threw yall into, I wasn't sure how to start it ofc the 1st chapter will explain everything and lead up to it but idk what do yall think so far🫣
When they arrived at the time I was only in sophomore year.
The cullens, a family that could only be described as ethereal or otherworldly, when they arrived it was like a shift in the air and people.
You either wanted to be with them or be them. Edward Cullen and Alice Cullen, both in sophomore year, while their older brother Emmett Cullen was a junior, Edward has bronze hair, topaz eyes, and pale skin.
He was tall but not as tall as his big brother who looked like a beast of a man, he could've been passed off as a weight lifter or maybe one of the jockes of the football team, surprisingly he never joined. Then there was Alice, she was beautiful, god, she still is. She was a few inches taller than my height, thin and pale— well they were all pale, too pale. But her hair was short in a pixie cut, she rocked it better than anyone ever could, she was graceful— they all were, but she was different, she was outgoing and fun, quirky but withdrawn, as if she was hiding something but what? Why where they all so weird?
She was like this with everyone while the rest of her family was to themselves, closed off, making sure no one got close, especially him.
Jasper hale— he was like from a fairytale, gorgeous than anything I've ever seen, words couldn't even describe his beauty, how he carried himself— he wasn't real— he just couldn't be, it was like he carried the weight of the world on his shoulders, with how he held his gaze, and kept to himself, never speaking. He was as beautiful as earth— the universe itself, he was unreal, he was so stoic, so reserved— like his family, but something about him was just… Different, something was pulling me towards him, ever since they came all I wanted to do was look around and see if they were there, see if we had class together, how is he, if he's okay, what's on his mind, why they came here
There was something about him that made him different from anyone else, he was magical his entire being was different Including his sister Rosalie, now she's a total goddess— just like Alice, but Rosalie was very staggeringly beautiful and statuesque, she had pale blonde hair and her eyes they were an odd color, now that I look back at it they where gold, maybe some special eye contacts, they where pretty rich
Their clothes always showed that fact every time they came to school, they wore something high end every time, or at least that's what Jessica likes to yap about, in all honesty who gives a damn, we all die at some point.Jessica was— well— kinda, i guess a friend, we've been together since middle school, she has some… interesting views at some points but she's all I got, even if she likes to change a situation into all about her…
She however— not at all as a surprise— has a crush on Edward, she likes to drone on and on and on how its fate for them to be togetherSo I did what anyone else would do in order for her to be quiet and move on— “why don't you ask him out” and of course Jessica being— well you know— Jessica, she did just thatHowever it didn't go how she thought it would…
“CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!!!” Jessica screamed in annoyance and pain “HE SAID NO TO ME OF–”
“Jessica” I mumbled as I grabbed her arm and signaled her to relax as more people started turning our way
She took a deep breath and mumbled “ right sorry— i just cant believe he said no to me and not only that he had the audacity to say he was too good for me too, the nerve of that man, like Jesus let me be the judge of that you asshole!” she looked at me then looked around as the bell rung
Everyone started going to their class as me and her staggered behind “Maybe he's going through something, they did just transfer here” I whispered
This made her come to a halt forcing us to stop in the hallway
She then scoffs “oh please y/n dont start giving me that nonsense!” She yells the last part which causes me to raise an eyebrow
“sorry” I whispered
“I mean come on y/n everyone knows your not quite the looker, to much of a crybaby and waaaaay to yourself like some closeted weirdo, but ME, I mean come on any guy would go out with me” Jess says, way to confident in her remarks
“What the fuck is that supposed to mean Jess, why they hell would you say that to me I'm your friend, and when did this even turn to be about me in the first place” I say as hurt fills my voice, anger slowly making its way out
“I don't think we should be friends anymore actually” totally ignoring EVERYTHING I just said to her “look all im saying is there's no point in us being friends, you're useless to me, the only thing your good for is getting answers for class, I mean come on you cant even keep a guy.” she says as she walks away leaving me dumb founded
It was a total low blow since Jessica knew what happened to my past relationship and how I got cheated on, it hurt knowing this is what she thought of me all along
“What the fuck just happened?” I mumble to myself, barely a whisper
I couldn't understand, couldn't grasp at what just happened, all these years gone just like that, there's no way this had to be about Edward, not after all those remarks, god i dont even like Edward what was her problem, there has to be more, there—“You're better off without her.” A soft voice breaks me from my thought processI turn to see Edward himself standing there in a long sleeved off white colored shirt, speak of the devil and he shall appear, wait how long has he even been there
“I heard it all… I was at my locker" he says awkwardly then clears his throat "there's no point though, on dwelling on it I mean, well im just guessing I guess, but she just seemed jealous of you, none of those things said about you were true.” He spoke nonchalantly as if this wasn't our first convo, like if this was normal
Come to think of it I don’t think I’ve ever heard Edward talk THIS much before or at all
“Sorry, my names Edward cullen” he then said, which made me realized how dumb I must have looked just staring at him
“Y/N L/N” I replied as we awkwardly waved an introduced ourselves “Sorry for being nosey, I just couldn't help myself, and to stall for class”
“No no its fine not like it matters with all her yelling, and besides, everyone's gonna find out since she's ‘queen bee’” I let out a nervous chuckle and slid my hands into my jacket pockets “I rejected her, and was harsh on her so she could leave me alone… I-i can tell when someone isn't a good person” he said, it was so weird, why was he being so nice
“Its fine really, it was inevitable besides you dont gotta explain yourself” I say with a smile, this is so strange though why is this so weird, why is THE Edward Cullen talking to me
“We better go we're gonna be late” he reminded me, of course class
“Y/N!!! COME ON YOU'RE GONNA BE LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!”
