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As lonely as the muse is, at least someone’s admiring your beauty…
What about those who aren’t even looked at?
There’s a quote from Bert where he says he‘s “known big bird since he was a little bird” and the thought of it makes my heart cry so here’s that
When Arthur offers Shane a necklace adorned with a bright red silicone shark, he doesn’t think twice before accepting. When the toddler tries to nudge the animal in his mouth however, that does give him pause.
You see, Shane loves the Pike kids, and he makes an effort to be a good “Uncle Shane” for them, but he knows he struggles to connect with them. He’s had enough nights watching the twins to know they can often find his company more annoying than fun. He follows the game rules too closely, doesn’t have a “creative enough” imagination, and when he says a half an hour on the tv he does actually means thirty minutes exactly (and can’t be bribed otherwise). So when Arthur got old enough to really have a personality aside from “baby” Shane is hopeful that maybe he’ll get along with a boy better.
And miraculously, he does! Kids have always kinda worried Shane, knowing he’s entirely responsible for their wellbeing but not always understanding what they need. It’s not like that with Arthur though, he almost immediately feels like they’re on the same page, speaking the same language, and something settles in Shane knowing he has a place in this extended family. There’s still things that Arthur does that stump Shane, like needing to copy sensation on to the opposite side of his body or preferring to hide in kitchen cabinets when there’s a loud noise, but he vaguely remembers growing out of similar things when he was younger, so really it’s just another point of connection for them. Overall they get along really well, having a nice time playing quietly within a defined set of rules while Ilya gleefully takes over whatever chaos the girls are getting up to in the backyard.
Shane feels like him and Arthur really get each other.
Which makes the current situation so much more upsetting. Arthur keeps pushing the shark up to Shane’s mouth, making him feel bad every time he has to gently push Arthur’s hand back, all while wracking his brain trying to figure out what’s happening. Even moreso, Shane can’t parse why he’s being so insistent on this, interrupting their play entirely. He feels like he’s really messing something up every time he refuses, though he can’t figure out what. He can tell the little man is getting more and more upset with every rejection, but he absolutely does not want some toddlers toy in his mouth. He tries to explain this, calmly, clearly, the way they usually communicate, but Arthur just yanks on Shane’s hoodie string hard, like that was all the explanation needed. It doesn’t clear anything up though and just earns a surprised yelp from Shane. When he looks back up Arthur seems seconds away from tears and instead of responding just runs off.
Shane knows it’s best to give him some space to settle before talking it over, so he instead goes about cleaning up the lego pieces they were organizing into colored piles. It’s about then that Jackie and Hayden return, and Shane fills them in, hoping they can take over the second half solving the situation (Shane is a little relieved it isn’t him doing the talking because he feels like he was the problem in the first place). They both smile, agreeing to take over while thanking Shane and Ilya for babysitting and waving them off. Shane feels like they’re taking this too lightly, but he just nods his farewell, trying to hide how absolutely dejected he feels.
Ilya holds his hand the whole way back, giving rhythmic squeezes instead of talking.
The next time they go over to the Pike’s a few days later, Shane feels sickeningly nervous. Hayden had called sometime after that last visit and said they figured out what the problem was, but was gonna have Arthur talk to him about it. Something about a teaching moment or whatever. Great for toddlers, apparently horrible for full grown adults with only a pinch less anxiety than what is needed for spontaneous combustion.
Opening the front door Shane thinks he might’ve actually crossed the threshold to start creating flames when it suddenly all washes away as little arms wrap around his legs before he even so much as makes it out of the entryway. When Shane looks down he can see soft little dark curls buried in between Shane’s knees. Shane smiles, reaching down to pet his hair and causing Arthur to pull back a bit, still clutching Shane’s pants with one hand while the other pushes a package grasped in a tiny fist up, still looking squarely at the floor. Shane squats slowly, taking the small box with both hands, asking if it is in deed for him. Arthur just nods.
