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I check this like once a month and not for the right reasons. I'm a tired adult.

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Project monarch is a well-documented conspiracy please stop spreading this.

Stop spreading what? I have not once mentioned project Monarch on my Tumblr. I haven't even been active here to "spread" anything.

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Child Parts Are Not Real Children

Littles (also known as child parts) are dissociated parts of the individual's personality. While they present and may even act younger, they are still the brain's age.

Littles are not one size fits all. Some might be able to understand complex (or "adult" topics) and therefore hold the ability to consent (yes, even to sex), while some might act like children and process information that mirrors their age, which inhibits their ability to consent. At that point, it's less safe to allow them to make their own decisions, sexual or not.

In general, in order to heal, child parts need to grow up. This does not mean that they should be forced to do so or need to be treated a certain way. How littles are treated, and what they are allowed to engage in is up to their system and the little themself.

Back to littles and consent when it comes to relationships and sexual activity (because that's probably the only thing you processed from this whole post). Consent is not age dependent. In order to consent, the person must be able to affirm personal boundaries, understand what they're agreeing to, must be enthusiastic to consent, non-coerced & not under the influence of drugs and alcohol.

"But it's dangerous!" I never said it wasn't, that's why there are safety percussions in place. We personally teach our littles about "adult" topics so that they're able to navigate them when fronting. This does not just mean sex and relationships, but also how to handle conflict and difficult situations.

We allow our littles to grow up at their own pace while helping them process trauma. Engaging in relationships and sexual activity with trusted individuals can be beneficial for them in our experience. Of course, it isn't the same for all systems, and as they say, "each to their own." How you treat your littles is your business.

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Things I Rarely See Talked About

Level 2/Medium Support Need Autistics

Level 3/High Support Need Autistics

Deaf and/or Blind Autistics

BIPOC Autistics

Nonverbal Autistics

Semiverbal Autistics

The Downsides of Getting a Diagnosis

Older People (30+) With Disorders Like DID, ASPD, BPD, Autism, Etc

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misinformation about ramcoa kills. Telling people ''clocking'' is real kills. Telling people that anyone, especially abusers, can tell just by looking at them kills. Even if you're just uneducated, putting that level of misinformation out there isn't only harmful and paranoia-inducing, it kills. That is the type of thing that can, and does, trigger programs. That is the kind of thing that can drive survivors to suicide.

Yeah, me telling people to be safe kills people, okay lol💀

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If you think I spread misinformation, okay lmao. I'm sharing info that may help people. If you care to listen, welcome to my blog. If you don't, kiss my ass <3

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What Is Clocking?

Clocking is an ability many RAMCOA survivors have to varying degrees. They can tell when someome is a RAMCOA victim. Certain survivors (typically high ranking ones) can clock victims down to their rank and possibly branch. Less common are the ones who can clock victims down to their role and sect. Low ranking victims can typically clock those who are superior to them.

Logically, this is a useful ability as sects can have thousands of members and you can't possibly remember all of them. Being able to tell who your superiors are will help keep you alive. Similarly, you can also tell when someone is lower than you/"usable". Programmers can clock people to know who they can exploit.

It is a real ability and dangerous people can and will use it to their advantage. It is not fear mongering, it is the horrifying truth of being a RAMCOA survivor. We are not safe anywhere, pretending we are will not protect us or help us survive. Being aware of the dangers can help you try to keep yourselves as safe as possible.

Here are some ways to protect yourself: keep yourself as grounded as possible while outside and avoid switching to vulnerable alters, don't talk to strangers and stay away from anyone who gives you a weird feeling.

Saying clocking isn't real won't help you if a programmer spots you.

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I feel bad for your spouse lol you probably abuse them as your “persecutor alter” and then refuse to take responsibility

Lmao, yes actually, but it's okay, they like it <3

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Questions For Systems

1. What's your system name?

2. What's your collective name?

3. What are your collective pronouns?

4. How old are you bodily?

5. What type of system are you? (E.G. OSDD-1, DID, etc)

6. What's your (approximate) headcount?

7. How did you find out you're a system?

8. How many of you were there upon discovery?

9. Do you have an innerworld? If so, what type? (E.G. small, medium, large, magical, infinite, etc)

10. Do you have a fronting room? If so, what does it look like?

11. Who's the oldest?

12. Who's the youngest?

13. Who's most likely to cause mischief?

14. Who's the system's parental figure?

15. Who's the baby of the system?

16. Who's the one that everyone gets along with?

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Introjects & Problematic Source Memories

With Himiko Toga

Introjects

Introjects are alters that were split off to represent outside people, most typically an abuser, and thus creating the appearance of being "introjected" from an outside source. There are two types of introjects. Full introjects are fully convinced they are the person they represent/are based off. They believe they are separate from the body. Partial introjects refer to alters who introjected traits and characteristics from an outside source/person (similar to how a singlet would), but are aware they are not, in fact, the person in question.

Source Memories

Source memories are pseudomemories ("fake" memories) that introjects may form with. They're memories of their source and can revolve around a number of things. Source memories exist to cover up trauma or symbolise it.

"Problematic" Memories

This refers to things such as incest, pedophilia, abuse, rape, etc. This may mean the introject has memories of being in a pedophilic or incestuous relationship or perhaps they have memories of abusing another. This can be due to multiple reasons, but the most common is trauma symbolism.

My Point

Source memories shouldn't be a reason to judge or even harass introjects. We cannot control our memories nor are we responsible for what happened in source. Treating an introject differently for their memories is plain out bullshit. I don't care of you're uncomfortable, just don't interact with us if our memories bother you. It's that simple. We don't owe it to you to have palatable memories, a lot of the time they're bloody trauma representation, they aren't going to be "cutesy" or nice.

