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[syrena-del-mar]

BL Meta Masterlist

Hello! If you've landed on my page, it's likely that you came across one of my various BL metas that I've posted. I watch way too many for my own good and I try to write as much as I can when a show captivates me (though half of them become half-finished drafts rotting away). The actual number of meta that I have written in the last year, since La Pluie aired, has increased so much that I've have started to lose track of what I've written. So I'm compiling them all onto this list, which will be regularly updated with the new posts that I write.

Be My Favorite

Embracing the Waters of Uncertainty

Exploring Enclosures and Privacy in 'Be My Favorite'

Folklore of Flowers: Wisterias in 'Be My Favorite' Episode 6

Kawi's Journey with Self-Worth and Pisaeng's Reassurance

Dead Friend Forever

An Ode to Older Siblings: New in Dead Friend Forever, Episode 9

Celestial Pleasures: Miscellaneous Thoughts on PheeJin's NC Scenes

Dead Friend Forever is More Than Just A 90s Slasher Film Imitation

Echoes of Guilt: Exploring the Thin Line Between Tee's Redemption and Salvation in Dead Friend Forever, Episode 11

Examining the Use of Movie Posters in Dead Friend Forever, Episode 8

On Non's Medications: Lorazepam

On Non's Medications, Part 2: Quetiapine Fumarate

Selfish Desires and the Class War: Dead Friend Forever, Episode 10

The Nine Circles of Hell: Dead Friend Forever, Episode 7

KinnPorsche

Interlocking Narratives: Exploring the Chains of Kim and Chay

La Pluie

A Jungian Perspective on La Pluie

Balancing Self-Absorption and Love in La Pluie

La Pluie: A Tale of Tender Hearts

La Pluie meets Nora Roberts

The Depths of Inner Turmoil: Exploring Isolation, Connection, and Vulnerability in La Pluie Ep. 10

Third-Child Syndrome: Birth Order Theory in La Pluie

Last Twilight

Blind Spots of Motherhood: Last Twilight, Episode 10

Moonlight Chicken

Alan, the Textbook 'Nice Guy'

In Support of Uncle Jim

My Stand In

Navigating the Conflict in My Stand In: Surrender and Softening in Love

Only Friends

Boston, the Machiavellian Prince?

Notes of Desire: Sand's Possible Soundtrack

Threads of Boston's Intimacy: Crochet, Cotton and Connections

Very Rarely Do Men Know How to Be Altogether Wicked or Altogether Good

Pit Babe

AlanJeff: What Love Looks Like in the Aftermath, Pitbabe S2, Ep. 10. *NEW*

The Ethics of Alan’s Choice, Pitbabe S2, Ep. 11. *NEW*

Step by Step

Carnation Flowers: Motherhood, Weddings and Juxtaposition of Sexualities

"Foliage, Flowers, and Feelings, Oh My!" in Step By Step Ep. 8.

The Birth Order Theory: The Only Child in Step By Step

Shorter Dive on Birth Order in Step by Step

Twins

Volleying Hearts: Navigating Love and Insecurities in Twins the Series, Ep. 10

Miscellaneous Metas

Revisiting Houses of Thai BL: Dead Friend Forever and Deep Night

[babyangelsky]

You know what's horrifying?

That is a real year that will happen. That is a real, plausible number for a year to be within our lifetimes. 2765? That's a fake ass year. That's just numbers. But 2054? We will experience a year that contains those numbers in that order.

But we move.

[hughungrybear]

My babies are back 😭😭😭

[hughungrybear]

Gelboys S1 Ep 7 ll Gelboys S2 Ep 1

Look how far they've come 😭😭😭

[hughungrybear]

Waaaiiiiiitttt.... Whose adult version are you???? 😭😭😭

[thelitaeffect]

I appreciate this

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

For you…even if I have to break the rule, I will do it.

[thisautistic]

for @negrowhat and everyone who is a fan of fingering

[solsticelosthermind]

It’s too fucking hot outside to think but the ac inside has me in sweats and long sleeve and under a fleece blanket. I’m temperature-ing so well today.

[miss0atae]

The Devathitirat brothers and their future mates.

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

We’re not drunk right now, we should prove it to see if you really don’t have any feelings for me.