Inside the box is a sealed container with a bright red silicone hockey stick threaded on a black cord. Shane stares for a second, feeling some of that previous anxiety rise up again as he’s not able to immediately understand, but figures he’ll start with what he knows and thanks him for the gift. Arthur’s still looking at the ground, though peeks up to catch Shane’s gaze, mumbling out something that sounds like he’s asking if he likes it. And Shane really doesn’t want to mess this up, but he also doesn’t want to lie, so he goes with the next best thing of just being honest and admitting he doesn’t really know what it is.
Surprisingly, Arthur lights up and starts explaining it’s something called chewelry and it’s very important to wear because it’s against the rules to chew on sleeves and collars and strings and Uncle Shane was gonna get in trouble chewing on his strings but daddy said you didn’t like sharks but I know you like hockey because you’re fast and you also like red like me so we got the red one that isn’t a shark but it’s a hockey stick — Arthur pauses, taking multiple deep breaths — and you wear it around your neck so you don’t lose it and also you don’t share it because of germs but you clean them with pasta water — Jackie mouths “boiling water” from where she’s standing behind him — and it makes the dentist not get mad at you.
Shane stares for a long second, trying to process the sudden onslaught of information, but before he can respond Jackie nudges Arthur’s shoulder and he goes back to looking at the floor, sway back and forth. “I’m sorry I tried to give you the shark when you don’t like sharks and pulled your strings and ran away. I love you.”
Shane feels stuck for a moment but then Ilya taps him on the back and that’s all he needs to push himself forward, pulling Arthur into a tight hug, continuing the swaying motion and returning the sentiment while trying not to cry. They finally leave the entryway when Shane promises to let Arthur teach him the best way to chew on his gift.
So that’s how Shane ends up wears his new necklace for the rest of the day, and then also every time they go to the Pike’s house, and on some weekends too, and maybe to practice sometime, and during movie nights and while reading contracts and on long trips and—
Yeah, Shane thinks he likes Arthur’s rule.
JJ Boiziau: Why are you acting like this?
Shane Hollander: I’m not acting.
Shane Hollander: I really am like this.
shane hollander appreciation week: day three favorite quotes: his multitudes ♥
HEATED RIVALRY (2025-) dir. Jacob Tierney
and then Rachel Reid made Shane Hollander from the rib she had taken out of Scott Hunter, and she brought him to Ilya Rozanov,
I don't ever want that problem to ever go away.
i'm in serious shit, i feel totally lost if I'm asking for help it's only because being with you has opened my eyes could i ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I love my job, but reblogging employment jelly for someone else I love.
Shane who, before him and Ilya get outed, keeps hearing people, fellow players, his own friends, talk shit about the man he loves and it pains him, so one night he googles "Ilya Rozanov nice person" and ends up in a subreddit where people share stories of celebrities that are surprisingly nice people and the page dedicated if Ilya is full of wholesome stories
hospital personnel from where he used or still visited the paediatric department with the team, parents of patients, even former patients themselves seeing how great, attentive, funny and light-hearted he was
puck bunnies or women he had one night stands with during the years playing for Boston saying he was a phenomenal lover and a consent king, or women that approached him whilst inebriated and whom he gently turned down, bought a bottle of water for and paid for their cabs to get back home safely
neighbours saying he was very polite, people he was nice or helpful to through the years, a mom with a screaming child whose first class seat on a flight to Moscow he gave up so she could have more room for her herself and the baby, a classmate he defended in school, a former teacher saying how smart and talented he was in spite of not having much time to study because he was training a lot, Russian-speakers saying his interviews in his mother tongue are a thing of beauty and incredibly well-spoken, waiters and shop assistants stressing how polite his interactions were
Shane devours these stories with tears in his eyes and a heart about to explode, the tab perpetually open in his phone, incognito mode.
And when someone talks shit about Ilya or when, after their outing, hate starts to be thrown at him even more viciously from the media, he goes back to the tab, just to see that there actually many that agree with him: Ilya, the love of his life, is the most wonderful person
i'm more BUTT. this man - i'm 90% butt y'all. i'm more butt than man. when i register to vote it says Male Female Other i put OTHER and then put BUTT.
hudson williams saying shane hollander is autistic and that he based his performance on his neurodivergent dad, and connor storrie saying that shane's autistic traits are things that make him charming... oh you will both be reincarnated as a beautiful lotus flowers
hudson williams never change
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I fucking love this man.
