idk

idk either

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Bro the only thing I've learned from this conversation is to just not go to her anymore about things or talk much at all to her. Great. I love knowing that in all my friendships im just tolerated

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But seriously, why is the lesson always to be learned is "don't talk about your feelings"

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Bro the only thing I've learned from this conversation is to just not go to her anymore about things or talk much at all to her. Great. I love knowing that in all my friendships im just tolerated

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Telling someone I don't wanna see dicks and them taking offense even though my aversion literally stems from truama 😭 bro it's not personal

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TW: body dysmorphia (a joke about my own)

Idk about anyone else, but whenever i look at old photos of myself, my body dysmorphia voice is Edna going

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"It feels like you don't trust me"

Bro, I don't trust anyone. You're not special

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Everyone is going through things and I have no idea who I can currently talk to about stuff bc I don't wanna add to their plate

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Idk, he seems off? Where'd his energy go?

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"We accept the love we think we deserve" might have been profound to hear at 17, but I'm not 17 anymore. I'm one of the few ppl in their 20s that I know that isn't in a relationship while the rest are starting relationships or have been in one long term. Its so easy for them to say that if I wait I'll find them, if I kiss as many frogs as possible I'll find them but they don't know how disheartening it is to try and try again without much luck, how much it damages your own self image and how much it hurts to be wrong again. It's supposed to be worth the risk but they don't understand how much you gain to lose everytime you try, what pieces of you get chipped away each time. It's easy to say to get yourself back out there and you won't find them unless you try. Sooner or later, I will have to face the music. Already, I know the love I deserve but I'll accept less bc I know that love doesnt exist. Or there is something so fundamentally wrong with me that I'm hard to love

[pinkmoonkingdom]

Don't offer promises of a false hope if you can't back it up with substantial proof

[pinkmoonkingdom]

"We accept the love we think we deserve" might have been profound to hear at 17, but I'm not 17 anymore. I'm one of the few ppl in their 20s that I know that isn't in a relationship while the rest are starting relationships or have been in one long term. Its so easy for them to say that if I wait I'll find them, if I kiss as many frogs as possible I'll find them but they don't know how disheartening it is to try and try again without much luck, how much it damages your own self image and how much it hurts to be wrong again. It's supposed to be worth the risk but they don't understand how much you gain to lose everytime you try, what pieces of you get chipped away each time. It's easy to say to get yourself back out there and you won't find them unless you try. Sooner or later, I will have to face the music. Already, I know the love I deserve but I'll accept less bc I know that love doesnt exist. Or there is something so fundamentally wrong with me that I'm hard to love

[puppycoww]

I WANT A TAIL I WANT A TAIL I WANT A TAIL I WANNA WAG MY TAIL AND LET EVERYONE SEE HOW EXCITED I AM!! TAIL TAIL TAIL WAG WAG WAG

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Modern Art

Everyone is a glass figurine,

Its only a matter of time before

Someone breaks yours.

Mine has a fracture in the wrist,

Ankles ready to fall off

And a couple of scratches,

But still standing. I want to take it,

Place it down on a pedastal

With all the lights centring it,

Making is shine bright.

I'll admire it for a moment,

Taking in the beauty of the light

Hitting it just right before

I take a bat swinging at it,

Smashing it, pieces flying across the room

Into the shadows, corners,

Lost under the skirting board

Only to be found by a hoover in the future.

Not at all caring the damage is too

Far gone, that my friends cut their fingers

Gathering the pieces, knocking them

Out of their hands when they present

The reminents to me to glue together.

All of the kings horses, and all the kings

men after all. I'll stare at the shards

Glistening and marvel at the art,

Selfishly I want to be in pieces,

I want to be the one using drugs

alcohol to avoid putting it back

Together and scream in freedom in

A room no one else can enter.

You can't break me if I shatter myself

First. For 5 minutes I want to be selfish

And not care about the aftermath,

Held together by my friends bleeding hands.

Nah, I will dust it and put it back on its shelf

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Them: I can only fulfill your needs if I feel safe to do so and to do that, I need my own to fulfilled

Me: well I can only fulfill your needs if Ik you're not gonna mad at me for 4 days bc I didn't do it Exactly Right and don't get mad at me whenever I express a sad/upset emotion, tell me that I'm putting too pressure on and when I'm not being told I'm asking for too much when all I'm asking for is for you to be consistent and communicate to me when you can't. So now all I understand is that whenever you're upset, I have to do these things Exactly Right and be there for you but you won't be there for me for even smaller things that I'm not asking for you to support, just understand and you can't handle me pointing out the hypocrisy in your criticisms of me

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NT people thinking ADHD is a super power clearly haven't had a meltdown because they couldn't learn something fast enough and kept messing up.

Will never forget the breakdowns I had over my keyboard. I broke the keys once because of how upset I was with myself