I'm Held Captive

An outlet for the overactive imagination of a California girl. Feel free to call me Ani and ask me anything. I like a lot of nerd stuff. From Marvel to DC to Greek Mythology. I've got range and I"m happy to share. I do request for social media au or stories. Check out my request information for specifics on what I'll create or write for you! There is swearing in my posts and while I usually censor it, there are times I just don't feel like it. So just be warned. REQUESTS ARE OPEN

[slowlydrowningme]

Miss you on my dash! Hope you're doing ok! 💚

Awww thanks!  I came on here because this dropped in my email this morning.

Covid hit my family recently.  My brother in law caught it (we’re still not sure how, but it happened) and managed to spread it to my mother in law.  The last couple of days my husband and I have been feeling poorly and are waiting on our test results.  We haven’t seen either of them in person since before my BIL caught it, so we’re pretty sure we’re going to test negative and just have something else.  

2020 has been a crummy year, but it’s also been a much better year for my personal life than 2019 in most aspects.  I am looking forward to the end of it though.   

But I hope you all are safe and healthy!

[bringiton]

“Ah, okay. I do not like high-fiving. It’s violent.”

[slowlydrowningme]

I’m coming on here for a quick moment to issue an apology.

A few weeks ago, I reblogged a post that has since been deemed insensitive by members of the Black Community. I deleted it after seeing some comments from other Tumblrs who felt this way, but didn’t mention anything.

I am here to say I am sorry for ever reblogging it to begin with. I am a white woman and a supporter of the BLM movement, always have been. But I will not claim to know everything. So when people who would actually know what it feels like to be in this situation say something, I listen.

I’m hopping on to say sorry because a friend of mine irl who is also a Tumblr friend, told me about the OP deleting their post and blog after the calls to do so from a number of people.

I did not know better, but now I do. And I can only hope to do better in the future. I am deeply sorry for my contribution. Even if I wasn’t the initial cause of the problem, I understand I added to it.

[slowlydrowningme]

So I’m coming on here with a heavy heart. My grandfather, the last living blood grandparent between my husband and I, passed away recently from his sixth bout of cancer and while I’ve been trying my hardest to continue on as usual, I have been failing miserably (as I’m sure you have all noticed). So I’m stepping away from all things tumblr for the unforseeable future.

I apologize to all of those who recently sent in requests or questions for me to answer, I don’t know when I’ll get to any of them. I may surprise you with those updates I have created but not made into posts yet, but I make no promises.

I love you all but I’m just really tired right now and can’t expel the energy needed to maintain.

[dickiesgrayson]

why fanfiction/fanart/fanwork is allowed to suck ass

so, yesterday (or this morning for some of y’all), i just posted something of a diss towards dc canon because they deserve it. 

now, in the responses to my post, someone said that our fanfiction isn’t that good, and that we’re not much better than canon 

to which i say: ok? and? 

i was really wondering if it was worth responding to, but, honestly, i appreciate fanfiction, fanwork and fanart too much not to defend them when i see fit. 

because you see the difference between writers on ao3 and writers on dc is one simple thing: one of them is paid for it and the other isn’t. 

i’ll give you a clue: the one writing 50k+ words, updating weekly, doing research, finding betas, looking for canon-support, spending hours perfecting anatomy, hair, eyes, looking at proportions, looking at poses while ALSO juggling a full-time/part-time job/school isn’t the former.

so, yes, are our fanfictions better than canon? some, yes. some, no. does it matter? no. because another difference is that i can opt in and out of fanwork. i don’t like the tags? sure, i’ll leave. unto the next self-serving AU that i love and enjoy. that’s not how it happens in canon. in canon, what you do to our heroes and our characters will stay with fans and their story forever. 

my issue with current dc canon isn’t oh no :( bruce not spending time his kids :( 

it’s my childhood hero - the one i spent all night watching with my dad, the one i watched growing up as a kid, the one i loved and admired, the one hero that was human and had no abilities outside of his brains and brawn - is fucking beating his kids. 

how the fuck do you think that’s gonna affect readers? supporters? fans who were victims of child abuse? how do you think victims of child abuse are going to feel looking at bruce wayne hit jason so hard he broke through metal, and drag his bleeding body? 

and that’s going to affect the character for years, potentially decades to come in ways even the most popular of fanfiction won’t. 

so, yes, i’m allowed to hate on dc and, at the same time, indulge myself with shitty and terrible fanwork if i fucking want to. i would much rather read a plotless fanfic that’s, i don’t know, the batboys making bruce wayne a fucking cake while ruining the whole kitchen than having to look at what dc has done to my favorite characters. 

to the people who think their work is bad: it’s okay. you’re contributing to this fandom and to the fans. you’ll get better. you’ll be able to do what your favorite artist can, you’ll be able to form sentences as beautiful as the ones in your fave fics. but don’t stop contributing to this fandom and to any fandom. there will be someone who needed to see your work now and there will be someone who will be happier for it. 

i have a small following on this blog, and i generally reblog fandom posts on my personal blog to keep this one clean and organized, but i’m thinking of spending a day or two just reblogging work from other creators to show how much i appreciate them. will you guys be okay with that? or maybe i can make a masterlist of blogs to follow! what do you guys think?

p.s. if you’re a content creator, i am REQUIRING you to reply and say that you are. i don’t care if you don’t think you’re good enough. you deserve love, validation and recognition all the same

to op who commented: sorry, but i couldn’t just sit quiet. i suppose this isn’t even a rant at you - i probably even went off topic there - but i get so riled up when ppl diss on fanart/fanwork/fanfiction ??? lmao

[slowlydrowningme]

Yes. This. All of this.

