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he/they|I do these kind of diary thing where I post random shit I think of.

[y0un1ce]

10:56pm

my thought process was really; “hey why not make a tumblr acc that i only use for my own benefit to look at dumb post and fanfiction but yknow what will also be fun make a shitty posting acc to share to anyone who see’s this!” so yeah heyy

[gabri3lll3]

Spent my birthday money to commission crash & vincent!! Beautifully done by my friend @/bazcoo on tiktok! Check her art out! Also already commissioning a Valerie one so look out for that maybe?

[gabri3lll3]

VALERIE COMMISSIONED >0<!!

Made by my absolutely gracious and awesome artist friend, @/bazcoo on tiktok!

[y0un1ce]

10:24am

I genuinely forgot my tumblr blog here but hii

[y0un1ce]

1:33pm

My headcanons for the twins and also paimon :D

Lumine headcanons

Selectively mute

And also with that I like to think that between aether and lumine, lumine uses sign language more than her own words as she feels talking is too tiring for her and either lets aether lead the convo or sign it.

Is the type of person who'd zone out and just would randomly grab s/o face and kiss you all over, leaving s/o flustered and hazed and lumine just gets up and starts doing a zoom call about the mora economic problem.

The type of sibling that if they see their sibling with a ponytail or just hair out won't hesitate to yank it as hard and run away.

I like to think when sleeping in bed she just needs to hug sumn and would be positioned in the weirdest way sleeping. Also I like to think she's a heavy sleeper.

She had given at least everyone in genshin a quick smooch or kiss on the forehead/cheek out of reflex.

Aether headcanons

Also selectively mute

Big sunshine talker with a kind of short temper but barely loses his shit when talking to someone unless it's someone outright bullying or insulting his friends and sister.

The type of guy who can't flirt for his life but is somehow endearing.

I feel like aether would be really into romance novels or anything in that drama and that also links to my other hc that he's basically a hopeless romantic.

Would hog the fucking blanket. I bet when lumine and aether shared a bed lumine was ready to throw her brother outside their window for hogging the blanket at the coldest season and not sharing.

Lovey dovey hc. In my head I think aether would love quality time and gift giving trinkets. S/o and aether could be wrestling tf out bc one of them won't admit to eating the last dessert (it was him but he won't admit it) and aether would just randomly yell out "I LOVE YOU" and would just have an elbow rammed in his ribs. Bros valentines gift would be a heart chocolate box but hear me out mf planted folded paper hearts on top of the chocolates and when its unfolded there would just be cheesy pick up lines.

Paimon headcanons

Her veins are energy drinks on how sometimes hyper she is.

Is the type of person who gives their friend a small rock and says it reminded them of their friend.

Sometimes the mediator for the twins when making decisions because sometimes they need a third opinion (she chooses who's the nicest and can take food bribes).

Would randomly just put flowers in the twins' hair for fun and I'd like to think that paimon has some wide knowledge about flowers and each time she puts on in their hair she tells them its meaning.

Also, considering paimon has quite a wide range of knowledge in teyvat I'd like to think in modern au that paimon was really into history and would even just tell facts to the twins wherever and whenever.

Paimon has separation anxiety, and would tear up whenever she's separated from the twins for too long.

[y0un1ce]

1:26am

After crying over a rag bros angstfic I've deducted as a headcanon that kaeya thinks of klee of the innocence of just pure childhood when he and diluc were back then and I think it makes heart ache when klee tells kaeya she thinks of him as her big best brother and that kaeya genuinely feels moved and love from this because yknow considering diluc doesnt even acknowledge kaeya as his brother that much so this is like closure for kaeya.

Another sad headcanon is that whenevr kaeyas whole facade he shows out in monstandt is an immediate switch when he's in his home, imagine kaeya when he closes his door behind his back after a long shift and is now midnight his mood is now desolate, he feels after all of that its just gonna be the same cycle with the same despair. And I like to think he detaches his vision in a small compartment in his closet just to give him some kind of relief if he didnt get it after that incident.

