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BPD & BiPolar II, anxiety and depression, ADHD, C-PTSD from abusive relationships and being hit by a car.♍️🌞, ♑️🌙, ♉️⬆️. 29. Some mix of 4 letters that "form my personality."AFAB genderfluid/enby, demi-pansexual; I generally don't care what pronouns you use.Apparently those tidbits are important to some people.Witchy mom to two annoyingly beautiful children.

[overly-ironed-waffle]

Hey friends. It’s been a while since I’ve updated with anything.

I’m sewing again and making cloaks.

I am taking pre-orders for hooded winter cloaks. The outside will be a very supersoft white velvet with a lined inside that is red, optional to have some faux fur lining the edges.

You have the option for two different sizes (examples in second photo): 2/3 cloak (reaches legs but not floor) for $140 or a full cloak (reaches floor) for $175 (plus $15 shipping for both). These are high quality.

In order to reserve this, you can either pay in full or we can set up a personalized payment plan that starts with a $50 nonrefundable deposit and then I will ship it out to you once you’ve finished paying it off.

I’m super excited about these. Please order them lmao

Message me if you’re interested and want more information and we can discuss your measurements (for full cloak), whether you want rounded or pointed hood, other details, and payment. 🫶🏻

Also, follow me on IG: @sword.stitch

[twelfthremedy]

Persephone Offerings

"Persephone is the goddess queen of the underworld, wife of the god Hades, and the goddess of spring growth along with her mother, Demeter."

Large Altars:

Pomegranates

Pomegranate juice or wine

Honey or honey infused wine

Honey made from flowers

Spring water

Floral tea

Flower or herb infused water

Breads, grains, cakes, sweets, etc.

Sweet fruits

Flower crowns

Flower arrangements

Potted plants

Floral scented incense

Almond, vanilla, bergamot, or pomegranate scented incense

Purple, magenta, indigo, green, and black candles

Crowns

Statues or paintings of bats, rams, and/or deer

Small/hidden Altars:

Pomegranate seeds

Pomegranate candies

Dark chocolate

Spring flowers

Wild flowers

Fake flowers

Crushed mint

Small animal bones

Fake or animal skulls

Toy coffins

Floral scented perfumes

Almond, vanilla, bergamot, or pomegranate scented perfumes

Jewlery

Gems such as crystal, quartz, agate, black onyx, pink tourmaline, obsidian, coral, and jasper

Artwork

Poetry

Seeds

Plush toys of bats, rams, and deer

Devotional Acts:

Tend to a garden or keep a plant

Learn herbalism

Learn about flowers, try baking with them, using them in bath spells, etc.

Make a playlist of songs that remind you of Her

Meditate outside

Go on nature walks

Clean up nature trails

Smell the flowers

Celebrate the coming of spring and Her return

Likewise, celebrate the coming of fall and Her departure to the underworld

Honor the dead

Visit graveyards

Clean up graveyards

Donate to those who can't afford a funeral service

Honor the fae and work with them

Honor Hades

Honor Demeter

Sources:

Artwork from Smite

https://vocal.media/futurism/ways-of-worship-persephone

https://occult-world.com/persephone/

https://www.theoi.com/Khthonios/Persephone.html

[twelfthremedy]

Hades Offerings

"Haides (Hades) is the king of the underworld and God of the dead."

Large Altars:

Sweet dark red wine

Strong, dark whiskey

Black coffee

Black tea

Peppermint tea

Honey

Dark chocolate

Rich meats (like lamb)

Sharp cheeses

Breads or cakes

Pomegranates/pomegranate seeds

Apples

Statues or art of Cerberus

Art or statues of Him

Black, gold, and/or silver candles

Cypress, amber, pomegranate, and/or winter scents

Helmets, imagery or otherwise

Drinking horns

Scepters

Small/Hidden Altars:

Mint

Peppermint

Poppy seeds

Black narcissus

Cypress tree leaves or bark

Thyme

Rosemary

Coins

Garnets

Black gemstones (onyx, black tourmaline, jet, black obsidian, and hematite)

Any stones or metals

Small fossils

Keys

Art drawn of Him or for Him

Art of Cerberus or black dogs in general

Shedded snake skin

Owl or vulture feathers

Narutally shed fur from a black dog

Naturally collected animal bones

Writings, such as poetry or prayers for Him

Devotional Acts:

