Impulsively making a system blog!! We'll make the blog look better later. But hi there! We are the Wildcard Collective, a C-DID system of well over 100 alters that we lose track of constantly.
We don't have any art on hand, but here will be a list that updates as people come up on the blog and they might link intro posts if they feel like it.
Wildcard Collective
🍷 - Loki - He/It - P5 FICTIVE, RUNNING THE SHOW RIGHT NOW
🏹 - Robin - Any - Introject (P5 :])
🌀 - Aegean - He/Him - Host
⚖️ - Inoue Shouhei - He/They - Introject
🎵 - Honoka/Athena - She/Her (Intro)
🦇 - Fluttershy - She/Her - Introject
🌹 - Rose - She/They
💚 - Dakota - He/Him - Primary Protector
🎲 - Kokichi - He/They/It - Introject (The guy they warn you about. - 🎲)
🌻 - Marigolds - He/Ae - Introject (Akechi 3)
🍀 - Prince - He/Him - Introject (Akechi 5)
Azure Squadron (Subsystem)
🍒 - Clover - She/They/It - Co-Host
Important Questions (Will be updated as needed)
Our Stance on Endos/Polyminds/Willos?
NO LONGER NEUTRAL ANTI. WE'RE ANTI NOW.
Our Stance on Radqueer/Transids?
Anti. Though we won't go out of our way to attack anyone over it, we just really don't get it. You do not want our disabilities. You want what you think you could get from havin' our disabilities.
Exceptions in our stance are only for Alters who happen to split with disabilities the body they're in doesn't have. That happens, that's chill. - 💚
…Help I’m so behind on descriptions and connections. If the site is alive tomorrow, I’ll have to lock in and finish them. And the complete the lore document for my cat oc. 💔
Got to love invisible physical disabilities and not being taken seriously. /s
My dad taking me to a town on a hill, leaving the car at the top so I have to walk all the way back up if I want to leave. I've been in agony since yesterday. 🤩
And I'm not allowed to complain because I'm young and he has it worse. And it's not because of technology, I'd still be disabled if I grew up without it, I'd just have learnt to shut up.
It's worth taking a step outside of the Tumblr echo chamber sometimes. I had a pleasant discussion about syscourse on PonyTown today, no fighting or disagreements. Everyone was either anti or unaligned and all agreed that endo/willo/etc. spaces shouldn't cross over into CDD spaces.
your persecutors are not beyond saving, by the way. you are not beyond saving, "bad parts" and all.
the whole narrative of "evil" or "bad" alters needs to be dismantled. whether you like it or not, whether you prefer to be addressed as individuals or not (i know that we do), whether your goal is final fusion or functional multiplicity or some other thing, alters are still parts of a whole and continuing to punch down at your "worst" alters is punching down at yourself.
until you learn to accept and work with all parts of yourself, you're never going to move anywhere.
when you back an animal into a corner, it's going to bite. if you keep screaming at that animal, it's going to keep biting. if you hit that animal, it's going to bite harder. until you learn to approach with kindness and understanding, that animal is going to bite. it's never going to want to work with you.
anti - persecutor sentiment doesn't seem to be as prevalent this side of tumblr, but it absolutely runs rampant on other social platforms like discord or tiktok. not like i'd expect anything else.
and just... to be clear. i am not dictating how you address your system. i am not dictating your recovery. i am, however, stating my opinion based on my own experiences and others' that i've interacted. thanks
So dead to the world these past few months, the dissociation has me in a chokehold. But I shall survive.
I think the one thing that’s keeping me down is that no one seems to miss me when I’m gone, and I can never tell if it’s out of respect and acceptance for what I go through or because they’ve moved on to someone way better than me. I hate when it’s drilled into my head that the people I love hate me, but don’t want to say it to my face. I miss my best friend every day, but I can’t even say that directly and genuinely in case she reacts badly. I hate it here.
endo is an inherently ableist and problematic label that spreads misinformation about complex dissociative disorders by very definition. if you use it, misinformed or not, you are still spreading such ableist misinformation. you are still being ableist. does this make you irredeemable? no. does this entail addressing, apologizing, and rectifying? absolutely.
So, when you say you're anti-endo, do you mean you don't believe in endos but support them existing if they stay separate from CDD community, or do you not support them at all? I don't really believe in endos but i support them having their community, so i just want to know if i'm breaking any boundaries by interacting :)
(you don't have to answer tho if you don't want to!)
Generally, I don't really care who interacts with me, so long as they don't try to change my mind on my stances (including about endos). Outside of that, if you want to interact with me, you can. I make my stances public so people can just block if they're uncomfortable, and so I don't have to debate people on these things because it can be very exhausting.
On endos specifically, I have developed my beliefs after years of living with DID, reading the actual scientific literature, and witnessing the discourse in online system communities. I have heard every pro-endo argument under the sun and none of them have even come close to convincing me.
I'm anti-endo because the science has proven completely that alters and systemhood are a trauma-based phenomenon and are inextricably linked to PTSD on a psychological, neurobiological and behavioural level. No "evidence" to the contrary has ever come close to the decades of research we have proving this fact, and as time goes on we find more and more evidence that proves this.
