Surrounded By Sociopaths

Specifically Narcs

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gas.light

gas·lightˈɡaslīt/

noun

1.a type of lamp in which an incandescent mantle is heated by a jet of burning gas.

verb

1.manipulate (someone) by psychological means into questioning their own sanity.“in the first episode, Karen Valentine is being gaslighted by her husband”

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Repost: Does a person diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder have a chance of improvement?

Written by Brian Bryant, Psychological reasearcher

A narcissist is emotionally retarded. Whereas an autist is emotionally overloaded with processing, the narcissist is underloaded. It doesn’t change anymore than autism or mental retardation changes. They reenact emotions as any savant would do, and make excellent actors, though frequently they use this profession to exploit reality rather than openly profess themselves and serve a platform. Many turn to entertainment and porn, but they will NEVER make good close friends or partners because they are lacking emotional feeling. It’s very simple really. The evil they commit is an inability to sense; but the thing about emotions is that we can all superficially understand them & express them.

The narcissist knows what people want and need in a generic sense, which enables them to deeply abuse the victim; the reason for this is because we are generally aware of our blaring ineptitude. The narcissist grows up knowing what they lack, and cannot express, feel, or give; they therefore internalize what they are lacking like an expert, the same way that a crippled person might sit in a wheelchair and completely fantasize about what it might be to walk, and ask himself what it means to walk, and why people walk, and how they walk; he might animate walking, and visualize it, hoping to change.

The narcissist is on the outside looking in very early on in certain ways, and they keep it hidden to a fault; so they know full well and expertly how to exploit and violate other people’s wants, needs, emotions, voice, and expressions. And no, they are not innocent, contrary to many “Christian” claims that narcissists are “misguided souls who need help & compassion”; they are black holes of their own wicked devices, and they reap the rewards at everyone else’s expense.

They are not particularly suffering, because much of the world’s resources & relationships are controlled by cluster B personalities; “good” men have done nothing for a very long time mainly due to lack of understanding and the infiltration of psychotic occult underground covens (who used sacrifice to weed out conscientiousness from the ranks), and “justice” has been superficially monopolized by the wicked. They claim to own the courts, and the laws; so really many of the divine commit suicide, and honestly that isn’t the worst move for many of them. Not that I am encouraging it; I just won’t continue to profess these cherry-picked “spiritual laws of peace and forgiveness” that entail dismissing the maliciously thought-out and conspired schemes of emotionally depraved & numb self-serving demons in any way.

But, they don’t always know how you feel either; many times they project stereotypes onto the victims at coldly calculated strategic moments deep into relationships after intimate experiences or soul ties like contracts, etc. have taken place. They project vulnerability onto the victims, twisted things reminiscent of a flawed empath, and create insecurities in them, endlessly, and mercilessly without relent, or even an acknowledgement; they gas light their perception of their selves until the victim’s self-image is so distorted and contorted, they are left feeling ugly & worthless, and this destroyed self-esteem will afflict them.

The narcissist cannot change, or feel; this doesn’t change; they are emotionally paralyzed for the most part; often only in some ways, like cripples are not always fully paralyzed, but sufficiently not to dance on two legs.

They project the rest of their own personal flaws onto the victim because it’s what the narcissist knows; they know their own faults.

I don’t feel sorry for this; not for most, that’s for sure.

They see their ineptitude on a daily basis, so they cunningly project it onto others to escape the inevitability of it. They know they can’t change; that is why it is easy for them to project onto others, because they have accepted and know it to be true. They will live and die that way, so they may as well as project every last single cent of their ugliness onto others and steal whatever energy and justice they can, because, afterall, they can’t change themselves.

They feel no attachment to their flaws much of the time; they dissociate from it, permanently, the way that we go throughout the day not even noticing every thread of fabric touching our skin. We tune it out.

