#toxic dad

[staltheoneandonly]

i feel like there's a point being the oldest sibling where you stop being your parents' child and start being just some person who happens to live in the house

[harunaakemi]

I don't have -

"THE RIGHT TO SORROW"

Does anyone else's mother always call em "ungrateful", "useless", and a flipping "crybaby" who can't do anything but complain and never helps them around the house when you've been nothing but respectful and compliant af at all times??

She's usually not like this but when it happens it hurts a lot. I know they care a lot for me and help me with whatever but this emotional aspects r well....uhm.

The only people who have "The Right to Sorrow" in this so-called home r her and dad. Whenever I show ANY EMOTION whatsoever its shunned!!

● If I'm happy = prolly not working hard enough, not serious bout life blah blah

● If I'm sad = crybaby, complainer, ungrateful

● If I'm angry = disrespectful, too much, insane

I cant win chat 😭🙏 and it's NEVER the other way around.

Like I've become a people pleaser, am timid af, have trouble with saying NO and boundaries in general. Even my best frnd is prolly a covert narc bruhh. I've crippling low self esteem, suffer from constant overthinking and am fucking DEPRESSED since like the last 5-6 YEARS(on n off). I almost feel manic with how my mood swings when I get even slightly triggered. Idk, I'm wondering if I'm a problem too yk like genuinely but idk guys...REGARDLESS—

Never Back Down Never Whatt?

NEVER GIVE UP 🗣

[azulispector]

the father wound

succession // amanda grace // ? // ? // get gone by fiona apple // jasmine r. // succession // windowsill by arcade fire // ?

[aphrodites-serenade]

My father is a small child in a man's body

I say a lot of things about my father. He's aggressive, dismissive, and self-centered. And yet I can't help but pity him. I see how his eyes look when he sits alone at the dinner table. This wasn't the life he envisioned for himself when he was a young man. He likes to say he doesn't need to prove himself to anyone but lies to his coworkers for validation. He puffs his chest and criticizes himself in the mirror. He swears it's a habit he wants to break. I'd like to think that that's what he sees when he yells at me and my brother. His father taught him that real men don't cry. I guess what I mean to say is that he's still a small child trying to be a man. He's failed. And I could try to hug him, give him the comfort he's never felt, but he'd push me away. He's a scared boy who doesn't know what he's doing here.

[chickennuggetslover143]

i just wanna move to a new city and start a new life

[ashtonisrottting]

it's so funny how not being loved by my mother gave me a murderous rage whilst not being loved by my father gave me a clingy ass and an amazing sense of humor

[my-castles-crumbling]

I haven’t cried about my own familial trauma in months but give me five minutes to think about Sirius and Regulus in that fucking house and I’m in TEARS.

[atrophicgardenia]

my (bio) father ripped and lit my mom’s $300 some-odd giant snorlax plush on fire. he explained with a smile that “i’m mad!”

she is very sadly and dejectedly spraying the remnants of his “performative art” with the hose to put it out.