hey, so sometimes, when i’m bored, i think about brandon wiebe fooling around with the guy on his team who’s just a few months older and he’s so kind and perceptive and quiet, he’s got these beautiful dark eyes and he’s educated and has such a promising career, recruited from Harvard, and it’s not serious, no, they only hook up when they’re on the road, it’s not like he thinks about brandon when he’s in goal, it’s not like brandon is thinking about him when he’s on the ice (why would he? of course he’s not, god, how funny) except sometimes their eyes meet during practice and it just burns and brandon can’t help it, he blurts it out, blurts out all his feelings
and the guy is so nice, so kind to his face, but it goes downhill fast, maybe he has a big mouth, maybe he blabbed, maybe he called him that word in passing that held just a little more weight than it does when he says it to straight guys (and it hurts but brandon doesn’t want to judge, can’t judge, cuz he’s said the same to others, it’s just how locker rooms are, except what if they weren’t? what if he could make one that didn’t? But he can’t get that far ahead of himself, he can’t delude himself any more) but it doesn’t matter what happens, really, because the fact of the matter is that the guy doesn’t love him back and the guy told people and those people are refusing to pass to him and refusing to change near him and refusing to be civil to him
so brandon is sent to the ahl that summer and that beautiful, dark eyed, perceptive, intelligent goalie goes to new york and sometimes when brandon is feeling down, he kicks himself even harder by looking him up and seeing his perfect marriage and perfect life and perfect everything
and eventually it fades. brandon meets the woman of his dreams who doesn’t care that he’s still attracted to men and they have beautiful children and he plays hockey and he watches scott hunter come out because of course he watches new york win a cup and he coaches in ottawa and he gets to finally make a locker room where cruelty isn’t the norm, where the men inside rally together to protect each other when the outside world is trying to rip them down, where they survive their super star center being humiliated and outed and they come out even stronger
and when he goes to help with the irina foundation’s summer camp, his wife and kids in tow, he says hello to eric bennett for the first time without any of the old ache in his heart and is delighted to meet his boyfriend
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