HEYYY! me, @lyraisnotonfire & @pixelgiy47 post a hard launch bingo card WEEKLY (usually every sunday) so follow @hardlaunchbingo for that!! And i maybe say things sometimes^^
"you might as well be as weird, or gay as you can until we all die, turn to dust, and fucking evaporate" - Daniel Howell
Welcome to my blog!!
HEY! Im El or Ilya (friends also used to call me worm as a joke and it stuck as another nickname) i unfortunately reside in america, im 17 (18 in November, free me), i use any pronouns (pronouns page here), gender and pronouns are whatever you want it to be, have fun, because i sure as hell got no idea, might as well have fun with it am I right, sexuality though i am asexual and nebularomantic and idk if there's a term for it or if i just say pansexual but id be in a queerplatonic relationship with any gender idgaf
What do i do on here?: i tend to just reblog anything and everything i enjoy or relate to! Main thing i post about is Dan and Phil right now, i also post a weekly bingo card for the hard launch podcast with @lyraisnotonfire so follow @hardlaunchbingo for that! >:P
Other Interests/Hobbys i have: im also super into Hozier, Florence and The Machine, Noah Kahan, Muse, Next to Normal, Sherlock and Co, Percy Jackson, Good Omens, Doctor Who, Space, Greek Mythology (mythology just in general tbh i just know more about greek than others), Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Hermitcraft, Marvel (sort of?) Pen palling, Crafting, Witchcraft, Reading, Various games, Project Hail Mary, and Smosh so i might reblog stuff about those things sometimes as well :]
Star signs? Mbti? Etc: im a Scorpio sun, Aries moon, and Capricorn rising (still not sure what that means exactly but its still fun) and my mbti is INFJ last i checked, i should probably do it again pretty soon, also lmk if theres any more of those quiz things I should take to add here!
Other random shite about me: My birthday is November 10th, my favorite scent is eucalyptus, I have a dysautonomia (was diagnosed with vasovagal syncope but we think I actually have pots so looking into that still :/), my family is almost constantly moving so I've been all over america! My favorite color is actually green despite this being all purple, i draw once a blue moon and sometimes it actually looks good and i post it here, im also learning polish!...its so hard send help, I also have tarot cards and im learning them (have been for like 3 years but for some reason i have a hard time memorizing cards even now but I've gotten a bit better recently) but I LOVE doing readings so if you ever want one just send an ask!
Seriously please do I'm begging it's so fun
Current timezone: EST
DONT HESITATE TO ASK ME THINGS OR SAY THING AT ME: im forever bored and love yapping and to be the yappee :P
And of course. fuck trump. fuck ai. fuck isreal. Im as far left as left can go im basically fucking anti government if you dont like that you can go fuck off
New intro post! Credit to @strangergraphics, dividers and such :]
u know what else was a year ago now. the date everything vids. need to rewatch those because god just absolutely jam packed. phil holding the clothing hangers and saying "we're in a relationship now" until dan glares at him long enough that he puts them down. with sad music in the background. plays in my head constantly they werent just moving tbat line they were dancing on it
Introverts was the second tour I went to but it’s the first one I can vividly remember being at. I had a chance to meet them and idk why I didn’t do it, one of my biggest regrets tbh
Looking forward to whatever the new one has to offer
Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.
And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.
It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.
when I was in high school, I overheard two older students talking about a friend of theirs.
One of them said something like, "it doesn't bother me that [Friend] was in residential mental health treatment, I just wish they wouldn't talk about it ALL the time".
The other replied, "Well, that was all of last year for them. So when they say 'when I was in treatment,' it's like when you say 'last year'."
I try to remember that any time someone says something that sounds Shocking to me. sometimes one person's scary special crisis is another person's last year.
If you want to be accepting of mental illness, you need to accept the fact that some people's everyday lives are going to be terrifying to you. That doesn't mean they don't get to talk about it. Stop forcing hurt, isolated people to become even MORE hurt and isolated because you can't fathom toughening up a bit.
"Phil illegally downloaded our own movie" and then you admitted that on camera guys this is gonna be some pretty clear evidence when you take yourselves to court
