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Terv 🇫🇮 35 | she/it | ace lesbian I love SO MANY THINGS. I draw and write. Please no editing, no reuploading! Generally I don't allow my art to be used for roleplay purposes. Send an ask if there's something you need to know! (´∀`) I'm a professional animal caretaker so all bad takes about pet husbandry will be given a bombastic side-eye, the very least. Some things I love: ROTTMNT, LOTR, The Elder Scrolls, YGO, Good Omens, Tales of Arcadia, sentient transforming robots, D&D, self-care, all kinds of animals and pets ko-fi.com/tervaneula tervaneula.redbubble.com

[tervaneula]

Hi! I'm Terv, welcome to my blog!

Here's some handy-dandy info about my stuff. Might heavily edit this later because I'm nitpicky like that lmao, but anyway, here we go!

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Leonardo/Usagi tag: leoichi

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My blog is a tcest & apritello & aprileo free zone.

Latest NQK update

Chapter 15: Bonds

A list of my ROTTMNT related fics under the cut. Most of them are illustrated! 💜

General [9/?]

help me believe (that i'm your brother) (G)

The road to recovery has been long but finally, the brothers are well enough to introduce Future Boy to one of the most comforting of habits - the turtle pile. Unfortunately, Casey has some doubts about his place in their family.

please don't be a hero (again) (G) (part 1 of a series)

Donatello needs his coffee. Leonardo finds him first.

lean on me (i'm strong enough) (G) (part 2 of a series)

Leonardo needs to get better, be better. If not for himself, then for Michelangelo - his baby brother shouldn't worry about him as much as he does.

you make me proud, little brother (G) (part 3 of a series)

Raphael worries and Leo's quip goes wrong. However, it leads to an emotional turnaround neither of them saw coming.

a lesson in trust (G)

Leo feels guilty for getting Raph caught by the Krang and refuses to let go of that burden. His big brother isn't having it anymore.

not quite kintsugi, but close (G) (ongoing)

The plan is simple. If all else fails, Michelangelo will make a time gateway for Casey to undo what Leonardo, in his youthful arrogance, started all those years ago; it will require sacrifice, but they are ready for it. Until the moment comes, of course. Or, in other words - what if Future Leonardo and Michelangelo both end up in the present with Casey? Kintsugi (金継ぎ, "golden joinery") is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery by mending the areas of breakage with lacquer dusted or mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. As a philosophy, it treats breakage and repair as part of the history of an object, rather than something to disguise. (Wikipedia)

repeat until death (T) (Major Character Death)

A companion piece to Chapter 7 of not quite kintsugi, but close. Leonardo doesn't want to let go. In the end, as long as Donatello is concerned, he never did.

Cold Feet (G)

Leonardo is enjoying his lazy morning… until a certain human teenager disrupts his peace.

some boys do lay eggs (T)

Leonardo is just about to fall asleep when the weight of a body thuds against the side of his bed, startling him awake, but not awake enough to shake him out of the heaviness of near slumber. “Whassit,” he mumbles, sticking his hand out from his blankets and feeling about until his fingers touch the edge of a hard shell. Ah, he recognises the shape – it’s Leo. “...are we boys?” 

sleepless (G)

Leo is so, so tired and goes to his dad. Splinter thinks up a plan to put into motion in the morning - but it seems that he's already helping.

NQK x LOTR (G)

The fam helps April with her school assignment: a re-enactment of a famous movie scene. It gets pretty emotional pretty fast.

Leoichi (Rise x Usagi Chronicles) [9/?]

with friends like these (G) (part 2 of NQK romance spinoff)

Meeting up with his old friends and introducing his new boyfriend to them certainly hadn't been in Yuichi's plans for the day - but it turns out to have been a welcome surprise later when it helps him realise something important about his own feelings.

make your home in me (E) (part 6 of NQK romance spinoff)

Click the link to read the summary!

world's end boyfriend (T) (AU)

Leonardo lost Yuichi to the apocalypse almost exactly five years ago. It's now been a year since he, Michelangelo and Casey made their impossible portal trip to the present day, successfully preventing the Krang invasion this time - so imagine Leonardo's surprise when his little brother tells him that they're going to rescue his mate. They only have one chance.

and just like that (T) (part 1 of NQK romance spinoff)

What was supposed to be a simple shopping trip to the Hidden City turns into an embodiment of a romcom when Leonardo runs into an unfamiliar white rabbit. Or more accurately, the rabbit's dining table.

soft bunny, warm bunny, little ball of— uh oh (G) (part 3 of NQK romance spinoff)

Leonardo feels so lucky. He has the world's softest boyfriend who doesn't mind being treated like a giant teddy bear! Too bad it made him forget something very important.