In my opinion, "endos" are either just paying closer attention to the different integrated parts that naturally make up a person's self and choosing to view those parts as separate when they aren't, or are mislabelling symptoms from another disorder (psychosis, BPD, OCD, maladaptive daydreaming, etc) as alters.
As to whether I support them having their own community, I'm undecided. Generally, if someone is choosing to label themself in an unscientific way, but they aren't openly spreading misinformation or inserting themselves into DID/OSDD spaces, I take a live and let live approach, even if I disagree with them. However, there are so many severely harmful issues that permeate endogenic communities and are interwoven with their history that I don't think I can ever support them. I don't hold any ill will towards individuals who label themselves that way, but I absolutely do hold resentment towards the endogenic community as a whole.
Below the cut I'm going to list and briefly elaborate on all of my gripes (that I can think of at this moment) with "endogenic systems". Do not try to change my mind on any of these, you will not succeed and if you try I will block you. Again, I've heard it all. I'm putting this here so people can know my stance and block me if they so wish, and so I can speak my piece and then hopefully never have to address this issue again.
Complete and utter scientific illiteracy
Endogenics and their supporters routinely prove that they have no idea how scientific research actually works and do not understand even just the fundamentals of the things they argue about. Not having scientific literacy doesn't make you a bad person, but you should not be participating in scientific debates if you cannot understand the basics of scientific research and theory.
An example of this: there are a few studies that endos say prove their existence. But when you read the studies, all the researchers did is interview a few people who claim to be "non-disordered plurals" and found that they seemed to be functioning well enough that a psychiatric diagnosis is probably not necessary. That does not prove that endos exist. If a study does not outline an actual psychological/neurobiological process in which alters and systemhood can form without trauma, accompanied by actual hard proof with a large sample size, it does not prove the existence of "endogenic systems".
You can believe something that isn't true without that belief being caused by a mental illness, but that doesn't mean that belief is correct. The idea that someone who believes something that is scientifically untrue must be delusional or mentally ill in some way is ableist and inaccurate.
Again, this is extremely basic knowledge of how research works. A couple studies where a researcher interviewed "non disordered plurals" and found they were mostly functioning okay does not prove anything, and it certainly doesn't trump decades of scientific research proving that systemhood is purely post-traumatic in nature.
Same thing as when endos say "that source is about DID so it doesn't count!" Dissociative identity disorder is the scientific name for the presence of a system, any creditable research about systemhood will use the term DID. They're not studying the label, they're studying systemhood. Under that logic, research about DID wouldn't apply to OSDD or P-DID either. Making that argument just proves you have no idea how any of this works.
So many other examples are coming to mind but I'll just stick with those two so I don't ramble forever.
Endos just fucking lie all the time
Endos will very often say things that are so blatantly untrue, they're either intentionally lying or just making things up without checking anything.
Examples: when endos claim that non-disordered plurals coined "system" in the 90s when Pierre Janet was writing about dissociative personality systems in fucking 1907, when endos claim that the theory of structural dissociation was made by intentionally abusing children into developing DID, when endos claim that the DSM supports endogenic systems, etc.
Endos promote the fantasy and sociocognitive models of DID which are not scientifically valid and are literally anti-DID propaganda
It's common for endos to cite the fantasy and sociocognitive models of DID when trying to prove their claims. This also ties into scientific illiteracy, because those sources aren't claiming systems can form without trauma, they're claiming systems don't exist at all. These models were created by professionals who were making an organized effort to get DID removed from the DSM, and who also supported demonstrably false ideas designed to silence trauma survivors, such as false memory syndrome. Not only are these sources not scientifically valid, they are part of a disgusting movement against trauma survivors and they should never be treated as actual evidence.
Trying to convince someone they're an "endo system" can be extremely dangerous and the risk should never be taken
There have been so many incidents of endos trying to convince people they were an endo system when they actually just had psychosis, BPD, maladaptive daydreaming or actual DID.
Fixating on disconnecting yourself from the natural parts that make up your self, convincing yourself there are other beings inside your head that can control you, etc can be extremely dangerous and many people have suffered psychotic breaks because of this. Psychotic breaks are even common in non-endo tulpamancy communities. Believing your BPD mood swings or maladaptive daydreams are "headmates" causes further disconnection from yourself which makes those issues harder to treat, and can cause severe dissociative or psychotic episodes. And of course, interacting with your DID symptoms when you are convinced you don't have trauma leads to worsened dissociation, flooding of trauma flashbacks, and suicidal ideation.
If an online endogenic community has to exist, it should be incredibly niche and confined to a part of the internet that you are only likely to reach after you have already been evaluated for psychosis, BPD, MaDD and actual DID and found to have none of them. It is way more likely that the explanation for feeling like multiple people or hearing voices inside your head will be some kind of psychiatric disorder, and convincing yourself you're an endo system when you actually have an untreated disorder could literally get you killed.