[sockablock]

yes i made this because I didn’t want to work on a WIP 

[ofmorninglory]

i don’t even know how bingo works but someone tell me if i won 

[teatitty]

ah,,,a lot more than I expected to get

[letgraysonsheart]

[slowlydrowningme]

[dickiesgrayson]

members of the batfam, worst to best fashion sense

OKAY I WAS SURE I ANSWERED THIS W REASONS BUT I DIDNT POST IM SO MAD

worst to best: 

dick - guys. come on. 

tim - tim for fucks sake, you’re a billionaire. why are ur suits so loose? 

cass - just because she doesn’t care, but she can definitely look like a model if she tried. probs has worn the discowing suit at one point because it was the most convenient thing. 

bruce - bruce dresses like a fuckin rich white guy. polo and high-waisted slacks but can definitely dress well if he tries. not necessarily bad but my first impulse is to say fuck you 

damian - tries really hard to look like the rich asshole he is, but sometimes fashion confuses him. 

duke - my boy KNOWS what’s up? did you see his robin suit in future’s end? ART. *chef’s kiss* 

jason - HAVE U SEEN HIM IN A SUIT??? GREY ON BLACK?? A CLASSIC. my BOY uses bruce’s credit card well. continues to flex on roy because he looks like a wayne??? HIS LATEST SUIT??? the red one with grey?? (not the three-piece with red, we don’t talk about that) it’s WORK WORK FASHION BABY!!! 

[burgrs]

*petting my cat* please cure my depression cat: *prrbhbphr* me: thanks

[pizzapugss]

Fun fact!!

Cats don’t only purr because they’re content! When they’re sick, or when a kitten/companion is sick, they purr to help heal faster. So if you’re feeling down and your cat friend comes up to purr on you, it’s because they sense something’s up and they want to help you feel better!

[psychicbirdstarlight]

Imagine beeing an animal that literally has a build in ‘comfort my loved ones’ function and still have people think you are an asshole by nature.

[slowlydrowningme]

Scientifically proven fun fact: the vibration frequency of a cats purr is one the promotes healing and can increase bone density.

[nac-nic-deactivated20201104]

Tim’s Journal: Duke

Other pages: Dick, Jason, Tim, Steph, Cass, Damian 

[gangler]

Barnes and Nobles is gonna start serving food and alcohol.

Everybody’s cracking jokes about how it’s a desperate attempt to stay relevant in the age of Amazon.

But you know what? Props to them. This is exactly what Blockbuster didn’t do. At no point was Blockbuster like “Hey, movie rentals aren’t the lucrative enterprise they once were. Perhaps it’s time we become known for our cheesy garlic bread.”

[mackasaurussex]

Okay but…if someone wants to take me on a date to a Barnes and noble and get me dinner and a drink and then let me peruse the stacks like I’m not saying no. A sandwich, a beer, and 2-5 books on various topics I hope I’ll someday read about? Good night.

[silvysartfulness]

The Swedish equivalent of Blockbuster is now best known for its candy, snacks and sodas.

[thestraggletag]

This is El Ateneo Grand Splendid, an old theatre turned bookstore in Buenos Aires:

The stage itself was turned into a cafe:

You can’t even begin to comprehend the massive amounts of money this place makes, despite the fact that they turned the theatre boxes into reading nooks like this:

I’ve literally spent days holed up in there reading books for free while also consuming massive amounts of coffee and pastries.

Adapt or die, people.

[frayedcobweb]

Take me to Buenos freaking Aires… Leave me in this bookshop… Never look for me, you will not find me again.

[whitepeopletwitter]

[slowlydrowningme]

Umm heck no we’re not.  I am proud to say that my entire relationship (dating and marriage which spans over 16 years total), I was the bread winner between my husband and I.  We made a huge sacrifice financially when we decided together that I would stay home with the kids.  I ran a medical practice for my father-in-law who is a concierge level Doctor of Osteopathic medicine in one of the most expensive areas of the WORLD.  Not just the US, the world.  That office has links to the Oakland Raiders (he went to high school with a previous coach for them) and had two NFL players as patients.  So yeah, I was bringing in good money.

And better than me not being ‘worried’ or ‘ashamed’, my husband was more than happy to say I brought in more money.  So screw you CNBC.  You don’t know shit.

[anvcient]

Greek Goddesses as Zodiac Signs (sun) 2/2

[anvcient]

Greek Goddesses as Zodiac (sun) Signs (1/2)

[marvel-lous-things]

Me, in tears, halfway through writing a 300 word essay: I can’t do this anymore

Person on A03 who’s writing for fun:

[sanerontheinside]

Inconvenient Truth: these are the same person

[elfwreck]

Yeah, well, I can’t stretch out that review of 16th century economics by adding a gratuitous hand job.

[aryashi]

#not with that attitude you can’t

[kaylewiswrites]

I love the ambiguity of the term ‘WIP’. Is it a project in it’s third draft? A final draft being queried? An idea I came up with six months ago and haven’t written anything about yet? You don’t know. Nobody knows. 

[willowdove]

Least of all the author

[ebonyheartnet]

[slowlydrowningme]

I’m feeling very attacked right now.

[orcixs]

made a quiz, tell me what greek deity favours you!!

https://uquiz.com/N17OGW

[orcixs]

i see ya’ll complaining in the comments on what you got.

you don’t pick the deity !!! THEy pick you!!!! 

[wisdom-walks-alone]

hey guys i made a quiz to tell you which batfam member you are that doesn’t have questions about their weapons! leave who you got in the tags!

[batfam-big-bang]

mod jay made this fun quiz!

[slowlydrowningme]

This was fun! I got Steph and yeah, can’t say I’m surprised