Hi. I'm Sesa. sometimes functioning adult. ace af. On AO3 under the same name as my URL. multifandom (largely BNHA, HQ!!, & Promare). not spoiler-free. Unrepentantly multishipper af, so if you're an anti get off my blog lol. Header by the awesome @viraseii
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we have dandelions EVERYWHERE, they are basically our State Weed, it is absolutely impossible that my mom has never interacted with a dandelion before, this requires further investigation
So after extensive interrogation I have an update:
my mom is in fact aware that dandelions exist. she temporarily forgot the name and there was some miscommunication.
the truth is actually weirder
sheâs aware dandelions look like this
she is familiar with this flower. she knows the name of this flower. she declines to believe, however, that these are also dandelions
she does not believe these are the same plant. I tried to explain, and she thought I was either misinformed or lying. so I asked her what exactly did she think the yellow ones were called?
she answered, with complete confidence: Daffodils.
âbuttercupsâ is a name applied to MANY flowers. in my part of the south it was this one:
imo thereâs correct identifications of dandelions, daffodils, easter lilies and marigolds in this thread, but buttercups are simply impossible to agree on and the only solution is for everyone to post pictures of their local buttercups
ADHD affects how I experience time, not how I experience attachment. I love you. I miss you. I just don't realize how long itâs been since I last said that, let alone messaged.
I understand that most normal functioning brains need regular engagement to maintain a bond. Absence doesnât diminish my affection. My silence isnât neglect or disinterest. Itâs time blindness and object impermanence. The contact gap is purely neurological, not emotional. Thank you for being patient with my inconsistency and holding a seat in your heart for me.
Fandom is weird now. Itâs becoming less trusting and friendly, and the Orwellian surveillance issues that are currently running rampant in the USA and UK have bled over into fandom spaces.
Iâd read the articles that young people have no privacy and have become so accustomed to it that they enact on themselves. Abstractly I knew this and had accepted it, but itâs only now that Iâm seeing it become a major issues.
Obviously part of the problem is I need to become a trusted member of my new fandom. But fandom in general is becoming far more hostile to privacy than even just 5 years ago.
Iâve had to leave 3 servers that want to do age verification. And this is new. Not even 5 years ago when I started zines ppl just turning 18-20 were far more receptive to the ideas espoused by us older folks about not being surveilled. But now it almost feels like they *want* to be surveilled.
Theyâve become so used to it from tiktok and their government that they crave it. Iâd write a dystopia about it but unfortunately what even is there to say that hasnât already been said?
If youâre 18-22 now and youâre reading this and willing to listen without immediately calling me suspicious: this is not normal. Age verification will not keep you safe and will not keep minors safe either. It will only lead to the normalization of further surveillance and erosion of your privacy.
I know it can be an unwieldy text especially if youâre not used to reading academic sources, but go read The Panopticon. Watch V for Vendetta or read the comic, read 1984. Watch The Lives of Others and understand the ways this modern era is not so different from the Stasi in the film.
Please.
I donât want to see a rerun of the surveillance state anymore.
Recipes from Portland's famous but long-closed Rheinlander restaurant. This cookbook was produced in a limited window before Chef Mager's death. All of these fucking slap.
The lentil soup post is yeah beyond amazing. I know lentil soup doesn't seem like it could be that good. You simply don't Know how beloved the rheinlander lentil soup was. This was a famous soup here.
If I may go on a pissy little vent for a moment, I am really fucking tired of other Americans acting like Florida has already fallen totally to fascism, there are no Floridian leftists, and Florida can just be written off entirely as a "lost cause."
There are Black and brown and indigenous and Jewish and queer and disabled and countless otherwise marginalized Floridians, all fighting tooth and nail for our home and community. But everyone acts like we don't matter or should "just leave."
And it makes me so tired, y'all. I LOVE Florida. I love its people and its environments so, so fucking much. I want better for my beloved home, and I want people to stop treating it as a fucking joke.
I want people to stop acting like there's nothing here to love and protect. Your "Florida is a nasty swamp full of Republican rednecks and crazy Florida Men" stereotyping is HURTING PEOPLE. Do better!