breathe (and let go) (M) (part 7 of NQK romance spinoff)

Leonardo needs a break from his… everything, and Yuichi is always more than happy to indulge him.

cracks never healed (they can heal now) (T) (part 8 of NQK romance spinoff)

Their plans for a nice date go awry when Leonardo and Yuichi run into a giant rampaging robot. It's swiftly dealt with, but not without a price.

well worth the wait (G) (part 5 of NQK romance spinoff)

Hana has been worried about her adoptive father's new relationship. Yuichi puts those worries to rest.

taking it slow (G) (part 9 of NQK romance spinoff)

Leonardo keeps holding himself to the impossible standards of a long-lost future and it doesn't take a genius to see that it does him no favours. Yuichi takes it upon himself to teach his boyfriend that some days should be spent in bed.

first time (with you) (E) (part 4 of NQK romance spinoff)

Click the link to read the summary!

the heir and the ronin (T) (ongoing) (AU)

A somewhat reclusive clan with an heir who everyone thinks is a crime lord or something equally unsavoury? A wandering ronin with an ill reputation and looks to match? Will they meet and test their mettle in a battle to the death?! Uh, wait what do you mean they just went out for tea and mochi cakes– — This is the premise. Is this also how the story begins? Not exactly, no… but it's close enough.

And that's it! For now. <3

[angel-fruitcake]

i can handle one (1) Event™ per day. whether it be a phone call, an appointment, trip to the grocery store, play date with a friend, etc. only one, that's it. any more than that and i am Stressed

[teathattast]

[monsterpotion]

"You can now sort your likes from oldest to newest on web and iOS. Do you remember what your first liked post was?"

oh dear

[monsterpotion]

oh its bad back there.

[banchie]

i've been phasing the phrase 'google it' out of my vocabulary and going back to 'look it up'. fuck you youve lost your generic trademark privileges

[angrysexyshortstack]

Cis people simply don’t understand that the entire harry potter franchise is basically a hate symbol these days

[tervaneula]

some boys do lay eggs by katterv

Leonardo is just about to fall asleep when the weight of a body thuds against the side of his bed, startling him awake, but not awake enough to shake him out of the heaviness of near slumber. “Whassit,” he mumbles, sticking his hand out from his blankets and feeling about until his fingers touch the edge of a hard shell. Ah, he recognises the shape – it’s Leo. “...are we boys?” 

This fic is way overdue to have as a part of written NQK canon but it's finally here (and filled with comfort) 💓

[tervaneula]

I wanted to do this for Trans Day of Visibility and surpriiiiise didn't have any spoons, but better late than never!!!

Gosh, look at them. I love my Leos so much 😭

[tervaneula]

your trademark is that you use very soft colors and textures so your art always looks kinda watercolor <3

AWWWW FAWN THAT'S SUPER SWEET 😭 It's thanks to the brushes!!! Watercolour-look in digital art is so pleasing to me... I love it sm...

(someday i'll dig up my actual real life watercolours and learn to use them again istg)

[nimbusalba]

It's been a few days and I'm curious. The fandom is divided. My dash is obviously biased, so let's see the numbers.

Did you like Good Omens 3?

I love it

I like it

I don't like it

I hate it

idk/idc see results

Voting ended onMay 31

Please, reblog to maximize sample, the whole fandom should wage in. Thank you!

[1anonyymous1]

i deserve a gold star for being so sweet and nice and not killing

[doncdesole]

Not posting to be a bother, but I’m actually genuinely curious 

[the-aro-agenda]

the thing is that i actually do enjoy romance in fiction but i also believe that romance-repulsed aros have the right to complain that NOTHING is made for them except maybe kids media. once you start to realize how pervasive romance is in every sector of society it's impossible to ignore. like you remember when there were barely any gay shows on television and straight people expected us to be grateful for the one gay side character on a network show? that's exactly how it feels with romance all the time. i want to see media created by adults for adults that doesn't involve romance anywhere in the plot. i want to see characters (main characters!!!) not want romance and not be treated as broken or crazy. i want a world where my romance-repulsed friends aren't confined to kids media (and even then, to only a limited selection)

[stuckinapril]

I’ve had tumblr for 4 years but some of you bitches have had it for a decade. It’s time to seek penance

[stuckinapril]

wait I’m curious now . Reblog this with how long u’ve been on tumblr for. Dating back to ur oldest blog ever !!!

