#helping myself

[acurtist]

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[faepunksstuff]

PT exercises suckkkkk why do I have to stand up for like a minute unassisted? And why is my balance so bad I need to grab something every few seconds. Blehhh I'm not that evil

[rainyfestivalsweets]

3/20/24

I am being attacked by my uterus. Rude.

Some other food pics. I half assed tracked, if only to urge myself to stop ✋️ before I go too high.

There was also a large bowl of skinny pop popcorn.

We are getting a storm by the end of this week so today might be the last shopping opportunity and I am not rebuying any snack foods for myself.

What else? Read more. Stay consistent with workouts. I would love to get the walking pad going also, slightly terrified that is will use too much electricity in my computer room/library. I have lots of veggies and healthy foods.

I am trying to refocus myself to stop losing my calorie deficit. I think I have been unintentionally overeating. "Healthy" junk food still has calories, don't you know?? Ugg.

I am trying to learn from people who portion their snacks better.

My butt hurts trying curtsy lunges.

I should be at work already but am allow9ng myself some quiet time off the clock to organize my thoughts.

So- I am feeling really good. The jeans I am wearing is a lower size than what I had in high school.

Goals:

176 -My fighting weight

169- My real goal, safety number

154- Will reevaluate and hope to slowly reduce to this one.

129 (This is a super secret stretch goal. I do not know if my body would be happy with this. However, my dad's sisters were somewhere between 90-100 pounds. I think I have too much muscle, which is great but not sure on height. Weight charts say that would be adequately ok, so we will see. I am not telling anyone about this goal though because people are assholes and will rain on your parade every fucking day if you let them.)

[spirituallyjesty]

I AM SOMEONE TOO

We are told to be kind to every one,

But it makes us forget our own self,

We are told to help everyone,

But we forget to help ourselves

We are told to be silent in order to make peace,

Which makes us deaf to our own scream

What we do for the world,

We never do for ourselves

So start doing justice to yourself at first

So that you soul don't die in rust

People can wait for their turn to come,

But don't let yourself wait in the long run.

©@spirituallyjesty

[erotikkook]

not sure how this happened but fuck this I want to live.

[sunflower-sadist]

May 12, 2019

5:11 AM

I lay next to you, the room dark and glowing from the lamppost outside out window. Im listening to the early birds chirp and cars splash over puddles. I can't seem to find peace in my life as of late.

But here, in this bed next to you hearing your breathing next to me. This is where peace is. This is why I can't sleep at night. I'm at peace. I feel loved and warm for the first time in my eighteen fucking years and it feels so refreshing.

[f-ck-itxd]

Lads, I finally did it. After about four years of silent struggle, I’ve spoken to my family, been to the doctors, been put on antidepressants and I’m doing counselling. This is it, this is the year that I help myself. This is the year where I start getting better..