Profoundly strange to me that there are people whose reaction to this post has been to call me a stupid liberal who doesn't know anything about the state of trans rights in Florida.
I am a loud & proud union organizer and a disabled trans person, which is fairly obvious from about three seconds spent on my blog. When I say that there are marginalized people here who are fighting tooth and nail, I'm not just blowing smoke up your ass. I am talking about myself, my friends, and my community.
We're going to keep fighting, regardless of whether you think we're stupid for doing so.
I know this is a deeply American thing to say but I am begging everyone to stay the fuck away from military recruiters. Especially high school kids. You are going to be seeing an unholy amount of them in schools or around schools or literally anywhere kids are known to congregate. THIS INCLUDES ALL FORMS OF ROTC. Stay the fuck away from military recruiters. As someone whoâs familiar with entirely too many branches through entirely too many friends and family, including my partner, recruiters are authorized to say literally any fucking thing they think will make you sign on that line. They cannot and will not deliver on those promises. They need bodies for the war theyâre pretending is only now starting up again. Thatâs all you are. A body. Stay the FUCK away from the military.
My brother enlisted coming out of high school. I was in high school the next year. He bombed out of basic training PDQ and was back at home and SERIOUSLY fucked up from it and never actually recovered, I donât think.
So I get to my junior year in high school and we *must* talk to the military recruiters. Itâs required. We can tell them any old thing we want to, but we *must* at least hear them out. Being the kind of person I am, I did. I listened. I talked, and I listened to the guyâs responses. I told him Iâd discuss it with my brother who had done basic training.
I got home, and told him that Iâd had the conversation with the recruiter. He looked me dead in the eye and said, âWhatever he told you, it was a bold-faced lie. Theyâre allowed and ENCOURAGED to lie to get recruits. Do NOT even give him a âno thanks.â Just ignore any contact.â
This was in 2001, BEFORE 9/11.
Imagine how desperate they are for recruits now.
If they ask you what time it is, refuse to even look at your watch. Donât even let them get into it. If you *have to* talk to them, tell them flatly that youâre not interested and that you arenât going to budge. And then DONâT.
Because they donât give one single solitary shit about you.
They also go out of their way to target poorer areas and prep kids to barely pass the asvab, and if I hadn't been a stupid 17 year old, I should have noticed the giant red billboards they were waving
DON'T DO IT!!!
There are other options like trade schools and apprenticeships and things that I wish I'd known about
A question I get asked a lot while working at a public library is "how do you deal with homeless people?"
And the answer is, we don't.
The unhoused people who come here seeking refuge 99% of the time understand that they will be kicked out if they misbehave.
The people you have to watch out for are Jessica, who only came because the kid she didn't want had to visit for a homework assignment and she just *needs* to yell at her child for asking to borrow two books or stay an extra five minutes, or Michael, who came in to look at porn on our computers for whatever fucking reason, or Karen who just wanted to come by to throw a fit that the particular book she wanted was checked out and harrass our staff about our collection being too limited.
99% of the time, the people we need to ban are middle to upper-middle class white people while the homeless and mentally ill/disabled people mind their own damn business and are honestly some of the best patrons we have.
I bring this up because today we had a man come in. He stopped at the desk, pulled up a chair and said "I'm newly homeless and was living in my car. I'm disabled. It was impounded. It's raining. I don't have a phone and I don't know where to go tonight."
And we did what we could to help. He was incredibly kind and patient despite his obvious anxiety and stress, more than most able bodied, housed patrons are to us under much less dire conditions. I liked knowing that we were the first place he came.
We have so many people like this who come in everyday. Many are quiet and keep to themselves, but sometimes they talk to us.
They tell us about how they're taking a few courses on a scholarship they applied for from our library's computer at the local community college to get their diploma. Or ask about a manga or dvd or book we might have to help them pass the time.
One woman, who comes in daily with her tattered walker always says hello to me and likes to work on the new jigsaw puzzle with me when we set one out.
So like, treat unhoused people like people. Treat disabled people like people. I don't want my library to feel like the only safe space in the world, but I'm glad it can be one of them.