Shane Hollander + taking things literally/missing subtext.
The fact that my autistic ass was also confused at most of these lines and had the same/similar responses to Shane. Didn’t realize it was the tism till I read this post lol
I hate to say it but Shane absolutely has the type of autism trauma that compels him to make sure Ilya knows he loves him
We see it over and over how commentators and reporters dig into him as a person, labeling him as a single-minded hockey machine from the jump, something we can see has garnered him a larger reputation when people are genuinely shocked by his humor/ quips. People don’t expect a human when they interact with the Shane Hollander.
And these characterizations don’t just come from nowhere. Teachers who thought he was obsessive, juniors teammates he never connected with, friends he lost because they felt like he didn’t care. And that’s the crux of it all, people think he doesn’t care, can’t care, about anything other than hockey, so they tell him, because why would he care.
They tell him he’s a bad friend, he’s selfish, unaware, unsympathetic. He’s cold and distant and uncaring. All the things that break relationships, make people leave.
And it’s not true, he cares so much about everything all the time, but it’s not the right way, not the way everyone wants him to. So of course when he has someone he loves more than anything, it becomes crucial, vital, than Ilya knows
“Ilya, I love you.”
“I love you t-”
“No. Ilya, like, I really love you.”
“Yes, yes, and I love-”
“No I’m serious. I really do love you, I promise. I love you so much.”
“Yes…. Okey, I… are you okay?”
“Yeah I’m fine I just… please believe me. I really do love you. I’m not lying. Here. Feel my heartbeat. See? It’s beating faster because I do actually love you.”
“…I think you are having panic attack.”
“Fuck, Ilya no, it’s because I love you. I really really do. I can prove it, please, I can-”
“Hollander stop. You are having panic attack. Is okay, I know, I love you too. Please take a breath you are scaring me. Come here.”
And Ilya hugs him through the night rocking him slowly and kissing the crown of Shane’s head and all Shane can think about is how he failed to truly convince himself Ilya.
It’s okay, he’ll try harder next time.
Yeah uh op, didn’t need to call me out with those tags at 9:30 in the morning. Now I’m crying into my bowl of Frosted Flakes.
The thing is that Ilya has no fucking clue what autism is. He probably read the word when some twitter user called Shane autistic and wanted to look it up but got distracted by a post about Shane's tits or smth.
What he does know though is that Shane folds his clothes before sex. And he smiles at him with adoration when he does it and doesn't rush him or make fun of him for it. He knows Shane doesn't always pick up on his jokes and sarcasm "That's French, Ilya" but he doesn't mind it and would never make Shane feel bad about it or dismiss his response "Yeah I know, Shane". He knows Shane has a PhD in The Arts of Overthinking "Now the bed's all dirty" so he playfully chases his worries away and closes all those open tabs in Shane's brain "What? Shut up". He knows Shane will not rest until he has everything in his life under control so he grumbles when Shane wakes him up in the middle of the night to tell him how they can make it all work but still listens intently to his plan. He knows Shane feels overwhelmed and anxious when stuff doesn't go down as planned "This is my actual fucking nightmare, Ilya" "I'm okay I'm just freaking out I'll be okay in a second" so he softly comforts him and supports him through it "Then maybe it's time to wake up, yes?" "We're good here, your family's here, you're boyfriend's here, we're good here, ok?" He knows Shane has to hear it to believe it "My boyfriend?" so he gently goes "I mean yes, I think so, probably".
He doesn't know Shane is autistic but he knows Shane and he loves Shane and Shane happens to be autistic
And so the wolf fell in love with the bird or something
Thank you threads user I am insane over this
I NEED SOMEONE TO WRITE A HEATED RIVALRY TWILIGHT AU!!! PLS I’m BEGGING YOU! ONE OF THEM IS A WEREWOLF(Shane) AND THE OTHER IS A VAMPIRE!(Ilya!)
I’m BEGGING YOUUUUUU!