[mushiestmntblog]

my fave baron draxum fact is that he said he used turtles specifically because they were so built for defence so if he mixed them with lou jitsu’s offensive strength he would have a grand army. makes sense, right? but then you look at donnie. he specifically chose a spiny softshell. a turtle that isn’t built for defence like, at all. it has a soft shell. and you look at this and your first thought is oh ok plot hole it’s a kids show whatever. and i say no. when you look at it like it’s purposeful the actual reason is so much funnier. spiny softshells are one of the most aggressive breeds of turtles and will bite if given the chance to. they also have a decently powerful bite. baron draxum chose 3 turtles specifically for defence and then also decided to choose 1 guy specifically to just be feral and chow down. assigned violent at birth.

[tervaneula]

This is very silly but a while ago I got randomly inspired by this repeating NPC encounter in Telvanni Peninsula and wrote this little thing lmao

(my condolences to fendar you are now a crybaby — but you live this time, so surely it's a win! yay!)

The massive beast does look quite peaceful, sleeping all curled up like that, Humus has to admit. That applies to most creatures, however, and the bosmer is not at all convinced about his and his new researcher friend's safety. He glances back and is relieved to see that his imgakin companion has found a relatively safe perch atop the small rocky hill beside them. Even the little monkey knows better.

The researcher — Fendar — next to him keeps rambling on about the wamasu, making it increasingly clear that while most of his information on the species is true, Fendar's thinking is very heavily influenced by his own desire to one day befriend such a beast.

Suddenly Humus feels a prickle on the back of his neck and he snaps his gaze back to the wamasu. It's staring right at him, almost through him, its slit-pupil eyes wide open and aware.

It still hasn't moved yet, but then Fendar notices it woke up.

"Oh, hello there! My, how beautiful you are," the dunmer sighs and takes a step closer. The wamasu rolls its shoulders, shaking off the last dregs of sleep and slowly stands up. It's clearly confused about the two mer standing so close to it, apparently unafraid, but Humus sees how its muscles tense under thick scales as it digs its claws into the dirt.

"Fendar—"

"You're a gentle beast, aren't you?" the researcher coos, ignoring the attempted warning. "Breathtaking. Oh, my friend, isn't this just marvellous?"

Fendar is smiling so wide and so happy but as soon as he turns to look at Humus and takes his eyes off the beast, it pulls its head back to draw a breath.

Humus doesn't speak, doesn't think, just lunges at Fendar to tackle him to the ground and not a second too late. Humus feels the crackling heat of the wamasu's blast on his back as they tumble down to the edge of the water. There's no time to spare the other mer's feelings, which is unfortunate, but dying wasn't in Humus' plans for today and he doubts it's in Fendar's either.

As soon as he gets his knees under him on the muddy pier, he draws an arrow as he turns to face the giant lizard. Fortunately it didn't follow after them and is instead charging another blast of lightning, which gives Humus just enough time to aim and shoot. It's a clean shot through the beast's throat and its garbled roar hurts — it's not dead yet, and Humus readies another arrow but before he can let it loose, another kind of roar reverberates in his bones as his bear companion returns. He leaps over him and poor dazed Fendar, going straight for the wamasu's injured throat.

There's a crunch, and a snap, and the fight is over almost as soon as it began. The lizard's body hits the ground, unmoving.

"G-good job, Pup," Humus stutters gratefully, stowing his bow with shaking hands. He takes a deep breath and sits back on the ground. The bear, massive in his own right, looks mighty happy with himself as he lumbers to Humus' side and nuzzles his shoulder.

Fendar sits up. His hair a mess, face pale, eyes wide from the realisation that he's still alive—

"'Pup'. Did you… Did you name your bear Puppy?"

Humus looks up at him, sees the glazed eyes of a dunmer that only barely avoided being turned to literal ash, and it takes a moment for him to register what was asked.

"I, uh. Yes, kind of? I never really chose a name for him and that one just, I don't know. Stuck."

Fendar stares at him for what feels like minutes, then turns his gaze to his hands resting in his lap. His lip wobbles.

"Haha. Oh, Gods. That is so funny."

He buries his face in his hands and bursts into tears.

[tervaneula]

Gosh it's been a really long time... I hope everyone is doing okay, or at least hanging in there! The world be crazy, but we keep on keeping on, yeah? <3

So here's a silly little poll time! Which one of these fics would YOU like to see finished first:

hold terv accountable

1

2

3

secret 4th option: chapter 5 of the heir and the ronin lol

Voting ended onMay 23

[tervaneula]

EVERYONEEE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR VOTING!<3 Sacrifice schmackrifice wins!!

Combined with IG votes the final vote count is 1: 22 votes, 2: 18 votes, 3: 15 votes, 4: 19 votes

...which means that after the winning fic is done and posted, I'll be working on the heir and the ronin >:3