write lyric

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Forgetting is always easier than forgiving

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foe, I feel that's how you punish me yeah, I know how to satisfy you

though, I don't want to give you cause neither do you

kneel, apology that's an only way you forgive Yeah, I feel sorry what I did

that I trust you that so much cause nothing but my harm

yeah, I'm sorry what I did I'm sorry what I did that I'm always so naive that I trust you. Never doubt never doubt you would love me no matter how

Yeah, I gotta admit that that's all my fault holding hope holding hope even now!

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question myself for a long time wonder, how awful am I and why and why I never thought This is not my fault

surrounded by this tyranny tread my self-esteem your ugly face just under the smiley mask

and why and why  I never thought this is not my fault

tortured by your denying doubt my whole choices your cruel word Hiding in "for your good"

I'm sick of that !! this is not my fault !! it's all your blackmail !! fear to lose control it's all your fault !!! I won't take it anymore

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just because I don't say it doesn't mean that I don't care If you don't see my tear doesn't mean that I'm not sad

swallow all my feeling when every time you really hurt me always try to fix something only to make you happy

you assume you’re my benefactor never know the pressure you give you deem me as the sinner never know the wounds you give 

I won't bear your hurt anymore today, I’ll break this cage and don't fear if losing you or not cause I know you only love your own

just because you don't notice I won't give you a damn anymore doesn't mean that you aren't toxic I'll detach you from me more and more!

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saying you are hurt by me

I tell you the same thing 

and there's no meaning

comparing who is much harder

concluding, we aren't meant together

so just end everything here

saying you’re the victim

I tell you’re just selfish

and there's no meaning

fighting who is the hurter

concluding, we are not meant together

so just end it now and here

   you're just crueler than me

you're just crueler than me 

you're just crueler than me

I think

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vow become the ash love become the past I see through you now

You only love me when I fit your mind you only love me when I follow your line you only love me when I let you like you only love me when I not my mine!

curse is coming love is replaced and I hate you now

You only love me when I fit your mind you only love me when I follow your line you only love me when I let you like you only love me when I not my mine!

and you ignore me now

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I think true Liberalists respect anyone's choice, act and thought

[fuckyeahanarchistposters]

‘No human is illegal’

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If one wants to be completely free, then he/she must be completely fearless, but it seems impossible for anyone because it's against human nature. What one can do is to bear the fear and that means always preparing to lose something.

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Fatal love

killing both of us

fatal love twists the word

can you take this more?

cause I can’t anymore

fading in your eyes

sorrow in my mind

can you take it more?

maybe it's time to let go

I'm afraid this fatal love

destroying every love

in the end 

what will we get?

only the broken heart

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You give me what I don't need Deem it as your mercy Think these are enough money To buy my life

I tell you now Take it back Take it all back Or you shut up your mouth You shut the fuck up Never think Even billions can't trade my life

I tell you now just Get out! Get out of my sight! You listen clearly It's not my duty To make you happy

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please do not comment on my appearance.

Even though you think it’s a compliment, it’s killing me.

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you try to make me believe who I am try to convince how bad I am all of this is for making me self-blamed and then turning me turning me into the pet the pet without the name

you try to make me believe who I am try to convince how bad I am all of this is for making me self-doubted and then turning me turning me into your slave the slave forget my own name

I know I should leave it takes the toll on me but I can't I am stuck in this fucking frame

[tearsmadeofcottoncandy]

So my friend told me just now that my “face has gotten rounder” and I had a panic attack. I know I’ve been gaining weight since I’ve been lowkey trying to recover or at least take a break from all the ed bullshit and it’s been going well… until now. I know she meant it in a good way since I’d told her about my ed issues and she probably thought it was a compliment, as if saying “it’s good that you’re taking care of yourself now even though it’s hard” but personally I’d like to hear that instead of implying bluntly that I got fat.. triggered af. Never eating again.

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this fucking speak about my mind

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It's all illusion the myth of demon try to take control of my life

it's escapism I am the demon that's why I hate myself

I want to destroy the demon and I understand, I finally understand that means killing myself

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how much should I hurt? to end up this pain? the wound deep enough? to let you know my pain?

it's far over my head Though the body intact does it count? a human life? a human life does it look like?

how much should I take? it's all in my head to find me the serene dynamite is on what broken should I be? let you see my distress?

prepare to die I gonna explode this fucking life!!!!!!!!!!!! prepare to die I gonna explode, explode, explode!!!!!!!!!!!! destroying this all !!!!!!!!!!!!

[rocksongawesome]

In the end, back to the start nothing is right everything gets worst

is there a demon? living inside?

Deep in  brain stuck in the mind grabbing my heart tearing me apart

is there a demon? living inside? against my will destroy my life

no!!!!!!!!!!! I find the demon is me the demon is me for killing it time to end my life