Borderline Diaries

My way of getting out how I feel, and trying to overcome this disease.

[furiousgoldfish]

any person: you should-

my brain, on full volume: DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!

[28-stab-wounds]

Connor: WHY AREN’T THE DISHES IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER?!

Hank: WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN MEAN

[anxietyproblem]

[actualsasori-moving]

I’m gonna share the most important thing I’ve ever learned.

it doesn’t mean a damn thing if they love you if they’re not treating you well. loving you doesn’t mean they’re good, and it doesn’t mean they deserve you, and it doesn’t mean they treat you properly.

it doesn’t mean fucking SHIT if bad parents love you. it doesn’t mean SHIT if a bad partner or bad friend loves you.

love doesn’t mean shit on its own.

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

little self care things ♡

taste:

eat small fruit snacks

buy yourself a treat occasionally

make a cake in a mug

chew flavored sugar-free gum

put lemon in your water

hearing:

listen to your favorite music

or just wear earphones to block things out

listen to white noise/ambient sounds

smell:

put on some sweet-scented lotion

spray a bit of your favorite perfume

make your favorite coffee or tea

sight:

look in the mirror and tell yourself you look good today

clean the clutter in your room + throw things away

close all the unused tabs

clean the dishes + do your laundry

delete unused apps

make your bed

fold your clothes tidily

organize your books and papers

turn down the brightness of your phone/computer at night

smile and be more polite at strangers

open up the curtains, let the light in

go outside often

touch:

hug people you love

cuddle your pet

read while lying in your bed

hug a soft toy

appearance:

wash your face/use face wipes

dry shampoo if you’re too tired to shower

brush your teeth

exfoliate + moisturize your skin

change into clean clothes

brush your hair

put on some lip balm

body:

do your favorite exercises

take a nap

take deep breaths with your stomach

take a warm shower

stand up and stretch your legs

put on some music and go for a walk outside

get at least 7 hours of sleep

drink lots of water

hobbies:

always make some time to do what you love

create art, writing and music for yourself, not anyone else

don’t feel embarrassed about your hobbies

be patient with yourself, progress takes time! don’t give up

hobby ideas: cooking, reading, drawing, painting, a sport, a new language, learn a musical instrument, collect things, photography, join a class or a club

mind:

put yourself first

spend less time around people who make you feel bad

write your thoughts in a journal

stand up for yourself

stop judging people

don’t dwell in the past

concentrate on what’s happening now

don’t try for people who don’t care

stop caring about what’s not important

be a friend to yourself, rather than a bully

learn to love your body

see the bigger picture

change self-destructive habits

appreciate the good

let things go

ask for help

studying:

make lists

focus on priorities

stop putting everything off

turn off your phone if you need to

take breaks

do one thing at a time

believe in yourself!

other:

laugh a lot

get a plant and name it

buy flowers for yourself

be ok with being alone

go out with your friends

watch a movie

I hope you feel better soon. You deserve so much. Things will get better soon so keep going. ☁️ I love you

[sheisrecovering]

This is a fantastic resource !!!! ♡

[i-am-a-fish]

since the holidays are comin up I thought I should share my wishlist *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[bpdmousey-blog]

This is so much better than I was thinking.

[mental-ch-illness]

one of the worst things about bpd is that it feels like you are not allowed to be upset at things anymore.

[bpdmousey-blog]

Stop romanticizing mental illness!

For quite a while, i didn’t really understand everyone screaming this. Going around, telling people to stop doing it. Then, I realize when I moved out, that people are getting this really messed up idea of what mental illness is.

It’s not a beautiful depression you can save me from! I’m not some damsel in distress. I’m a human fucking being. And I’ve been living with this shit for years! Stop acting like “oh poor you. Having mental illness. I just wanna hug you till all the sadness is gone.”

Fuck off! I know it sucks! I’ve spent nearly my whole life trying to get it to suck just a little bit less. Maybe if people in media showed what it actually looked like, we wouldn’t have this whole load of shit surrounding it.

It’s not romantic. It’s not pretty. My self harm has left scars that will never heal, no matter how many times you kiss them.

My suicide attempts have covered the bathtub in blood, and I had to clean it up.

My insomnia kept me up until I couldn’t see straight, and my eyes looked hollow enough to be caverns.

My borderline chased everyone I ever love away. Not because I was horrible. Not because I was unlovable. Because everyone is thinking that if the right people love you, care for you, you will just magically get better.

It’s bullshit. Stop coming along, determined to fix us, and then leaving when it’s not as beautiful as it is in the movies.

You doing that is only going to break us all the more. So please, stop.

Stop. Maybe if we showed how it really is, people would understand how to help us. And would stay long enough for it to work.

But that’s only going to happen if we stop buying into this bullshit they are feeding us.

[bpdmousey-blog]

Do you ever feel so lonely that your heart literally hurts?

[murasakiyugata]

Connor, about to infiltrate CyberLife:  The revolution is, without a doubt, the most important thing in the world to me.

Connor, a few minutes later:  The revolution is, without a doubt, the second most important thing in the world to me.

[28-stab-wounds]

Connor: WHY AREN’T THE DISHES IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER?!

Hank: WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN MEAN

[imatterdonti]

“Everyday, suicide moves higher on my list of ways to solve all of my problems”

-Thoughts I’ll never speak out loud

[hahseal]

when my alter does something dumb and someone tells me to stop

[mysuicidalconsciousness]

“Don’t say you never saw it coming when I’m gone. You watched me go down and didn’t do a thing.”

— me

[thaliasixteen]

for all of the other sweet borderlions and cluster b’s out there, this is a free online dbt course, with worksheets/homeworks/a nice little community to talk to.

even if you’re not borderline or cluster b, it would be really sweet if you’d reblog this so more people can see it! :)

[connors-g1rl]

idk why but i’m laughing when i imagine this situation in real life

[chloroscythe]

in my head theres a little mouse wearing a little apron and she makes all my emotions

[bishounen-curious-deactivated20]

she needs to read a fuckin recipe this bitch is just making a MESS

[chloroscythe]

shes doing her best… maybe shed do better if you were nicer to her

[bishounen-curious-deactivated20]

making serotonin is the cooking equivalent to scrambling an egg and she can’t even do that right smh

[catifex]

Hi I’m Catifex and I want you to make your mouse’s work easier!

- This is a step by step on getting a therapist

- Need to find a therapist by location? Psychologytoday lets you search by city or zip code in the USA, Canada, or UK. 

- Can’t afford therapy? No insurance? Need low cost options? Here is a great list of ways to get help when money or insurance is an issue..

[goodmorningvelma]

Reblogging this in the hopes that the image of a sweet little mouse doing her best to make my emotions will help me remember to be kinder to myself.