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spirit, 20, they/them(/all), mostly shitposting tbh, dm for 18+ blog, main content: JRWI, Hermitcraft, and FOB

[tothespiritworld]

https://harvestinghomos.carrd.co/

im mostly on twitter but in my own little nerdy corner lmao

[papayafromtv]

conversations overheard through the batkid com lines pt 44 (masterpost here)

Jason: don't worry, we'll wait with you. police'll be here soon.

Distant unidentifiable voice, young sounding: uh, thanks, Mr Red Hood. and Mr Red Robin. it's ok if you're busy, i understand.

Tim *the crunch of gravel under feet* naahhhh, we need a break anyway, and it would suck waiting out here alone in the dark. you're giving us an excuse to sit down for a minute, honestly.

Distant young voice: *bitter snort* don't suppose you got any tips for when i'm in foster care?

Jason: i dunno, don't let these ones hit you?

Tim, chastising: Hood,

*distant laughter*

Jason: see? she's fine.

Tim: in Hood's defence, he isn't like that about child abuse because he doesn't care, he's just been through so much of it that he can't be fucked to skirt around it anymore.

Distant young voice: somebody as strong as you?

Jason: do you think i came out the womb like this?

Tim: yeah, Hood- Hood have you actually had a parental figure that didn't fuck you over in some way?

Jason: have i ever not been hit?

Tim: have you ever not been hit.

Jason: have you ever not been gay?

*smacking sound*

Jason: *cackles*

Tim: what about your mom? the one- the one you were with when you were a kid, not the biological one.

Jason: i mean she never hit me, but like. she threw bottles. she had her own thing.

Tim: *snicker* her own little hobby,

Jason, amused: yeah her own thing,

Distant young voice: i did not think my dad being arrested would mean a Red Hood childhood lore drop, i'm not gonna lie.

Tim: shhh, he's telling a story i can feel it.

Jason: well no- i mean, it wasn't a very fun childhood at least. there was a lot of responsibility on me to pay the bills and provide food, y'know? cause she like... cause she just wouldn't.

Distant young voice: *hums* preach.

Jason: yeah, and then there was this fun little- this motherly thing she liked to do, where she liked to call dealers over to our apartment and get high, and then they'd be like... 'where's the money for the drugs you just used?' and she would point at me unplanned and go 'he'll pay'.

*pause*

Jason: and i'm like six, so,

Tim: *wheeze* no- *muffled* sorry, no that's- that's not funny, it's not, it's just the way he says it i promise,

Jason: -so i would like. offer up my favourite rock and a handful of monopoly money, like, 'is this anything?' and then the guy would hit me with his gun. and i'd be like 'guess not, huh?'

Distant young voice: so what would you do?

Jason: i dunno, like, run drugs until the bill was paid off or take the money from our heating bill fund.

Tim: i can't-..... *hesitation* ok. ok i'm gonna say something and it's going to sound, objectively, horrible. but it's just an observation that's gotta be said.

Jason, audibly grinning: yeah, go ahead.

Tim: i... and again i'm sorry, but man, Hood, you say shit like that... and knowing how horrible the people of this world tend to be… i cannot believe you weren't sexually assaulted as a child.

Distant young voice: *choke of disbelief*

Jason: *snort* *abrupt snickers* ok that's- that's fair,

Tim: how were you not at some point a child prostitute?! like i know the kinds of dealers you would have been dealing with. the fact that you kept getting into debt with them without that becoming a solution is insane.

Jason: yeah- no, there was like, i remember this one guy wanted to, when i was like eight,

Tim: oh shit, i've unlocked new trauma- see how i feel bad for doing this in front of a civilian.

Distant young voice: i mean i am kind of invested now.

Jason: no i didn't- nothing happened. from what i remember it was like, my mom was told to pay up, and she threw me under the bus like normal, and this guy was like real pervy like, 'there is something you can do for me if you want me to let go of your mom's debt', and like, he was being real insinuating but i was eight, so i didn't fully know what sex was, and i was just like 'ok cool, sure'. and he takes me out of the apartment and into the hall, right?

Tim, warily: yeah...?

Jason: and as we're going towards the stairs he tells me he wants to start off with a blowjob, which- that's where i clocked what exactly was going on, because i didn't fully know sex but i did know a few working girls that would feed me sometimes, and i'd heard some of the terms they'd use. and i was like.... nah, actually.

Distant young voice: you just said no?

Tim: because historically that's always worked for everyone.

Jason: *snorted* no of course he didn't listen. he told me i'd have no choice once we got to his car, so i tripped him and shoved him down the stairs, and he cracked his head on the corner and died.

*silence*

Tim: wait, seriously?

Jason: yeah. i think that was my first official kill. that i remember, at least.

Tim: ...but i thought you and Nightwing said your first kill was that rapist you killed when you were Robin?

Distant young voice: wait you killed somebody as Robin?!