For chthonic deities, liquid offerings are usually poured out onto the ground or down the drain and food offerings are usually buried or thrown away; however He will understand if you aren't able to waste food or drink

Donate to those who can't afford to hold a funeral

Donate to suicide prevention organizations

Donate dog food/toys/blankets to animal shelters

Volunteer to walk/play with dogs

Keep a budget/save your money and spend it wisely

Honor the dead

Learn more about your own ancestors

Learn about Him, His history and symbolism

Learn about other religions' funeral rites

Visit cemeteries

Clean up litter in cemeteries

Visit and tour caves

Visit caves that let you mine for gems or fossils

Make a playlist for Him and sing along to the songs (if they have lyrics)

Practice and learn death magic

Learn about and work with spirits

Tend to a garden or grow indoor plants and herbs

Wear the color black or muted colors, veil your hair (or wear a headband), wear silver or gold metallic jewelry, etc.

Sources:

Artwork from the game Hades by Supergiant Games

https://occult-world.com/hades/

https://vocal.media/futurism/ways-of-worship-hades

https://www.theoi.com/Khthonios/Haides.html

https://aminoapps.com/c/pagans-witches/amp/blog/hades-devotions-divinedevotions-owc/o3Pw_4vDhduD6D5ogEZ83rrJPJY367RWKG3

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[twelfthremedy]

Dionysus Offerings

"Dionysus (or Dionysos) is the Olympian god of wine, vegetation, pleasure, festivity, madness, and wild frenzy."

Large Altars:

Wine/mead

Grape juice

Intoxicants

Grapes

Honey

Olive oil

Apples

Figs

Eggs

Goblets

Curved daggers

Pine incense or frankensince

Bull horns

Snake skin

Leopard or tiger print objects

Purple candles

Theatre masks

Sexual toys (He was sometimes worshipped as a giant phallus!)

Percussion instruments

Wine bottles

Small/Hidden Altars:

Fake/toy grapes

Leaves or curls from grapevines

Ivy leaves

Pine needles

Pinecones

Apple seeds

Bindweed

Wildflowers

Toys, photos, or art of any big cats, snakes, and/or bulls

Hymns

Songs you've written

Any art that you create

Any stories that you create

Art or pictures of the comedy and tragedy masks

Wine corks

Wine labels

Toy or miniature drums

Purple crystals like amethyst, grape agate, sugilite, etc.

Devotional Acts:

Make a playlist for Him

Dance and sing to your favorite songs or songs you'd think He would like

Throw a feast in His honor

Remembering to take your medication (if you have any) and taking care of your mental health

Support/donate to your local theatre in His name

Be a part of the theatre!

Stand up for those that are marginalized

Write stories/plays for Him

Invite Him to watch plays or movies with you, especially comedies or tragedies

Throw parties or attend them

Attend festivals

Attend a wine tasting

Go on wine tours

Attend parades

Masturbate or partake in sexual acts for Him (if you're comfortable doing so)

Drink alcohol or grape juice

Smoke pot (only if you want to)

Learn about winemaking

Support local vineyards

Wear wreaths made from ivy

Wear faux leopard or tiger print

Wear the color purple

Pray to Him for things such as protection while intoxicated/high, relaxation, improvement in your mental health, fertility, ecstasy, for everything going well in the theatre

Sources:

https://www.theoi.com/Olympios/Dionysos.html

https://vocal.media/futurism/ways-of-worship-dionysus

Artwork from the game Hades

[astrologanize]

draconic vs. natal chart

the natal chart is the chart you probably have the most access to; it’s the chart you drew up on astro.com, astrotheme, astro-charts, or wherever based on the exact moment of your birth. 

getting more into the draconic chart lately, we’ve really been having a field day with how much it can tell you about your development, i feel especially in your childhood? many interpret the draconic chart as what you were “supposed” to be, before events in your life altered your perception, and that’s what your natal chart is: your current perception of the world after you got to earth. 

the draconic is called the “soul” chart, and provides major insight into your destiny/purpose- as kayla says, your NN on crack lol. so comparing the draconic chart to your natal chart can tell us a lot about what has happened since coming to earth to alter your perception of the world, and yourself.

