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I reblog mental health, books, cats, tea, plants, history, feminism and socialism stuff. Late 20s. Australian, married to the wonderful juicy-lee-citrus. She/Her pronouns. Intersectional Feminist always. fssw-er: message me for side blog where I rant about that. Increasingly politically radical and d o n e every day.

[expressions-of-nature]

by Syadza Salsabyla

[anonymouslass-world]

The emotional saga continuuuues. SO. I was able to log back onto my old advertising account: huzzuh, right? That’d be a pain to re-set-up, and I’m already verified on there, which is nice since some clients do filter for verified profiles. But. I was unexpectedly thrust face-to-face with my old photos, which I haven’t seen for 4plus years and 🫪

I knew logically my body had changed, was totally fine with that, theoretically, but hot damn was I like 🫠 It makes me mad and sad that my first reaction was ‘fuuuck I need to lose weight’, like, after everything? Never fear though babygorls my brain did pretty immediately go ‘um the fuck??? Just for that we’re gonna try a new recipe tonight and fuckin EAT’ so.

I did have to go look at my thiccspo pinterest board for reassurance though. And repeat my-started as a joke but I afear is now genuine-affirmation of “people wanna fuck me! people wanna pay to fuck me! I could be much fatter and people will STILL want to pay to fuck me!”.

And like I have always, always, truthfully believed that no one is ever automatically too fat for sex work. Or too old. Or too anything else. It really is about finding your market. Yeah there are limitations to that, but fundamentally. Like a lot of things though, I truly believe that for other people, but sometimes I struggle extending that to myself.

Anyway after all that I had an emdr session (totally unrelated to SW or body image or disordered eating) so when I say emotional saga today I mean it

[sorrrowfull]

[anonymouslass-world]

I MUST take ad photos tomorrow and I really, really, really do not want tooooooo

[nociceptrix]

finding out you spent most of your life dissociated is a HUGE bummer

[nociceptrix]

i thought shit didnt stick to me cuz i was slick but its cause i wasnt there #LAME

[probuccalfat]

there’s no permanent self and that’s pretty cool

[moonandtrees]

[ljones41]

Marlene Dietrich and Anna May Wong “Shanghai Express” (1932)

[anonymouslass-world]

I‘m so sick of this endless cycle in substance abuse. I want off the damn carousel. It‘s not fun and it‘s killing me slowly and sometimes quickly and I‘m endlessly tired and can’t stand myself.

[cryptic-forge]

let's be celestial with mama⭐

another teapot animal head variant, because this sculpt is comforting to revisit. i find the speculative biological implications of the tea cup babies disturbing, but have willed them into existence regardless.

[littlefluffbutt]

Teacup babies!!! So cute!!!!💕💕

[fairycosmos]

big life tips dont be neurodivergent dont be poor dont get in any sort of situation and dont let yourself need or crave

[fairycosmos]

not getting good reports back on your progress with this guys

[catchymemes]

[trawl]

Touches you with my tendril. In a way that transmits kindness

[crimeronan]

i feel like i experience a weird amount of stress for a well-fed creature that stays inside a pleasant room doing fuckall all day. someone should look into this.

[iplaywithstring]

That's what Binky is thinking all the time

[thumper1000]

'The Nymph' by Giovanni Battista Lombardi (1822 - 1880) is in Palazzo Facchi, Brescia, Italy.

Look at the detail showing the extreme skill in depicting water with marble.

[anonymouslass-world]

i think we can make it chat 💪 🙏

[dontcxckitup]

me after work