K i e r a n

17, bored and polish idiot, amateur writer, he/him!!

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NEIL JOSTEN IS POLISH!!!! POLISH PEOPLE WON AGAIN!!!!

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Just finished The Sunbearer Trials by Aiden Thomas and... What the fuck? What was the reason? This book broke me in a way I didn't even know existed. I don't know what to say except "What the fuck?"

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you're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

marya hendriks thought jan van eck loved her but when her beloved son named wylan still coudn't read or write everything changed.

jan sent her to asylum. she never thought that she's able to hate someone with that passion but when her wylan told her what her ex husband did to their son and she felt passionate anger. she wanted kill jan.

she knew how wylan met jesper, she's not dumb, she knew her son became a criminal. she didn't want to belive rumours but in the end it didn't matter — her son was safe and only that mattered.

she visited jan once. "i know what you did" she told him and watched how fear appeared in his eyes "i know you tried kill my son and his friends. i know what you did to sweet inej and i know what you did to wylan, how you treated him and how you punished him for something that small." "then you know that he's an idiot!" yelled jan. she ignored him. " mr. brekker and i had a deal. say goodbye to your cell and cellmates, jan" marya whispered. "say goodbye, my dear."

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pekka rollins knew how hurt kaz brekker.

(it's kinda sad so be careful!)

wylan died first.

pekka rollins was merciless when it came to wylan. he tore wylan to ribbons and made kaz watch this.

kaz still hears wylan's screams.

next death was jesper's death.

jesper never accepted wylan's death.

so when pekka slit his throat he was smiling.

and of course pekka rollins made kaz watch this.

matthias died next.

pekka shot matthias multiple times until he was just blood stain on pekka's carpet.

kaz prefered to be dead than watch his crows dying.

inej died after matthias.

she was seriously injured and she begged kaz to kill her bc she didn't want to die by pekka's hand.

how he could say no to inej?

he finished her.

nina died next.

kaz remebered her as the always laughing and one of the bravest girls he met.

so seeing fear in her eyes was destructing.

the last piece of kaz retvield died. he was now only kaz brekker and he was ready to destroy again pekka rollins.

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the gambler and the runaway

jesper is known from gambling. it's not a secret that he's addicted. everyone knows that. he is known from being the best sharpshooter in ketterdam as well.

he alson is known from being always the happiest person in the room.

not everyone knows that is a lie.

well, jesper doen't think that someone besides kaz knows

and well, he kind of... doesn't care? it's his problem after all

jesper knows that kaz doesn't give a shit about his addiction

he thinks inej doesn't care

in fact he thinks no one cares about him — even his dad

he is dying like his mother did

but he's dying slowly

and then there is wylan

sweet wylan and jesper thinks that he never met someone that innocent while being one of the deadliest people

wylan cares and that's cute even when it's confusing jesper

sweet wylan who went through hell still has the good in his heart and it is the prettiest thing jesper had seen

jesper thinks he never loved someone in the way he loves wylan

he doesn't love wylan because he's rich and the most beautiful person

he loves wylan bc he cares about jesper when even jesper doesn't care about himself

so he tries his best but he knows wylan needs something more. wylan deserves the world and jesper isn't able to give him even a piece of what wylan deserved

so he had to leave

and he left (even though it hurt) bc he had to

jesper to the end of his life regreted it

he died at an early age, he was only 23

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summer child by conan gray is so jesper fahey coded

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In some way, Dean hates Castiel. He hates how beautiful Cas is, how he loves this angel. He hates it.

But he loves Cas as well. It makes him mad because he's not used to be in love or being loved. Of course, Sam loves Dean. Sam is his brother, their love is something obvious. But it's not the same with the whole Cas Thing™. He loves Castiel in different way. Castiel isn't his baby brother, he never was.

Dean Winchester is in love with the fucking angel of the Lord and he hates it.

So when Cas confess his love, Dean doesn't understand. Why? Why Cas loves him? He can't think straight, he doesn't know what he should say. He says nothing.

And Cas dies. Dean wants to be dead too. He can't imagine world without Cas.

The world isn't his place after all, Dean from the beginning was supposed to be dead.

So he prays to Jack and begs Jack for mercy. He wants to be dead. But Jack doesn't listen.

23th March he tries to kill himself. Sam saves his life.

'' You don't understand! " Dean yells. " You think Cas' death was easy for me?" asks Sam. Dean doesn't reply because he knows that Sam also is mourning.