so since we mentioned the NN (north node), i’ll reiterate its significance in the draconic chart. the draconic chart is your natal chart, with every placement dialed back accordingly until the north node is back to 0 degrees aries. sometimes, there may not be HUGE changes, but if a planet changes sign it will be a significant thing to consider regardless.

that’s why i kind of feel like libra NN gets the short end of the stick on this. it’s common for us to have a ton of draconic placements that are almost opposite our natal placements. i feel like in general libra NN’s have such a weird disconnect, because like you’re not supposed to identify with your draconic chart really, because your natal chart is the now. it’s what you have become and what you are continuously becoming, give or take progressions or whatever.

so this is just a brainstorm, just something we’ve been doing that i’d like feedback on. what we’ve been doing is literally the least technical thing we’ve ever done with astrology but i feel like it’s an interesting.. ‘exercise’? literally we’re just comparing my draconic placements to the natal and saying like “i went from desiring/embodying/needing x to desiring/embodying/needing y, i wonder what happened” lol 

for example. my draconic venus is in capricorn. my natal venus is in leo. so i’ve literally been thinking about it like, “my soul might have wanted this mature, controlled, less passionate more committed sense of romance, but now all i really want is to be adored completely and show it to everyone. i wonder why i became this way?”

i’m not really that good with draconic stuff, we are just trying to immerse ourselves into learning about it more so these are just thoughts and ways we’re trying to think about it as we learn. if you guys have any insights, comments, feedback, please give us all of it! we want to learn from you all as well!

[thenatalchart]

The soul is still “recovering” from a past life/the after life for the first 7-9 years of life which is why draconic charts seem to be more prevalent at those times. obviously we’re still and always will be our natal charts but it’s why things like progressed moons and solar returns don’t have strong affect like they do once we’re out of that stage. and in turn, why draconic charts seem to show who we were ~supposed~ to be rather than what we become.

the dwad of a placement examines the personality more in depth but also explains the motivation behind the placement which in essence is also what our draconic charts do to an extent. I’m trying to be careful how I word this because I know there are people who are sick of/don’t like their placements and would much rather “adopt” their draconic ones, which shouldn’t be done at all. the natal chart is always the main chart to be read, but draconic charts can symbolise the motivation behind the natal chart as we follow our north nodes destiny.

this is because north node symbolises our karmic path in this lifetime and the draconic chart strips that away but the aspects and house placements stay the same.

the draconic chart is basically just much more primitive and basic which is why the moon is often felt the most. conjunctions and oppositions between the natal and draconic often also show some importance - the conjunction meaning that this is a huge(ish) part to do with your destiny and oppositions meaning a lot of confusion, tug-of-war type energy to do with purpose and lessons.

most don’t (at least outwardly) show personality traits of the draconic chart at all but some people do and it’s typically believed that those who do are older souls (but even then natal chart is still the most important, I feel like I have to repeat because so many people reject their natal placements)

[lifeinpoetry]

“In another universe I am happy. In this one, I shut my eyes against the oncoming day and feel my happiness peeled from me. My eyes cover over with a film. I start to think a single thought, but before I can finish, it catches flame like silvergrass on the gray hillside. Underneath the flame, hundreds of millipedes curl and desiccate. They turn fetal. They boil away.”

— — Niina Pollari, from “Ursa Minor,” Path of Totality

[tagedeszorns]

This year's pride-Fulgrim.

I gave him other flags as wings, too. I've got aro, ace, enby, agender, lesbian, trans, bi and pan. So far.

[overly-ironed-waffle]

today is not a great day for me

I don’t even want to try

[nudityandnerdery]

We don't deserve Lynda Carter.

[modern-politics111]

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[crowshira]

[diangelo-supporter10]

[bpd-bbyg]

[bloodcountessabendroth-deactiva]

Hi, I'm 25 and debating starting male-to-female HRT. However, I'm scared that HRT won't help me at all. It seems like HRT does so little after puberty, especially by the time one gets in their 20s. I'm really scared that I'll just end up being someone in a male body, but with breasts. Is there anything you can say to someone having this fear? Thank you, and sorry, I suspect this is a silly question.

Actually, the claim that HRT doesn’t do much after puberty is a myth.  I started when I was 31 years old and now I’m 35. =)  

It’s never too late to transition!  