[y0un1ce]

1:09am

spoilERRR

ARE YOU SHTTING ME I AM IN PAIN LIKE KAEYA MISSES HIS LIFE BACK IN DAWN AND BEING A BROTHER TO DILUC BUT AT THE SAME TIME HE DOESNT WANNA PRESSURE DILUC INTO SENDING HIM BACK A RESPONSE PLEASE LET THEM BE BROTHER AGAIN.

[y0un1ce]

3:01am

Another headcanon but its sadder. I like to headcanon that whenever it is kaeyas birthday he spends it at home by himself at a dinner table with a glass of wine and a singular lit candle infront of him and he would always reminisce the times when it was 12am he and diluc would sneak downstairs with a convenient cupcake and a candle on it (adelinde totally put it there on purpose). They go back upstairs, they sit on the floor with diluc and kaeya facing each other with the cupcake diluc would focus his fingertip to be a sort of match and it did and he would light the stick and diluc would tell him to "think of a wish in his head and to not tell him bc it wouldnt come true" and kaeya would giggle and close his eye to make a wish which was to always be dilucs brother and be dads son, when he opens his eyes he blows the candle. After that they would split the cupcake in half (diluc giving kaeya the bigger slice bc he's like that) and they would it eat it with delight.

Sometimes kaeya indulges himself with happy memories he had back then but sometimes he goes in to deep in those memories and cries and drinks out his feelings knowing those memories wont happen again after what he's done.

[y0un1ce]

5:16am

I like to headcanon when kaeya is drunk he's like an emotional and really clingy type of drunk (who is also kind of a clutz after his 13th shot) and with his cryo vision I like to think it makes his body temperature a little cooler so imagije him sneaking up on you to press his cold fingers on you just for shits and giggles. I like to also think like back then when diluc and him were young and kaeya wanted to share the same bed as diluc bc he likes diluc (platonic okay) and then just dilucs wakes up on the floor and see's kaeya ontop scrambled all limbs out covering the bed.

Dearly made, Kaeya simp.

[y0un1ce]

5:33am

Do you ever think when kazuha goes back to that same tree that he was able to spend one last time with his friend, just has different moods when he's there. Sometimes he's angry for and at his friend for fighting the shogun and at the shogun herself, or when he's just sad and just reminiscing what happened in the past and sometimes even talk to the wind hoping his message can even bypass the realm between the living and the dead, or maybe even just happy and had a small teaset and blanket on the bottom and he drinks out of it and just lets himself be free like the wind maybe even sometimes feel the presence of his friend being there with him staring at him with a bewildered look but would do the same just so he wouldnt feel alone. I like to think kazuha back then left a letter by that tree out of hope that his friend would read on what adventure he has gone through over the years and I'd also like to think that Tomo would read it beside his grave or at the tree sometimes.

[dollsbite]

imagine corpse carrying a polaroid of you with him wherever he goes. the photo quickly becomes one of his most prized possessions, one that he can't leave the house without. he always keeps it tucked away neatly in his wallet. whenever his social anxiety becomes too intense, he takes a look at your smiling face to calm himself down. if he's struggling to make an order at a restaurant, he'll gently caress the sides of the polaroid, reminding himself that you're always with him.

[y0un1ce]

I FOUND IT

[y0un1ce]

9:51am

Ok so new idea-ish, imagine modern!oc in the sagau world like obvs they treat her like a god but its more chill and not all "OH MY GOD IM HORRENDOUSLY DOWN ON MY KNEES FOR YOUR AFFECTION YOUR GREAT HOLINESS !!" Like they are down bad for them but yknow they have some dignity but anyways anyway.b(also this is diff from my modern!oc and god!oc so this kinda like an au using my modern!oc) So like what if modern!oc has a more deeper connection to music like imagine a song playing and the atmosphere around them fits the vibe of the music like imagine me and your mama by childish gambino and all you see is modern!oc fucking belting out and the atmosphere is raidant colors mashing together feeling the atrong energy from the song.

