starlight orchestra

recovering from trauma, ED issues and trying to find more comfort being us. learning to be kinder to ourselves ♡ we're a C-DID system. autistic. chronic pain... this blog doesn't really contain trigger warnings!

[starlit-recovery]

About

Bodily an adult (1990)

SzPD

Autistic

C-DID system

RAMCOA survivor

No host

See ourselves as individuals sharing a body and brain

In a long term irl relationship with another DID system

We follow from @starlightorchestra which is our main but isn't focused on brain & body issues - our pinned post there has a list of all our blogs linked

Trigger warnings are rare here but we don't share graphic or detailed information about our trauma or health - on any rare occasion we do we will trigger warn and put under a read more so it can be avoided. We are typically quite private about our trauma.

No formal DNI but we just block what we don't like. In general if you're anti LGBT+ in any way or are any kind of bigot we will block on sight. If we see things like "trans ramcoa" or anything adjacent to that we will block.

We don't follow minors back.

[aleshakills]

At some point in your life, you were taught that being slightly annoying is an unforgivable sin. Maybe it was by your parents or a teacher or a friend or a bully or an older sibling. But someone taught you that being slightly annoying is a crime punishable by death.

You must unlearn this.

You must accept that all people will be annoying at some point or another in their lives, maybe all of their lives, and that this is okay. It is okay for strangers on the bus, it is okay for children in the grocery store, it is okay for people on social media, and it is okay for you.

If you ever want to truly love your fellow humans, if you ever want to truly love yourself, you must have forgiveness for being annoying.

[lupismaris]

Do it scared but please don't do it hungry. Please don't do it dehydrated. It's gonna make it so much scarier. Please.

[fontainians]

System communities need to get normal about littles who are sexual trauma holders

System communities need to get normal about littles who have other “adult” roles

System communities need to get normal about abuser introjects

System communities need to get normal about RAMCOA/OEA survivors

System communities need to get normal about systems who’s trauma wasn’t parental abuse and/or sa (this is not me saying that people who did go through that are invalid, but that theres a lack of resources or support for different types of trauma)

System communities need to get normal about factives

[squishyfauna]

Calling all creatives!

I run a Discord for creatives of all kinds! Community and friendship is central to our server, making connections with others who love to create!

We have spaces for creations, commissions, shops, creative businesses, hobbies, chatting and also optional spaces for darker subjects (health, current events, vents) and another for NSFW topics/art.

Members must be 21+ to join.

We offer:

A safe space for marginalised communities and zero tolerance for bigotry

A mostly static black/grey/whitelist

Monthly themes with prompts build around that theme

Study prompts

Bots with prompts, and also Sprinto for writing sprints or timed art challenges

Random events to encourage you to share your work, past and present

Group digital canvases on a semi regular basis hosted on Magma

Needle Bot to create threads when sharing creations so no one’s work gets overlooked or buried

PluralKit for DID and OSDD systems

A server that is inclusive of mental health and doesn’t shy away from it being part of daily life and often behind creative inspiration

And more!

We hope you’ll join us and we can’t wait to have you as part of our community!

Apply to join here!

[stuckinapril]

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

[changelingcoded]

does anyone else have a guy who gives you exposition about your own life randomly

[kosmogrl]

oooh I get it it’s always gonna be because of the environment I grew up in

[scorpionlafemme]

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

[chandra-telescope]

hope is a skill

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

hope is a weapon you are trained to wield

[chandra-telescope]

favourite additions

[chandra-telescope]

[tenaciouswritingdragon]

You cannot hide this in the tags, bestie. This is too lovely to keep a secret.

[wonderwyrm]

[eregyrn-falls]

It may not be apparent to everyone how to easily find out who wrote the poem in the tags, so: @mumblesplash

(an instant-classic example of a Tumblr thread where so many people add value!)

[ndnbutch]

fyi. being intensely self critical is not the same as being self aware. if you’re really self aware you’ll be aware of the good stuff too. just in case anyone needs to hear it. don’t mistake constantly dissecting what you see as your flaws for some kind of personal enlightenment.

[robotslenderman]

I’m sorry my lovelies but the reason you hate yourself is because you treat you like shit. If you came up to me and then told me I was a fuck up who could never do anything right I'd fucking hate you too.

[robotslenderman]

if you didn't let me go to bed until after midnight because you'd rather watch Netflix than let me rest, and then got mad at me for not being productive the next day I'd be PISSED

[robotslenderman]

You keep calling me a fatass but you tell other overweight people they’re beautiful? Why do you keep shitting on MY weight, then?

Oh? It’s different if it’s me? Wow fuck you too

[robotslenderman]

Love is a verb! Self love isn’t a warm fuzzy feeling, it is compassion and action in support of yourself!

And yes, this includes having compassion for the bully in your head. Unfortunately that part is also you and deserves as much of your understanding as the rest of you.

[robotslenderman]

via @corazondebeskar

This is the real reason why you need to be kind to the bully in your brain too, because that motherfucker is really good at doing a switcheroo when you're not paying attention.

[swiftie-born-in-august]

Might come in handy. Whoever posted this, THANKS A LOT!

[bochitoblanco]

Yeaaah, as someone who has very strong anxiety.

I always jump from thing to thing to keep my mind occupied.

Can't feel sad if I'm too busy watching a 9 hour video from Wendigoon.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

you’re allowed to get up one day and just decide to change who you are. dress differently, speak up more, laugh out loud even though you’ve never liked your laugh, say what you want to, say hey to people you wouldn’t normally, get that confidence going. we don’t have to stay the way people see us out of the fear that they won’t like the us we want to be.

[cheaphalloweencostume]

CPTSD constantly has me acting so cartoonishly stupid. hello my partner of 4 years who has literally never so much as raised their voice in my direction, i heard you doing dishes a little louder than usual in the other room. are you going to kill me?

[unstablemotions]

idk it kinda feels like this sometimes