[lady-feral]

Yeah, anon, have you seen my timeline?  I started at 29.

It’s never too late.

[transgirltumbling]

Seriously, I transitioned at 39 and I’m 41 now.  Hormones are magic whatever your age and while some things stay, many things change and it’s been totally worth it for me.

OMG!!! I love seeing posts like this. The hope it inspires. especially in girls like me, is unprecedented. Thank you!

[antiquityashley]

Hope

I felt the same way before I started transitioning and especially because I have a fair masculine build. But you know what I’ve learned from my experience so far? Fuck it! There is always hope and you could end up surprising yourself with the results. 

I think results vary, I don’t see much difference between pre-hrt and 8 years on hrt

[alexfromawen]

Just adding another voice to the barrage: It. Is. Never. Too. Late!

The top two pictures are from 2011, age 32. The bottom three are from this yeah, 2016, age 37, and (almost) 2 years on hrt. Hrt is magic.

Never.

Too late.

REBLOGING!!! Always! Forever!

Reblog to help someone find the courage uwu

Always reblog

[nonbinary-dysphoria]

Look at these amazing and brave women!!!! A reminder to all my followers, it’s not too late!! You can do it!!!!!

This is what I needed to see in my day ☺️ I’m only 23 but I think about making this change on a daily basis and it’s been 3 years since I’ve been thinking that. Hrt is in my future (:

[misshorrorotaku-deactivated2024]

Look at all these gorgeous women! <3

THIS is what i needed to be able to send to my struggling trans friends

[preppyprincess33-deactivated202]

I needed this

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

<3 Never too late <3

[adamtheredbeard]

Wait… @lady-feral is Alana McLaughlin?

[lady-feral]

Yes.

[overly-ironed-waffle]

Inspirational

[overly-ironed-waffle]

I started Latuda.

I’m super super hyper sensitive to medications and so I’m always nervous starting new medications cause I often react negatively; so I literally always have to start at ridiculously low doses. But I’m so hopeful. I’m so desperate and need something to work.

I’m about 2 hours past my dose and I noticed like, an hour ago while in conversation with my husband that there felt almost like this thin weighted veil that was suddenly removed from my shoulders and vision. Things literally felt lighter and brighter out of nowhere, like a light switch had been flipped on. But like the lights need to be replaced and maintenance needs to be done, but they’re there and on the verge of working. I’m hoping that stays. I’m hoping that gets stronger. I’m hoping that’s a good sign and not just me coincidentally having a decent day for once. I want my motivation to return. I want my vigor and desire for life to return. I want happiness and life.

I just wanna be okay, man. I wanna try and stick around.

[overly-ironed-waffle]

how desperately I dream to rid the world of my plague,

to shed the empty shell masking an existence so vague.

that death which life hath kept veiled,

under the guise of a health so frail—

inevitably comes knocking

to collect its long overdue debt,

hidden by shadows, always stalking;

as death is not one to forget.

——I haven’t written poetry in god knows how long

[mleighsquickspot]

May your night treat you well if your day hasn't. Dream sweetly and rest well my friends 🌙✨

[overly-ironed-waffle]

I have family in Ukraine.

I learned they fled in the middle of the night the other night when the invasions and attacks began; but I didn’t know whether or not they were safe.

I have been agonizing over this, wrought with worry. I reached out to my cousin today, to find out if she knew whether her parents and sibling were safe. (She is luckily here in the states right now). She informed me that yes, they are safe for now. They fled to the Polish border; but they cannot cross it because her step father is with them. They are only letting women and children cross borders, men have to stay behind. So they have made the difficult decision to stay together for the time being, so as to not separate their family if they can help it. But for now, they are safe. That makes me feel a little better.

But at the same time, I don’t feel better at all. Ukraine is in trouble, and no one is helping. My uncle (here in the states) has work colleagues in Ukraine, and they have been sharing updates on what’s happening; and my uncle shared it with us. (Pictured)

I am just so beyond heartbroken. I’m at a complete and utter loss for words. I wish there was something I could do. And yet there’s nothing I can think of that I can do, other than regularly message my cousin and let her know that I love her so very much. And I want to write a letter to my uncles colleague and wish him a happy birthday, and ask my uncle to send it for me.

This bloodshed is unnecessary.

Please, someone, anyone; make it stop.