Juul's Wanderings

My name is Juul. || Medievalist || Scorpio || GNC Lesbian ||  https://ko-fi.com/jujutea0817 buy me a Coffee :D I post fanart, fanfics and cosplay. (See links). My askbox is always open!

[bob-artist]

Crimetober 1-9

Because birds are criminals.

[bob-artist]

Crimetober 10-21

When will they be held accountable

[bob-artist]

Crimetober 22-31

Justice will never be served.

[wizardshark]

99% of queer discourse stops right before they define the true difference between bisexual and pansexual!

[saspitite]

FOR THE LAST FUCKING TIME

BISEXUALS GROW FROM THE GROUND

PANSEXUALS GROW FROM THE CEILING

[elizapad]

Happy Pride, cave dwellers 🦇

[euforri]

the dysfunctional family

[fishieguyy]

some pictures which I drew for milomumbles ! u can maybe spot these on the big screen on her twitch channel ☝️^.^

[thethirdromana]

Putting the term "Catholic guilt" on a high shelf where fandom can't reach it until everyone learns how to identify characters who are very very clearly coded as Protestant.

[queer-crows-nightmare]

[drpantalone]

🎨saivurpeshu on x (@saivur)

[vriezennn]

a break

[drawsry]

Late night talks

[alfabetthe3rd]

‘Sing to Orpheus and his lost love.’

I hope that in death, he wears his hometown clothes.

[drpantalone]

🎨 XuynXuyt on x

Still watching you

[familywhitesilk]

My first winter without you

[w1tched]

Zandik covered more and more of his face with each stage of his life as a rejection of his humanity and a manifestation of self-loathing and internalizing the title of a heretic and monster given to him

With webttore's mask, he looked uncanny but the visibility of his eyes and mouth allowed some semblance of humanity and vulnerability to seep through, especially since he was younger at this stage. He looks human and yet, something isn't quite right.

After 35, he covers his eyes which are considered the some of the most vulnerable parts of a human (physically and symbolically) and begins to lean into the corvid imagery and symbolism (not to mention the ties Zandik has to Odin)

At 65, Zandik is fully covered and resembles a plague doctor, a figure which represents the desperate human struggle to survive. And iirc, the development of the elixir of immortality also began sometime around this age or a bit earlier so yk... his aging body beginning to fall to the hands of mortality combined with the fact that the elixir was imperfect adds to the whole plague doctor look

Then at 85, we can see Zandiks face again. At this point in life, he has mellowed out, and his self-loathing appears to be replaced with a stronger sense of sorrow and grief towards himself. I do believe and am fairly certain that he still held the same ambitions and feelings towards the world, but with the human ability to grow as well as the weariness that comes with age, those emotions weren't to the same extent as seen in 35 and that Zandik by this point in life had started to finally embrace his humanity in his own weird and crazy way

[maidthings]

"this is unbecoming of me" is genuinely a useful thing to have in your mental toolbox

[fake-lancelot]

[nuvaen]

Do you think anyone touched him like ever

[gay-chef-boyardee]

I do think it's maybe the sweetest thing I've ever seen that Pantalone lets Dottore love him exactly how he naturally loves people. He lets him experiment on him, vivisect him, treat him more like a multi-faceted object than a person at times, but he doesn't let Dottore control him, and Dottore doesn't push to. Want me to stop smoking? Fuck you I paid for these lungs. Wanna use my soul to make your next homunculus? Do you actually think that would feasibly work in practice, dipshit. This is a man who has spent centuries being codependant on Teyvat's worst guy and is completely numb to his shenanigans. And somehow... their dynamic works?

"What's a little discomfort between family" is exactly how he treats Pantalone, just like Columbina said. But unlike Columbina, or literally anyone else on the planet, Pantalone doesn't fear him. He fully accepts that that's just Dottore, and flaw or not he doesn't care to try and change it. And he knows when and where to draw the line between "Dottore being dottore" and "Dottore being a freak", and Dottore respects that, and respects him for doing that.

It's a strangely realistic depiction of love, actually. Love like that isn't all bliss, it's a lot of discomfort, a lot of labor and indulgence of the other person. In some ways, it's like a transaction. Maybe that's how Pantalone thinks of it. Because no matter how much he gives Dottore, he does get it back. He gets back the investments he makes into his research, the experimentation on his own body in the form of bleeding-edge healthcare only he is privy to, the company of a partner who truly and fully understands him. This isn't a kind of love you dream about, but it's a kind of love you very well could have and hold.

To put it simply in the words of Whizzer and Marvin from Falsettos;

[novolunni]

hehehe 👉👈

[sashinastra]

oh Pantalone does not care that you're evil bbg

[iamotter]

Trying to be supportive...