im sorry

basically I need a place to express all of my self-hate because there's a lot of it || sometimes I try to recover, sometimes I don't

[akindplace]

hating yourself because of the past won’t actually change it, so maybe forgiving yourself because now you know better is better than torturing yourself over it again and again. at a certain point, you have to accept what happened and your regrets about it and move on and take whatever lessons you’ve learnt with you, since every mistake has something to teach us. being cruel towards yourself doesn’t make the situation any better and it will only hurt you more and more. forgive yourself for not knowing better and forgive yourself for torturing yourself by ruminating on your regrets over and over again.

[brutalistarchitecture2]

HAMMOND B3 ORGAN CISTERN by GABRIELLE CALVOCORESSI

[wovi]

*

sylvia plath

[goldcrescent]

and not to sound like a conspiracy theorist but another reason I hate the return of 2000’s th*nspo shit is bc starving does make women frail and has longer term consequences like early osteoporosis, brittle bones/teeth, insomnia, ect. Your muscles will start eating themselves. It also makes you extremely emotional and severely lowers your capacity for critical thinking not bc you’re a girl but because your brain isn’t getting any fucking nutrients so idk I just feel like its very convenient that every time there’s an uptick in fascist rhetoric and women’s rights are being stripped suddenly it’s peak fashion for women to be starving, weak, and exhausted

[remanence-of-love]

[velartis]

i think the hardest part about healing is realizing there’s no finish line. no big dramatic moment where everything feels suddenly better. it’s slower than that. it’s quieter. it’s choosing not to text them back. it’s making your bed on a heavy day. it’s being kind to yourself when your mind is cruel. healing is a thousand tiny victories no one else sees.

[velartis]

i think the hardest part about healing is realizing there’s no finish line. no big dramatic moment where everything feels suddenly better. it’s slower than that. it’s quieter. it’s choosing not to text them back. it’s making your bed on a heavy day. it’s being kind to yourself when your mind is cruel. healing is a thousand tiny victories no one else sees.

[thedoubteriswise]

so much of being an ok person is just 1) not panicking, 2) not taking things personally, and 3) not letting the vindictive gargoyle that lives in your head tell you what to do. this sucks because brains love doing those things

[selfhatesgottagosomewhere]

I had meds that worked

A few months later and they don’t work anymore

Fuck me ig

[byronicjamie]

^this

[selfhatesgottagosomewhere]

Can someone fucking kill me instead jfc

[selfhatesgottagosomewhere]

I have to put my cat down and I’m gonna crash out. I’m done. Fuck this, fuck everything. It all sucks and I don’t want it anymore. I want out

[free-my-mindd]

I hope you recover from everything that might put scars on your being. I hope you recover from everything that hurts you. I hope you will always grow and recover from the pain.

[daftpatience]

drinking water when I have a headache should give instant relief. it should go away. what's even the point of drinking water if it can't do that

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

if you can and want to, go to college when you’re 30. move out at 40. learn to drive at 50. life is short but it is also so long. it’s not too late to do new things.

[thememedaddy]

[wizardshark]

99% of queer discourse stops right before they define the true difference between bisexual and pansexual!

[saspitite]

FOR THE LAST FUCKING TIME

BISEXUALS GROW FROM THE GROUND

PANSEXUALS GROW FROM THE CEILING

[fraterrisus]

No no, you're thinking of stalagmites and stalactites.

Bisexuals curve inward like an hourglass, while pansexuals curve outward like a(n American) football.

[lailah-tov]

No, you're thinking of concave and convex. Bisexuals are a one-sided, two-dimensional surface with a boundary, and pansexuals are a one-sided, two-dimensional surface without a boundary.

[alltangledupinblue]

No you're thinking of Möbius strips and Klein bottles. Bisexuals have bears, pansexuals don't have bears. (Phrased for maxiumum hilarity.)