[mexicontpaymybills]

Ponte La Verde 🇲🇽 Hoy es el día.

Y si sí?

Bien sabes que se te pone la piel chinita al escuchar el himno.

[mexicontpaymybills]

Sealed with a kiss.

[zadzunny]

Raul scores the 2nd goal for mexico as Penalty kick

[pointlesscandies]

A Dog and a Plane // Episode 5

This really got to me. The reminder to notice what’s right in front of you. The promise that where you are right now is still good. That there is beauty everywhere. That you don't have to keep trying to impress other people to deserve to enjoy your life.

[syrena-del-mar]

The way I’m still not over Mexico’s loss and I’m such a vengeful bitch that I’m not mad that US and Canada are going down with us in round of 16… As they say, misery loves company.

[qlforlovers]

Queer Specificity in Thai BL: Say Gay edition

When I first started watching Thai BL, it felt like everything was in the BL bubble - everyone dated men, there was no homophobia, no one had to come out of the closet. The more I watch, the more evidence I find of a rich variety of ways queerness is expressed and represented in Thai BL.

That being said, here is a non-exhaustive tribute to some of my favorite moments of characters stating it clearly.

Also see my list of fun, messy, and political moments of queer specificity.

I'm Gay:

Khemjira (2025), Ep. 12: "I'm gay. Jet's also gay. We're crazy in love." I got second-hand embarrassment making this GIF

Your Dear Daddy (2026), Ep. 7: "Gay? Why hesitate to say that word? Just say it. No need to be scared. You've always been a coward."

Tale of 1000 Stars (2021), Ep. 5: "You like men, then that means you're gay. But I'm ok with it because you're my friend."

Love By Chance (2018), Ep. 1: "But I'm gay na krab." "So what?"

Moonlight Chicken (2023), Ep. 7: "Even if Li Meng stayed with his mother, he would still be gay no matter what. What era are we in? No one looks for a reason people are gay anymore. Look at me. None of my friends are gay, but I am." (Editor's note: Wen should get some gay friends)

TharnType (2019), Ep. 1: "Are you gay?" "Yes." Asked and answered!

He's Gay:

KinnPorsche (2022), Ep. 4: "You wanted me to be shocked to know Kinn's gay?" Kinn looks on, pleased.

TonhonChonlatee, maybe? I have a vague memory of Chonlatee's mom saying he's gay, but I couldn't find it when I went looking.

I'm Bi

Love in the Air (2022), Ep. 1: "Are you gay?" "To be honest, I'm bi."

Only Friends (2023), Ep. 8: "You're bi? Me too."

I Like Men/I Don't Like Women:

There are quite a few examples of characters saying they like men or don't like women rather than using a label to describe their sexuality. Here are a few of my favorites:

Ticket to Heaven (2026), Ep. 3: "I like guys... I like you."

That Summer (2025), Ep. 4: "Why are you brave enough to say you like men?" "Because it's not a big deal." One of the strengths of That Summer is that it shows four gay men each with different relationships to sexuality and identity and each navigating very different obstacles in their paths to love and/or self-acceptance.

He's Coming to Me (2019), Ep. 6: "That's when I knew I'm not into girls." Sorry I kissed the girl you have a crush on. Also I'm in love with a man who just so happens to be a ghost.

Perfect 10 Liners (2025), Ep. 18: "It's normal for men to date, right? I'm normal, right?" One of the more interesting coming out scenes in Thai BL, because we've spent the first 17 episodes of this series believing that we were in the homophobia-free BL bubble, and now we realize that Wine hearing the stories of all of these happy same-sex couples has been part of his trajectory towards self-acceptance.

Never Let Me Go (2022), Ep. 5: "Mom, are you ok with the fact that I like men?" "Neung, you can like whatever or whoever you want. This is your life. What I expect is to see you lead a happy life, and live the life you choose."

The Heart Killers (2024), Ep. 5: "But do you know what he did? He tried to set me up with another mechanic at the garage."

Bad Buddy (2021), Ep. 9: "I like them all."

Century of Love (2025), Ep. 4: "Let them gossip if they want... Besides, I don't mind being with a man. Actually, I dated both women and men."