I used to avoid confrontation like the plague. I detest arguing, and even since Childhood—I have always preferred diplomatic discussion over shows of aggression and anger to make my point. Still, aggression from the other end would make me so sensitive, I usually wouldn't get a chance to reach discussion—I'd simply run away and avoid every issue.
I used to not understand that a middle ground can exist—standing up for yourself in a way that respects both your feelings and the other person's. Afterall—I only knew of the two opposite extremes exhibited by my parents. Lately, I HAVE been [my version of] confrontational, sometimes.
And it feels good. I have had such a hard time speaking up for myself for my whole life. Yet that has landed me in so many scary or unwanted situations over the years. I woke up one day asking myself why I'd ever made my life harder through my constant backing down, with the idea that it would make someone else's life easier?
Don't I owe that peace to myself too??!
Recently I stood up for myself to someone who really intimidated me. I've spoken my truth now to multiple people, in fact. And the more I say, the more I feel like I deserve to have a voice too regardless of the response. I haven't ever felt so empowered and deserving of my own happiness and peace before this point in my life.
My throat chakra is finally falling into perfect balance with the rest of me.