And it depends on who see's it but their like concerned on how really aggresively passionate they are singing the song like fucking back arching and exaggerated body movements but it just dictates on how powerful the song is. Idk its kinda a crack idea to me. Also let me add that they have this little box that lets them into their spotify/applemusic/soundcloud/music app and can literally make the volume higher than it is usually.

[y0un1ce]

7:13pm

I'm just thinking of modern!oc in the sagau world and just has a fucking shotgun as a weapon. Like someone tried to start with something with modern!oc and they just pull out a shotgun out of knowhere and fucking loads it and you just hear a loud bang.

I remember seeing this same thing in sagau tag but I can't find it but its inspired by that.

[y0un1ce]

3:43am

Regrettably Drunk

Modern au; Venti x Fem!Oc (Miriam) (Can be read as x reader or x y/n idc)

Cw; Drinking, Unrequited but maybe Requited love, Fluff to Angst/No comfort, cursing, oh and also implied xiaoven but not rlly official but lingering feelinsg between them that wont appear here.

Note; I haven't written in a long time and its kinda shitty. This is also not read proof bc it is clearly 3am

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Its about 1:50 am. It's clearly midnight now with the dark sky covering the world and its splattered stars in the sky kissing its smallest light on to the ground. Down below there are miriads of houses and with one of it having loud booming yet muffled music and closer look there are crowds of people all ages and gender there- except literal children obviously- and just a blocks away from the house there could be seen a silver colored car parked on the side of the road.

And that certain silver car has our two destined people who start this story. With a close look inside, there are two people sitting at the back of the car, the smaller of the two, Venti, had black hair with two braids on the side of his face showing a visible gradient of teal hair dye and his outfit, a white collar shirt popping up underneath the teal sweater and loose black pants with one having a loose thread and ending with a pair of teal converses. And who is visibly holding a bottle of what seems to be a wine bottle at the tips of two of his fingers that was barely holding on whilst laying the back of his body to someone whos trying to remove the bottle.

Now the taller of the two, Miriam, had her hazel hair put up as a bun with several strands of the front of her hair fell and her outfit being an orange wrap shirt with bell sleeves showing beautifully sewed light orange flower designs clearing showing her stomach and a small view of her top half and paring with a black pencil skirt with a few flowers sewed onto trim of the pockets and ending with some parker boots that had few scratches on the bottom of the boots. And who is trying to stop the small man ontop of her from drinking too much and who is also practically vibrating inside on how close they are too each other.

"He-hey! I, uh I promise I won't drink too muuuch" Venti whined to Miriam clearly trying to take another sip from the said drinkable wine bottle. "Venti we've been over this—! Hey! I saw that- your dumb charms wont work on me" Venti trying to persuade Miriam into giving back the bottle by giving her a quick kissnon the cheek that tends to work in his favour. "Come oooon, please, please, hic pretty pleeeeeeease? I hic really do promise to noooo-t! Drink evah againn- just please on mworhe sip!" Venti drunkly ended his sentence with a pop before again trying to take the bottle back before he visibly felt Miriam behind his back move forward to put the bottle under the front passengers seat.

"H-ey!" "Venti please I'm trying to hel—! Hey stop that and listen! Im trying to help you with this drinking problem, and also that shits not gonna work on me again now!" Miriam was internally and externally exhausted with Venti being drunk and the partying too much taking effect even tho she was fully sober. If you were to put a peeved exhausted Miriam next to an apple there wouldnt be a difference. After a few seconds of silence from Venti, Miriam was getting worried considering she never had experienced a quiet Venti before. "You know.. you're really pretty hic like a freshly picked rose, ehe, that's so clicheee" Venti confided to Miriam, his head laying on her chest had been moved as well his body to be straightened a little with a slight slouch and his head turned to her with a slight tilt to it and with a dumb smirk with droopy eyes that were a bit red eyed.

