Depressed people, how do I explain this feeling to mentally healthy people?
I sometimes feel like my brain is numb and not āconnectedā to my body. so like I am perfectly in control of my body so getting up and moving around and eating and things are all fine, but any thought or mental processing involved is very slow and hard and feels out of sync somehow. Like iām sitting and typing this now with no problem and Iāve had a shower and eaten properly etc but reading this back to check for mistakes is hard and so is thinking of the right words and thinking about what Iām going to do later or tomorrow or next week doesnāt make sense. It feels really weird and I hate it but I donāt know how to describe it without sounding stupid. I know factually that my brain is connected to my body but it just doesnāt feel right and it makes it really hard to do my work and behave normally. Like i forget how to make a cup of tea or what time it is and get really self conscious if I have to be out in pubic because I canāt remember if iām behaving normally, staring at people too much, wearing the right clothes etc.Ā
I get a similar feeling but the opposite way round where my mind feelsĀ āconnectedā so I can think and talk and read and write properly etc but my body is slow and lethargic and I find it harder to do things like eating and washing myself. Iāve seen people talking about this before but less about the first feeling?Ā
when Itās very bad then both happen at the same time and all I can really do is watch TV but that is very rare and it hasnāt happened again since I started my medication. Idk if this makes any sense sorry it all just makes me feel very dumb and it would help to know if others feel this.Ā









