A Lost Beauty No More

I am just trying to get by ...

[jee-q]

I’m mature enough to admit that I’m the reason for some failed friendships/relationships. I apologize 

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

you’re not a bad person just because some people have bad perceptions of you. you’re not a bad person for being misunderstood or misinterpreted.

[traumasurvivors]

You don’t have to be positive all the time to prove you’re healing.

Sometimes healing looks like saying, “This fucking sucks.” Because often, it does.

You’re allowed to have bad days. You’re allowed to be angry, tired, bitter, numb. You don’t need to try and see a silver lining on everything just to show you’re trying.

No one is positive all the time.

No one is positive through every stage of recovery.

And expecting that of yourself? That is an unrealistic expectation to have of yourself and unfair pressure.

Being real with yourself is part of healing.

So if today is heavy, let it be. You’re still doing your best. And that’s enough.

[alostbeautynomore]

Question- is it attention seeking how I am feeling since I don’t have a specific plan? I just don’t know if I should tell someone or just keep it to myself and hope it goes away. I don’t want to bother anyone ya know? I am having suicidal thoughts and I keep crying but part of me doesn’t even want to die. I am very confused. Idk how to explain how I feel. It doesn’t make sense. Is it attention seeking if I tell someone? I hate this. I am safe though! I do not have a plan. I just want the thoughts to stop

[loggednightmares]

Feeling like buying a pair of heelies and rolling myself off a fucking cliff

[charl0ttan]

has anybody else been struggling with thoughts

[charl0ttan]

or perhaps feelings ?

[localbookshop]

or perhaps both?

[alostbeautynomore]

You know what sucks about being self aware - I know I am making irrational and unhealthy decisions and yet I am doing them anyways. Therapy tomorrow thankfully. I need to be honest and tell her I had a lapse and sh. I haven’t done that in so long. I feel ashamed. Ugh things have been hard lately. Self sabotage? Punishment? Numb? Not sure which is happening but I can honestly say I’m having a hard time coping

[traumasurvivors]

I want you to know that if you fall back in your healing, it does not mean you are weak. This is a normal part of healing. It does not erase your progress. 

Keep trying. I believe in you. 

[navdbdjk-deactivated20240816]

“No one noticed that I had changed- that I had given up sleep entirely, that I was spending all my time reading, that my mind was someplace a hundred years - and hundreds of miles - from reality.”

― Haruki Murakami, The Elephant Vanishes

[kosmogrl]

[borderlinereminders]

It’s okay if you don’t feel strong. It’s okay to feel weak, tired and/or worn down. You are allowed to feel those things. You’re still just as worthy whether you’re strong or weak. I promise.

[kosmogrl]

[stricatul]

Sometimes you just need to hear how much you mean to someone.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

If you’ve survived your suicidal thoughts/suicide attempts, I am proud of you. If you’ve made a milestone in being clean, I am proud you. If you’ve relapsed, I’m still proud of you. If you’re still struggling this very moment with your mental health, I am still so proud of you.

[alostbeautynomore]

I feel lost. I am so overwhelmed and my anxiety is horrible. It’s like I’m in freeze mode. Idk what to do or where to go from here. It is a really lonely and pathetic feeling to feel. I am not where I should be nor where I could be. I am just lost

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Georgia O'Keeffe

[emivipers]

“I lied and said I was busy.

I was busy;

but not in a way most people understand.

I was busy taking deeper breaths.

I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.

I was busy calming a racing heart.

I was busy telling myself I am okay.

Sometimes, this is my busy -

and I will not apologize for it.”

- Brittin Oakman

- Artwork : Sivan.ka

[soul-from-another-era]

This resonates deeply!!