#autistic post

[autisticdreamdrop]

autistic things 156

sitting on the floor rocking to cope

[dreamdropdollop]

loving your autistic self is hard

it definitely is we struggle with this a lot because we are a medium to high support needs autistic system and our autism is a disability and it disables us greatly and it causes a lot of stress a lot of trauma a lot of things go on

it's hard is extremely disabling not just that along with that with our other chronic health conditions that are mental and physical just thinking about the autism it's a lot

it's overwhelming it's scary it's stressful it's so much going on but there are positives to autism obviously there are good traits and there are bad traits but we just have a lot of bad traits that we focus on which makes it hard to see the good traits that we have as well

we were late diagnosed around age 18 or 19 but the doctor was surprised that we wasn't diagnosed earlier cause we were "obviously autistic" which is why we need awareness ne acceptance it's cuz people surrounding us didn't know what autism was like for people even in our TLC class of high school which was made for people with behavioral amd mental health issues and some of our classes (just a small few) were autistics aswell

they were like "no no you couldn't autistic" be because we weren't displaying all the traits we were masking not high masking but some what masking and we didn't go through our regressions yet and it is just really really tough that no one helped us or saw the signs until high school. a mental hospital doctor was the one who saw it and told us we should get screened. we had to fight for it for 5 years to get that diagnosis.

really even though now now our mom can say hey yeah this was you being autistic as a child nobody around us knew what autism was because like even our cousin who's obviously autistic only recently got diagnosed autistic around age 14 even though we knew he was autistic but the and he's been in special ed for his entire school life he is intellectually disabled and no one ever said hey I think you're nephew has autism no this was recent the last couple of years insane how people can miss such a big developmental disorder

it is hard being autistic is hard being medium to high support needs plural system is hard needing a caregiver, is hard not being able to have good hygiene, is hard not being able to take care of yourself, is hard not being able to go outside or deal with anything without being overwhelmed and stressed out and overstimulated and scared, it's just too much.

there are obviously still positives loving ourselves is hard and we still trying to love ourselves we love our it's hard to love ourselves with our ED and our mental health issues our dysphoria (gender, body, species, etc) it's hard to love ourself with her physical disabilities and chronic health conditions and chronic illness but we're trying...

[sicksadstar]

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[leoreadss]

Have you ever been excited about the idea of a hyperfixation?

I'm at book number two of the Discworld series and lately discovered a YouTube video about the Discworld Audiobook which features Indira Varma, Peter Serafinowicz, BILL NIGHY, Colin Morgan, Andy Serkis, Sian Clifford and many others. And yes, Brenda, I know every line of the video already.

I can't wait to hyper-fixate on the entire series, learn every line and every character's voice, and shout them out loud at random moments during the day.

I JUST. CAN'T. WAIT.

Am I the only one?

yes (you're a wirdoo) - Oh, thanks! - pss it's not a compliment. - Oh...

no (tell me more in the comment please)

Voting ended onSep 20, 2024

[wilson-the-gay-oncologist]

Please Hold Me Close| Autistic House/Wilson|1|

Sometimes Wilson wonders if he could not see House, in all of the older man’s glory. Last night, when he saw House in his sweatshirt, he couldn’t bring himself to ask the older man to take it off. It seemed right when he saw House in the grey McGill shirt, a piece of him on the person he cared about so much more than he realized.

But, let’s not say House is blind, because he’s not, not when it comes to Wilson, never when it comes to Wilson. He notices how Wilson steals his Mint and Wood cologne whenever he’s out of his own. He knows Wilson gets a lot of money for simply being a person who tells other people they have cancer cells slowly eating away at them, so he has enough to get more. He notices how Wilson smiles whenever House says something rude to push people out as if he was reeling Wilson in instead.

Now, House was lying on his carpet, aware of Wilson’s shuffling in the shared office. Wilson mutters something, or at least House believes it something irrelavent for his job.Wilson gets up and sits next to House on the floor. “I know you know House,” Wilson wasn’t looking at his ‘friend’. House sighs and gives a smile. “Yep, your pining is clear as daylight” He responds, no malice in his tone at all which made Wilson turn to him. His breath hitches “How long have you known?” House freezes when he saw the two clear drops in Wilson’s eyes. 

House stares, he should lie right? Say he didn’t know, act like he was confused, but he couldn’t. “Two Years,” House states, honestly. Wilson doesn’t say anything but he should’ve known House would’ve found out. House watches Wilson’s brown eyes and sighs. “It’s not something I w-was expecting, but I should have known you’d find out” Wilson looked so vulnerable, his brown eyes were so much more capable of emotion then House’s icy blue ones.

“You're an idiot,” House said, repeating the same thing Wilson had once said to him. Wilson looked down, “I know, I’m a shame to humanity” Wilson was obviously feeling like he was the only one in love with a man who didn’t care about people’s feelings, but even House was able to love “Your, my shame to humanity,” House pauses, “You should see what I see, James,” House shuffles closer to Wilson, putting his head in Wilson’s lap.

“What do you see?” Wilson asks, putting a shaky hand in House’s hair, House jumps at the sudden warmth, it had been a while since someone had touched him like this, and he cuddled into the warm hand. “A brilliant oncologist, with creamy-brown hair and eyes the color of my favorite chocolate, your kind, and so god-damn dumb happiness,” House closes his eyes “Your odd power to be able to read me like a book,” House sighs, “Y-your really special Wilson,” House’s breath hitched “I love you” Wilson moved his head to kiss House’s forehead, “I love you too House,” Wilson sighs “We better get to work, let’s go out to dinner later, huh?” House smirks, “Yep, see you then honey” House gets up, with Wilson’s gentle help. 

[confused-mortal-being-ft-adhd]

Talking with AuDHD has a few options:

1) over explaining

2) having trouble explaining because you can't pinpoint words or feelings

3) short answers

4) nonverbal

[nonbinary-weirdo]

Whats an autistic 24 year old to do without a favourite subject to talk about for hours on end?

😖

I literally have nothing to fixate on and learn of.

[mortimer-worm]

I think I just figured out another one of my stims!

I walk with heavy footing and get a lot of attitude for it because I am loud when I walk, but I just figured out that the reason I like doing that (especially when wearing heavy shoes like boots) is because I like the feeling of my feet hitting the ground, it helps me feel "grounded" (hahahaha lol)