The last message he sent to me.
He was so cold to me that day
I felt like he died
I couldn’t breathe
You stood there so calm
like those years meant nothing
like I was nothing
You didn’t even cry
Eight years
of loving you
of building a life around you
Of “I will never leave you, dude” until I finally believed it
And then you just… left?
How do you leave someone
who gave you everything?
We had a future
I saw it so clearly
it felt real
Now??
your children won’t resemble me
you’ll forget my voice
my laugh
the way I loved you
The way you felt with me
And I will remember everything
Every detail
every moment
every version of you
I will sit here
mourning someone
who is still alive?
My best friend
the love of my life
And I can’t stop
Growing old used to scare me
but with you
it felt exciting
Like I had someone to face it with
Now, you’ll grow old with someone else
you’ll build a life
you’ll be buried beside someone else who you will call the love of your life.
That was my place once.
And I’ll still be here
Stuck in the moment you left
Trying to breathe
without the person
who felt like air