Jason: ok well first off, i didn't kill that guy, i just didn't try overly hard to convince Batman i didn't kill him because me and Nightwing thought it was funny. second off, Nightwing said that was my first alleged kill, not me, and i don't think i've told him this story before.

Tim: so nobody knows this happened?

Jason: i mean Batman does, it's on my personal record.

Tim: wa- wait what? how could it-

Jason: dude i wasn't a bat yet. i was just an 8 year old in a public apartment building with a dead body. i went to court.

Tim, baffled: you went to cou- you were eight?

Jason: yeah i had to go in and stand in front of the judge to avoid being sent to juvi. i had to show up and stand there and be like 'your honor, he wanted me to suck him off', and then i had to watch this old guy just sigh- like a deep sigh, y'know? like... he's been a judge in Gotham for far too long, and has heard too many fuckin' stupid cases like mine, and literally the case lasted about five minutes, because the cops produced their opening prosecution statement against me, and then i stood up in all my eight year old glory and said that, and the judge just looked between me and the cops and then just went 'ok fuck this he's eight, it was self defence' and then boom. i got let out.

Tim: ...huh. i mean. at least the judge was a decent guy?

Jason: yeah i'm still friends with him, he's chill. i will say--to be fair to Batman though, i will say, considering he knew that i'd been dismissed from a murder case on self defence and had killed before, i can't really blame him from seeing me in a position where i could have shoved another rapist to their death and been like. yeah he did that shit. he guilty.

Tim: that's- *slight wheeze* alright yeah ok, he might not have been stretching anything there.

Jason: yeah, like it was all circumstantial, but i do get it.

Tim: *hums casually*

*three seconds of silence*

Jason: -anyway you'll do great in foster care, no reason to worry kid.

Distant young voice: ...how was this better than me waiting alone?

[bitchofy2k]

yall think yall aesthetic with this tiny font?????????????????????

IM BLIND

SOME OF US ARE BLIND

SO USE THE BIG ONE

[tothespiritworld]

Tumblr needs of remove some of the smaller text options because literally how am I supposed to read that like I have large font on and that shits still minuscule

[tothespiritworld]

Jason is the type of older brother to call Tim some shit like “Spleen-less Sid”

[espanolbot2]

Doctor’s Remove Woman’s Brain Implant Against Her Will

A woman whose epilepsy was greatly improved by an experimental brain implant was devastated when she was forced to have it removed.

A woman whose epilepsy was greatly improved by an experimental brain implant was devastated when, just two years after getting it, she was forced to have it removed due to the company that made it going bankrupt.

[marxistcrap]

Specifically, because she couldn't afford to buy the implant from the company. They basically took her implant back to recoup their losses. This is what happens when you privatize healthcare and health research. The group providing her with this implant should not have been able to go bankrupt in the first place, let alone repossess her implant to pay off their debts.

[femmeharlequin-deactivated20240]

This is what disabled people mean when we say that cyberpunk horror is just a reality for us. This woman was literally forced to undergo a surgery because she couldn't pay to keep the implant already inside her brain. How long till companies start repossessing pacemakers and transplants?

[xelayxes]

Born to don't wanna. Forced to gotta

[wings-of-flying]

i will never understand people who don't like jay ferin because she's truly the best character in riptide. i don't say that lightly, either. (chip's exactly the sort of character i always love, and bizly plays him so well, with so many nuances. gillion's that perfect mixture of comedy and tragedy that charlie always manages. so many of grizzly's npcs are so well-rounded and developed you'd think *they* were the main characters - mainly talking about people like lizzie, caspian, ollie, the ferins, etc.) but jay ferin is a wonder to behold

for the first half of the campaign - literally the first half - she's hiding who she really is. she's still brilliantly funny and interesting, but she seems not quite fleshed out - but that's because condi's doing an absolutely incredible job at playing a character who's not being herself. and then once she comes into herself and feels more confident, oh my goodness condi's so great at showing her self-doubt but also her silliness. she's such a good female character (and others in riptide don't achieve this so easily, so again i'm not saying it lightly) and it's down to how well condi writes and plays her story

as much as chip is my favourite due to personal preferences when it comes to tropes and archetypes for my blorbos, i really mean it when i say jay ferin is the *best* character in riptide. i could talk about her forever, and i do often, but i really wanted to talk about this cause it baffles me when people say she's underdeveloped or boring. she's the best one, you sillies, you just might've missed when the extent of her brilliance was revealed (aka episode 53)

[brionysea]

usamericans, do you remember in the incredibles when syndrome made the robot go haywire just so he could swoop in and 'save the day'

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

"the world isn't kind" ok??? Much more importantly are you?????

[whatsupwalnut]

"the world isnt kind" skill issue. I am

[inkieswirlsgaming]

This is a threat

[byekansas]

No thanks.

