I'm going to tell you a story.
There was a girl who met a boy, they didn't want something serious, just company and nothing more, months past by and the girl started to catch feelings, still, the boy didn't like her, so they took different ways. The girl accepted it and didn't make a big deal about it, she wanted a relationship and he didn't, but that was okay.
Four months later he came back, because somehow now he wanted something with her, something serious. She was over him, she even wanted someone else, but she accepted to see him again, so they did.
That day he confess to her, he told her the truth and that was something she loved, because no matter how hard the truth could be they always choose it.
He told her he wanted to be with her, that she was the one that would help him. He was done with loving different girls at the same time, and that he wanted to be just with one girl and that girl was her. She was shocked, because she did not want to be a choice, she had went through other things and didn't want him in her way, still the girl said that it was ok, but she didn't believe him, she was falling for other guy, and his time had been already wasted.
Weeks went by and the boy was still searching for her, this time he was the one begging and not her, her other guy left her so she felt alone, he was there and she took his love to built herself, they started again, in a seriously relationship, she wanted to belive she loved him, and it felt great while she was trying to forget the other guy... But something went wrong, and it hit her really hard, she didn't find this boy attractive... She needed something more and he didn't have it... But the truth was that she wasn't over the other guy and she needed time to went through that pain. She left him and weeks passed by and she missed him, so she went to him again, they got back together and everything was fine, but her insecurities won her again, so she left him.
It seamed that he was really in love with her... And she was convinced, but she didn't want to be with someone who would give her everything and she won't even give a damn.
They stayed away, this time it was longer, but they came back to each other needing confort, they somehow really felt the necessity of finding each other again, so they did.
"I'm sorry, I've missed you." She said.
"I've been missing you a lot." He said.
So, they started again, without anyone knowing, but this time he had another plan. She was falling in love, she found him the most perfect guy in the world, and she gave him all her love... And then he left, like she did, and she was alright with it, she deserve it, right?
But she was even surprised when he came back again, he dated other girls, she was still sad, so she let him in, again. He seemed with good intentions, she ate all that shit. But he threw her away... Again.
Again, she was okay with that, she also left him twice, but a part of her was really upset and disappointed... He made her believe he was really in love with her... But the truth was that, he just didn't feel the same compromise now than then... And so she understood him, and dealt with it.
They don't talk anymore, and that's alright, maybe they are better with each other out of their lives, but she still remembers the pain he caused and the one she caused too.
