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haven't done my work but i did draw myself not doing my work. and the specter. not sure how this helps
Dear social anxiety folks, I know you can’t just turn it off, but I have a story that helped me and might help you. When I was in grad school for my masters degree in a foreign country, I always felt SO self conscious and awkward. We were all in our 20s except for one older lady maybe in her 40s, and she was so comfortable in life and did not get self conscious at all. One day we were guests in a lecture at the other university in town, and she realized she’d left her purse at lunch and stood to rush from the lecture hall. “Sorry, I left my purse at lunch!” she told the speaker as she hurried through the door at the front and pulled it shut behind her. Then she came back and said cheerfully “That’s a closet” and then went out the correct door.
We all laughed and loved it. No one thought she was weird or stupid. We thought she was fun and hilarious (accurate!) and I admired her unbothered attitude. And I think I’ve grown into that myself. So I hope you all will too. I hope you won’t always feel so anxious.
Getting into a car accident is just like the Wizard of Oz. You’re suddenly thrown into a wild situation with potential casualties and you have to go talk to one of the most powerful people in all the land (insurance guy) to get your stuff back. Usually you’re joined by someone without a brain (a cop), someone without a heart (a cop), and someone without courage (a cop)
Look Up
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I don't usually dabble in realism - but this was a gift for someone very meaningful in my life. And some things just deserve to be painted as they are.
HEY EVERYONE GIVE THIS PERSON MORE NOTES
SCROLL THE FUCK BACK UP
ITS ART
ITS ART I REPEAT ART
SCROLL THE FUCK BACK UP
ITS ARTITS
ART I REPEAT ART
Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.
people hate self diagnosis because it provides Mad people with autonomy.
self diagnosis goes against the idea that psychiatriac professionals have unique knowledge - knowledge only obtainable by someone who has studies for years, specifically from a removed & outside perspective to any individual's Madness: even if that student, themselves, is Mad.
self diagnosis goes against the idea that Mad people are inherently incapable of telling their own story - that any ways in which they do communicate, express themselves, etc. is tainted by their Madness and thus unreliable.
self diagnosis says "i know my own bodymind better than anyone; i live here. this is my life. i get to define my experiences." self diagnosis holds self compassion. self diagnosis holds self empowerment.
diagnosis is typically something "given to" Mad people. in psychiatry's eyes, diagnosis is something to describe us that we must have, yet can never attain for ourselves.
so even though self diagnosis takes from the boxes that psychiatry has prescribed, it is still a rebellion. it may not be The Solution to freeing Mad people from psychiatry - but it still means something. to me, at least.
Horror is like the only genre left where anything good or original is happening because they're historically lower budget with almost guaranteed high returns even if the movie ends up being just okay at best so writers and directors and editors are allowed to experiment and actually be creative which is what audiences want. Yet big studios are still bleeding themselves dry for $100+ million productions no one's showing up to and aren't even good! Horror's the only thing standing between us and the death of cinema. And I live by that.
I think anyone that studies medicine with Damian would lowkey hate his ass.
Not in a mean way, but in a petty why-aren't-you-struggling-like-me type of way. I mean, thanks to Robin and the league Damian is light years ahead of everyone on terms of experience and it would show.
Half the class is puking their guts out the first time they see a patient with an open fracture. Damian has been there, done that, seen that and worse. He's eating m&m's in the back.
They're all practicing making sutures until late. Damian is like "No, I don't need to join you. I could suture with my eyes closed" and then when someone is like "prove it, rich-boy" that mf actually blindfolds his eyes and sutures perfectly using four different techniques.
He also passes everything with flying colors! Because of course, the guy can't just be rich, good looking and famous, he has to be smart too.
And it just gets worse when he starts his actual residency.
Nothing shakes him! Thirty hour shifts? He doesn't even yawn. Extreme stress during a surgery gone awry? Damian is the one telling the other members of the surgical team to stay calm. Violent patient? They don't even get to call security, Damian has the guy pinned already.
And it would be easier to not get jealous of him if he somehow was a souless blood sucking asshole. But Damian is a good person, awkward and standoffish but always willing to help. He's there for whatever people need. He aids nurses, listens to patients, conforts victims. He sits with people for the bad news and when someone dies he gets this sad faraway look that shows he cares.
And it's just so unfair.
She’s so graceful
Has anyone done this yet?
I…
I..
Why would you do this to me?
regular doctors will be like "idk i think you might be stupid" & then specialists will be like "idk i think your doctor might be stupid"
in this blog post, i will be explaining why i, faggot autist, believe that Dexter Morgan is autistic by laying out the DM5 symptoms for autism and telling you how or if he relates to each;
umbrella of social diagnosis; persistent deficits in social communication and social interaction across multiple contexts - i think this one is pretty self explanatory, Dexter finds it hard to process emotions and react well in social interactions in his younger and older years and will become either apathetic or very agitated if he hasn’t.
Deficits in social-emotional reciprocity, ranging, for example, from abnormal social approach and failure of normal back-and-forth conversation; to reduced sharing of interests, emotions, or affect; to failure to initiate or respond to social interactions - Dexter quite literally believes that he has no feelings, meaning he is often apathetic to people’s feelings and does not reciprocate them in the way that others would want, he often takes himself out of situations that he doesn’t want to be in by ignoring people or acting as if his job is keeping him late, the only interest that Dexter ever shares with anyone else is killing, which is quite literally the only interest he has.
Deficits in nonverbal communicative behaviors used for social interaction, ranging, for example, from poorly integrated verbal and nonverbal communication; to abnormalities in eye contact and body language or deficits in understanding and use of gestures; to a total lack of facial expressions and nonverbal communication - the only time we see Dexter not actively speak to get his point across is during the ITK case and he only understands what the ITK means because he’s a murderer himself, it’s shown in multiple occasions that Dexter’s resting face is blank and while he doesn’t use body language badly, he doesn’t do it very often either.
