Something Personal

been through a lot.

[peelingmandarins]

images of neptune

[sitiinurhalizaaa]

This is so beautiful, best thing I’ve ever seen on the internet!

[sitiinurhalizaaa]

You love her dearly but she’s not willing to take a chance on you. She wants to stay friends. And you on the other hand, want so much more than that. You love her so much you can’t stand the idea of  only being friends with her. But you guess that’s so much better, compare to being nothing all And so you agree, to stay “friends". You agree to not stand a chance being her lover and she not being yours. You kept telling yourself that it’s fine, but even I can tell that you’re not. Because deep down I know, I know that your body ache every time she mentions ‘No, we’re just friends’

SitiiNurhaliza

[sitiinurhalizaaa]

They say I’ve change and yes I won’t deny it. After all the troubles life handled me, of course I’ve change. I became stronger, because I learnt that the only person who can save me is myself. I became more mature, because being positive and being more optimist makes it so much easier to go through all the problems I have. I became more selfish, because I knew that I needed to take care of my body and soul. Because I knew that it’s time for me to prioritize myself.

sitiinurhaliza

[sitiinurhalizaaa]

How sad is it, to have someone telling you "you deserve better". It's as if you're so bad at taking care of yourself someone had to knock some sense out of you.

sitiinurhaliza

[vomitingwords]

“Please don’t think that I never care enough.” she said. “I know…I can’t blame you for feeling that way. As if someone took away one of your favorite pens. As if someone fastly grab your toothbrush or the spoon you’re about to take. As if you suddenly stopped doing the things you’re used to. I am sorry. I am really sorry if you’re feeling like that.” she stared at him for several minutes. Then she looked ahead and wiped a single tear that fell from her eyes. “But I was just like a glass of water. A glass you knew that will always be there for you. A sun you knew that will always be there every morning you woke up from tiredness, sadness and hopelessness. Yet, I felt the storm coming in. I felt the glass falling. I felt the cracks. I felt as if you meet someone new and suddenly you’re no longer looking for me. You’re no longer afraid to lose me.” she took a deep sigh. Pulling back all the tears she’s keeping inside. “Because if you’ll ask me, I…I will never blame you for not caring. I just…I just wanted you to know that I am human too. That once I was an echo, and I was dying to be heard too”.

ma.c.a // But If I run, would you chase me? (via vomitingwords)

[overdosedemotions]

thank you for not loving me.

because in its absence

in your lack of heart

I️ found my own.

And in that, I️ learned

to love myself

and self love is the most important

kind of all.

-2:36pm ; 12.30.17

[lesbianfreyja]

the phrase “curiosity killed the cat” is actually not the full phrase it actually is “curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back” so don’t let anyone tell you not to be a curious little baby okay go and be interested in the world uwu

[violet-nomad-deactivated2018120]

See also:

Blood is thicker than water The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.

Meaning that relationships formed by choice are stronger than those formed by birth.

[espurr-roba]

Let’s not forget that “Jack of all trades, master of none” ends with “But better than a master of one.”

It means that being equally good/average at everything is much better than being perfect at one thing and sucking at everything else. So don’t worry if you’re not perfect at something you do! Being okay is better!

[theshantiestme11ophone]

These made me feel better

[thelifeofatubaplayer]

Also, “great minds think alike” ends with “but fools rarely differ”

It goes to show that conformity isn’t always a good thing. And that just because more than one person has the same idea, doesn’t necessarily mean it’s a good idea.

[eattheacid]

what the fuck why haven’t i heard the full version to any of these 

[terror-billie]

“Birds of a feather flock together” ends with “until the cat comes.”

It’s actually a warning about fair-weather friends, not an assessment of how complementary people are.

[engel-tier-deactivated20180213]

I’ve always felt like these were cut down on purpose.

[washington-acp]

I really like these phrases and plan on spreading this knowledge.

[alwayswillgraham]

The early bird catches the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

[its-kks-world]

I want to make designs out of these.

[sunderlorn]

Funny how all the half-finished ones encourage uniformity and upholding the status-quo, while the complete proverbs encourage like…living exciting, eclectic lives driven by choice and personal passion.

