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INTRO INTRO INTRO

hallo

this is my alt account, and @ender-nb is my main

if ur here from my main, hi :3

if ur here bc you found this account first, hi :3

the point of this account is to vent, but more about my medical conditions, ranging from skin conditions, to respiratory, to physical.

i will use pictures and try to put the correct trigger warning for them. if i do one wrong or forget a possible one, please let me know because i don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable, at all.

i will be using tags like medicalcore, hospitalcore, medcore etc because i feel it fits what i’ll be posting. i don’t use these tags to romanticize medical issues, i use them because it makes me feel like its not just me that’s hurting at the moment (odd explanation, i know).

with that aside, enjoy your stay at the wonderful world of decay :]

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hilarous that my sickly victorian child era started again AT SCHOOL.

now i have to wait for my dad to come and pick me up 🧍

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expect a hoard of posts, just had a procedure today

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dancing the Death itself

and hes currently got me in a dip

threatening to end me where i stand

yet i dont stop

i continue to dance until my time is up

which i know will be soon

but i wouldnt mind starting over

if i meant i could dance with Death once more.

[missing-childhood]

Only those who cared about me were supposed to show up, so why did you?

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i was on a good streak of not really presenting any symptoms, and today everything just started to crash and burn for seemingly no reason

i will admit, i kinda strayed from the food guide i was supposed to be following, but holy shit

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it never ends, does it?

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so i might be having an inpatient stay at my primary hospital and im not even worried abt whats gonna happen

im worried abt how my room is gonna look-

like im obviosly gonna bring a stuffed animal or 2, but like

what else can i do to make it not a dreadful experience

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lookin through the hospitalcore tag while trying (and failing) to hold myself together is certainly a feeling

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*slaps roof of me* this bad boy can fit so much medical trauma

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its a lil odd writing after a while, but my overall health has taken a bit of a nosedive

started last week when i was overly fatigued after school every single day. then on thursday and friday, i got chest pain that gradually increased, only to end with an er visit on saturday morning

from there, my family doctor got told of by every specialist i saw that day because she never followed up after giving me a short-term antibiotic and things gradually got worse

now i have an appointment with a pediatric pulmonologist at the hospital i went to on saturday. good thing is that they’re not gonna go straight to an endoscopy (which is what my family doctor was gonna do) and instead have me for a day of testing which is something i’ll take over an endoscopy any day. 

my teachers are super understanding, especially my science teacher who is the last person i’d expect tbh. 

but yeah

im lookin forward to finding out what’s wrong, even if it is in a pediatric ward

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Being chronically ill feels like being in a slowburn enemies-to-lovers relationship with Death.

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I GOT THE CRUTCH

OH MY GOSH IS IT GREAT

IT SO FUCKING GREAT

IM HALFWAY THROUGH THE MORNING AND NOT IN TERRIBLE PAIN

ill take a pic later on since im in class, but its amazing absolutely astounding never felt better

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i forgot how bad it got when i get sick

for context, i have chronic bronchitis (another mystery as to why, secondhand smoke is what ive been told) and its active for 3-4 months, usually twice a year. ive basically sick 8 months (max 9) of the year since 2017.

i got covid in 2020, so since then its been so much worse and here are some things that are different compared to previous years

hard to swallow everything

cant regulate body temp at all

more foods trigger coughing fits

i dry heave a lot

thats the most tame things i feel comfortable sharing, but currently im wearing a compression longsleeve, tshirt, fuzzy pajama top, and a hoodie. and im still so fucking cold.

ive started the action plan for my asthma, doesnt seem to be doing much. my doctor gave me a medication that we know doesnt work from previous years, but its always 'lets just try this first in case its not bronchitis'

only good thing is that its not acute bronchitis, so im not contagious. but i still wear a mask at home when im around my family

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why do some doctors request the same test over and over again when there is CLEARLY SOMETHING WRONG, but nothing shows up on the numerous tests that you’ve done before