"I'm selfish, Dean. I don't want to be alone in this world" says quietly Sam. "I don't want to live in world without my big brother"

Dean says nothing but he still tries to end his life.

And someday his wishes come true — he's dead and he's in Heaven now. He finds Cas and kiss this stupid angel because he wants to. And because he can.

He's bisexual and he's proud of it.

He's not proud that he committed suicide and left Sam alone but he couldn't live without Cas.

So Sam has to learn how to be alive without Dean. It's sad but Dean knows Sam will make it.

My point is that Dean hates how in love he is.

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gucci crow edits dedicated to my dear friend @holy-chocolate-biscuit 😌🙏

cause of death: drip

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KANEJ WESPER THE CROWS ALL TOGETHER MATTHIAS AJSMAJDJDJF

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Blep boi :> a random little doodle somehow exploded into this because. I just think snake bites crowley is Big Brain Time

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John Walker getting a best down from the Dora Milaje wasn't just great television or even "fan service". There a lot going on in that scene which will be dissected just below

The Dora enter the scene when John Walker has just threatened Sam. One of them throws a spear into a beam between them, protecting Sam who is obviously didn’t want to fight.

So John Walker started the fight by threatening a Black man who helped defend Wakanda. #WinterSpoilers

John’s behavior toward the Dora is insulting and passive aggressive & FILLED WITH MICRO AGGRESSIONS (Like when he referred to their spears as "pointy sticks). He touches Ayo without her permission in a gesture that white men often claim is friendly but is actually a condescending way they assert their authority and power over others, especially women.

YOU DO NOT PUT HANDS ON A BLACK WOMAN WHOM YOU ARE PAINFULLY UNFAMILIAR WITH. It is not cute neither is it an ice breaker. Just F*cking DON'T ✋🏾🚫🛑

We’ve seen John uses that gesture before, along with his nonchalant “aw shucks” act before. At this point we, the audience, should be aware that it is a mask that covers calculated violence and can’t be reasoned with. Ayo sure sees it. #WinterSpoilers

Which makes it very interesting to see so many people cast the Dora as aggressors in this situation. It shows how much we’ve internalized white supremacy that we see a white man we know to be dangerous threaten a Black man but frame Black women as the aggressors.

PS I understand that by virtue of how the fight scene is filmed it looks like the Dora, Ayo especially, have lethal intent. But if anything the fight demonstrates that if the Dora Milaje want someone dead he would be dead. They left those men alive. 🤷🏽‍♀️

And by returning the shield, they demonstrated that John Walker was of ZERO THREAT to them.

The Dora Milaje showed restraint and more importantly, class.

For those of you idiots saying "Don't make it about race", I say screw you. This show if anything shows how America views itself as the altruistic saviour when in truth they're little more than soiled cattle muddying & soiling everything they touch.

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What if Jesper calls Wylan "prince" bc of his first thought about him???

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if multiverse is canon in mcu....

in some universe sam is too slow to catch bucky

in some universe natasha is happy (and alive) with her sister. they have a picnic and they sing songs

in some universe clint doesn't recover after pietro's death. he blames himself like he was the one who killed the boy. clint wanted to be pietro's mentor and he fucked up

in some universe pepper leave tony alone with his mind for too long...

in some universe happy doesn't lost all his friends.

in some universe rhodey ended worse

in some universe thor could save loki

in some universe foggy finds matt's body

all of this can be true and it breaks my heart

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IM SO FUCKING JEALOUS

LIKE JOE LONG I HAVE TO WAIT FOR POLISH TRANSLATION MISTER IMPOSSIBLE?? THE THIRD BOOK IS WAITING BIDNDPSJJDOJDHOD

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Adam: You remind me of the ocean

Ronan: Because I'm deep and mysterious

Adam: Because you're salty and scare people.

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don't think how loud gansey cried when ronan tried to kill himself.

don't think about how gansey was scared when niall lynch died.

don't think about how terrified gansey was when matthew was kidnapped . don't think about gansey who prayed even he was an atheist because he knew that ronan wouldn't survive another death.

don't think how bad gansey felt when he discovered noah died for him.

don't think how devastated he was because he didn't know how to help adam.

please, don't think how he suffered when he discovered that noah died for nothing.

just don't think about it.

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no thoughts, just ronan lynch as latin teacher in anglionby