In addition to that, there have been many instances in which a person has openly said that their experiences are caused by psychosis and endos have tried to convince them they're just plural, and even gone as far to tell people not to take antipsychotics because "they're just trying to get rid of your alters!" See above for why this is literally unforgiveable behaviour. Encouraging psychosis, especially to such an extreme degree, is incredibly dangerous and again, can literally get people killed.
Promoting misinformation
A lot of harmful misinfo in system communities (i.e. you can split alters without trauma, fusion is alter death, alters are entirely separate people) is prominently spread by endos and their supporters. Not exclusively, but very commonly.
Cultural appropriation
This has been done to death, but the amount of (mainly white) people shoving words in the mouths of people who participate in closed practices (who do not experience anything close to systemhood and it's frankly offensive to even compare those things) is disgusting. Ethnic minorities are not a fucking pawn for you to use in your stupid internet discourse.
Endos routinely erase all of these issues to avoid criticism
In addition to everything I've listed, it's worth noting that many of the 90s "plural" groups that endos cite like gospel were anti-DID hate groups who wanted the disorder removed from the DSM. Endos like to erase that history (because there's really no defending that, especially now that they've changed their tune from "DID isn't medical, we have DID and we aren't disordered!" to "haha whaaaaat, we never claimed to have DID guys!"), in addition to erasing all of the other issues I've talked about. If you're going to stand behind a community with such a horrible history, the least you can do is have to the balls to actually admit your community's problems instead of lying about it. Especially when the proof is easy to find.
The fact that this is something people with DID even have to deal with this in the first place is horrible
There's just...no equivalent to this for other mental illnesses. No-one claims to have "non-disordered schizophrenia" or "non-disordered OCD" or ""non-disordered PTSD". And like it or not, this movement started from, or at the very least was popularized by, people who romanticize DID and want to have it. It's so ridiculous that people who just want to exist with DID online are basically forced to develop and voice an opinion on something so blatantly pseudoscientific. People shouldn't have to go out of their way to use every tag imaginable telling people they don't want supporters of ableist bullshit to hijack their posts just for it to happen anyways. If you spend enough time in online system communities, you might just think of endo bullshit as normal. It's not fucking normal. And it only exists for DID because people love the fantasy of "multiple people in one body".
In conclusion
There are too many issues with endos for me to ever support them as a movement, and I'm tired of dealing with their shit. I don't want to debate and I don't want to get involved in syscourse. If you don't like my stance on this, block me. If you personally identify as some kind of "non-disordered plural", you don't participate in any of the things I've listed and you want to interact with me, go ahead. I have no issues with you even if I disagree with you.
And hopefully I can go on with my blog without having to talk about these things again. Fingers crossed.
Thanks for reading if you actually made it this far. Go have a cookie or something.
hate groups are also known for 'rebranding' too. they do it to disguise their actual, core ideologies, and so they can get away with whatever they do.
majority of them adopt new names, coded language, and even shitty pseudo-scientific symbols/logos so they can bypass social media (or law, if serious enough...) and mainstream their hatred for all to see.
it's not uncommon for people to get groomed into these hate groups, either under false or true pretenses. i say true, because while they can tell the truth, they can still twist words and spin them in a way that makes it seem like they're in the right and the victims deserve the discrimination.
as another person of color, who originates from several cultures, who actually practices the spiritual practices/mediumship that pro endos try to claim as plurality, i don't feel safe around them either. cultural or spiritual practices don't make you plural.
not to mention, the pro endos & willos who claim they're a part of these cultures and that what their community is doing isn't cultural appropriation and racist and even try to teach, don't even actually do the practice, and they're not even in a high and/or respected enough position within these cultural communities to even make speak with this kind of authority, much less even teach someone outside the culture.
though, i would say they can't even initiate people outside of the culture at all due to how much misinformation they spread. idk, it might be some sort of internalized racism to just allow absolutely anyone to practice a closed cultural practice, or claim to be even though what they're doing is just appropriating it, when it's closed for a reason.
we've seen how people outside of certain cultures that are typically open, but have been watered down to literal rot to the point majority of people don't know its origins/roots, or just don't care.
anyway, i hope you've been well! sometimes, these types of blogs can be tiring to run, so i hope you've been able to take care.
I will gladly call out the harm and bullshit they spout in my shitbox when they do so, because I find it amusing that they dedicate their own time to do their ableist mockery of DID and trying to "defend" it by sending hatemail and threats to DISABLED and DISORDERED individuals who are traumatized.
I have "free-time" to point and laugh, and ramble on my own blog. But other than that, I have way better things to do.
I don't care if I'M added to the "plural blocklist", because I can handle harassment. But I don't want MINORS to be posted on there. I don't want vulnerable people on there. I don't want others to be harassed by those same assholes.
Plural-Blocklist is causing a bunch of harm to many pwCDDs, even without malice, the supposed group they're handing out accounts to block to are really prone to harassing minors and people who are traumatized.
Stop posting minors and traumatized, disabled people on your blocklist page. If you aren't ableist, then actually be NOT ableist and instead block and move on.
No, this does not open the gates to harass me. I am apathetic to harassment, BUT I personally would not care if I were to be attacked by people who throw the concept of a disorder away into a dumpster.