[tentaclabia-deactivated20190608]

NICE

[uhh-the-green-thing]

The legendary thread is back

[a-heathen-pagan]

Some of these are old as time,

[aspiritualwarrior]

If you can sit down quietly and listen compassionately to that person for one hour, you can relieve a lot of his suffering. Listen with only one purpose: to allow the other person to express himself and find relief from his suffering. Keep compassion alive during the whole time of listening. You have to be very concentrated while you listen. You have to focus on the practice of listening with all your attention, your whole being: your eyes, ears, body, and your mind. If you just pretend to listen, and do not listen with one hundred percent of yourself, the other person will know it and will not find relief from his suffering. If you know how to practice mindful breathing and can stay focused on the desire to help him find relief, then you will be able to sustain your compassion while listening.

Thich Nhat Hanh (via aspiritualwarrior)

[bookmania]

I began to draw an invisible boundary between myself and other people. No matter who I was dealing with. I maintained a set distance, carefully monitoring the person’s attitude so that they wouldn’t get any closer. I didn’t easily swallow what other people told me. My only passions were books and music.

Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart

I believe this is how it should be when we are in a state of solitude. People wreck you sometimes, especially when they get closer to you. They neglect the fact that you’ve allowed them to enter your life. At some point, when they get the closest, they think that they can take you for granted…until everything gets colder, and you end up being sad. It’s indespensable to stay aloof, and seemingly not care at all…in  order to prevent this. You’ll learn this, eventually, because you’re a human being and you are capable to learning how to love.

At some point, you’ll learn how to love yourself; and that you really don’t need anybody else because that’s how it works. 

(via bookmania)

[sitiinurhalizaaa]

So now I made up my mind to end this toxic relationship. To get off this journey that wasn’t benefiting neither me or you. I pity myself for having to go through all this. I knew I deserved better and perhaps you deserved better too. This is it, my farewell, goodbye my beloved, thank you for everything and sorry too. You left me so late that now I feel nothing at all. No tears were streaming down my face and my heart wasn’t in pain. Oddly, I felt relieved to have all this coming to an end.

sitiinurhaliza

[vomitingwords]

And maybe it was the best thing to do. To stop chasing someone who did nothing but hurt you.

Promises // ma.c.a

[eli0tknight-deactivated20181203]

If you’re unlucky, the first person to break your heart will be your parent, if you’re unfortunate, it’ll be both of them, but if you’re determined, you’ll be all right.

Eliot Knight (via eli0tknight)

❤

[positive-affirmation]

A selection of tweets for World Mental Health Day

[pixiecoven]

i always think about writing something regarding my own mental health but then I get too scared so here’s an awesome post from my fave beth evans who just nails it every time

[incorrectgreekquotes]

🌻 a few small + big things

have a glass of water it has so much benefits just do it!

eat something god damn it esp if you haven’t eaten yet!

get up and walk around a lil bit, it’s a little bit of exercise but it’s healthy!

take your medication that shit is important!

take a few deep breaths, just bc! it’s hella relaxing!

sit your ass down and do/watch/read/eat/fucking whatever something that makes you happy and makes you feel good!

call someone!

take a shower or a bath or at least clean yourself in some way!

someone cares about you!

rest for a lil bit your body needs sleep whether or not you feel tired!

don’t forget to feed your pet!

you are valid!

and if you have a pet go play with them!

go do what you’ve been putting off, i know it’s so easy to just not but you’ll actually feel great afterwards!

brush your hair i don’t know about you but i find that super calming!

if you need to cry that’s okay!

water your plants!

you are enough!

go hug someone!

if you’re religious go pray or do something else involving your religion!

listen to some soft music, even if you don’t usually listen to it!

go outside, you don’t have to even do anything just walk around for a bit!

brush your teeth!

cut that person out of your life! you know who!

stretch esp if you’ve been in the same position for a while and I know you you probably have stop lying to yourself and stretch!

compliment someone!

you are important!

[sitiinurhalizaaa]

This is your day !

[thoughts-into-ink]

I just wish I could convince myself I’m more than this. More than some stupid teenager trying to take on the world with a mismatched body and clumsy words.

Journal Entry; 1 Oct 2017 (via thoughts-into-ink)

[thoughts-into-ink]

People are just people, and just because you love one of them doesn’t make that one any better or worse than anyone else.

from an unfinished story #951 (via thoughts-into-ink)

💯