Tired and in pain

♡ 28 Neutrois & Hearthmasc ♡ he/bear♡ ACAB, Prison abolitionist, kill the cop in your head & decolonize your mind ♡ I am learning every day ♡ Jewish Journey ♡ Icon by Potatolord on Ko-fi and Instagram minor edits by me ♡ I only censor words to keep my posts out of this godawful tagging system ♡

[obsessive-bear-walking]

Pinned!

My gender is complicated but I'm basically a boy a little to the left, I'm neutrois and hearthboy (a xenogender I coined related to being the hearth of a home). I use he/him pronouns but I sometimes "mess up" masculine gendered terms in writing to express my gender being "guy but not quite right" so things like h3/h3m or mən bxy, etc. You don't have to do this if you don't want to its not very autocorrect friendly and I'm fine with normal masc terms as well.

Currently studying Judaism but I don't really discuss it too much anymore as I found the convert community on tumblr to be a bit uncomfortable. I study a lot of things.

Side blogs:

@sals-bookblr - books/fanfic

Ask for my fadomish blog if we're close. I'm block fandom liberally because so many of you freaks are white supremacists or some other brand of bigot.

Please interact: cool religious ppl, weird queers, scary queers, bipoc.

No dni but

I don't owe you any personal information about me or my body, cope.

I tag posts #not ocd safe if they over describe intrusive thoughts or other symptoms. Be sure to block that tag if you're susceptible to picking up new themes/tics/compulsions.

I'm a prison abolitionist. Nuanced about guns. Pro choice. I'm fully in support of trans people from all walks of life, transandrophobia and transmisygony are real one doesnt negate the other. Aspecs are queer. Muslims and Arab people are human beings. Black people are human beings. First nations peoples are human beings. Landback.

I'm chronically ill. Currently I'm mostly bed-bound. I can't stand for more than fifteen minutes or so without pain and the risk of my back going out. Trying to work on it but it's a slow process because I'm in constant pain as is.

[sunseths]

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

I fell asleep in my friends' arms. It was eleven at night, we were tired, curled up in a small pile on my tiny bed. I had my head buried in my roommate's side, and one of my closest friend's hand on my shoulder, steadying me. It was quiet and nothingness and peace and their heartbeats in my ears, my hands in their hair.

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

We pack four people to that little bed, you know. Laps used as footrests, collarbones as pillows, little lights like moonlight in rustic yellow bathed on their faces. The TV plays an anime. The words are repeated by my dear friend on my shoulder, curled close. My legs are asleep; my roommate may be, too.

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

The cat curls on top of our criss cross mess of legs and arms and heads on chests to absorb the warmth of us all. She purrs in contented peace. When my roommate and I are left alone in the quiet, she cries, and watches the door for our friends' return.

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

I will never kiss them but the top of their heads. I will never touch but the warmth of their arms. I will never take more than what's freely given, and in return I put my glasses on the bedside table fashioned from a guitar amp, and when I lean into their sides, I pick up my vulnerability and place it in their capable, tender hands.

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

I sing for them. I cry for them. I work and I run and I withstand the worst of the world for them, because some days I get to cradle their forehead on my shoulder and some days I get to see their shining eyes.

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

Maybe to you. But look beyond explanation. I love them. With my heart in my unsteady hands, with my nose pressed to the side of their head, with the buzzing in my feet and the warmth all around Iike the sunset pushing into the window.

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

Is it enough to say I love them? With no strings attached? With reckless abandon and utter devotion and freedom and kindness and fear?

"there is no platonic explanation for this--"

I cannot explain it any clearer. I love my friends. There is no more to say.

[redstonedust]

having anti punitive justice morals sucks because you want to say "man that guy sucks he should get hit with hammers until he dies" but you also want to make it clear you don't think anyone should be put in charge of the 'hit people with hammers until they die" machine.

[notahorseindisguise]

i dont want this post to be like one of those "if you arent talking about this then you're evil" moral ocd posts but. i gotta talk about this.

i only just today heard about Kumanjayi White, a 24 year old disabled Warlpiri man who was killed by northern territory police on May 27th. He was handcuffed and forced to the ground, face down, with an officers knee on his neck. He was walking around a grocery store, by himself. A worker at the grocery store described him, saying, "One look and you can tell he's got special needs".

A poor and disabled Aboriginal man was killed in the northern territory and i can't help but notice the similarities to George Floyd. Murdered in a public place, knee on the back of his neck. Only difference is i havent heard a word about this anywhere, in the news or otherwise, since it occured 2 and a half fucking weeks ago. where's the anger? i dont like making political posts, i hope this doesnt break containment its just. god its fucking pissing me off right now.

Australia: Indigenous man dies after being violently restrained by police

White was forced to the ground, face-down and handcuffed. Several witnesses reported that one of the officers placed a knee behind his head

We must end the practice of police investigating police deaths in custody Two recent Aboriginal deaths in custody in the Northern Territory

A scuffle in the lolly aisle. The sickening death toll climbs. Another family face gut-wrenching grief | Lorena Allam

Australians will rally this weekend to mourn Kumanjayi White, a Warlpiri man with disabilities who stopped breathing after being restrained

[notahorseindisguise]

kumanjayi is not his name by the way . its a practice in a lot of Aboriginal traditions to not use the name of the recently deceased. in the same vein videos and images of the deceased are not used because it's believe these will disturb their spirit from rest. this is probably a part of why ive seen next to no news coverage on this. people want videos and photos to rally around and point to, and when they dont have that theyre okay with a faceless nameless individual being killed