[tshifty]

oh my god...

so the first screenshot is trying to look this up on tiktok normally, "donald trump rigged election" and it says that search violates community guidelines.

the second screenshot is looking up the same exact thing, but with a (australian) vpn on. canadian vpn didn't fix it fyi.

THIS is exactly the type of censorship to be looking out for on tiktok. this actually is crazy.

[m-a-d-e-l-e-i-n-e]

Not even 24 hours in and the richest man in the world just did a Nazi salute in 2025 on national television

[fagsmophobia]

screenshot from the beloved @/enkays-den

[johannepetereric]

Who is this guy?

[fagsmophobia]

impulsesv. he's a twitch streamer.

[patricia-taxxon]

the thing is, if your younger self was a bigot or an abuser, u can't make people forgive you. but you still gotta forgive yourself, like that's non-negotiable, dude. that happens before u can even ask the question of earning forgiveness from anyone lese

[patricia-taxxon]

oops, in your attempt to martyr yourself out of respect for your victims you accidentally sabotaged your own ability to conceptualize yourself as anything but a perpetual evildoer who is always one bad day away from hurting everyone you love, all but guaranteeing history to repeat itself. rookie mistake

[patricia-taxxon]

im gonna try explaining myself, cus im a gambling addict and im waiting for the day that it actually works.

"forgiveness" is personal, that's why I said in the post that you might inflict harm on people for which they can never forgive you, but that's their quest. if you abuse someone, you can't go no-contact with yourself. you actually keep living in your own head indefinitely, and ultimately you need to learn to live with yourself in order to continue living a full life without further harm. this is not necessarily an anti-carceral thought, although i am generally anti-carceral myself. I simply want people to like, fix their heart and atone for real with measured accountability & self love instead of dissociating, self-marking themselves forever and guaranteeing their recidivism.

You and a remorseful abuser would both think I'm giving the easy, coddling path. It's actually the tough pragmatic path in disguise.

[dark-fire-thoughts]

Ok. I see where you going, but I strongly disagree. The one person who can't be allowed to forgive ones crimes is oneself.

Even if everyone else has forgiven you for the abuse you did, you must never allow yourself to let what you did be forgiven. Once you've done that, you've gotten to the point where you might do it again.

Never let up. Always strive towards improvement. Never let yourself live down the horrors of the past. Only by comparing ourselves to who we were can we grow.

[patricia-taxxon]

this is called OCD

[yuyurana]

It’s so fucking frustrating to argue about this on tumblr.com. Because people might pay lip service to the idea of criminal justice reform or even prison abolition. But deep down they always come back to the Calvinism of it all: there are good people (victims) and bad people (abusers) and once someone has revealed themselves to be an abuser they can never be forgiven, never be part of society again.

And if you believe the world works like that one other thing also has to be true: You know you are a ‘good person’, so nothing you ever do could be truly abusive. You could never truly harm another person. And if you did they must have deserved it. Because you are a good person.

And wow, does that not just sound like something abusers usually say, when confronted with their own behavior?

I would leave the rest up to the reader but because we are on the piss on the poor reading comprehension site here, I’m going to spell it out: get comfortable with your own fallibility. Acknowledge that you could indeed severely harm someone else. And that means that you NEED to learn to forgive yourself.

[runcibility]

Learning, and applying self-forgiveness also means doing the work of understanding the how of how you hurt others. And that doesn't just mean "I did bad things" - it means understanding the course of actions that led you to think doing something that hurt others was the most reasonable course of action. Sometimes that's out of sheer ignorance - doing the filthy work of fully understanding what you did will ensure that you learn. Sometimes you hurt others because you yourself were hurting - doing the work means you understand you can't perpetuate misery as a means to rid yourself of it. Sometimes you hurt others because you were deluded - doing the work means you strip yourself of maladaptive reasoning or self-serving lies and learn to listen to your actual feelings and accurately read the truth of what's going on for you and others.

All of these steps towards self-forgiveness require fucking work that fundamentally changes the person seeking that self-forgiveness. That is the fucking healing process.

If you don't allow people the grace of self-forgiveness, then there is no room for self-improvement. If there is no room for self-improvement, then there is no way to heal. And people that can't heal will inevitably do monstrous things. Pointless shame just makes hurt people more volatile.

Allowing self-forgiveness isn't transactional. Allowing self-forgiveness doesn't steal from victims, it just makes people live in a jail of shame.

[urfavhatesterfs]

YOU hates terfs

[switchingtogeico]

[captainhaterade]

[stankpasta]

rb if u hates terfs

[the-korova]

I am so glad that the word blorbos exists now. It’s so much more evocative and accurate than “comfort character”. Like, they’re different things. He doesn’t bring me comfort, he makes my hands itchy and I want to polish him with pledge. I want to put him in a Pringle’s tube and shake him. I want to brush his hair and put little shoes on him like a Bratz doll. That’s a blorbo.