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concentration camps???? um excuse me?

They're common in RAMCOA survivors /nm

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A Small Reminder For OSDDID Systems

There is no such thing as the "perfect system." Your brain developed this disorder in the best way it saw fit to help you survive. As such, your system structure and the way it functions is specific to you, the trauma you underwent, and the way you reacted to it.

You might have more nonhuman alters than other systems, or you might form introjects easier. You might have hundreds of fragments, or you might have none. You might have 2 alters, you might have 10, or you might have hundreds.

Your system is catered towards your specific needs. While we all share symptoms and aspects in common, our systems are unique to us. What that means differs from person to person. Some might have hundreds of introjects, and some might have none. Both system were needed for their body's survival.

Your system is valid as it is, even if others try to tell you otherwise. What your system "should" be like is exactly how it already is because it's your system, and it was made to help you survive.

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Do you have any recources on HC-DID I could read? Tumblr posts included.

Also, can a HC-DID system have no innerworld?

Here's a google drive made by my friend

A quick disclaimer: Read at your own risk. If you feel dissociated or unsettled in some way, put it down and take a break

And I'm not sure, I wouldn't say it's impossible, but it's highly unlikely since programmers use it for a variety of reasons. It's more likely for the innerworld to be inaccessible, usually to certain alters

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Hi, I don't know if you've been asked this before, and if you have then I apologize for redundancy, but are you okay with endogenics interacting with your blog?

Hello, yes I am. I don't believe in gatekeeping info, so anyone is welcome as long as they're here to learn :)

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System Experience I Rarely See Talked About

Having only 2 alters

Having under 5 alters

Having over 100k alters

Having over 100k fragments

Having hypersexual child parts

Having child parts that are mentally older

Having child parts who can understand adult concepts

Having child parts that are bodily older, but mentally still children

Having no innerworld/headspace

Only having a room in the headspace

Not having a fronting room

Having a fronting room

Having an extremely complex innerworld

Constant heavy dissociation

Severe amnesia that makes you forget what happened an hour ago

Dissociative fugue

Chronic severe PTSD

Somatic symptoms

Rarely switching

Being frontstuck for months at a time

Rarely knowing who you are

Not knowing if you've switched

Internal trauma reenactment

Internal sexual relationships

Innerworlds not being a safe space

Alters who are dicks simply because they want to be

Alters who rape other alters

Internal pregnancy

Alters living in different time periods

Alters stuck reliving trauma

Having a lot of NPCs

Having cities full of NPCs

Having no NPCs

Having NPCs who reenact trauma

Having NPCs living the life you would have had without the trauma

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could you tell me more about HC-DID subtypes? specifically haven’t heard of the french revolution subtype. thank you! :)

The subtypes are basically the different sects since each has their own way of doing things, so there will be a major difference in structure between HC systems from different sects. I don't know a lot about the different subtypes, I mainly know about Monarch, so I can't be of much help. French Revolution isn't the real name, it's a nickname we came up with so it doesn't get flagged by survivors (take into consideration only the initials)

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For Any System That Needs To Hear It

You aren't faking it because you have a large alter count

You aren't faking it because you have a small alter count

You're not faking it because you have a large innerworld

You're not faking it because you have no innerworld

It doesn't matter if you have 2 alters or 20,000 alters, if you have an infinite innerworld or a small/no innerworld. You're still a system

You're not faking it because you have a lot of introjects

You're not faking it because you don't have any introjects

You're not faking it because you have a lot of nonhuman alters

You're not faking it because you have no nonhuman alters

You're not faking it because you have a lot of child parts

You're not faking it because you have no child parts

It doesn't matter what types of alters you have or don't have, all systems are different

You're not faking it because you're young

You're not faking it because you didn't know till you were older

You're not faking it because you're self-diagnosed

Your diagnosis status doesn't matter, and when you figured it out certainly doesn't. Some systems figure it out at 13, while some only figure out when they get diagnosed, everyone is different

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Dismantling Stereotypes at the Expense of Creating New Ones

This happens in most mental health communities, including the autism, PD, and OSDDID communities. People are so often preoccupied with dispelling stereotypes that they exclude people who fit those stereotypes and create new ones, further enforcing people into boxes.

I don't think I need to tell you why that isn't helpful, but I will anyway. You wouldn't like to be alienated from your own community, would you? Well, by perpetrating further stereotypes, you're alienating and excluding others from their communities no matter how many other people you're including. The mental health community and its subgroups are meant to be a safe and inclusive space to all struggling with certain disorders. It's not fair to only include those who fit your narrative of what people with X disorder are "actually" like.

Some examples of stereotypes the MH community has dispelled by creating new ones:

"Autistic people/People with BPD don't feel empathy" > "Autistic people/People with BPD feel hyperempathy"

"People with NPD/ASPD don't feel any type of empathy" > "People with NPD/ASPD still feel compassion/sympathy"

"People with ASPD/NPD don't feel love/emotions" > "People with ASPD/NPD feel love and emotions the same as other people"

There's more examples, but I'm only listing these.

By perpatrating these new stereotypes, you're excluding and even demonizing those that do not fit into those stereotypes. I have autism, BPD, NPD, and ASPD, I do not feel any kind of empathy nor compassion and sympathy, I do not feel love of any kind, and I have very little emotions/emotional range. I do not fit the stereotypes, and it makes me feel excluded from communities meant to be welcome for people like me. Something needs to change. Not all stereotypes need to be completely demolished. Some people still fit those stereotypes, and they deserve to feel included.