[homoaquaticus]

someone: prohibition in the united states was largely ineffective, cost millions, tried to force a religious belief on the entire country, only ever resulted in the increase in consumption of alcohol, as well as the increase in police violence, and ultimately failed

people: okay yeah that’s true

someone: the war on drugs is the exact same thing except this time because of the militarization of the police and private prison interests, is much, much more deadly and specifically exists to justify and widely reinstate slavery within the united states

people: what? but drugs are #bad, and we can’t let people use them. obviously this is the only way to deal with this situation

[daloy-politsey]

Image description: A Twitter thread by @z_00pIz dated June 13, 2025 that reads the following:

As the was escalates, casualties will occur on both sides, but on the Israeli side, most will be Palestinians with Israeli citizenship, aka "Arab Israelis". Israel will exploit our deaths for propaganda, despite being responsible for starting the war and denying us shelters.

Israel has refused to fund our towns or build proper bomb shelters, if you're lucky and live near a school, you might squeeze into a rundown shelter meant for 200 people, which is just a room with no external walls, and for Bedouins in the south, this is their best option: [Video of people of different ages laying down by a pile of dirt. In the background there are camels.]

In Jewish towns, every house and neighborhood comes with public and private shelters that can be accessed at any time and within a few minutes. In Arab towns, no such shelters exist. Here;s a map comparing the number of public shelters: [Maps showing different Arab and Jewish towns with blue dots indicating the shelters.]

Nazareth is the clearest example of this discrimination. It's the largest Palestinian city in Israel, yet it has 0 public shelters. Just next to it is Nof HaGalil, a town established as a Jewish settlement to "Judaize" the area and it has shelters on nearly every street. [Map showing a Jewish town with many blue dots indicating the shelters there. The Jewish town is surrounded by several Arab towns with no blue dots.]

end ID

[jetslay]

"It wasn't a conscious choice, but this Lois became a pen chewer. There's probably an unfortunate amount of pen-chewing in this movie." - Rachel Brosnahan

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

[canonkiller]

I just think everyone should take a moment to consider the question "what is your visual shorthand for cruelty?" and then follow it up with a critical "and who taught you that?"

specific examples include but are not limited to

why is an evil timeline character design disabled? (why do the heroes go through equally punishing battles and never lose an arm, a leg, an eye?)

why are the futuristic scifi terrorists uniformly darker skinned? (why are the heroes so much lighter?)

why is the greedy boss fat? (why are the heroes skinny?)

why is the criminal mastermind heavily scarred? (why is the brooding, traumatized hero unscathed?)

why is the predatory creep a bearded person in a dress and makeup? (why are none of the heroes trans women?)

who taught you that this is how things are?

how long do you plan on repeating it?

[canonkiller]

guys the point is "reflect on how you have learned bigotry through exposure and you parrot it in your own works and in the fandoms you engage with without self awareness" not "tell me, specifically, what random motifs you think are evil"

[canonkiller]

on the flipside, to everyone adding notes about hooked noses, turbans + headscarves, nonwhite features and cultural clothing in general, mental and physical disorders, and surely others I've missed in recollection: you are entirely right and should say it.

[torchickentacos]

"I asked ChatGPT-" okay well I asked one of the skyrim innkeepers, and she told me to slay the dragon at Autumnwatch Tower and then she glitched through the floor and I had to reload a save

[diamondringsandgutterbones]

"get a job" "unemployed behaviour" okay but like. girl your ableism

[diamondringsandgutterbones]

also having a job doesnt make you a better person and employment is not inherently good

[x23innocencelost]

Oh for fuck’s sake, people calling out racist writing in fanfic isn’t “censorship”. I say this as a fic writer but some of you need to get off your high fucking horse.

[x23innocencelost]

Truly some of the most irritating culture has sprung up around fanwork and fanfic in specific like… no, making something for free does not in fact make it sacrosanct or immune to criticism! Your right to “do whatever you want forever” or say “fandom is for fun” stops the second you’re being bigoted and making fan spaces unsafe for marginalized people!

[lautakwah]

"fandom is for fun" except for poc who have to deal with rampant racism and white people unable to acknowledge let alone take accountability for their racism

[chemsexholmes]

Unfortunately you will talk like a tumblr user for your entire life. Sorry.

[sacred-portal]

[awed-frog]

meanwhile on twitter

[urbanfantasyinspiration]

It really is just tumblr circa 2014 huh

[deadgodjess]

Where is that tweet thats all “if anyone is tweeting in Cyrillic they’re most likely a Russian bot because only about 10 people who use Cyrillic have access to the internet” or some shit?

[regicide1997]

Here:

[heydeliah-deactivated20220520]

As someone who lives in the Balkans I can confirm. We have Internet only thanks to our Donkey, Dimitri, who runs in a treadmill which generates electricity.

[gcdk]

Reblogging to thank Dimitri for his service

[your-fluffy-murder-writer-deact]

thank you dimitri 🙏

[evilkitten3]

if someone tells you they’re an “american” please know that they’re lying. no one in american is able to read, write, or use a computer bc they don’t teach that in schools. anyone claiming to be an american is a burger in disguise

[waitingforthet]

inspiration struck in a really, really weird way

[waitingforthet]

an alternate ending requested by twitter

[waitingforthet]

this is one of my most widespread pieces and I feel like most people don’t know there’s an epilogue.

[killrockstar]

you'll never be punk yr clothes are from shein and yr makeup is from tiktok

[airlocksandaviariesarchive]