Deficits in developing, maintaining, and understanding relationships, ranging, for example, from difficulties adjusting behavior to suit various social contexts; to difficulties in sharing imaginative play or in making friends; to absence of interest in peers - the amount of evidence for this one is overwhelming so I’ll keep it short, Dexter cannot even maintain relationships with family members because of his general lack of traditional emotion toward them, Dexter cannot understand why people want to have sex or be in relationships in season 1 and Dexter fails to hold himself back and adjust to the content when he knocks out Paul and drags him out. Dexter is shown to not have many friends outside of his workplace in almost every season and they end quite quickly and often in gruesome ways but he is quite imaginative, he quite literally says to Harry when he’s a teenager that he isn’t interested in anyone else and doesn’t want to date anyone.
repetitive nature of actions and behaviours umbrella; Restricted, repetitive patterns of behavior, interests, or activities - Dexter is quite literally a creature of habit, his kill ritual barely changes each time and when it does he becomes agitated and upset and may even meltdown in the middle of it. Dexter tries to stop killing multiple time and even succeeds but he always goes back to it because it is a comforting repetitive thing for him in the strangest way.
stereotyped or repetitive motor movements, use of objects, or speech (e.g., simple motor stereotypes, lining up toys or flipping objects, echolalia, idiosyncratic phrases) - there isn’t much for this one, Harrison portrays this symptoms better rather than Dexter, i guess the stabbing his victims in the chest could be a repetitive or his ‘I am Switzerland’ comment but there just isn’t enough evidence on this one.
insistence on sameness, inflexible adherence to routines, or ritualized patterns or verbal nonverbal behavior (e.g., extreme distress at small changes, difficulties with transitions, rigid thinking patterns, greeting rituals, need to take same route or eat food every day) - if we take the intro into perspective, it implies that Dexter does this routine when he wakes up, every time without fail, Dexter becomes agitated and upset when Doakes tails him and when Lila interrupts his scheduled time with Rita with her voicemail and multiple other times he reacts badly to changes in his routine or plan. Harry’s code is almost all Dexter thinks in, he quite literally has rules for living and killing and almost exactly adheres to these rules. I think i can just apply a big ‘Dexter intro’ sticker on the last two to even it out.
highly restricted, fixated interests that are abnormal in intensity or focus (e.g, strong attachment to or preoccupation with unusual objects, excessively circumscribed or perseverative interest) - i think this perfectly describes Dexter’s need to kill and his interest in blood and death, he is completely hyperfixated on the idea or taking someone’s life for the greater good, an idea and hyperfixation that Harry practically groomed him into having but it’s the principle of it.
Hyper- or hyporeactivity to sensory input or unusual interests in sensory aspects of the environment (e.g., apparent indifference to pain/temperature, adverse response to specific sounds or textures, excessive smelling or touching of objects, visual fascination with lights or movement) - Dexter doesn’t often slow down or react much past a groan if he is injured unless he is badly injured or thrown off his balance and isn’t able to catch up with his victims, Dexter sometimes has an adverse reaction to blood in a visual and or tactile state and occasionally feels overwhelmed and unable to think while in crime scenes and or hearing loud noises.
symptoms must be present in the early developmental period (but may not become fully manifest until social demands exceed limited capacities or may be masked by learned strategies in later life) - Dexter shows signs of the same behaviours and reactions to the world when he is very young, Harry teaches Dexter to mask around his mid childhood to early teenage years and is taught strategies to prevent people from ‘thinking he’s a psychopath’ (even though he’s like twelve years old.. get it together Morgan, just send your kid to a non-delusional therapist please.) Dexter’s ability to use these tactics deteriorates though but he gets new masking techniques the more he studies people.
Symptoms cause clinically significant impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of current functioning - Dexter is absolutely hopeless when he isn’t masking or is blindsided in social situations, he isn’t a social person, Dexter’s symptoms have sometimes lead to him being excused from work and caused trouble with co-workers.
in conclusion, due to the overwhelming evidence on the part of autist Dexter, i rule this Dexter Morgan, fictionally diagnosed as autistic. Bangs my gavel or whatever they’re called
Dexter Morgan had one of those child leash things during the ages of 3-8, not because he was hyperactive or would go off into traffic on a whim but because he would just wander off, trying to look for ‘something’ and nobody would know where he was until a police officer or store owner would find him and announce where he was to the Morgan family.
ranking the best things I have heard surgeons say mid-surgery:
1. "Five second rule!" while scrubbed, after dropping a sterile scalpel on the floor (no they did NOT pick it up again but I swear everyone's buttholes puckered)
2. (spoken during the closing of a particularly long and difficult case) "Nurse - my tunes." :heavy metal starts blasting:
3. Gently to a fretful patient, pre-anaesthesia: "It's going to be okay. I promise, I've dealt with worse." As soon as the patient is unconscious: "This is literally the worst thing I've ever seen."
4. [okay this one was a med student] "Wowwww, that's so gross!!" Reg: "Please remember that [patient] is awake for this procedure." Student to patient: "Oh my god. I am so sorry, that was really unprofessional - " Patient, cheerfully, also engrossed with what's happening inside them on the screen: "Nah - it's, like, super gross, right?"
5. [another procedure where the patient couldn't be put under GA] Patient: *starts singing country roads midway through the procedure* Surgeon: *shrugs and joins in with surprisingly good harmony*
Batman by Evan Cagle
It's only too late if you're dead, and you are not dead.
Start HRT
That was the intended subtext yeah, but it's important to remember it for other things too. New hobbies, learning languages, new careers, writing that book, asking out that cute person, etc. There is time. You cannot be too late so long as you still draw breath.