I let out a long sigh as a close my eyes, I rub my forehead in aggression and yell back
“I KNOW HOLD ON A SECOND!!! I'M COMING!!!”
I close the notebook that rested on my cluttered run down desk, the white paint chipped from all those long years of peeling and hitting from all those different emotions that ran through little me.
I stand up from my seat, pushing the chair back making a soft grinding noise against the carpeted flooring. I grabbed my bag from under the desk accidentally bumping my head against the end of the table.
“Ow son of a bitch” I mutter as I use my free hand to rub my head I let out a huff in aggrevasion
“just my damn luck” I mutter again
I heave out a sigh as I stuff my bag with items from my desk then close it sliding my arms threw the straps and heading downstairs, my socks padding lightly against the carpeted stairs
“Finally you decided to come down hurry up and eat something or your gonna be late” dad says as I enter the kitchen
“Its fine I already ate before getting ready” I say as I head to the front door, sliding my shoes on.
“Ready to go when you are”
“Well, alright then lets go”
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Forks high
The start of my miserable life and when it's a new year— new people, and new problems. It felt like forever when we pulled up to the school, the whole ride was silent, awkward. The only sound that could be heard was the car running and the wind.
Ever since mom died it had been different, not difficult but different, at least for me. Dad tried his best and I tried to do my part, he raised me to the best of his abilities while juggling with work and depression, I knew it hit dad like a train but he always did his best to not show it, to be the man that I could depend on until the time cameHe would always say “one day im not gonna be here, one day someone else will have to take care of you and protect you”
I never really thought of anything about it, never really cared, I was eight so it's not like it really mattered to me then, still doesn't.
It got harder when my childhood friend, Isabella, came and left, then never came back at all.
Of course I had my other friend Jacob, he was always wild and with his cousin's, they were like a second family, they helped me when I needed it the most even when I didn't realize it.
But Bella, she was the sister I never had, she was like my other half even though she only came for the summer, which is why it sucked when she stopped coming around, I felt abandoned, left behind while a dark shadow lurked in the back, looming over meIt got worse when high school came, sophomore year.
Jacob transferred to a different school to finish, he swore it was to be closer to his family back in La Push, but I knew deep down he was hiding something.
It was weird, different Everything changed even more when THEY arrived.
That was until I laid eyes on a being that could only be described as seraphic or cosmic
Something god-like
Something other worldly
He was so beautiful, his skin white as snow, glittering when the light hit like diamonds, his marble white arms littered with bite marks like spoors left in a blizzard. His lips the shade of a Rose-Apple still growing from its seedling, waiting to bloom pale but bright, his eyes ever changing like the color of blood in life, but this time they were black like the color of old blood being oxidized or like a black void, a void I could get lost in for all eternity and thank the heavenly father. His teeth were like pearls, his smile unwavering ‘til the darkness plagued his thoughts. Forcing the smile to drop or the smirk to fade, the light vanishing from his eyes like a fire being put out
His hair never changed from his sweet honey hue, his curls locked in place like a doll, barely moving as the wind passed by like if it was a paid actor.
His towering, lean body stood there in the sunlight, breaching the treeline like a spotlight at a play, showcasing the important part, HIM
“Shoudn’ have come here darlin’” his southern accent sang through the air, his voice was like a drug, the way that after he spoke his words would hang in there air, my brain trying to register that such a beautiful creature is standing here and talking to me, standing here in all his glory
“I needed to see you, we weren't done Jas'” I whispered softly, breathing heavily as I eyed him up and down
“I'm a monster love, can't you see that?” He replied with desperation in his voice
“If that's the case then…..” I stopped thinking as I gather my thoughts, I close my eyes and sigh heavily, opening them again to gaze upon him
“Then you're my monster”
{Author note}
Ik i threw yall into, I wasn't sure how to start it ofc the 1st chapter will explain everything and lead up to it but idk what do yall think so far🫣
