(READ CAPTION) I wanted peace, It was denied. I wanted relief, It was denied. I wanted death, And nobody stopped me. And right before that moment, It struck me real hard. That nobody actually cares, It's you alone, With your broken heart. At the time I came back To a home all empty. It suited well my heart, But not my mind. Despair , agony , guilt and a hundred other emotions, Seemed to fill the void left, By the utterance of three words. Various things swirled inside, Each more horrible than before. I should mix in the world of pleasure, And attempt at fake coitus. But lust wasn't strong enough, To stand against love, And I dropped that thought. I should stop seeing anyone, Delete all my social accounts, But personal contact couldn't be forsaken, And I dropped that thought. I should cut my hands open, My blood will cover all despair. But pain couldn't replace agony, And I dropped that thought. I should leave this thankless world, To its own affairs. And take my sorry life , Leaving everyone unaware. And I did take that thought. Stood up with an unformed plan, How hard would poison be to find, In this sick world? And then my eyes fell over my notebook. A red , small , window of escape. I took a pen and turned a page, It was there that I found solace. Our mind is like a false friend, He agrees to everything , right or wrong. A second opinion I needed, And that page gave me one. They showed me a blue world, Where there still was hope, Where no one was wrong, And the end seemed far. Being alone isn't a plight, It is a test. To see that can you survive, With only your mind at your side, And not succumb to its treachery. I realised then and there. That I wanted peace, Universe gave it to me. I wanted relief, Universe gave it to me. And the only thing it denied me, Was death , sooner than destined. #depressed #depression #sad #pain #heartbreak #alone #musings #writer #writersofinstagram #writing #poem #motivation #dreams #wordpower #be_great #keep_heart #universe #darkness #believe #keepgoing #takeheart #finally_writing_something
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