[be-gay-cause-crime]

No, you’re thinking of the North Pole and the South Pole. Bisexuals fuse atoms together into a new, heavier element, pansexuals split atoms apart into smaller elements and both release a ton of energy doing so

[kale-of-the-forbidden-cities]

no, you're thinking of fusion and fission. Bisexuals result in two nuclei that are identical to the original nucleus. Pansexuals result in four nuclei with half the number of chromosomes of the original cell

[an-ungraceful-swan]

No, you're thinking of mitosis and meiosis. Bisexuals are figures of speech comparing one thing to another using words such as "like" and "as." Pansexuals are figures of speech where a thing is said to be something not literally applicable.

[solarishashernoseinabook]

Sorry, but you're thinking of similes and metaphors. Bisexuals are verbs meaning to effect something, while pansexuals are nouns that describe the changes that come from something happening.

[captainclickycat]

You're thinking of affect and effect. Bisexual is when it's pronounced as a word, pansexual is when you pronounce the individual letters. Like NATO vs ATM.

[chaotic-neutral-knitter]

That's not right, you're thinking of acronyms and initialisms. Pansexuals are the set of points in a plane equidistant from a fixed point and line, while bisexuals are the set of points in a plane defined by the constant difference between the distance to two fixed points.

[mxmollusca]

Sorry, but you're describing parabola and hyperbola. A bisexual is when you make something more pleasing to look at by combining it with something else. A pansexual is when you say something nice to someone.

[moonblossom]

Um, actually, you're describing complement and compliment. A bisexual is when you have a segmented body and skeletal system on the outside, a pansexual is when you are a form of higher primate.

[porcupine-girl]

No, you’re thinking of arthropod and anthropod. Bisexuals are verbs that must have an object while pansexuals are verbs that don’t take objects.

[brightlotusmoon]

You mean transitive and intransitive? I thought bisexual and pansexual meant day time and night time.

[carrie-fisher-in-a-suit]

No, you’re thinking of diurnal and nocturnal. Bisexual is when two words sound the same but are spelled differently. Pansexual is when words are pronounced differently but are spelled the same.

[whatdoyewant]

No you're thinking of homophones and homonyms. Bisexuals are waves where particles move parallel to the movement of force, and Pansexuals are waves where particles move perpendicular to the movement of force.

[aenramsden]

Actually that’s longitudinal and transverse motion. A bisexual is a (usually fictional) person in a novel, play, film or other piece of media, while a pansexual is a picture, description, or imitation of a person in which certain striking characteristics are exaggerated in order to create a comic or grotesque effect.

[elljayvee]

Sorry, you're thinking of characters and caricatures. Bisexuality is the study of the history and origins of words, while pansexuality is the study of insects.

[sanguinarysanguinity]

Sorry, you're thinking of etymology and entomology. Bisexuality is elevation to divine status, and pansexuality is an old-timey dispenser of medicines.

[butterfreetamer]

You’re thinking of apotheosis and apothecary. Bisexuals are perfect examples of specific qualities, and pansexuals are polygons with infinite sides

[arueshalaetablebuildingsociety]

Common misconception! You're thinking of paragons and apeirogons. Bisexuals are a form of geometry based on a flat, 2-dimensional plane such that the sum of all angles in a triangle will always be 180°, while Pansexuals are a model for the existence of Christ in which he exhibited one nature that combined elements of both mortal and divine that was identical to neither.

[breelandwalker]

Nope, you're thinking of hypotenuse and hypostatic union. Bisexuals are a species of medium-sized game grouse common in Europe, whereas Pansexuals are a genus of extinct flying reptiles.

[onlymostlybees]

Close, but I’m pretty sure you’re thinking of ptarmigans and pterosaurs. Bisexuals were people who lived in an ancient civilization composed of independent city-states located along the coast of the Mediterranean Sea, and are credited with innovations in shipbuilding, navigation, industry, agriculture, and government. Pansexuals is a branch of linguistics that studies how humans produce and perceive sounds.