I'm so sick of hearing about how "the homeless are ruining everything" when they are some of the kindest, most respectful people here. Sometimes they mutter, might not have had a place to shower, and might need a little extra space for their backpacks but that's FINE. It Doesn't Matter Actually. None of that is a problem or any of my business to care about (unless they request help/services), and I also don't think it's any of yours.
Today a student had me talk to their mom on the phone to explain that yes, they really did have a field trip today, and yes, that does happen in college, and normally at this point (in my admittedly limited experience with calls like that) the next question is less a question and more a âwell thatâs dumb, donât you think thatâs dumbâ
but this lady asked me if snacks would be provided and if so what kind because her son was a picky eater & this poor boy is just bright red and yelling from the back seat that he packed his own lunch and snacks & mom (who is very aware sheâs on speaker phone) goes âsorry for loving you and worrying about you, you little shitâ which made him just screech the word âmomâ like he was a tween in full angst mode
& as of right now Iâve heard two students do radio checks on the other field teams where they signed off with âsorry for loving you and worrying about you, you little shitâ which gives me a very unprofessional case of the giggles
Hey so as the economy continues to get worse in the next few years, gambling companies are going to go extra hardcore predatory as people become more desperate. Yes, even more than they already are. You have to promise me right now you're not going to fall for it. No gambling, okay?
This is going to be especially bad with prediction markets and sports gambling, and it's already really fucking bad. But it also goes for loot boxes, blind box collectables, trading card games, and ESPECIALLY gacha games.
Hawaiʻi is currently in the midst of a natural disaster if you didnt know
Apparently there isnât much news coverage of this outside of the islands
Towns are flooded, homes destroyed and collapsed, roads collapsed, lives at risk, gas leaks from the flood damage
Haleiwa and Waialua are currently evacuated because the 120 year old dam is at risk of bursting
Mind you that damn is owned by Dole. Theyve known about it needing to be fixed for years and years and years. Despite having more than enough money they refuse
The state has been trying to buy it out from them for years so they can fix it, but the sale hasnât gone through
Keep in mind that the Dole family were the ones who illegally imprisoned Queen Liliuʻokalani and illegally overthrew the monarchy.
If I see another goddamn person say how sad this is for the tourists whose âtrips were ruinedâ and compare a messed up vacation to people losing their homes, belongings, and livelihoods, Iâm going to lose my mind
I am so lucky that my family or friendâs are safe and the few whose houses flooded didnt have it too bad, but so so so many were not as fortunate
If you havenât heard anything about this until now, I suggest looking into it
The sirens didnât go off until the flood had been going on for hours. Our state government is spending so much money on a fucking monorail we donât need rather than fixing the infrastructure.
Itâs been the locals and Kanaka doing the most to help get people to safety from the start
Dole the fruit company started the dole plantation in 1901 in HawaÊ»i as the âhawaiian pineapple companyâ
Dole the fruit company got big from plantations, colonialism, and exploitation in Hawaiʻi
Dole the fruit company monopolized land for their plantations, exploited local labor as well as immigrant labor from the people they shipped in to work, and depleted the soil and introduced toxic pesticides
Dole the fruit company was the cousin of Sanford B Dole who helped overthrow the monarchy and became the governor of hawaiʻi afterwards
Dole purchased the island of LÄnaÊ»i and made it tbe largest pineapple plantation in the world
LÄnaÊ»i is now 98% owned by larry ellison, cofounder and chairman of oracle
Dole the fruit company had sugarcane plantations across hawaiʻi as well as pineapple
For over 150 years, millions of gallons of water were diverted daily from natural streams to sugarcane plantations on Maui
This caused irreparable damage to the ecosystem and is largely if not wholly responsible for how dry Maui is to this day
The dryness of Maui played a huge factor into the severity of the Lahaina fires
That control over water shifted political power to colonizers which aided them in overthrowing the monarchy
yes, dole the fruit company owns a dam in Hawaiʻi
they still have massive pineapple farms in hawaiʻi
The dole plantation on Oahu is now a tourist attraction where theyâll take you on the âpineapple express train tourâ or the âplantation garden tourâ
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