They tune out of their own flaws & mistakes, and run this on autopilot. Again, this is easy for them to do, because their wickedness is not due to ignorance, or mistake; it is who and what they are. Those parts of the brain that calibrate and inspire us to fine-tune and modify our behaviors to be congruent and creative with others is a very real skill set; harmony doesn’t just magically happen - it is an energetic frequency in the mind and heart that seeks to harmonize with other living beings. The narcissist is tone-deaf and permanently devoid of this auto-tuning ability, or at least sees itself as a predator deserving to exploit, and you better believe that evolution produced it - and it is something we must come to terms with, however that is I do not know right now; they can fake it very easily, because unfortunately the energy of love can be masked by outward actions before one begins to internalize the true nature puppeteering behind those actions.

The narcissist runs on an auto-pilot of charming, seducing, and then consuming the beauty of another’s truth & projection of their own flaws as a natural rhythm within them; it is the way they will survive, and it is as natural as a need to eat. They do it, and it cannot and will not change; many victims become entangled trying to change them or destroy them; they get caught in a dichotomy of it. But then the desire to destroy the narcissist’s self-esteem, reputation, finances, or even physical body can make the victim feel like a monster; it is a double-edged sword, not by karmic consequence but simply by its nature.

When we go to war, we will shed blood, even if the narcissist ignores you permanently and puts up a front & a facade; there is something about trying to destroy the narcissist that evokes feelings of monstrosity within the victim seeking vengeance. I propose they find a way to come to peace with crushing the wicked, and to feel twice as beautiful than before; but eventually you must free yourself from the drive to destroy them because honestly that is a form of enslavement, and I will stop here as I may be triggering some people … Unresolved injustice is an entirely separate topic, and is not cerebral but a quest.

That being said, the projections the narcissist forces onto the victims permanently and untruthfully, serve to fill in the missing pieces of the victim’s silhouette in the narc’s mind, whom the narc cannot comprehend. They generally claim to understand the victim fully, anyway, and they create a voodoo image of ugliness as well to explain it away; generally by then, the victim is in such a particular circumstance of social isolation, dependence, reliance, or sexual attachment, having children, a shared living situation or expense—whatever—that it makes it very difficult for them to detach from this beacon of madness.

Being unable to detach from the narcissist, they are forced either by circumstance, or conflicting emotional desire to endure, entangle, or combat a mind that has, for all intents & purposes, dedicated its life to running on the autopilot of scapegoating their permanent emotional paralysis onto others as if they were simply wearing a mirrored cloak (looooong ago).

Frequently they just lie about the victim or gaslight them to their face to make the victim stop some course of action (to sabotage them), or to do something (control/use them).

They just don’t feel the other person’s feelings of struggle or pain with a repulse; they are sadomasochistic in many ways, and enjoy hurting others because they enjoy pain; they may channel their expressions, but feeling a direct connection to live personal consequence is different. They don’t feel that; they channel, they don’t interact except when charming but then it is all a hyper active state of charm & idealism to appear to bear high conscientiousness, and be jovial; they can keep that act up for only so long before they drop the facade (usually behind closed curtains or in close quarters with family, including their long list of temporary lovers). Unfortunately by then, most narcs will manipulate the victim for believing, and “justify” their deadness in any many of ways:

You don’t stimulate me. (obfuscating the real source of their deadness)

You aren’t great. (gaslighting / devaluation / self-aggrandizing)

Try harder! (gaslighting, manipulating, & blameshifting to exploit)

I’m tired. (excuse)

I work hard. (self-aggrandizing obfuscation)

This is just how I am, and either you accept me or you don’t! (shame)

I’m fine, you’re the depressed and negative one! (projection; a double whammy, because often the victim is depressed in a different way because the narc makes them miserable to be around; the narc is fake & lifeless when they’re not charming, or on drugs; the narc will start smear campaigning after these projections take place, and claim the victim is depressing them, and is a negative hurtful person of little value to be around; after these dialogues have taken place, they steal the truth & beauty of the victim for themselves amongst the current social dynamic of the time)

You want too much! (shame & blame projection) etc.

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