What "What?" Miriam craved for an answer to what the hell did he intend with that unexpected sentence. Miriam wasnt blushing from peeved exhaustion anymore, she was now blushing with the blood rushing to her face from that really flattering comment from her supposed friend and was she going crazy or was her heart spiking weirdly and her breathe hitching a little. "Eheh— come oooon- I can just shee-shay it to youu! You ar-are hic reallyyy reallyyyy! Prettyy.." Venti specified, his body wasnt turned slightly anymore but now the front of his body was facing her now with his arms interlocked at the back of her head and his knee was ontop in the middle of her legs and the other at the lazily on the bottom. Miriam was practically melting on the inside feeling the pit of lava that is called infatuation growing hotter and hotter in her she felt so bashful and embarrassed from this out of nowhere sort of confession from the guy she liked for a year.

"That's- uhm- That's re-really flattering Venti—" Miriam was cut off her sentence by the sudden movement of Venti's arms sliding suspiciously farther until her eyes looked back from the floor to him seeing him much closer to him than before with the back of his slightly arched. "You- you look hic much prettier like this.." Venti quietly settled, now mesmerized by each freckle on her face they were like the stars to him. Miriam felt her heart spike greatly and felt a twinge of fear and some kind of anticipating from how close they were if venti just slowly slid his arms farther then theyre lips would meet- oh god now all she's gonna think is about Venti's lips now! But then again this isnt the first time thinking about his lips.

"He-hey Miriam.." "Yeah?"

There was a couple beats of silence until Venti hazily looked up at Miriam with doopy dreamy look on his face that made him look too ethereal and what he said next made Miriam's anticipating heart burst.

"Can I.. kiss you?"

Miriam's heart felt like it had escaped it's shell and was jumping in joy with fireworks bursting out of every cell in her body to make her feel ecstasy but she remembered that she's still in the moment of his question and hadnt answer yet. "Yes! I me- mean, yes you- uh can.." Miriam bashfully answered, now there was a pause of silence between them. Venti removed one of his arms behind miriams neck and slide it onto the side of Miriams face cupping her cheek, making Miriam anticipate again until both of their eyelids flutter down and have their lip meet by the softest and warmest impact onto one another. The kiss to Miriam was practically what she imagined back then even now and it was still that relaxing and yet exciting feeling to well- feel.

The kiss lasted for a few seconds and yet those lasting seconds to Miriam left her a flustered yet loving look when her eyelids hazily opened back still trying to catch that last moment of what was left lf his lips. "Eheh.. I guess I can deduct that hic you are a good kisser.. Xiao.." Venti Drunkily mused. Venti turned back to his first position with his back facing Miriam and going take a hazily nap ontop of her. Miriam felt her ecstatic heart fall back to its cocoon and she felt so fucking stupid, what was she thinking, no what the fucking was she even thinking in the first place that someone like Venti would like her back, it was so fucking stupid to hope or even dream for it. And to think that even for a moment that maybe just maybe Venti couldve like her back, what did Xiao have that she didnt, thinking now alot of things Xiao could do better that stupid fucking Miriam.

"I love you Venti, I hope one day that your future lover would have the courage to say it too." Miriam softly spoke now accepting and to also smile softly with a single tear letting go like this infatuation with Venti. It's 2:00am now.

Her heart felt so fucking painful, she obviously notice her vision going hazy from the tears building up on her eyelids she didnt care now that her cheeks were streamed with wet and felt like lava tears to her. She was so hopeful, but no, the fucking world decided to give her a good kick and decided that the guy she loved loved to be paired with the most incomparable best person for him to be with its so fucking unfair. Miriam looked down at Venti who snores softly with his head at her chest, she couldn't help but move a braid of his hair behind his hair just to look at his face one more time before it all changes to the way it was.

[y0un1ce]

4:35pm

Im back in my monster camp/prom phase again.

[y0un1ce]

1:30am

Happy pride month everyone :D

[y0un1ce]

4:33pm

Can someone pls recommend sagau fics or just drabbles that arent, god worshipping, cult themes, yandere themes, imposter au, god au. Please, I wanna move on from them theyre invading every part of what I liked about it at first.