You can't guess what happened. Whether it's not a big deal, at all.
I know, it's goddamn surprising for you. So for Damon too, but not for me.
I just told I setted this up. This is my game, and I play, I choose, I end. It's a bit weird to have a 'whole day conversation' through social media again. Especially if we consider about the 'addiction of his sex', that he is talking the same topic twice in one minute.
Do you remember the singer one? The singer emo boy I dated, just like I mentioned in 'the brutal truth about me' vlog of mine?
He came out a sex addicter at the end, texted me. Just like this one.
I'd call him different if he would show up a couple of months ago, but not right now, he is nothing but a distraction to me.
I can't feel. I will never gonna be able to. I shutted my humanity off. My feelings, the notion of love, the sense of humor, passion.. I can't deal with all. I dedicated myself to Danny Damian Sainy, and this time there was no coming back. No more promises.
So that is, we made a conversation like this, at the third of December, four o'clock, quarter to fourty nine, twenty eight is the second.
''Yeah my boy, now you can talk to me about your feelings. What the fuck do you think?''
''I'm done looking for myself,'' Damon said, with a hopeless, weary voice, controlling her. He stopped, continued, ''and this is my last decision.''
''Shall I believe in this? This time?''
She took another breath, ''I do, but, anytime we give up, then, this is being the time that we find you.'' She recorrected, ''Or.. we think that we find you.''
''But this time,'' Damon completed with a tiny voice below his breath, ''trust me, there won't be a next time.''
''I trust you, but I don't trust myself.'' It was one of the times that Alena gives her answer directly without thinking for a moment. She got used to it. Used to not trust herself.
''You just follow my rules, trust me. You don't need to trust yourself. Because we are the same, my princess.''
Alena took another another breath against his special word. Here he is, melting her heart again.
''Great,'' she said, ready for jumping to another subject. ''Do you remember the time when I told Mr. Scott like, 'I'm going to sing with two voice, are you ready for it?'''
''He didn't give a shit. He didn't even fucking understand this.''
''I know,'' she laughs, ''and this is the funny part of it.''
Laughs and makes Damon laugh too. Not that long, he gets back to the main subject.
''This is my last decision. Never fucking do love someone, okay?''
''If this is what you want, I'll follow you.''
''I know that this time you will,'' he responded with a determined voice, ''because.. you're kinda done with this shit too, I know.''
''We made this mistake in time. We should have never been make, this mistake, but we did and, now here is the consequences, the consequences that always gonna be permanent and constant, but never get fade out or get deleted, from our lives.''
His following sentence was intense. ''Goodbye Danny Damian Sainy.. or the one that who were going to pretend me.''
''Goodbye,'' Alena followed, ''Damian Sainy. My Danny.. and welcome, my soul. The soul that going to stay in me forever.''
''Gonna live with you until we die.'' Damon completed. ''Until..''
''If we die, we die together.''
''That's my girl.'' An enormous voice comes out of nowhere. ''Shut the fuck up.'' They laugh the moving, no target man together. ''That's my girl.''
Aha, here is the time to say the famous last words.
''Let's go on with our lives now, my prince.''
''Let's go on, with our life, my princess.''
The end of the conversation. Me and him just decided to upload this in person, towards Youtube. Herewith, when we die, we'll be history and die together.
I had make a promise against him. Looks like I'm breaking it into pieces, by accepting to be with his old body, and not just that but touch to his naked skin.